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oh fek...a week...OVER a week without posting T_____T

fml i'm sorry D;

ok will attempt recapping over the next few days...not that anybody rly cares ><;; but i promist to at least do today and yesterday 2night =)

eatibng peanut m&ms<3 lolz they're from last...LAST saturday [as in rice saturday] -shift-

haaaaaaah ok here goes~

*note: post no. 69 >] a sign? ;P jksjks xDD

today woke up on time to get to school early~ [drama hsc trials - watching from 8am onwards] ;O SHOCKUUUU~ toastwithjam<3 but then T_T spilled whole cup of milk on kitchen bench and floor so had to clean up. thankyou mum for driving me even after you came back<3

took the train. errr stoned? ><

got to school and was early~ yay feels good not to be late xDDD >< so 7:50-ish. then people started arriving =) lulz talking with elaine and sarah. showed them BeDtime stories<3 also read a lot of it for the first time (died last night after) worried that sarah and wheeza wouldn't be allowed in cos they weren't on the list D;

went in. tried to read BeDtime stories again but ms mattick told to put away T_T waaaaaw the performances were so pro!! omgz first one about [2 clowns + a proper girl] all figments of a girl's imagination. emma, katie and chaz =)

LULZ my 'chain of men' >] haha yesh i'm playing with them >] 4 AT A TIME~ xDD and then elaine "keep them away from your body!! >[" -stuffsdownshirt- ooooo wat now? ;P xDDD yay elaine = my mum, sarah = my...hermaphrodite [parent] wheeza = grandpapa and emily = little sister. twisted family xDDD and yeah my bad. the men aren't men. they're...mini-hermaphrodites xDDD nvm ><

ah...m&m's empty now =( nahhh i got raisu nao :3 >] hahahaha get it?!?! >< feeling lame...sorry. anywayz, raisu's keeping me warm :3

2nd group performance also rly good. georgie, tash, iszy and haley (yeah...i find it creepy that i know yr 12 names too ><) lol stole a kidney. organ-obsessed ppl are...creepy D; yes the ending creeped me out majorly.

haha me elaine and sarah = apple buddies >] altho me and elaine had hermaphrodite apples xDDD yeah i have a hermaphrodite fetish now >]

fml sarah you lost 1.something kgs in a...few days! (i forgot how long ><;;) shet lost rice, meat and sweets. rice = i'm too azn, can't live without it xDDD jksjks...but habit wont drop D; meat = no i refuse to go vegetarian T_T greens an ugly colour by itself =P and sweets = ...u cant be FKING srs T_T like HELLLLLL~

individual performances were rly good too =) my fav is probs still katie's 'flower arrangement' one =) bahahaha [talking about] sex in a church. gg. then iszy = party immature girl =\ kinda...sad...=( cos she seemed so deluded. then tash = vengeful mum electric shocks 14 yr old son (omg i just spelt that 'sun' b4 ><) in bathtub =( emma = death-obsessed actor and chaz = killed own son (yeah a lot of killed sons T_T) with car and wont own up. chaz is AWESOME singer =)

was tempted to dog rest of pd 3 (maths) but decided not to. was doing curve-plottig stuffs/grphic calculator stuffs. haha...asked for test at the end but got barred. well...rejected sorta. -sigh- fk that i'll get it...nxt time ==

social commitee fail meeting with the whole grade. low-key lol...sif we will T_T oh wellz. nobody wud shuttup =\ then scram meeting. THANKYOUU bex for buying me lunch =) (which i still owe you another 30c for xDDD) decided to dog sports. oh well...forgot racquet anywayz >< couldn't really help muc sorry guys =( weelay left early for city. worried abotu you man =\ had D&M with jassy and bella. -sigh- afters huh...

ahhh...these strawberries are sour ><

changed for dance. *note: black singlet is RLY low...don't even bother bringing it again == left 2:50-ish (normal sport-leaving time). haha was told to say hi to joey by...everyone. except bella ;] she generated a diff message xDDD

walked to ns. omgzz feels so light without folder ^^~. got to central round 3:20. lol played vortex and kept dying >[ freaking...

got surprised. was too absorbed in it to notice your humonjous shadow coming ;P hi jacky and ant =) they dogged you ;P haha. why sorry? D; ehhhh? i'm confused~

at park =) lol spastic ibises. you and throwing away all you stuff ;P haha wonder ifthat 'empty' nivea case still there? ;] waaaaah cold >< you're warm :3 no wait...you're hot ;3 haha >]

takoyaki~ :3 lol you and your tips =) charitable...and no sarcasm ;P they were soggy >< yes takeru's beta =) and yes i had to split that last one >] hehe got you to eat it >;] bummed up to food court. i'm paying you back >[ DEF! yayyy~ tempura ramennn<3 you fail ninja ;P glompfail ;P woops took the other end xDD hehe strong >]

bench on 2nd floor =) stop...talking about...THAT! >///< frekaing...waaah. and NO i didnt find out >[ i DIDNT! and i WONT! (haha you cant argue back on blog >]) lol 'undressed' and 'esprit'. SIF in there >[ find out for yourself you doosh :3

that sensation when you're so close...i can't get enough of it

chased around outside. longer legs >[ met up with weelay outside. BAHAHAHA jaye came up behind us HOLDING HANDS WITH PRO-GIRL'S TWIN!!! ;O omggg~ said bye to the doosh ;P walked up and weelay filled me in =\ -sigh-...sorry not much help/advice to you am i? ><

stoopid situps. haha stretched my crippled hip. pain is good >] yay relearnt the beginning part of crazy. waaaaaah freaking...jaye made me do it in front of the class T_T...why?!?!?! >[ and then...lol jaye's angels...sort of O_O there were 3 of us i think? xDDD but embarassing >[ damnit...

walking back up to th. rly thirsty and wanted free water from maccers...ended up buying a soft serve xDDD aznnn~ it dripped on my pants ><

parents being extra paranoid. fk i hate it. ARGH~!!! now I'M paranoid that THEY'LL be paranoid...and the world's screwed up xDDD nah...just...-sigh-.

just missed train cos of maccers >< 13 mins damnit. filling in weelay about fail ninja-ing. yeah...

we be fail ninja~

got home. lol found out ant left his shirt after yesterday. and there's a towel. and socks...any takers? xDDD

-sigh-...both on the bed (wait that sounds kinky...well it wasnt >[ ) drip...drip...can't breathe. why the FK wont the tears stop... why does everything lead back to...THAT?! omg fml. i hate being so emotional. i hate that they're right. why is everybody saying it? it's in my head. slow down. breathe. slow down...



...to a stop.





~<33 beedee

p.s. good luck for your maths test =) and NO! i didnt find out =P

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*note: i didn't actually type this on friday...i'm just editing the date so that it seems like it xDD

no sleep =) well...an hour at 6 xDD

freaking srp. so fking glad i dont hav to do it...ever...again >]

stop feeling bad. you fell asleep...and what? you were tired...of course you'd fall asleep >< you have to stop blaming yourself for things >[

experiment finally finished in the morning. was shetting myslf taking fotos and uploading onto the document. my hands smelt like vinegar afterwards. and i...smelled...weird O_O ><

no, i dont think so either =) definitely not enough<3

barely made it to school...well i didnt >< tagged along with other bus ppl to get a late bus thingo. -shush!- >< carumen-chan and tracey's late bus came as well lol. waited with carumen-chan to go to maths.

walked in maths with late busnote and hands to her, and miss v goes "so who thinks rebecca has done her hw?" -silence- -no movement- thinks "oh SHIT!" not looking anyone in the eye i edge towards my seat with all eyes on me. quite funny actually...but fking scary. "so who definitely thinks she hasn't done her hw?" -silence- -no movement- thinks..."oh fking PHEW!" haha nah thot the class wud sell me out. apparently she had been givingthe class a guilt trip cos more than half hadnt done hw. well sheeeet. oh wells. fk srp.

english in c block. oh god now i ws starting to feel the effects. fk...felt like a zombiiie! D; head ringing, tummy was killing, could barely focus on anything, Brain just too dead. me and weelay on the floor beind the desk all like UUUURRGGHHHH T_T and miss seeto from teh front of the class goes "WHY are you on the FLOOR?!?! O_o". my response: (V) -peace- xDDD thot food might help so ended up eating all of recess...don't think it did. lol had strawberries in a box and diana said i was SO korean! xDD tf. then linda started an argument about strawberry clouds. everyone was doing cutting and pasting stuffs, whether it be for log book or poetic techniqes xDD. me? i'm dead on the table (Y)

walking down stairs to recess almost felt like tripping over. argh...crap man. LOL i keep leaning in to 'hear' people who i can't lipread...like tf?! they cant TALK you idiot...that's why they're LIPSYNCHING! xDDD my bad >< freaking yr 8's in our atom!!! >[ LOL go steffu~!!! sat rigth up against one of their backs AHAHA xDD

drama 3rd period. found out (and thanku for telling me -hug-) that stuffs been passed around...and distorted. ok let me get one thing straight:
1) i wasnt fking procrastinating and you know that.
2) why do you have to go passing around stuff when its none of you business
i'm not gna make any assumptions to who it was, altho i have a pretty good idea. you know who you are. gg. fk this i'm just tired of little birdies. go birdie about stuff thats true, i wont argue. i dont CARE tbh. but dont distort stuff and go telling ppl like you know it's true. like it's fact.

and i am SICK of ppl blowing up things that i do that dont suit their liking. Blowing up the situation for the whole world to see. literally. like far out...i know i did wrong. you got a problem? deal with it your own way. but if i dont spread it around i think that just MIGHT mean i dont want anyone to know. if i'm sorry for something, please giv me that TINY bit of respect by not wasting all my efforts of repenting. i'm sorry i do...screwed up things. i'm sorry i screw up things. but i'm not perfect. far from it.

sorry. rage ><

anywayz. drama. haha. talked about technology stuffs. Private schools looking down on us and we look down us, and we're too smart for them or whatever, perception of social hierarchy influences behaviour and attitude....ARGHHHHH~ TOO DEEEEEEEEEPPPPP! damn Boal's theatre and freaking being empowered. why can't we just be buskers for street theatre?! D; we'll busk in teh school >]

woah shet...Miss Mac's fb was hacked by another student...to talk to another teacher! holy... and omg...renting internet cubicle to LIVE IN?!?! thats crazy! D;

lunch = more deadness. actually more might've happened. but my brain's been a bit dead since then so if something happened i dont remember ><

oh WAIT! OMG I REMEMBR! HOW COULD I NOT?!?! -hitshead- baka~

social comittee =) yay formal~ =) talked about awars =L omg so fun >] hahaha cant wait to see who ends up getting them. and lol entertainment for the night. -shhhhh- secret for now ;] i wanna see the room theming now. sounds awesome^^

history 4th period. more -headdesk- -diessssss-. i dont remember half the lesson (Y) or maybe...most of it >< wat did we do? xDDD my piece of paper from the lesson has..."changing rights and freedoms: women" that's it (Y) gg xDD

last period science. handed in SRP report -cuedramaticmusic- log book...hehe...well its only 3 marks >< 20% wont matter that much. was too dead to do it today anywayz. annoying video. VERY annoying video. the lady was epic fail xDDDD weelay: "i'm so glad she's not a singer" xDDDD and the push and pull and waaaveeee xDDD not tired? ;P lol then mr k sez "i can't take it anymore." -switchoff- xDDDD gg. frekaing Finnish accent xDDD STOP IT! =L its so piercing!

D2MG after school. was petty dead. did all the moves like a fail zombie as i was. felt like shet. rave was funny again xDD. thanku bex for lending me your scarf<3 and thanku bex's mum for driving me to the station =) lol u fell asleep on train ;P fail. walking home...barely knew what was going on. surprised i didnt get run over xDD.

Got home and took a shower. 38.[69] degrees shush =P

fell asleep. slept fr 15 hours. missed dinner xDD

wanna see you...i'll try my best...just for that chance<3

~<33 beedee

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guess what?! ;O its one week!

well not for just one thing...its a few things^^/>[

ok...

it's one week till geo is due~ crapcrapcrap...cath sez its easy? D; hope so...CRAM WKEND! T___T

it's one week till bday >< crapcrapcrap hav to send out email...fking srp...RAWR! sorry ppl...if the notice comes too late...hope you can still come D;

and...

it's been one week<3 kyaaaaaaa ^w^...enough said :3 (and technically + a day but...yeah sorry ><) iloveyousomuch<33 wfleo...i hope xDDD its still lik a dream for me. but its a dream come true =) -hug-

let's start from the confusing beginning yeah? =)

well...before the beginning O_O

last night. arranged with DC to meet at central for formal payment...will comment bout that later T_T

YOU! D; damnit why do you have to be so dedicated~ T___T yeah yeah i know its not jsut me...but still D= thanx for spamming me...i'm sorry it took me so long T_T lol half hour nap this morning >< couldn't have done it without you -hug-<3 tonight...you're SLEEEEEEPING! >[

so...2 and half hrs of un-consecutive sleeps last night/this morning. butbutbutbut~! i slept before 12~ =D rnt u proud of me?!?! -notreally- yeah i know shuddup T_T

i have so much crap in my room == some of that hadnt been shifted for a week!!! D;

kept nodding off...damnit...stoopid log book.

what a wake up call~ ;D literally :3 haha thnk u<3 sorry for always doing this to you D;

i admit...i fell back asleep for 10 mins after hanging up T_T sorrrryyy D;

got up...grabbed whatever was in the fridge and on the kitchen table for lunch and stuffs. crammed some milo cereal into my 'gluttony' mouth xDD but ended up missing the 7:05 D; sorry...i shud've tried harder...[altho i almost missed the 7:15 as well >///< i ran...normally 18 mins took me 10 mins]

on the train...was very puffed out...-fooooo- collapses lol. only got to chats at 7:30. T_______T you were already waiting on the platform...sorrysorrysorrysorrysorry my bad... again D; lol YES i forgot the money -shift- xDDD

ah! first time with jumper AND blazer! >] lol sorry i noticed random things? ><

DDDDDDDD= YUR- ...freaking hell of course borders wudnt have it! >< u craaazzzzyyy <3

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH you hadn't told him yet?!?! NUUUUUU~ -panicking-...sorry daniel!!! im so sorry TT_TT -frekaingout- hope you didn't wait too long...-checkstime = 7:30- sheeeeeeeet!!! T__________T

haha >< dodge...-slipsinpocket- :3 it was scrappy...admit it ><

i still made it on time with 5 mins to spare =P hah! >] now what? :3

snr vocal~ ppl from btown line came and told me dc had been waiting at central...went emooo~ T_T damndamndamn baka~ was singing ave maria~ nice song^^ ppl signed in today...lol i thinks less than half were there ><

lol mushhhhh~ :3 actually i thot it was very...bleurgh. like...ew >< but...all it said was from the heart<3 haha i dont believe u managed to fold itback up >] no waaaaaai~ [nottillyoushowme><]

i use so many emotes O_O i jsut noticed!

ingiriiishuuuu~ we talked more about porphyria lols...
ms seeto: "ooooh! check this out! -wholeclassfallssilent- Coconut and lemon cream BALLS~! =D"
-pause-...BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
lol epic xDDD love english. best fun. haha lenloe yes, my mum's gna go kill ppl with that fish. THWACK! >] -swingswingswing- in new poem...first thing i saw was "my fabour at her breast~" lol immature yes? sorry >< OMGOMG BAHAHAHA seal dancing smooth criminal!! >] awesomes! then poor cat and fax xDDDD ngawwww

geo~ yay started planning 30th!!! ;D hahas feels fun^^ result...haha i fully bludged. ehhh...so what were we talking about? ^^;; waaaah couldn't help it! was so fun planning^^ its actually starting to look like it could work! =)...only if ppl come of course >< lol hoping we have enough time for everything D; BHAHAHA we prioritized (Y) >] actually no it wa sjust time order xDD but close enough >] realiy check now? xDD

recess~ yay ppl should be able to come^^ omgomgomg cant wait^^ wish the next wek after friday would just...ZOOOOOM by~ :3

third pd english again~. haha my last duchess. miss seeto's the duke (Y). idont remember wat i was doing...lol i think i was bludging...but doing something o_O not making sense >< i mad a heart out of the party sheet xDDD yay i'm getting the hang of this :3

lunchtime~ haha...suss...VERYsuss... xDDDD -pointsup- -everyoneshufflesandsmiles- no waaaaaai not suss at all xDDD "let's go see mr k!" "come with meto canteen~" "toilet!" okok i wont be suss...how can i not be tho? xDD BAHAHAHAHAHA 'bec!' 'potato pie!' '-whisper-that's the signal!' '-grabs,handup-!' xDDDDD omg we should so do that...just to freak ppl out >] actually you guys should ;P xDDD in all lunchtime was very fun^^ yay legacy with steffu~ 7:30 yeah? hope we get it in the city >]

maths. acutally...sorta kept up for the first 40 mins. then died at the end. karma catching up with me from last night >< waaaaaaah... no sleep tonight either. i lost the back of my earring D; lol "basically it's a fraction with a BIG BUTT!"

commerce spent doing srp logbook. in CTL library. haha dodgy eating choco in library -shift- SHUSH~! >< FKFKFK! omg a new fruit for EVERY TEST?! okok...gna have to thnk of something els. sorry i replied only in last period. i'm worried i'll run out D; if i do...then yeah i'm SCREWED! they'll carry out the threat T_T wanna converttttt~ damnit...

walked to station. beat the school bus booyah! al and bex and claudz and lots of ppl were there. lol great...bex thinks of the txt everytime she hears "hey bby" or "yeah bby". waaaaah >///< phone is OFFLIMITS from now on~ :3

claudz stressing about being a loner at sb formal. -sigh- -facepalm-. throw away ur own mx u doosh! =P

freaked out about srp on the way home. raged at/got raged at by mum on phone. damnit damnit damnit...stressing about srp...FKFKFKFKFKFK FMLLLLLLLLLL~

stffed myself with food when i got home [tf orange peel flavour? O_O] need brainfood for tonight T___T

wish me luck ppl<3

~<33 beedee

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PLZ! wateva happens plz dont let my parents take away the internet tonight!

normally the turn it off... but they've threatened to take away the modem tonight...

if they do...i am SO FKED! like SRSLY! in EVERY WAY POSSIBLE~!! (ok not quite ;])

but srsly...praying that they wont. plz...just for once...PLZ~!!!!

SRP~~!!! FKFKFKFFKFKFK!!!!

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luke...you ARE hopeless

and FREKAING HELL! 1m fish! how the HELL are we gna eat that?!?! BAHAHAHA



yeah title sez it all.

so where should i start? "the beginning...duh! ==" oh my bad ><

wait...*afterthought from last night:
gl dc =) we're rooting for you >] well at least i am >< yeah its a chain of stolen dates~ xDDD lol you and your cookies then me and my...sex == fb is retarded...
dildos scare me =L

you didn't come back on =( see how tired you are? that's why tonight's not happening!! >[ plz dont =(

today:

woken up by a txt at 5:40-ish =) lol long nap ;P jksjks. dw bout it =)

fell back asleep of course T_T

was gna get up early to study maths and do srp. fail much?

so ended up waking up at 7:30. was quite shetted cos hadnt packed for school or anything. cos accidentally fell asleep last night (which in a way was good...cos it meant i actually slep b4 12...first in a LOOOOOOOONNNNGGG time ><) still not used to having to brush my retainers...like tf?! (forgot to brush them last night...that's why T_T)

just made the 8:15. looked through the past non-cal tests on the way and thought 'oh fek i am so shetted'. yeah that. i hate maths >[ just in case u hadnt realised.

made it to school and group was sitting in the eblock entrance. sorry celia, weelay, wheeza and lenloe. i'm sorry i wasnt there to help set up D;. really am T_T i'll make it up to you...somehow. probs can't though T_T i'm sorrryyyyyy~

1st period non-cal. hahaha....shet. T_T (yeah theres a lot of swearing in this post ><) my brain just dusnt function in maths mode. it doesnt. ever~ T_T anywayz i'm screwed for this term maths (Y) 30%...30%!!!!!! T_________________T we then talked about nono's in maths lol. -bigBABOOOOWWWsound-

ran to quad to set up for pe assessment. haha sheeeeeettt... didn't know what to do with leadup game. fekfekfek...wat gna do~?!?! so just decided to do either newcomb ball or dodgeball. got there and the NET WAS TOO SHORT! fk!! panicked. stoopid sub teacher was a b-...an ugly female dog =) class wasnt all that enthusiastic. waaaah. wat were we supposed to do? throw candy at you? or whip you into shape?! T____T like lenloe sed, we weren't gonna kill our peers. anywayz, kerrigan apparently stole the net so we had to wait half a lesson for it. in the meantime thanku lenloe and wheeza and weelay for taking class thru warmup, stretches and skills. leadup we ended up doing poison ball...lol kelly got owned xDDD fun stuff. then we did the game. lol we werent even sure of the rules ourself T_T "errr...what happens when the ball goes out?" "O_O -whisperwhisper- uhmmmm....there is...no...out -shift- deal with it~!" >< so dodgy...LOL like our game name!!! 'DODGY BALL!' xDDD >] i take credit for coming up with that >] class seemed to get into the game after a few minutes. which was good =) at least they were having fun...or seemed like it >< then frekaing time ran out. JUST WHEN THEY WERE GETTING INTO IT! D= waaaaah oh wells. we got 1 for something...prep maybe? dont like that sub. sorry celia =( we let u down...

recess me and lenloe btched about the pe sub xDDD weelay left for home. hope u get beta soon =( <3

lol thot we had science so went around science block...then realised we didnt T_T so had to walk all the way back to b-block. thot we had english...then relaised our timetable's switched back now. DAMN! we had history!!! no txtbook~ D; talking with lenloe about...stuff :3 xDDD yeah...ended up missing lots of notes =\ whitlam is ms melky's bf~ xDD why was he smiling wen he got sacked? O_O

lunchtime had yr 10 vocal~. it's too HOT...to sambaaaaaa~. its in my head ==;; lol "body starts to swaaaay~" go alto 2 and our dodge actions. =L we shud totally film ourselves one day...just singing it normally. you'll look at it and see just the end section being retards and moving around weirdly xDD YAYYYYY^^ DISNEY JAM SESSION!!! >] omgomgomg!!! "i just can't wait to be king~" lol i knew all the lyrics -shift- yeah YOU shush! T_T its all your fault!...well...not really ><

science. was super shift. was hungry. so i ate in the lab xDDDD. mr k sent me outside to eat (no ill-intent =] - just apparently last pd they used sum kinda sulfuric sumthing or other...and i might dieeee~ if i eat in there. xDD) after came back in started stressing about the letter. fkfkfkfkfk how was i gna do this T_T stoopid lyrics! RAWR! stoopid ipod for being out of bats!! T_T stoopid paper for being unfoldable T_T stoopid me for not realising earlier~! T_T waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah ended up spending the whole period stressing...about THAT...and only ended up with the DATE on the top! i FAAAAIILLLL~

jap. lenloe told me to ditch so we cud look up stuff with ipt ppl. lol nah...not THAT sad >< was...sorta dogging log and al...cos i was preoccupied the whole period. even pretended not to know answer...didnt do any of the comprehension >< rebelling JAP! me! yeah...shet...worlds turning upside down~ just finished letter before bell rang. but wasnt packed. ccrapcrap. then shosh and niki's french group were walking so slowly down the stairs D; FAR OUT! just wen i'm in a hurry. swear i was jogging on teh spot behind them.

ran out the eblock entrance and started walking. couldn't run cos was holding like...box-shaped bag and folder in either hand. nearing north sydney called lenloe and they were already there. shet. ran down escalator but train doors had just closed. SHET! my god i'm pathetic. went back up the escalator striaght away. baka bec. BAKA~ BAKAYAROU~~~

sorry luke, you''ll have to show me your [coughchatcough ;P] hair another day =\

walked back out. felt like...pathetic. stupid. wat was i thinking T_T
went to stanton library to return books. ahhhh~ relief ^^ one 'box' gone. then in my hand...THAT just stayed there. was VERY VERY VERY tempted to just...crush it. it's so fragile. waaah didn't wanna look at it. maybe i'll bury it at the very bottom of my dark drawer, where one day...i'll dig it up and -facepalm- wtf was i thinking? one word...'excessive'.

walked all the way from ns to st leos. quite tired. u get tired when you feel like shet =\

boarded train bout 4:25-ish. was wondering how things could've turned out diff today.

got back to pymble around 5:00. then spent a bit of time buying fruits for srp at local grocer. lol neva even been in there before. cute shepherd dog =) bird was annoying == got a grapefruit, 2 green kiwis and 2 limes. think we have pineapple, oranges and lemons at home. that enough? =S

walked home. dont like carrying stuff in both hands =\

pigged out on tiramisu and cheese+crackers at home.

wondering what you're doing atm.

my heart can't reach you...

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, fail, love, school, stress

to everyone out there~

hmm...how do i start? yeah well...i realise i havn't exactly been very faithful. to the blog i mean xDD. only found out today that people read this ><

it's been a really hectic week. for me at least. or maybe i'm just lazy...yeah that's it.

so to everyone who's actually bothered to read this...i'm sorry.

i'm really sorry that i havn't kept up. and to my blog...er...i'm sorry i havn't been posting? O_O i'm confused now...

well yeah i promise to catch back up. although personally i dont see why you'd bother reading about my boring life~ ><

~<33 beedee

Labels: fail

okokok...so i fail. a week...without a proper entry.

what's worse...is that this week has been AWESOME...and i haven't got anything to show for it~ D= promise to recap...one day...

i wont forget =) there's no way i could forget anyway^^

up till 5:30 studying maths. lol sbs up doing geo too. tried to pull an allnighter but fell asleep >< think it was cos you went =\ omgomgomg tonight we SLEEP alrite? D; 3rd night in a row~ T_T in the end only got 3 topics done D= HELPPPPP~

no morning rage!! =D mum was watching chinese cable. funniest stuff - game show and the guy was sad he didn't get kissed by the girls xDD (no that doesn't make sense does it? ><) Malay cake for brekkie~ almost died choking on it xDD

studied similarity on train. went @_@ trying to get similar solids D= BAHAHAHA barred tong on the bus >] (she txted me...even though she was sitting 5m away xDD)

got to school and everyone was sittng just inside e-block. talked bout...stuff? LOL steffu doing 40hourfamine. no talking. fail sign language xDDDD

drama 1st period~ D; wheeza wat a way to start it off >< "a little birdie told me you got a booooyf-..." yep that ><... dude how do even ppl WITHOUT fb know?! T_T miss mac...is...annoying >[ THANKYOUU~ elaine<3 lifesaver. sorry for being dodge. i hate cardboard citizens...ok i dont. studying them is annoing though ==;; miss mac is...ARGH! -kickswall- yeah. damnit. ont he ONE day i didn't bring my drama journal! did...random...'ripple' exercise. like...moving tablecloth? er...uhm...like tilting heads...ARGH lol i'm not making sense am i? >< no i never do...

2nd period jap. waaaaah acer comp reading test~! forgot about it...totally xDD meh. was pretty easy. so i rushed through it just to get some time for studying maths. finished with 15 mins to spare >] handed it in without even checking xDD spent rest of wud-be-bludge period studying. hope i didnt screw up the comp T_T

recess~ spent in jap room. thanku log rina and kathy for helping me...i'm sorry for being maths-incapable T_T reviewed trig in 20 mins T_T was writing NOTES 10 mins before test...BAKA~!!!! T_T

3rd period. maths. dies. waaaaaah, everyone sez the testwas easy. missed so many questions T_T. damn that similarity question...I DIDN'T GET IT TILL THE ENDDDD~ T_T overall i did...shet. yeah. haha never been maths-capable anywayz >< damn 30%...30%~!!! i fail. literally.

lunch was...i dont rememer O_O =\ 78 ppl in detention?!! D=

yay tennis~ was fun^^ lo me and survana pwn >] 72 volleys~ xDDD jksjks >< *note: DONT forget racquet nxt week ><. bahahaha elaine got owned xDDD hit her head~ xDD poor kid ;P lol bella and carumen-chan choosing teams >] yay we owned >] wait...did we? O_O and lol our eggand spoon...wait...racquet and ball race =L me and my...duckwalk? ><

went with other ppl to ns. then took train back up to chats. LOL walked past a couple talking about spit or swallow ;] funny...they were really loud xD then got retainers at ERNIE'S~ >< waaah they're pink (aka flesh coloured :S) and taste like plastic urgh. yes they make my mouth feel fat again T_T and they keep slipping off! and i have to put up with this for the nxt...20 or sumthing years?!?! T_____________T ok well at least not 24/7 =\ lol i love scabbing 85 degrees free foodbits from outside >]

you're hot >] admit it! burning phones lol xDDD

yeah what COULD we have been doing? >] ;]

took train back out to city. went to goulbourn(?) st morning glory to loo for elaine's pressie. waaaah was hard T_T damn you and not helpig me =P its HER bday not mine ;P AND NO! bunny onli >< KIRBY ARMY! xDD

spent a bit too much time in mg. but DID end up buying her pressie =) walked into dk and the glass door to the studio was black O_O wa very...confused. had jaye decided to turn the lights off? xDDDD lets dnce in the DAAARRRKKKKK~! >] kinky! xDDD jkjks. found otu it was just a curtain inside the door >< lol. walked in JUST in time for situps. oh joy T_T

weelay wasnt there D; got worried. then got her txt =L LOL nicenice...fell asleep ina netcafe. ian i blame you >[ dk just went over 'crazy' again =) altho...=( watned to do more of patron tequila~!!~!! T_T will keep bugging jaye to do it >] lol jaye showing us how to be sexy. "you gotta...-slams hand on chest- TOUCH URSELF!" BAHAHAHAHA omg cracked up so bad. i'm used to it. while the noobs were like "O_O w..t...f?!?!" xDDDD he's not gay. just so you know. WAAAAAAH jaye made me do a solo at the end of the lesson with him T_T just cos i was the onli one who knew the whole thing... was...embarassing. WHY DO PPL ALWAYS FILM THE END OF LESSON?!?! D= oh well...if you're dncing next to jaye it's the one time you're allowed to be sxc ;] xDDDD

btchy girl at register after lesson. "yes? no? dn't really give a shit..." ==;; chill jeez.

walked back to town hall. srsly...as soon as i read the words "in bed" i fell asleep...till gordon. you're magic! =O xDDD

waahhh i shud be more subtle >< "no msn? =(" then 10 seconds later "-signs in-" >< stop going out of your way to...argh! ><

freaking...too many little birdies~ D;

-sigh- i suck at excuses. of all people...

thnx for keeping me company =) but...ur gna die tomoz D; and sorry i cut out on you T_T probs an out of bats T_T

~<33 beedee

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Dirty Little Secret by All-American Rejects

Let me know that I've done wrong,
When I've known this all along,
I go around a time or two,
Just to waste my time with you.

Tell me all that you've thrown away,
Find out games you don't wanna play,
You are the only one that needs to know--

I'll keep you my dirty little secret,
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you`ll be just another regret,
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret,
Who has to know?

When we live such fragile lives,
It's the best way we survive,
I go around a time or two,
Just to waste my time with you,

Tell me all that you've thrown away,
find out games you don't wanna play,
you are the only one that needs to know---

I'll keep you my dirty little secret,
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret,
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret.

Who has to know?
The way she feels inside (inside!)
Those thoughts I can't deny (can't deny!)
These sleeping thoughts won't lie (won't lie!)
And all I've tried to hide
It's eating me apart
Trace this life back!

I'll keep you my dirty little secret,
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret.
(Just another regret)


I'll keep you my dirty little secret,
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret,
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret,
Dirty little secret,
Dirty little secret.


Who has to know?
Who has to know?

~<33

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today was...undescribably...awesome xDDD

from last night: WAAAAIII!! YAY^^ credit~ :3 hope i helped in getting you off your low =) i thank your mum for the phone >] hehe -shift- bunny buddies<3 sora and kairi<3 ^w^ 'sleepy as balls'?!?! xDDDD you should really reword that ;P

lol weelay...gonna get gangraped without you ;P

today: omg...no morning rag from mum!! =O shock! yay^^
on the train developed a 'SHET!' list: forgot subject selections sheet, racquet, and didn't get mum to sign late note T_T you noob!!! steph-en got on at gordon xDDD talked about random stuff: musical, subject selections, school awards xDD random. got to st leos and bought a flower for celia from the florist. scary florist lady...the flower was kinda wilted D; SORRY CELIA~ maybe a premonition for the raging central florist this arvo? xDDDD jks jks ;P

Had drama first period in B13 (computer room tf?!). was holding celia's flower and stella was being a doosh! xDDDD "AS A FRIEND DAMNIT!"
bahaha leave your hair alone damnit ;P i like it the way it is >].

then had geo. got in-class essay back~! ^_^ was SO FKING surprised at mark =O spesh wen...didnt' study...at all...not a single bit >]. lol sad people...as mr passlow said xDD
"you're annoyed that there's no space and you have to turn the page?!! GET A LIFE!" xDDDD lol nice.

recess~ "nice hair" from shirley apparently xDD. bahahahaha bella asked random hot guy for his number and he turned out to be gay xDDD gg. cath was taking out her stress on my bag T___T

3rd pd commerce =) BLUUDGGEE~ 'the castle'. finished =) the ending was...nice? but epic fail xDD

got gangraped at lunch T___T i hate you guys...[in that way that i dont really mean it T_T] DAMN u steffu. shud've found someone else to hug T_T (loveyoutoo<3)

teniiiisu~ funfun^^ were higher last time but meh =) wayne makes it fun^^ lol celia gets extra lives for being bday girl =) yeah 'missing balls' xDDD you took it the wrong way first =P

then took train to city =) got there heaps early so changed. LOL weelay have a breakdown if he doesnt come ;P

waaaah you really did ambush me! freaking giants!! D= 2 of you damnit! lol daniel's fail tie. weelay was asking for donations from ppl xDDD ian you doosh. HALF AN HOUR!?!?!

=\ awkwaaaaard...-glancesatweelay- xDDD nah

damn i'm so fail around tall ppl >[. BAHAHAHAHA hungry jacks fun >] still thinking about whther to put it on fb ;P pray i dont xDD. you guys FAAAAIIILLL!! esp you ;P -SLAP- xDD -breaaattthhhh- UP DOWN! xDD

weelay and ian dogged us. lol. yeah it seems reversed dusnt it ;P let the 2 have their alone time xDD.

RAWR! damn air hockey. THAT VID BETA NOT BE GOING UP ANYWHERE >[ damnit man. i still got 2 wins >] -evenifyouletme><- i DID get some good shots in >] admit it!

lol ant actually considered doing the class. joey actually considered shouting him. from me -nocomment- xDD. walked all the way up the stairs...then back down again ><. was trying very hard to find the right timing...but SOMEONE loved you too much >[. technically this was last chance.

weelay and ian came. panicked...dance was bout to start. and still hadnt done it. waaaaaaaah. weelay suggested skipping...me: >] haha ><

walked to harbourside. blaring tequila on speakers >] DAMN RIGHT! SO FKED UP~! xDDDD suck. then went to play pool on top of harbourside =) i fail at pool ><. so bad. tho i DID make some bs shots ;D.

DAMNIT! sits down...casual convo...then ant BANGS down between. RAWR! wanted SO BAD to rage at him >[ freaking...

*note: ian did it once too >[ xDDDDDD pushed between.

we finished. [had to go...soon...] so we started to leave. was gna ask to hang back...but AGAIN! damn ant >[ RAWR! WEEELAAAAAAYYY~ T_T help meeee~

free 2-scoop ice cream =) it melted...rly quickly T_T...

DH by night<3 was the BEST view ever. amazing^^ -note: did NOT plan this ><- lol stolen tie. ian you're a legend xDDDD

ant running...after the carriage thingo? xDDD fail~ can't believe u made it xDD

then...>////< waaaaaaaah. was shocked you didn't suss at all. freaking seagulls xDD. lol weelay and ian...take so long...pissing together xDDD but thanks =)

weelay and ian left first. stayed a bit longer^^ north line -hug- thanku. >< owed you =)

finally...you smiled at the camera =)

you noob! how the hell did you get lost xDDD FAIL! xD

omgomgomg mum believed it~! NINJAAAAA >]

damnit...the things you say are <3. stop being so...sweet! no!...dont stop D; RAWR! no it's not too late :3 ily

*note: $5 that i can own ant in bowling...hehe...><

haha...notice that this post has all tags except stress =L see how much that says about my life? ><

<3 10.08.2009

~<33 beedee

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<3

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i win >]

ok now i dont ==

=P you beta not give up either

~<33 beedee

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left ipod speaker on...again. hehe ^^;;

woke up to Miss Independent by neyo. well...TECHNICALLY woke up to Cartoon heroes and crazy frog (my alarm tones) but haha meh.

work with dad at market. put ipod on speaker to attract people/rock out. hey, better than eyes being glued to a movie on all the monitors (actually...i forgot the dvds today >< that's why there was no movie) anywayz.

hmm...when old men start bobbing their heads to taylor swift..you realise just how screwed up the world is (Y) xDDD

techie hatelist:
hp for their zig-zag monitor stands
philips for putting so much packaging in the boxes
middle-easters for being stingy customers (not racist...just facts ==)
customers who just won't listen ==

my very silent left earphone was starting to really piss me off. so went earphone hunting >] bought a $10 one. then HOLY SHET! 50c one! -buys too- xDDDD meh i break/lose/screw up a pair every 3 months or so, so beta be prepared >]

yay weelay thanks for helping/listening~ sorry for being...pessimistic. it's my job >< wish me luck<3

today is last day before [my] credit gets reset...have $24 left to blow...anyone? =)

shock! a short post! =O

i tell myself, today could be the day. But everytime...I lose my nerve...

~<33 beedee

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just to finish off for last night

i hate family dinners. happy bday dad<3 but srsly...i hate them == why? cos parents bag me out/whine to gparents about my crap and how i'm being a naughty child...crap like that. then next to me little kids aka bro and cousins play psp and ds. and i'm sitting there...like an idiot...in neither age group. stoning. lonerising. being bored.

bored shetless.

was at carlo 'excellent' restaurant btw. foods actually not half bad =) lol but mum sent back a dish cos the fish was half-cooked.

txted weelay and we talked about 16th. -sigh- will worry about that later.

saw sharon~^^ [yr 9 one] yay...even though for just a second...as she was leaving...as she was leaving after coming out of the toilet xDDD but yeah. screamed her name and she was like O_O WOAH! who?! -looksaround- then we waved^^ haha yeh sad much? but was BORED ass so...anything was interesting =)

YOU~! far out...i'm sorry for txting you. damnit...i should've known yu'd reply if i did. DAMNIT -facepalm- RAWR! you dead >[ wait till i...haha nvm >] you'll know when the time comes...

camming~ sorry fr being stoned. i never was good at multi-tasking... ><

hate lagging

~<33 beedee

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weelay brought it up, and it's been on my mind for a while.

have no idea wat to do for 16th. as of today there's only 19 days. shet.

ideas? outing's a possibility but...god i dno. HELP?!? D;

RAWR~ hate being old.

NO! screw being legal ==;;

~<33 beedee

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something on my mind...will talk bout in another post.

mum&dad going to city so they drove me to netball. didnt have coaching or umpiring (day off wooh~) so only had to get there at 12. wandered around like a loner for half an hour. then finally saw vicky and sat down. hadnt trained in ages ><. so screwed.

played northbridge. took GA for first quarter...almost fainted halfway through. dehydrated maybe? >< dno...

blinkblink. argh maybe something in the eye. wait...no. it wasn't going away. blinkblinkblink. this definitely was't normal. could no longer see the outlines of things. the girl's back was going fuzzy. where was the ball? damnit, couldn't beathe either. heard myself wheezing. couldn't breathe in enough. Not good. at this rate, i'd collapse. the whistle blew. ah, the other team just scored. the world was spinning. eveything was going white. no...couldn't take it anymore. turned to the umpire.
timeout.

haha random much? yeah...can't really describe it any other way. was quite...surreal. anywayz, trace said i needed water, that was why. sat out of rest of first half. damnit i was so useless...

GD had elephant feet. landed -BANG-. kept shoving me. lol shoved back. *note: she was about 180cm tall (Y) obviously not asian ;P. she got pissed when i intercepted a ball to her >] damn right betch xDD height doesn't rule all >]

we lost in the end. meh, wasn't expecting much anywayz. walking out. talking about formals with trace and alice. lol alice complaining about being conned into paying for sb (Y)
tracey: ngaaawww bec you have feelings! :3
course i have feelings you doosh! =P

caught bus to chats. tried something on in calla. dodgiest changeroom ever. half my head was visible over the top of door. some woman's head was completely visible on top of the door. fking...beta not have looked in. >[

at shop register about to pay. asian woman was buying in front of me. looked away for a sec and asian woman was finished. white (no racism ><) woman jumps in front of me in the queue. while paying, looks back and is like "oh SORRY! i thought you were with that woman." PSH thanks a lot. just cos i'm asian ==;;

at station. train didn't come for 10 mins. the wind was being a betch -WOOOSH- and was freezing my ass off. whoever freaking invented the rule that netballers have to wear a skirt is a DOOSH! why the hell would you wear skirts for sport?! D=

damnit didn't forget dad's bday was today [08.08 <3] but forgot to buy pressie. but what to buy? CRAP! SUGGESTIONS?!?! WHAT DO YOU BUY FOR DAD'S BDAY~?!?! D; SOMEONE!!! ANYONE!!!

lol weelay passed on the message. vid on outing for dancestuffs? sure =D...people can do gee >] yeah i'm looking at you 2! >]

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aferthought for last night

-sigh- im so conceited.

i'm not stiff~ D; xDD and nutino<3 cam was fun =) such a poser =P -squat- hoebo formals~xDDDD dodge lag but was fun^_^ sorry i died like that ><

fell asleep with ipod speaker playing on loop ><

today~

haha great...7:22 train? woke up at 7:20 == baka bec. gotta stop doing that...not fair to ppl >< dad is awesome~ drove me to carlo. fell asleep in the car then woke up and we were there. WAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH reminds me o the old days =) even though...i lived in carlo for 8 yrs and never went to the station -shift-. but srsly =) was nice remembering the place. walked down to station (wat a hole xDD) and went lonerised xDDD everyone was late...even later than me~! =O waited at station for bout half an hour b4 i saw lenloe~<3 she'd already been to rusey.

sat down against fence with lenloe and talked. i'm happy we did =) we havn't...in a while. but hopefully wateva it was is ova -hug- sorry igore me ><. anywayz, bahahaha love 'virgin' jokes ;D caumen-chan and weelay got there bout...10-ish? then we walked to ruse. lol weelay's left sock is disoedient. or maybe your left leg is a lot skinnier than your right? ;P

ruse...is big. SO freaking huge. EVEN WITHOUT THE CROPS! >< if other ppl come visit our school they'll feel like...can't breathe D; ok i'm exaggerating ==;; but still! even just the office alone is a house! just the office~! (called barrengary house according to vt (Y)) anywayz. nicely asked for permission to say hi to friends. were rejected. downright barred. "sorry. hope you girls didn't come too far to get here." yeh...dw...we'r eonly from the other side of town. [weelay's train ticket $5 man!] fek that...dont like u office ladies either ==

so...wat did we do then? we weren't allowed to enter the skool grounds...so we circled the school. BAHAHAHAA thats right. we were all wearing black too...bex's worry that we might be considered terrorists became very likely after all xDDDDDD. well...we TRIED to circle the skool O_o halfway a nothrough road blocked our path...so we circled back! xDDDDD

school bus stop became our little spot. cos the pathway was wide there. just outside the oval. watched people doing pe and...drama? AHAHAHAHAHA love that ninja guy being filmed:
"AWAY FROM HER, YOU FIEND~!"
kept repeating it that doosh. stuck in my mind for ages. then CPR! =L should find out what they were really doing.

anywayz. entertained ourselves with cards. at first plyed big 2...which sorta failed. then we started truth or dare >] (everyone pick out a card and lowest has to do it >]) wont say anything...but was SO fun xDDDD funny reactions...sorry for being dodge? >< but lol "would you rather date...henry or..." -everyone pulls back with 'ew' face- xDDDDDD niceice. and lol "somewhere tie-uppable" <=)

"when the time is right" =) -blinkblink- no. xDDDDDD

btw...how did it end up with losing -coughvirginitycough- on a boat? O_O

yeh i'm gullible. damn you weelay sif you'd score home run...shuddup i know i believed it but ><
but yeah. bases...dodge xDDD

haha hobos reading this...wish u were there too? ;P ok >< shuddup bec.

recess. WTF is rong with their bell! like a freaking fire alarm!! thought they really were having a lockdown cos of us shifty ppl ><. half went by. met lenloe's cbbox friends =) then...YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY~^^ MAZILYN AND ANNA~~~<33 waaah was so happy to see them again ^w^ bahahha us dodge...flailing arms over the fence as we reach inside. yes a zoo >] xDDDDD "i wanna go feed mazilyn now~ no i wanna see anna!" xDDDD ngawww so happy to see them =) their uniforms are very colourful xDDD but wow...everyone wear s blazers. srsly. everyone =O. and then...(thanks to anna) GOT TO SEE FISH! [not a real fish == michelle =]) FISH<3 yay^^ been ages =( but was happy to see you^^...and that you'd grown taller...again xDDDD bet ur like 175 or sumthing D= also saw susanna. she didn't recognise me...even tho i rcognised her stright away...-sigh- oh well...7 years is a long time (Y) she was very...'meh'. oh well. i got to see her...gg. like mum said tonight..."tai gow daow". then ppl had to go for subject selection after recess.

played more truth [or truth by then xDD] funfun^^ >]. no mroe pe kiddies on oval...no we are not stalkers xDD.

lunchtime~ anna and other guy (i think blair?) had to go iscf. psh mazilyn doesn't go iscf even tho christian ;P compared ppl's blazers. bahahaha smooth vs. O_O carpet xDDD mazilyn ur blazer too big for youuuu~ D; makes ur shoulders look...manly! D; tell ur mum ur not growing anymore! xDDDD the guys started...getting closer outside (since we were trapped outside and waving against the fence like losers =P) some came outside the fence with us xDDD very dodge. sorry don't remember all your names but. homosexual and homophobic xDDD sorry but its funny. >< mazilyn poked herself on the plants...like 10 times ;P never learn xDD

left at end of lunch. hugged mazilyn lots of times xDDD. was nice meeting you guys [res, deagle, joshua and co.] ^^. nice ppl.

then walked back to carlo station. lol wth still cant get over those fenced/caged plants. 7 eleven me and carumen-chan got gaytime<3 got to station and train wasn't coming for another 40 mins. yeh was gonna be late for d2mg >< stoned for a few minutes then lenloe and caurmen-chan and me went to buy dominoes >] $5.95 lunch spesh!! >] meatosaurus and double bacon cheeseburger. meat<3 xDDD

got on train. was very full after the pizza ><. stop feeling up my legs guys T_T spasmss...

found a gaytime crum in my pocket O_O was tmpted to eat it >] xDDD no...just no bec ><

central at 3:30. people got off. hugged everyone bibi^^

blue blazered guys got on at milsons pt. very loud, tall, bogan, and stinky x(

got back to school bout 3:50 for D2MG. celia was wearing makeup =) very pretti~ the routine's getting cooler. oh btw its "closer" by neyo. =) very catchy >] YAY! learnt a mjackson-ish step >] and haha "show your face =D" trina gna be away for nxt 3 weeks. ah wells. hugged steffu lots after lesson :3

got outside and started walking with fi, maddy and ariel to st leos. SO windy~!!! like a tornado!!! srsly! swear i was being swept along xDD bahaha ariel putting on her jacket backwards to protect her face form cold ;P left them at rooftop to watch kev's game.

no silverseats left on court 3. had to sit on the 10cm window sill. dodge much? got pissed at fone cos kept failing to txt. had choco milkshake :3 nsbs won 46-8. kev acually got 6 pts ;P

YES! we should!! ball in irl =D i dno...i rly like that idea >] and lol stop hitting on ur mum ;P

fell asleep in car. got home. still sleeping. xDDD

lamb pot for dinner~ again =) as well as salmon! 8)

post later~

~<33 beedee

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ah...i forgot to mention...YES~! 3 days of holiday~ =O



looking for a new look for this place...its depressingly boring ==

*edit: what's sad is that i actually went through all 107 pages of templates...shuddup D;



-stretches- -crackcrackcrack- >< long day...

mmmmmm smell of mums cooking is drifting into the room...now i'm hungry >] lamb pot~<3 meh...will have to wait till dinner T_T

was gonna study last night in bed, but decided to wake up early today to study, so i slept as soon as i got off. yeah...pile of books next to my bed untouched >< but yeh...who would've guessed. i slept through my alarm ==

1st snr vocal for the term in the morning. i hate it that my mum rushes when kevin has something on...but never when i have something on in the morning. damn being first-born. >[

tried to study on train for geo...ended up listening to ipod instead ==

very few ppl at first. then the snrs left. then people started coming in~ xDD ave ave...vera vera...very nice song =) when it's harmonised right =S

first period was watching ppl's mice and men plays in drama room. wasn't ready yet =S thank god didnt get up to us...bahahaha celia, sally, tracey, sonya and yafei's play was so epic, even if it wasn't meant to be xDDD sally is such a cute lennie =) and yafei was awesome >] bahahaha height should've been switched around though ;P poor tracey xDD somehow...it ended up very romantic...true true xDDDD then steph doing an 'audrey' in the middle of the room xDD sarah, laura, kelly, audrey and carrie's scene was SO funny xDD damn those hilarious accents...were really good ;D esp laura =) legend^^

2nd pd geo. fk. inclass essay. fk. yeh shuddup i know i stress too much...and i'm a hypocrite cos i procrastinate ridiculously then get all stressed and bother people with it. i'm sorry. but i'm not about to change my habits. it's who i am...can't help it. at the very least i didn't lose any sleep over it. well...not really >< so basically...bsed the whole thing =S at least...long enough... yeah quality over quantity wateva == dont wanna think about it anymore...

waaaah cant take it anymore. too hungry. mum's cooking smells too awesome. -nomnomnom Club chocolate blocks- -sigh- you're right...the bunnies are still the best =D nothing measures up =(

recess...lotte waffles obsession<3 talking about plans for tomoz. bahahaha bex is so cute :3
bex: what if they think we're terrorists?! D=
shirley: do i LOOK like a TERRORIST?!? >[
weelay: bahahaha fk yeah >]
epic =)

english. westpac. another line of swearing~^^ yeah. that. dont really wanna talk about it. only thing i'm happy about is that i actually worked out some of the 3 digit numbers. yeah i know...not very impressive == go away neerrrdddsss

lunchtime had acapella auditions =) haha...yesh was even more nervous after westpac than before it == or hopefully it was nervous for acapella? >< meh.
-everyone starting to come in to music room-
Ms Cleggie: it's one on one~
"oh."
-everyone runs back out except bella-
-bella looking very lost-
ngawww xDDD bella brave =) ahahaha damn right suvarna >] evrybody loves celia<3 -glomp- :3
sang disney song >] "won't say i'm in love" awesome song^^ cleggie said i've been singing too low for too long and that i'm losing my head voice. haha in other words...i've become too manly >] hehe WOOH ALTO 2 PRIDE~(Y) harmony part was...alright? >< the tune wasnt hard but...i swear i went off tune D= oh wells. can't wait till results^^ gl to everyone else as well<3 we have 'priority' this year so i'm sure we'll all be fine (Y)

after finishing (waited for carumen-cha who was last ;P) went back out. signing bella's diary<3 and lol me and steffu's dodge handshadows xDDDDD sad much? nah was fun >] go my dog! i eat u steffu :3 -nomnomnomnom-

4th pd maths. hehe...volume...mixed up half the SA formulas with it xDDDD phail...shuddup D= -sigh- fk i can't believe coord geo's in stimulataneous equations as well. hate coord geo. starting to regret doing 2u next year ==

5th pd was commerce...'the castle' movie. joy == such a random movie. randomest i've seen in a while == the main guy's so annoying xDDD

walking to st leo's. love it when i'm walking there alone. it's like...thinking time =)just...me-time xDDD well...good time to reflect i guess =) its nice^^ of course...not to say i mind walking with other ppl D= thats nice too >] xDD <33 u cath, lauren and al

ultra stoned after getting back to pymble. walking with bro home. lol he's embarassed for me to be clinging onto his bag? O_O it was a hill and i was tired!!! D= since when was it humiliating to walk with ur sister?! D; waaaaaaaah i'm an embarassment T_T

got home and stuffed myself. lol dodge nutella. except not. xDDD 'nutino' (Y)

wow that post ended up a lot longer than i expected...felt a lot less...eventful ==

will post later =)

p.s. yay~^^ but... 2 phones...think you can manage? =\ ><

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, life, school

FKING~! parents are taking evrything at 10. fking hell...just cos i was caught on webcam last night. they're so paranoid!

planning out evil scenario:
"are you dating?!"
"yes -dead srious expression-"
"REAL..."
"yes." -deathglare-

rawr i'm pmsing i think. then again...meopausing i think >[

dont wanna think about this shet...lets think of sumthing more...=)

:3 sumone comes to mind<3 immediately ^_^

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waaaah someone hold my hand~ it's cold =(
~~
sitting on floor with heater blaring. and rocking out to patron tequila >] woooooh~ 'SO FKED UP!' xDDDDD damn creepy but awesome song^^

fell asleep awkwardly last night (sorta...just on the bed O_O) so couldn't wake up for ages this morning. got up heaps late. mum fully raged, and i raged back. think i've doomed myself. raging not good for mornings. left house very pissed.

walked to station and took 38. trying to think about how i'd forge the late note. got on 143 nsb bus cos nsg one didnt come for ages. freakinglady aggro bus driver...i ended up bashing into the bin thingo. got to school 9:12.

brb dinner. gna show parents the sci comp result nao >] they beta not be anticlimatic dooshes like they were with jap interview >[ itadakimasu~

freaking...they WERE anticlimatic dooshes >[ all it did was prompt them to ask my brother how he'd gone == wtf idc anymore...

continuing...

maths - sorry steffu =( maybe i should've just not come in? xD and hair was getting in my eyes so tried to tie it up. is that...wrong?! == and D= i look older in yr 7 than now (ref ID card) T_T.

pd - o sullivan trying to be kool == wtf are happy shoes? O_O and yesh thanks celia<3 admire you for being responsible D; teach me how~

recess - I'M NOT PREGNANT! D= cant help it if...my lunchbox makes me make those noises xDDDD

not meant it? i'm starting to doubt it...

Status: recovered...hanging by a thread

bottle was leaking the whole way up B block. could feel it dripping on my legs =S urgh! ><

freaking lunchbox/mini keep-warm box D; the lids so fking screwed up and thanks bec for screwing it up even more xDDD >[ steph is tank >]. srsly! xDDD me and weelay are like "WOOOOOAAAHHH~!". thought we had english until ms melky walked in. me and weelay fail xDD. halfway through history very...holy sounds came from outside xDDDD the yr 11 divas i'm guessing? xDD watermelon stairs = our echo chamber >] (wizcrew inside joke >]) Ms Melky's bf = Gough Whitlam xDDDDD they broke up after he got kicked off (Y) ;P

lunchtime went to yr 10 accapella. sang seasons of love to start with^^ that song makes me smile...for some reason =) too hot to samba is funky >]. go me and carumen and our swaaaying =L after ms cleghorn left had our usual JAM SESSION!! >] jassy has such <3 songs. its awesome how u and lauren sing all these god songs^^. and then WAAAAAAHHH you belong with me<3 and by your side<3 =) snr accapella audiions tomoz =\ trying to think what to sing...

science was epic ;D SRP EXTENDED A WEEK!!!! WOOOOH~ -cheeringveryloud- Sarah: [to mr k] did i ever tell you i love the science faculty? xDDDD G-FORCE~!!!! >] yer man! camwhoring majorly =) then lol 1 year extension? xDDDDDD fail charades and pictionary xD SQUISHFACE~! >] yay got sci comp bak^^ bahahaha carrie and audrey changing their names on certificates xDDD hilarious. happy with result >] first hd...in a while D; if only my fluke-ness could last for everything ><

yay jap was fun >] in E2. al = robodog = dumb an won't fight back >] = will die if you take fotos of it xDDD "won't figth back desu~" fail =) spent a lot of the time trying to take fotos of al shylvi and majo-chan xDD meigurumi ;P

walked to st leos with al. told her bout my teenage melodrama xDD was fun =)

lauren caught train with us =)

O_O started...singing while walking along pacific hwy >< shush!

fked for geo. don't get any of this at all~! D; damn fta's >[ and got friggin westpac too. wish i had dropped maths. *note: entered subjects into spreadsheet. have sealed my fate -DOOOOOOM!!- -sigh- just wen i though life had gotten better...

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~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, love

ok if yesterday was a bomb...today was a meteor D=

after allnighter forgot to print out commerce as i left D; damnit...was too busy putting patron tequila on ipod >]

also...put draw with me on as well<3 we never did exchange them...=( one day?

while was walking to nsb for combined choir, hugh was right behind me. yes as in "its HUGE!" hugh xDDD he walks so fast O_O!!! like...faster than neel! xDDDD cos he overtook me and looked really fun walking fast while wearing a sportsbag. was rying very hard not to crack up behind him as i tried to keep up...for no reason xDD stalker (Y)

combined choir was fun. BAHAHAHA Wimowee~ like my ringtone >] i should so get my phone to start ringing while we're singing that...just to be a doosh >]

scripture...didn't do much...that i can remember. >< assembly bahahhaa maddy's epi "did you know"'s that weren't true. xDDD Queen <3 AC/DC (Y) great xDDD yay scram got acknowledged~ ^^

jap. went up to ctl and cbfed to come bac down. but then steffu called to say we got scram results~! so rushed back down to ct1...we didn't get in =( but it was fun^^ awesome while it lasted...so we did our best^^ for rest of jap was pretty uneventful >< fell asleep...just a bit. thnx miss wei for being understanding D;

ah yeah...crap...recess...shirley, cath, jassy, bella then weelay (later).
KABOOOOOM~ HOW DUS EVERYONE KNOW?! D; srsly...got owned...rawr i blame myself. i've lost count of whoknows so i'm not counting anymore ==
yesh jassy the story was very sweet ^w^ but doesn't remind me of myself in the least == waaaaah...everyone's egging on. THAT's why i wanted to keep it a secret D;

english comp in commerce. waaaaah...you were fully in my mind after recess == damnit i blame ALL OF YOU~ >] xDDDD ok its nice thinking about you :3 but NOT when i'm trying to do an engish comp xDDDD like freaking hell go away~ D; -shooshoo- in all guessed heaps of answers O_O so much for making up for my maths with english...

this is the SECOND time you've txted me during a comp xDDDD do you plan it? ;P

lunchtime organised scram stuff for presentations&future mediation (irl). will be interesting ^w^ glad i get a rest tho. have been in every single round since round 2. gl and have fun to all yo guys<3 bahahha lol jassy get over my water swishing. its a habit...esp wen ur eating riceballs ;P xDDD

Drama 4th period. found txt. bummed in gym till we realised we were outside in the quad. played singing game where we have to improvise a song to a given topic in groups of 4-5. freaking embarassing O_O but would prefer to be doing this to forum theatre. our song was "my big hair" (xDD courtesy to clare) and "cheeeese". argh randomest stuff ever. but was fun...somewhat == endowments. too hard to explain but basically you take one person out and the rest of ppl decide on 1)a physical characteristic 2)a job 3)a state of mind. was funny but random =D

geo, sorta fell asleep near end. need to study for in-class essay shet. thursday. but yay at least it open-book >]

walked to st leonards and caught train. carl was there lol? he's so short now...O_O i swear he's the same height as me. aka...short. =L

another post? fine :P just cos u asked. =)

~<33 beedee

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~FINISHED!!

haha...i really did pull an all-nighter. sorry if i kinda...die at school people >< apparently we have an english comp as well so hopefully i dont fll asleep in that either...xDDD yea...that could be bad =S

it's cold

~<33 beedee

Labels: school

-sigh- i need a hug. it's cold pulling an all-nighter.

thanks tracey<33 sorry to bother you like that. really appreciated the help :3 -huggggu-

still havn't done part B D; hoping it will just come to me in the hour an half i've got left

(did i mention i have combine choir this morning at 8? ==;; waaaah why'd i do this!)

~<33 beedee

Labels: fail, friends, stress

hanging in there...barely...somehow...

what's keeping me alive? coffee and knowledge i'll be shetted if i fall asleep now.

this is karma, KARMA I TELL YOUUUUU ><

~<33 beedee

Labels: fail, stress

i hate this feeling.
i hate the fact that disappointment comes so easily...whether you want it to or not.
i hate that the smallest things...make the biggest difference.
i hate that i'm so paranoid.
i hate that i'm a teenager...and a freaking cliche one at that.
i hate that i have no bravery at all.
i hate that i sound emo right now but i'm not but i don't know how else to say all this.

i hate myself. (Y)

<3 Patron Tequila ♫ "By the end of the night I'm a have you so fked up!"

Labels: emotions, fail

sound of my stress meter blowing up as well as the bomb that dropped on me today...

day was screwed up from the beginning ><

realised as i was packing bag that i left my puffer at netball courts on saturday...well just great D; forgot my entire folder (thnk god only had sports for last 2 periods.) then missed the 8.15 train...by [.....] this much! D; damnit...

al got on at roseville. lolz showed her gee vid and she was like "O_O wtf" xDDD. got to school and had drama so went straight through side entrance to hall. FUCK! COMPLETELY BLANKED OUT ABOUT TRIAL HSC! ran in and opened the door and ran back out. almost swore at the top of my lungs...well was doing that where they couldn't hear me as i went back around D;

drama pd1: had Miss McAlpine sub (aka... "Xuaxua" teacher xDDDDD). Played "what are you doing? I'm blaaaa..." game. freaking caitlin. why'd you set me up with an elephant in bed?! O_O dmanit...was gonna make you be watchng porn on tv but my turn only came once == i'll get you for that...somehow D=. then played 'zombie tag' bahaha most hilarious stuff. everyone stands in a space (no running) and the zombie goes and tries to touch someone. has to go for the same person once started. person being targetted has to call out another name, and said named person becomes the new zombie >] if you're tagged you're out! xDDD got to top 5 >] (altho got elimintaed after that ==) aka me, elaine, tong, egg, and wendy. ahahaha tong is hilarious.(-can'tthinkofname- -POINTPOINT!-) then worked on forum(?) theatre exercise. our group doing feminism-perving/teen apathy.

Jap was in library - CTL. random research exercises on ads. damnit...stop...DARING so much D; but thanks for listening the 2nd time =)

recess jassy telling us about friend who was on fb while his pregnant wife was having contractions. BAHAHAHA "ARGH ARGH!" and elswhere "~baby~~^^". cute kid ;D bahaha its funny watching shirley try to swear xDDD "OMG Moorcroft that UHUHUHUHUHU! he's such a BEEEEEP~!" -literally said beep- ;P

during math was very much bludging. me and tong = no work<3 hate us for it or wateva, we have fun >] rawr TONG! stop singing that damn song!

"little circle little circle, biiiiig circle,
small circle, small circle, biiiiiiig circle,
half circle, half circle, biiiiiiig circle,
W, W, E E E~"

that pig has haunted my maths book pages. then you made it look like a chicken O_O! D; -scarred- speaking of scarred...i'm such an idiot ==;; wat kind of stupidass scratches their camera screen...un-accidentally? with a freaking necklace pendant! >[ yeah answer. obvious == now suffering from OCD xDDD (Y) miss v died near the end D;.

lunch. "hi bella~ hi bella~ hi bella~ hi b-" xDDD and then shirley you fail xDDD "PR = personal relations" ;P and more shirley quotes (xDDDD shirley being epic today yeah?)
"i'm not homophobic!"
-bellainchescloser-
bella:"heeeeey~" <=)
shirley:-spasmflinchesaway-

xDDDDDDD ;P and then comes bex with her brother xDDD
"mum asked me what i wanted...and i said a brother. OMG why did i say i wanted a brother?! D;...then it came out T_T" ;P

so yeah. wasn't txting (Y) being sad and taking down quotes on phone >]

carumen-chan dropped a bomb on me today D; frekaing...was i the only one who didn't know that you knew?! wait...not jsut that...AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO DOESN'T KNOW THAT EVERYBODY KNOWS?!?! D= man what a shock...havefixed that on fb already...although the damage is obviously done >< T_T why am i such an idiot...i wonder who else hasn't told me...

Tennis was so fun today ^^ cos we had an instructor this time ;D WAYNE~. bahaha he's so hilarious. just his imitations are so damn funny. he started calling jessica 'rebecca' and i was like "=L -nocomment- >]" GO US AND OUR EPIC -poses pointing up- >] and bella's team chant "WHOOH WHOOH WHOOH -cue carumen-chan: "it's TWO!-" ^w^ funtimes~ and yay, got to last 3 in 'community' (a KO game) >]. WAAAAAAH I'm SO SORRRY LISA~! D; D; D; call me if you have an head injuries T_T i blame my shet aim...

after tennis walked with carumen-chan, bella and weelay to north sydney. T_T i'm so unco...damnit man...almost walked through a red pedestrian light and also almost walked into the 'slippery wen wet' cone thingo. lolz bands. >]

funny thing was that we got there at bout 3:05. ended up catching richmond anyway ==;; oh wells =\. won't hold it against anyone. but yesh bella, let's ditch next time >] gl luke in nsb entrance (Y) BAHAHAHA hairy back syndrome~ -hi5jassy- yes carumen-chan O_O i'm going to eat my little sister...D: WAAAAAH noway~ -hug- love you jassy ;D

haha the weekly monday-arvo deep talk (Y) >] idno? i find it easiest to express myself then. >< thnx for listening...as usual<3

TAKERUUUUUU~ yumyum jap restaurant<3 SO awesomely yummy! me and weelay went fully ^w^ takoyaki, jap style pizza, and black-sesame icecream&cheesecake<3 (lol we actually ordered greentea icecream but meh xDD). we are azn >] ate all th crumbs and crap...even the leftover sauce and melted icecream ;D talked lots. sat there for ages~

bahahaha when i went to pay counter we had JUST enough! down the very last CENT! xDDDD so i just poured all my coins out with weelay's note. the reception lady was like "O_O uhmmm -shows bill- it's -points to the price-." i'm like O_O uhmm yeah? >< didn't i give you that much...? then SHET! i realised i hadn't taken out my $5 note xDDDD. gomenasai~. the toilet is so pretti =) yeh weird right? jap hygiene freaks xDD

WAAAAAAAH~ SHET JUST FOUND MYSELF UNCAPPED! =O!!! OMFG! YES! YOSH~! >] good timing! well as good as it could be at this rate...

anywayz xDDD continuing...

walked to dk. skipped out on situps today >] (well thats a good...AND a bad thing D;) the routine today was FREAKING AWESOME! "patron tequila" have forgotten some of the moves now and how to do it already...but -psychepsyche- OMG i love this routine. SO HARDCORE!!! >] cant wait till next week! BAHAHAHAHAHA i swear jaye and gina were advertising drinking in front of us. "jaye! we're of age now! come drink with us >]" xDD

trying to fill the void. please don't misunderstand =( i do wanna make amends...whatever i did D;

commerce. stressing out but obviously not enough ><

freaking court cases...i'd rather blog xDDDD yeh you can see i have prioritising issue (Y) at least will be easier now i'm uncapped.

*note: limit = 1 a day.

~<33 beedee

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oh it's ON! >]



since everyone seems to be on that topic =L might as well join in the fun >]

"im stay a virgin for a while then. -few sentences later- FUCK ME!"

bahahahahaha epic >]

ok i dont have enough to talk the whole post about it == mind dusnt really swing that way ;P

woke up bout 11:30-ish. stoned...realised i had an interview today haha. went on msn instead of practicing inteview potential questions. screw it, wouldn't have helped if i crammed anywayz =L was just gonna do it like how i do in speaking tests (which i dont write the answers for either xDD) = answer truthfully. that way the answers come easily^^

mass blog recaps.

thanks to weelay, ken, shirley joey and tracey for gl-ing (as well as steffu and jassy on fb)^^ (and to 2 of you for helping me with questions =D) haha ken bet you onli asked for help cos i had jap interview in my dp ;P oh wells =) havnt talked in a whilte so yay? waaaa...why was i pushed to last...oh yeah. i couldn't go saturday == (found out there that it was in alphabetical order...) waaaah weelay...maybe week 4? >< dno...WANNA GO WK 3!!! rawr teenager indeed...AND NOT SCRIPTING xDDDDD

"what do you hope to gain from this exchange?" COS IT'S FREEEEEEE~ >] xDDDDD haha no, you. not an answer ;P

turnd off the comp then reaked out about not having a copy of the application.

left house at about 2. yay wore my white cardigan~ :3 FLUFFY!!! ^w^ bella wear yours next time >] got to central...THEN WALKED DOWN THE WRONG STREET! D= damnit...i should've read googlemaps clearer ><;; haha I'M NOT UNCO! NO WAAAAY! ;D

got to the place and sat down with eva and lisa<3 yay for nsg'ers banding toggether bahahaha. group of white girls (no racism intended ><) sitting opposite us LOL eva: "they're so...blonde!" xDDDD nah they're cool. came all the way from wellington =O yes dedicated (Y) love lisa's hardcore boots >] LACE UP!!!! get me a pair~! BAHAHAHAHAHA a cameraman (like the ones that they use to paparazzi people with like pro cameras and recording tapes in hand) came out and started interviewing all the white chicks in the waiting area. we got barrrrreeed~ xDDD oh wells, like lisa said, we don't wanna be interviewed xDD log also there =)

afs person (natasha<3) came out and escorted us in. lulz... so high tech building. keycards and evrything. cameraman still filming this whole time...including in lift xDDDDD poor andrew (zhang xDDD)...face was stuck in the camera in the lift and couldn't do anything about it. went in and murray (i think) was guy explaining stuffs to us. wooooow 2000 ppl applied...500 got interviews...then 240 get in. T_T no pressure at all... totals about 700 people from all over world~!! =O like 60 from nz, thailand, filo, malaysia, indo and india each or something. =) awesomes~

host family's and schools~ sounds so awesome^^ WAAAAAH i hope i get in! but good luck for everyone too^^

got interviewed by natasha^^ she was really nice. haha jassy and gilbert had common ground of mediation~ well me and natasha's was hiphop >] DAMN RIGHT GSTAAAA! xDDD haha. but was alright. no jap speaking thank god =S

mum called me halfway through when back with the big group =S damn my stoopid ringtone. had like a spasm wen i realised it was my phone "EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAWHUMAWAAAAAAAAY~" damnit... hannah was nice^^ (one of the wellington girls) fail untangling human knot xDDD

ran over time majorly. ended at 5-ish? then stood in middle of surry hills for ages cos mum said they was in 'neighburing st' psh...neighbouring st took 15 mins xDDD

went to friend's dad's restaurant for dinner on dixon st. abalone hot pot bahahahaha was yummy^^ DAMNIT! this s all my fault! D; i'm sorry! i really am! T_T don't talk to me anymore...SRSLY!
fixing up contacts on phone to pass time while the adults chatted away. damn i need ppl's fotos xD

got home = STRAWBERRY CHEESECAKE~ and also warm milktea :3 no wonder mum was like "dont eat dessert at the restaurant >]" yay :3

lols everyone's procrastinating~ we're all fked~ ><

yes weelay, so used to him there xDDDDD and yay for slezy outfits <=) bahahaha vt, i like my photographic and music taste thank u very much ;P go luvo you term-old person xDD

yay northies~<3 starship looks awesomes inside AND outside :3 -psychepsyche-

*note to self: remember tennis racquets tomoz

AHAHAHAHA
dad:"COME OUT! theres something good on tv!"
-comes out- -sees miss (chinese) melbourne on TV-
"look look! she's a hiphop dancer~! she even teaches!"
-the chick's just touching herself-
"dad O_O are you serious?"
mum:"yeah i told him even you could dance btter than that >]" ahahahahaha

so many ppl have blogs now D= can't keep up

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, friends, life

it's 12:23...interview is at 3:30...still in pjs...should really write my intro speech.
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Labels: fail

pissed. you're a hypocrite. thats frankly the truth. stop accusing people when you should really be looking in the mirror. i admit it, i have a real problem with people judging over small things. Hey, i'm allowed to have btch moments too. i'm the one being barred.

*note to self: he's the hobo xDD

have decided will do PD~ (sorry jassy =( please dont be triste now -hug-)

was late-ish to netball. but then again alice was even later ;P wang was sick again. umpiring, i think i pissed the sg's off. xDDD well sorry for my shetty calls. yay my yr 9 team thrashed loreto >] damn right! we're going for the TOP! xDD and yr 10 team -sigh- well we play for the sake of playing. good exercise? and i still love them as much~ thanks tracey for being so supportive during the game<3

after ntball went to chatty cityhunter to do research. YES my net is THAT bad. and YES i am sad...first time to a netcafe and i'm there to do work. NOOOOOB~ and was major pissed that you can't use usb's...YES i know! probably everyone knew that and knows why but i'm NOOOOOOOB~ ><

had sdden urge to go formal shopping (obviously not buying ==) so went hiking around chatty for a while. the styles now are so boring =( DID find a white dress from cooper st that was realy nice though =) (none of my size) hey...its never too late right? >] if i'm lucky and find <$50 i might actually get another one. shuddup...i'm not richbtch. i just want BOTH to be spesh :3

got home and asked dad to pick me up (pitch dark already). and was standing in the cold for over 15 mins T_T he was supposed to pick me up on the way home from killara but FORGOT and went home first!!! D; waaaaaah -barred-. sed hello to Florist man while waiting =) (O_O i hope he's figured out i'm a local)

yay jap interviews tomoz...havnt prepared...at all. ohwell ^^;; EVERYONE DOING IT - GOOD LUCK~! GANBARIMASHOU~! ^^

everyone's asking for my bday O_O err why? stop rubbing in i'm old damnit...i KNOW i am D; but then haha

lol yes..."ohayougozaimasu...-silence-...hajimemashite!" xDDDDD

woah...shet 7pm to 12am...O_O KONO BAKAYAROU bec! stop it~!!! -headdesk-

there's a good reason i can't show this you yet. cos i'm the least subtle person in the world so...>< if you've found this already through links...my plan has failed and i'm screwed (Y) hopefully you havent D; one day when you're reading this...you're gonna realise how ______(replaced with blank)_______. creepy yeah?

really? nobody? AT ALL?! O_O i still don't believe that. either you're lying or you...ok i'll stop. emote wars xDDDD sad much? OLDIES~ -hi5- ^^

dude i'm not gsar...i'm BSTAA~!! >] xDD sorry...excuse the lameness D;

YAY for mass dp changes >] camwhoring so fun =L all the epic poses >] yay one day...do it together irl :3 YOOOOUUUU~! haha cam console so epic. please dont bring back your clone D; one's enough trouble ;P baby photos<3 gee obsessors >] waaah sorry i was so slow~ you shouldn't have waited D; i'm not letting you do it next time >< and yeah, i meant that last part of the last message. really=)

night sleepy poser ;P

eotteoge hajyo (eotteokhajyo) ddeuleeneun maeum (ddeuleeneun maeum)
(dugeun dugeun dugeun dugeun) dugeundugeun georyeo bamen jamdo mot eerujyo

naneun naneun babongabwayo
geudae geudae bakke moleuneun babo
geulaeyo geudael boneun nan

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, friends, life

recap Friday 31 August, 2009

crazy day...hectic.

coaching yr 9 netball at 7:30. only cici, esther, neon, susan and rachael came. must go smack the others =L jksjks. love my team<3

maths. didn't do westpac'06 for hw >< rawr subject selection. i blame you. and i'm sorry i'm tall O_o haha maths with tong is funny. jeez get over the pig xDDD

status: online
communication: static

english. stoned. majorly. thank you, steffu and bella. and thanks bec.

recess was interesting. did you know a circle can be cut into a smaller circle with just an addition to the middle? i'm sorry. ignore me. i'm thinking too much again.

*later note: sorry you. i misjudged...based on something else. i already said sorry before but, i hope you forgive me for being so immature and self-centred. my judgement's never been good.

end of recess...it was a small gesture, but it meant the world. thank you<3

science bludgey. mythbusters was interesting/funny =) the guys are so fail...but pro xDD penny drop and eevator of death (Y) temptation got the better of me and i feel asleep near the end.

went to meet up with scram ppl at ft1 when bell rang. lol mash and miss senthi came too. damn opening statement...damn ct1 jammed printer.

bus to martin place. uwaa~ addie's chocolate crepe SO NICE :3 and lol fbing on mobile. -sigh- had to write up opening statement. didn't realise how long it was till i wrote it up by hand.

then walked to law society. yay omg -psychepsyche- the place was so pro...=O! finished writing up opening statement. hate ct1 printer. could only think of one person to cram txt. thanks for the good luck =) was funny cos i accidentally left my phone inside as we were starting and we went outside. so scared it would vibrate and be sus if replied.

in all, went ok. was surprised how smoothly it went despite us only rehearsing the opening 20 minutes. think cos it was so deep...i kept making random irrelevant comment. >< well...haha loosen up the tense atmosphere? =S i dno...but it was kool. BAHAHAHAHAHA bella says "congratulations on solving your problem today etc." stop. we all BREATHE~ SIGH~ 5 seconds later. -BEEPBEEPBEEPBEEPBEEP- TIME! OMG! xDDDDDD we couldn't see the timer and we ended up finishing with like 5 seconds left. ahahaha we fail. but it was good^^ -sigh- finally semis over. NOW FINALS~ >] i reallyhope we get in >]

wlaking back, me and steffu were screwed cos it was past 3:30 when we left law society. so late for d2mg. the whole way to wynyard we were like FREAKING HELL! run! most people left for martin place and etc. -sigh- caught 273 back to school. scarfed down lunch after north sydney. got back to school at 4. half an hour left =S

d2mg was interesting. a lot different to what i expected...like...was expecting jaye stuff, but the again you can't really do that with so many kids. trina looks like mish mok O_O at least i tihnk so. lol the heel toe thing is annoying. but fun. but annoying xDD overall was alright...but...tbh i might like jaye's better -hi5 weelay- think its cos i prefer it when people take it more seriously. meh, its only the frst lesson. who knows where it might go =)

walked with fi and ariel. thought kevin had bball then got to rooftop and was like O_O wtf none of the team are here. then foned my mum, who had forgotten to tell me ==;; -sigh- so walked to st leonards and caught train. yay for walking in the dark. was fun >] rachael forgot the team kit...-sigh- have to borrow again.

apologized on msn. sorry again for being such a...doosh. and lol live gee vid. scary guys who know the whole song and dance xDDD bahahaha convo with jimmy. was nice =) sorry for the randomness =S talking to the perfect kid xDDD i'm honoured ;P lol jassy and her dodge 'virus' xDDD i voted btw :3 fb stalkers page -shift- was number one on like 5 of them when i checked others -shift-

jassy! you're so bat gwa ;P and least you could do is say the name xDDDD instead of giving random nicknames xDDD wooh voda ftw! refuse to be converted to the virgin dark side >] ahahaha. baha omg lol i'm an influence^^ that's...kyaaa~ ant, my comebacks are awesome >] leave them alone! just cos you cant do it ;P

gee obsession~ xDD bahahaha swearing mum ftw^^ LOL! half-hand size moths. -BANGBANGBANG- then step...-STACK- ;P sorry for randomness ><
*note: dl November Rain and let it rock
*note: 16th - don't kill his phone

thanks for confiding. meant a lot to me. and then thanks for listening =) and we really did 'click' tonight xDD waaaah thankyouuuu<3 -hug- thanks for offering next time~

we're in this together yeah? =)

~<3 beedee

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oh fek...a week...OVER a week without posting T_____T

fml i'm sorry D;

ok will attempt recapping over the next few days...not that anybody rly cares ><;; but i promist to at least do today and yesterday 2night =)

eatibng peanut m&ms<3 lolz they're from last...LAST saturday [as in rice saturday] -shift-

haaaaaaah ok here goes~

*note: post no. 69 >] a sign? ;P jksjks xDD

today woke up on time to get to school early~ [drama hsc trials - watching from 8am onwards] ;O SHOCKUUUU~ toastwithjam<3 but then T_T spilled whole cup of milk on kitchen bench and floor so had to clean up. thankyou mum for driving me even after you came back<3

took the train. errr stoned? ><

got to school and was early~ yay feels good not to be late xDDD >< so 7:50-ish. then people started arriving =) lulz talking with elaine and sarah. showed them BeDtime stories<3 also read a lot of it for the first time (died last night after) worried that sarah and wheeza wouldn't be allowed in cos they weren't on the list D;

went in. tried to read BeDtime stories again but ms mattick told to put away T_T waaaaaw the performances were so pro!! omgz first one about [2 clowns + a proper girl] all figments of a girl's imagination. emma, katie and chaz =)

LULZ my 'chain of men' >] haha yesh i'm playing with them >] 4 AT A TIME~ xDD and then elaine "keep them away from your body!! >[" -stuffsdownshirt- ooooo wat now? ;P xDDD yay elaine = my mum, sarah = my...hermaphrodite [parent] wheeza = grandpapa and emily = little sister. twisted family xDDD and yeah my bad. the men aren't men. they're...mini-hermaphrodites xDDD nvm ><

ah...m&m's empty now =( nahhh i got raisu nao :3 >] hahahaha get it?!?! >< feeling lame...sorry. anywayz, raisu's keeping me warm :3

2nd group performance also rly good. georgie, tash, iszy and haley (yeah...i find it creepy that i know yr 12 names too ><) lol stole a kidney. organ-obsessed ppl are...creepy D; yes the ending creeped me out majorly.

haha me elaine and sarah = apple buddies >] altho me and elaine had hermaphrodite apples xDDD yeah i have a hermaphrodite fetish now >]

fml sarah you lost 1.something kgs in a...few days! (i forgot how long ><;;) shet lost rice, meat and sweets. rice = i'm too azn, can't live without it xDDD jksjks...but habit wont drop D; meat = no i refuse to go vegetarian T_T greens an ugly colour by itself =P and sweets = ...u cant be FKING srs T_T like HELLLLLL~

individual performances were rly good too =) my fav is probs still katie's 'flower arrangement' one =) bahahaha [talking about] sex in a church. gg. then iszy = party immature girl =\ kinda...sad...=( cos she seemed so deluded. then tash = vengeful mum electric shocks 14 yr old son (omg i just spelt that 'sun' b4 ><) in bathtub =( emma = death-obsessed actor and chaz = killed own son (yeah a lot of killed sons T_T) with car and wont own up. chaz is AWESOME singer =)

was tempted to dog rest of pd 3 (maths) but decided not to. was doing curve-plottig stuffs/grphic calculator stuffs. haha...asked for test at the end but got barred. well...rejected sorta. -sigh- fk that i'll get it...nxt time ==

social commitee fail meeting with the whole grade. low-key lol...sif we will T_T oh wellz. nobody wud shuttup =\ then scram meeting. THANKYOUU bex for buying me lunch =) (which i still owe you another 30c for xDDD) decided to dog sports. oh well...forgot racquet anywayz >< couldn't really help muc sorry guys =( weelay left early for city. worried abotu you man =\ had D&M with jassy and bella. -sigh- afters huh...

ahhh...these strawberries are sour ><

changed for dance. *note: black singlet is RLY low...don't even bother bringing it again == left 2:50-ish (normal sport-leaving time). haha was told to say hi to joey by...everyone. except bella ;] she generated a diff message xDDD

walked to ns. omgzz feels so light without folder ^^~. got to central round 3:20. lol played vortex and kept dying >[ freaking...

got surprised. was too absorbed in it to notice your humonjous shadow coming ;P hi jacky and ant =) they dogged you ;P haha. why sorry? D; ehhhh? i'm confused~

at park =) lol spastic ibises. you and throwing away all you stuff ;P haha wonder ifthat 'empty' nivea case still there? ;] waaaaah cold >< you're warm :3 no wait...you're hot ;3 haha >]

takoyaki~ :3 lol you and your tips =) charitable...and no sarcasm ;P they were soggy >< yes takeru's beta =) and yes i had to split that last one >] hehe got you to eat it >;] bummed up to food court. i'm paying you back >[ DEF! yayyy~ tempura ramennn<3 you fail ninja ;P glompfail ;P woops took the other end xDD hehe strong >]

bench on 2nd floor =) stop...talking about...THAT! >///< frekaing...waaah. and NO i didnt find out >[ i DIDNT! and i WONT! (haha you cant argue back on blog >]) lol 'undressed' and 'esprit'. SIF in there >[ find out for yourself you doosh :3

that sensation when you're so close...i can't get enough of it

chased around outside. longer legs >[ met up with weelay outside. BAHAHAHA jaye came up behind us HOLDING HANDS WITH PRO-GIRL'S TWIN!!! ;O omggg~ said bye to the doosh ;P walked up and weelay filled me in =\ -sigh-...sorry not much help/advice to you am i? ><

stoopid situps. haha stretched my crippled hip. pain is good >] yay relearnt the beginning part of crazy. waaaaaah freaking...jaye made me do it in front of the class T_T...why?!?!?! >[ and then...lol jaye's angels...sort of O_O there were 3 of us i think? xDDD but embarassing >[ damnit...

walking back up to th. rly thirsty and wanted free water from maccers...ended up buying a soft serve xDDD aznnn~ it dripped on my pants ><

parents being extra paranoid. fk i hate it. ARGH~!!! now I'M paranoid that THEY'LL be paranoid...and the world's screwed up xDDD nah...just...-sigh-.

just missed train cos of maccers >< 13 mins damnit. filling in weelay about fail ninja-ing. yeah...

we be fail ninja~

got home. lol found out ant left his shirt after yesterday. and there's a towel. and socks...any takers? xDDD

-sigh-...both on the bed (wait that sounds kinky...well it wasnt >[ ) drip...drip...can't breathe. why the FK wont the tears stop... why does everything lead back to...THAT?! omg fml. i hate being so emotional. i hate that they're right. why is everybody saying it? it's in my head. slow down. breathe. slow down...



...to a stop.





~<33 beedee

p.s. good luck for your maths test =) and NO! i didnt find out =P

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Labels: love

*note: i didn't actually type this on friday...i'm just editing the date so that it seems like it xDD

no sleep =) well...an hour at 6 xDD

freaking srp. so fking glad i dont hav to do it...ever...again >]

stop feeling bad. you fell asleep...and what? you were tired...of course you'd fall asleep >< you have to stop blaming yourself for things >[

experiment finally finished in the morning. was shetting myslf taking fotos and uploading onto the document. my hands smelt like vinegar afterwards. and i...smelled...weird O_O ><

no, i dont think so either =) definitely not enough<3

barely made it to school...well i didnt >< tagged along with other bus ppl to get a late bus thingo. -shush!- >< carumen-chan and tracey's late bus came as well lol. waited with carumen-chan to go to maths.

walked in maths with late busnote and hands to her, and miss v goes "so who thinks rebecca has done her hw?" -silence- -no movement- thinks "oh SHIT!" not looking anyone in the eye i edge towards my seat with all eyes on me. quite funny actually...but fking scary. "so who definitely thinks she hasn't done her hw?" -silence- -no movement- thinks..."oh fking PHEW!" haha nah thot the class wud sell me out. apparently she had been givingthe class a guilt trip cos more than half hadnt done hw. well sheeeet. oh wells. fk srp.

english in c block. oh god now i ws starting to feel the effects. fk...felt like a zombiiie! D; head ringing, tummy was killing, could barely focus on anything, Brain just too dead. me and weelay on the floor beind the desk all like UUUURRGGHHHH T_T and miss seeto from teh front of the class goes "WHY are you on the FLOOR?!?! O_o". my response: (V) -peace- xDDD thot food might help so ended up eating all of recess...don't think it did. lol had strawberries in a box and diana said i was SO korean! xDD tf. then linda started an argument about strawberry clouds. everyone was doing cutting and pasting stuffs, whether it be for log book or poetic techniqes xDD. me? i'm dead on the table (Y)

walking down stairs to recess almost felt like tripping over. argh...crap man. LOL i keep leaning in to 'hear' people who i can't lipread...like tf?! they cant TALK you idiot...that's why they're LIPSYNCHING! xDDD my bad >< freaking yr 8's in our atom!!! >[ LOL go steffu~!!! sat rigth up against one of their backs AHAHA xDD

drama 3rd period. found out (and thanku for telling me -hug-) that stuffs been passed around...and distorted. ok let me get one thing straight:
1) i wasnt fking procrastinating and you know that.
2) why do you have to go passing around stuff when its none of you business
i'm not gna make any assumptions to who it was, altho i have a pretty good idea. you know who you are. gg. fk this i'm just tired of little birdies. go birdie about stuff thats true, i wont argue. i dont CARE tbh. but dont distort stuff and go telling ppl like you know it's true. like it's fact.

and i am SICK of ppl blowing up things that i do that dont suit their liking. Blowing up the situation for the whole world to see. literally. like far out...i know i did wrong. you got a problem? deal with it your own way. but if i dont spread it around i think that just MIGHT mean i dont want anyone to know. if i'm sorry for something, please giv me that TINY bit of respect by not wasting all my efforts of repenting. i'm sorry i do...screwed up things. i'm sorry i screw up things. but i'm not perfect. far from it.

sorry. rage ><

anywayz. drama. haha. talked about technology stuffs. Private schools looking down on us and we look down us, and we're too smart for them or whatever, perception of social hierarchy influences behaviour and attitude....ARGHHHHH~ TOO DEEEEEEEEEPPPPP! damn Boal's theatre and freaking being empowered. why can't we just be buskers for street theatre?! D; we'll busk in teh school >]

woah shet...Miss Mac's fb was hacked by another student...to talk to another teacher! holy... and omg...renting internet cubicle to LIVE IN?!?! thats crazy! D;

lunch = more deadness. actually more might've happened. but my brain's been a bit dead since then so if something happened i dont remember ><

oh WAIT! OMG I REMEMBR! HOW COULD I NOT?!?! -hitshead- baka~

social comittee =) yay formal~ =) talked about awars =L omg so fun >] hahaha cant wait to see who ends up getting them. and lol entertainment for the night. -shhhhh- secret for now ;] i wanna see the room theming now. sounds awesome^^

history 4th period. more -headdesk- -diessssss-. i dont remember half the lesson (Y) or maybe...most of it >< wat did we do? xDDD my piece of paper from the lesson has..."changing rights and freedoms: women" that's it (Y) gg xDD

last period science. handed in SRP report -cuedramaticmusic- log book...hehe...well its only 3 marks >< 20% wont matter that much. was too dead to do it today anywayz. annoying video. VERY annoying video. the lady was epic fail xDDDD weelay: "i'm so glad she's not a singer" xDDDD and the push and pull and waaaveeee xDDD not tired? ;P lol then mr k sez "i can't take it anymore." -switchoff- xDDDD gg. frekaing Finnish accent xDDD STOP IT! =L its so piercing!

D2MG after school. was petty dead. did all the moves like a fail zombie as i was. felt like shet. rave was funny again xDD. thanku bex for lending me your scarf<3 and thanku bex's mum for driving me to the station =) lol u fell asleep on train ;P fail. walking home...barely knew what was going on. surprised i didnt get run over xDD.

Got home and took a shower. 38.[69] degrees shush =P

fell asleep. slept fr 15 hours. missed dinner xDD

wanna see you...i'll try my best...just for that chance<3

~<33 beedee

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guess what?! ;O its one week!

well not for just one thing...its a few things^^/>[

ok...

it's one week till geo is due~ crapcrapcrap...cath sez its easy? D; hope so...CRAM WKEND! T___T

it's one week till bday >< crapcrapcrap hav to send out email...fking srp...RAWR! sorry ppl...if the notice comes too late...hope you can still come D;

and...

it's been one week<3 kyaaaaaaa ^w^...enough said :3 (and technically + a day but...yeah sorry ><) iloveyousomuch<33 wfleo...i hope xDDD its still lik a dream for me. but its a dream come true =) -hug-

let's start from the confusing beginning yeah? =)

well...before the beginning O_O

last night. arranged with DC to meet at central for formal payment...will comment bout that later T_T

YOU! D; damnit why do you have to be so dedicated~ T___T yeah yeah i know its not jsut me...but still D= thanx for spamming me...i'm sorry it took me so long T_T lol half hour nap this morning >< couldn't have done it without you -hug-<3 tonight...you're SLEEEEEEPING! >[

so...2 and half hrs of un-consecutive sleeps last night/this morning. butbutbutbut~! i slept before 12~ =D rnt u proud of me?!?! -notreally- yeah i know shuddup T_T

i have so much crap in my room == some of that hadnt been shifted for a week!!! D;

kept nodding off...damnit...stoopid log book.

what a wake up call~ ;D literally :3 haha thnk u<3 sorry for always doing this to you D;

i admit...i fell back asleep for 10 mins after hanging up T_T sorrrryyy D;

got up...grabbed whatever was in the fridge and on the kitchen table for lunch and stuffs. crammed some milo cereal into my 'gluttony' mouth xDD but ended up missing the 7:05 D; sorry...i shud've tried harder...[altho i almost missed the 7:15 as well >///< i ran...normally 18 mins took me 10 mins]

on the train...was very puffed out...-fooooo- collapses lol. only got to chats at 7:30. T_______T you were already waiting on the platform...sorrysorrysorrysorrysorry my bad... again D; lol YES i forgot the money -shift- xDDD

ah! first time with jumper AND blazer! >] lol sorry i noticed random things? ><

DDDDDDDD= YUR- ...freaking hell of course borders wudnt have it! >< u craaazzzzyyy <3

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH you hadn't told him yet?!?! NUUUUUU~ -panicking-...sorry daniel!!! im so sorry TT_TT -frekaingout- hope you didn't wait too long...-checkstime = 7:30- sheeeeeeeet!!! T__________T

haha >< dodge...-slipsinpocket- :3 it was scrappy...admit it ><

i still made it on time with 5 mins to spare =P hah! >] now what? :3

snr vocal~ ppl from btown line came and told me dc had been waiting at central...went emooo~ T_T damndamndamn baka~ was singing ave maria~ nice song^^ ppl signed in today...lol i thinks less than half were there ><

lol mushhhhh~ :3 actually i thot it was very...bleurgh. like...ew >< but...all it said was from the heart<3 haha i dont believe u managed to fold itback up >] no waaaaaai~ [nottillyoushowme><]

i use so many emotes O_O i jsut noticed!

ingiriiishuuuu~ we talked more about porphyria lols...
ms seeto: "ooooh! check this out! -wholeclassfallssilent- Coconut and lemon cream BALLS~! =D"
-pause-...BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
lol epic xDDD love english. best fun. haha lenloe yes, my mum's gna go kill ppl with that fish. THWACK! >] -swingswingswing- in new poem...first thing i saw was "my fabour at her breast~" lol immature yes? sorry >< OMGOMG BAHAHAHA seal dancing smooth criminal!! >] awesomes! then poor cat and fax xDDDD ngawwww

geo~ yay started planning 30th!!! ;D hahas feels fun^^ result...haha i fully bludged. ehhh...so what were we talking about? ^^;; waaaah couldn't help it! was so fun planning^^ its actually starting to look like it could work! =)...only if ppl come of course >< lol hoping we have enough time for everything D; BHAHAHA we prioritized (Y) >] actually no it wa sjust time order xDD but close enough >] realiy check now? xDD

recess~ yay ppl should be able to come^^ omgomgomg cant wait^^ wish the next wek after friday would just...ZOOOOOM by~ :3

third pd english again~. haha my last duchess. miss seeto's the duke (Y). idont remember wat i was doing...lol i think i was bludging...but doing something o_O not making sense >< i mad a heart out of the party sheet xDDD yay i'm getting the hang of this :3

lunchtime~ haha...suss...VERYsuss... xDDDD -pointsup- -everyoneshufflesandsmiles- no waaaaaai not suss at all xDDD "let's go see mr k!" "come with meto canteen~" "toilet!" okok i wont be suss...how can i not be tho? xDD BAHAHAHAHAHA 'bec!' 'potato pie!' '-whisper-that's the signal!' '-grabs,handup-!' xDDDDD omg we should so do that...just to freak ppl out >] actually you guys should ;P xDDD in all lunchtime was very fun^^ yay legacy with steffu~ 7:30 yeah? hope we get it in the city >]

maths. acutally...sorta kept up for the first 40 mins. then died at the end. karma catching up with me from last night >< waaaaaaah... no sleep tonight either. i lost the back of my earring D; lol "basically it's a fraction with a BIG BUTT!"

commerce spent doing srp logbook. in CTL library. haha dodgy eating choco in library -shift- SHUSH~! >< FKFKFK! omg a new fruit for EVERY TEST?! okok...gna have to thnk of something els. sorry i replied only in last period. i'm worried i'll run out D; if i do...then yeah i'm SCREWED! they'll carry out the threat T_T wanna converttttt~ damnit...

walked to station. beat the school bus booyah! al and bex and claudz and lots of ppl were there. lol great...bex thinks of the txt everytime she hears "hey bby" or "yeah bby". waaaaah >///< phone is OFFLIMITS from now on~ :3

claudz stressing about being a loner at sb formal. -sigh- -facepalm-. throw away ur own mx u doosh! =P

freaked out about srp on the way home. raged at/got raged at by mum on phone. damnit damnit damnit...stressing about srp...FKFKFKFKFKFK FMLLLLLLLLLL~

stffed myself with food when i got home [tf orange peel flavour? O_O] need brainfood for tonight T___T

wish me luck ppl<3

~<33 beedee

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PLZ! wateva happens plz dont let my parents take away the internet tonight!

normally the turn it off... but they've threatened to take away the modem tonight...

if they do...i am SO FKED! like SRSLY! in EVERY WAY POSSIBLE~!! (ok not quite ;])

but srsly...praying that they wont. plz...just for once...PLZ~!!!!

SRP~~!!! FKFKFKFFKFKFK!!!!

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luke...you ARE hopeless

and FREKAING HELL! 1m fish! how the HELL are we gna eat that?!?! BAHAHAHA



yeah title sez it all.

so where should i start? "the beginning...duh! ==" oh my bad ><

wait...*afterthought from last night:
gl dc =) we're rooting for you >] well at least i am >< yeah its a chain of stolen dates~ xDDD lol you and your cookies then me and my...sex == fb is retarded...
dildos scare me =L

you didn't come back on =( see how tired you are? that's why tonight's not happening!! >[ plz dont =(

today:

woken up by a txt at 5:40-ish =) lol long nap ;P jksjks. dw bout it =)

fell back asleep of course T_T

was gna get up early to study maths and do srp. fail much?

so ended up waking up at 7:30. was quite shetted cos hadnt packed for school or anything. cos accidentally fell asleep last night (which in a way was good...cos it meant i actually slep b4 12...first in a LOOOOOOOONNNNGGG time ><) still not used to having to brush my retainers...like tf?! (forgot to brush them last night...that's why T_T)

just made the 8:15. looked through the past non-cal tests on the way and thought 'oh fek i am so shetted'. yeah that. i hate maths >[ just in case u hadnt realised.

made it to school and group was sitting in the eblock entrance. sorry celia, weelay, wheeza and lenloe. i'm sorry i wasnt there to help set up D;. really am T_T i'll make it up to you...somehow. probs can't though T_T i'm sorrryyyyyy~

1st period non-cal. hahaha....shet. T_T (yeah theres a lot of swearing in this post ><) my brain just dusnt function in maths mode. it doesnt. ever~ T_T anywayz i'm screwed for this term maths (Y) 30%...30%!!!!!! T_________________T we then talked about nono's in maths lol. -bigBABOOOOWWWsound-

ran to quad to set up for pe assessment. haha sheeeeeettt... didn't know what to do with leadup game. fekfekfek...wat gna do~?!?! so just decided to do either newcomb ball or dodgeball. got there and the NET WAS TOO SHORT! fk!! panicked. stoopid sub teacher was a b-...an ugly female dog =) class wasnt all that enthusiastic. waaaah. wat were we supposed to do? throw candy at you? or whip you into shape?! T____T like lenloe sed, we weren't gonna kill our peers. anywayz, kerrigan apparently stole the net so we had to wait half a lesson for it. in the meantime thanku lenloe and wheeza and weelay for taking class thru warmup, stretches and skills. leadup we ended up doing poison ball...lol kelly got owned xDDD fun stuff. then we did the game. lol we werent even sure of the rules ourself T_T "errr...what happens when the ball goes out?" "O_O -whisperwhisper- uhmmmm....there is...no...out -shift- deal with it~!" >< so dodgy...LOL like our game name!!! 'DODGY BALL!' xDDD >] i take credit for coming up with that >] class seemed to get into the game after a few minutes. which was good =) at least they were having fun...or seemed like it >< then frekaing time ran out. JUST WHEN THEY WERE GETTING INTO IT! D= waaaaah oh wells. we got 1 for something...prep maybe? dont like that sub. sorry celia =( we let u down...

recess me and lenloe btched about the pe sub xDDD weelay left for home. hope u get beta soon =( <3

lol thot we had science so went around science block...then realised we didnt T_T so had to walk all the way back to b-block. thot we had english...then relaised our timetable's switched back now. DAMN! we had history!!! no txtbook~ D; talking with lenloe about...stuff :3 xDDD yeah...ended up missing lots of notes =\ whitlam is ms melky's bf~ xDD why was he smiling wen he got sacked? O_O

lunchtime had yr 10 vocal~. it's too HOT...to sambaaaaaa~. its in my head ==;; lol "body starts to swaaaay~" go alto 2 and our dodge actions. =L we shud totally film ourselves one day...just singing it normally. you'll look at it and see just the end section being retards and moving around weirdly xDD YAYYYYY^^ DISNEY JAM SESSION!!! >] omgomgomg!!! "i just can't wait to be king~" lol i knew all the lyrics -shift- yeah YOU shush! T_T its all your fault!...well...not really ><

science. was super shift. was hungry. so i ate in the lab xDDDD. mr k sent me outside to eat (no ill-intent =] - just apparently last pd they used sum kinda sulfuric sumthing or other...and i might dieeee~ if i eat in there. xDD) after came back in started stressing about the letter. fkfkfkfkfk how was i gna do this T_T stoopid lyrics! RAWR! stoopid ipod for being out of bats!! T_T stoopid paper for being unfoldable T_T stoopid me for not realising earlier~! T_T waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah ended up spending the whole period stressing...about THAT...and only ended up with the DATE on the top! i FAAAAIILLLL~

jap. lenloe told me to ditch so we cud look up stuff with ipt ppl. lol nah...not THAT sad >< was...sorta dogging log and al...cos i was preoccupied the whole period. even pretended not to know answer...didnt do any of the comprehension >< rebelling JAP! me! yeah...shet...worlds turning upside down~ just finished letter before bell rang. but wasnt packed. ccrapcrap. then shosh and niki's french group were walking so slowly down the stairs D; FAR OUT! just wen i'm in a hurry. swear i was jogging on teh spot behind them.

ran out the eblock entrance and started walking. couldn't run cos was holding like...box-shaped bag and folder in either hand. nearing north sydney called lenloe and they were already there. shet. ran down escalator but train doors had just closed. SHET! my god i'm pathetic. went back up the escalator striaght away. baka bec. BAKA~ BAKAYAROU~~~

sorry luke, you''ll have to show me your [coughchatcough ;P] hair another day =\

walked back out. felt like...pathetic. stupid. wat was i thinking T_T
went to stanton library to return books. ahhhh~ relief ^^ one 'box' gone. then in my hand...THAT just stayed there. was VERY VERY VERY tempted to just...crush it. it's so fragile. waaah didn't wanna look at it. maybe i'll bury it at the very bottom of my dark drawer, where one day...i'll dig it up and -facepalm- wtf was i thinking? one word...'excessive'.

walked all the way from ns to st leos. quite tired. u get tired when you feel like shet =\

boarded train bout 4:25-ish. was wondering how things could've turned out diff today.

got back to pymble around 5:00. then spent a bit of time buying fruits for srp at local grocer. lol neva even been in there before. cute shepherd dog =) bird was annoying == got a grapefruit, 2 green kiwis and 2 limes. think we have pineapple, oranges and lemons at home. that enough? =S

walked home. dont like carrying stuff in both hands =\

pigged out on tiramisu and cheese+crackers at home.

wondering what you're doing atm.

my heart can't reach you...

~<33 beedee

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to everyone out there~

hmm...how do i start? yeah well...i realise i havn't exactly been very faithful. to the blog i mean xDD. only found out today that people read this ><

it's been a really hectic week. for me at least. or maybe i'm just lazy...yeah that's it.

so to everyone who's actually bothered to read this...i'm sorry.

i'm really sorry that i havn't kept up. and to my blog...er...i'm sorry i havn't been posting? O_O i'm confused now...

well yeah i promise to catch back up. although personally i dont see why you'd bother reading about my boring life~ ><

~<33 beedee

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okokok...so i fail. a week...without a proper entry.

what's worse...is that this week has been AWESOME...and i haven't got anything to show for it~ D= promise to recap...one day...

i wont forget =) there's no way i could forget anyway^^

up till 5:30 studying maths. lol sbs up doing geo too. tried to pull an allnighter but fell asleep >< think it was cos you went =\ omgomgomg tonight we SLEEP alrite? D; 3rd night in a row~ T_T in the end only got 3 topics done D= HELPPPPP~

no morning rage!! =D mum was watching chinese cable. funniest stuff - game show and the guy was sad he didn't get kissed by the girls xDD (no that doesn't make sense does it? ><) Malay cake for brekkie~ almost died choking on it xDD

studied similarity on train. went @_@ trying to get similar solids D= BAHAHAHA barred tong on the bus >] (she txted me...even though she was sitting 5m away xDD)

got to school and everyone was sittng just inside e-block. talked bout...stuff? LOL steffu doing 40hourfamine. no talking. fail sign language xDDDD

drama 1st period~ D; wheeza wat a way to start it off >< "a little birdie told me you got a booooyf-..." yep that ><... dude how do even ppl WITHOUT fb know?! T_T miss mac...is...annoying >[ THANKYOUU~ elaine<3 lifesaver. sorry for being dodge. i hate cardboard citizens...ok i dont. studying them is annoing though ==;; miss mac is...ARGH! -kickswall- yeah. damnit. ont he ONE day i didn't bring my drama journal! did...random...'ripple' exercise. like...moving tablecloth? er...uhm...like tilting heads...ARGH lol i'm not making sense am i? >< no i never do...

2nd period jap. waaaaah acer comp reading test~! forgot about it...totally xDD meh. was pretty easy. so i rushed through it just to get some time for studying maths. finished with 15 mins to spare >] handed it in without even checking xDD spent rest of wud-be-bludge period studying. hope i didnt screw up the comp T_T

recess~ spent in jap room. thanku log rina and kathy for helping me...i'm sorry for being maths-incapable T_T reviewed trig in 20 mins T_T was writing NOTES 10 mins before test...BAKA~!!!! T_T

3rd period. maths. dies. waaaaaah, everyone sez the testwas easy. missed so many questions T_T. damn that similarity question...I DIDN'T GET IT TILL THE ENDDDD~ T_T overall i did...shet. yeah. haha never been maths-capable anywayz >< damn 30%...30%~!!! i fail. literally.

lunch was...i dont rememer O_O =\ 78 ppl in detention?!! D=

yay tennis~ was fun^^ lo me and survana pwn >] 72 volleys~ xDDD jksjks >< *note: DONT forget racquet nxt week ><. bahahaha elaine got owned xDDD hit her head~ xDD poor kid ;P lol bella and carumen-chan choosing teams >] yay we owned >] wait...did we? O_O and lol our eggand spoon...wait...racquet and ball race =L me and my...duckwalk? ><

went with other ppl to ns. then took train back up to chats. LOL walked past a couple talking about spit or swallow ;] funny...they were really loud xD then got retainers at ERNIE'S~ >< waaah they're pink (aka flesh coloured :S) and taste like plastic urgh. yes they make my mouth feel fat again T_T and they keep slipping off! and i have to put up with this for the nxt...20 or sumthing years?!?! T_____________T ok well at least not 24/7 =\ lol i love scabbing 85 degrees free foodbits from outside >]

you're hot >] admit it! burning phones lol xDDD

yeah what COULD we have been doing? >] ;]

took train back out to city. went to goulbourn(?) st morning glory to loo for elaine's pressie. waaaah was hard T_T damn you and not helpig me =P its HER bday not mine ;P AND NO! bunny onli >< KIRBY ARMY! xDD

spent a bit too much time in mg. but DID end up buying her pressie =) walked into dk and the glass door to the studio was black O_O wa very...confused. had jaye decided to turn the lights off? xDDDD lets dnce in the DAAARRRKKKKK~! >] kinky! xDDD jkjks. found otu it was just a curtain inside the door >< lol. walked in JUST in time for situps. oh joy T_T

weelay wasnt there D; got worried. then got her txt =L LOL nicenice...fell asleep ina netcafe. ian i blame you >[ dk just went over 'crazy' again =) altho...=( watned to do more of patron tequila~!!~!! T_T will keep bugging jaye to do it >] lol jaye showing us how to be sexy. "you gotta...-slams hand on chest- TOUCH URSELF!" BAHAHAHAHA omg cracked up so bad. i'm used to it. while the noobs were like "O_O w..t...f?!?!" xDDDD he's not gay. just so you know. WAAAAAAH jaye made me do a solo at the end of the lesson with him T_T just cos i was the onli one who knew the whole thing... was...embarassing. WHY DO PPL ALWAYS FILM THE END OF LESSON?!?! D= oh well...if you're dncing next to jaye it's the one time you're allowed to be sxc ;] xDDDD

btchy girl at register after lesson. "yes? no? dn't really give a shit..." ==;; chill jeez.

walked back to town hall. srsly...as soon as i read the words "in bed" i fell asleep...till gordon. you're magic! =O xDDD

waahhh i shud be more subtle >< "no msn? =(" then 10 seconds later "-signs in-" >< stop going out of your way to...argh! ><

freaking...too many little birdies~ D;

-sigh- i suck at excuses. of all people...

thnx for keeping me company =) but...ur gna die tomoz D; and sorry i cut out on you T_T probs an out of bats T_T

~<33 beedee

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Dirty Little Secret by All-American Rejects

Let me know that I've done wrong,
When I've known this all along,
I go around a time or two,
Just to waste my time with you.

Tell me all that you've thrown away,
Find out games you don't wanna play,
You are the only one that needs to know--

I'll keep you my dirty little secret,
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you`ll be just another regret,
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret,
Who has to know?

When we live such fragile lives,
It's the best way we survive,
I go around a time or two,
Just to waste my time with you,

Tell me all that you've thrown away,
find out games you don't wanna play,
you are the only one that needs to know---

I'll keep you my dirty little secret,
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret,
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret.

Who has to know?
The way she feels inside (inside!)
Those thoughts I can't deny (can't deny!)
These sleeping thoughts won't lie (won't lie!)
And all I've tried to hide
It's eating me apart
Trace this life back!

I'll keep you my dirty little secret,
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret.
(Just another regret)


I'll keep you my dirty little secret,
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret,
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret,
Dirty little secret,
Dirty little secret.


Who has to know?
Who has to know?

~<33

Labels: emotions, fail, love

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today was...undescribably...awesome xDDD

from last night: WAAAAIII!! YAY^^ credit~ :3 hope i helped in getting you off your low =) i thank your mum for the phone >] hehe -shift- bunny buddies<3 sora and kairi<3 ^w^ 'sleepy as balls'?!?! xDDDD you should really reword that ;P

lol weelay...gonna get gangraped without you ;P

today: omg...no morning rag from mum!! =O shock! yay^^
on the train developed a 'SHET!' list: forgot subject selections sheet, racquet, and didn't get mum to sign late note T_T you noob!!! steph-en got on at gordon xDDD talked about random stuff: musical, subject selections, school awards xDD random. got to st leos and bought a flower for celia from the florist. scary florist lady...the flower was kinda wilted D; SORRY CELIA~ maybe a premonition for the raging central florist this arvo? xDDDD jks jks ;P

Had drama first period in B13 (computer room tf?!). was holding celia's flower and stella was being a doosh! xDDDD "AS A FRIEND DAMNIT!"
bahaha leave your hair alone damnit ;P i like it the way it is >].

then had geo. got in-class essay back~! ^_^ was SO FKING surprised at mark =O spesh wen...didnt' study...at all...not a single bit >]. lol sad people...as mr passlow said xDD
"you're annoyed that there's no space and you have to turn the page?!! GET A LIFE!" xDDDD lol nice.

recess~ "nice hair" from shirley apparently xDD. bahahahaha bella asked random hot guy for his number and he turned out to be gay xDDD gg. cath was taking out her stress on my bag T___T

3rd pd commerce =) BLUUDGGEE~ 'the castle'. finished =) the ending was...nice? but epic fail xDD

got gangraped at lunch T___T i hate you guys...[in that way that i dont really mean it T_T] DAMN u steffu. shud've found someone else to hug T_T (loveyoutoo<3)

teniiiisu~ funfun^^ were higher last time but meh =) wayne makes it fun^^ lol celia gets extra lives for being bday girl =) yeah 'missing balls' xDDD you took it the wrong way first =P

then took train to city =) got there heaps early so changed. LOL weelay have a breakdown if he doesnt come ;P

waaaah you really did ambush me! freaking giants!! D= 2 of you damnit! lol daniel's fail tie. weelay was asking for donations from ppl xDDD ian you doosh. HALF AN HOUR!?!?!

=\ awkwaaaaard...-glancesatweelay- xDDD nah

damn i'm so fail around tall ppl >[. BAHAHAHAHA hungry jacks fun >] still thinking about whther to put it on fb ;P pray i dont xDD. you guys FAAAAIIILLL!! esp you ;P -SLAP- xDD -breaaattthhhh- UP DOWN! xDD

weelay and ian dogged us. lol. yeah it seems reversed dusnt it ;P let the 2 have their alone time xDD.

RAWR! damn air hockey. THAT VID BETA NOT BE GOING UP ANYWHERE >[ damnit man. i still got 2 wins >] -evenifyouletme><- i DID get some good shots in >] admit it!

lol ant actually considered doing the class. joey actually considered shouting him. from me -nocomment- xDD. walked all the way up the stairs...then back down again ><. was trying very hard to find the right timing...but SOMEONE loved you too much >[. technically this was last chance.

weelay and ian came. panicked...dance was bout to start. and still hadnt done it. waaaaaaaah. weelay suggested skipping...me: >] haha ><

walked to harbourside. blaring tequila on speakers >] DAMN RIGHT! SO FKED UP~! xDDDD suck. then went to play pool on top of harbourside =) i fail at pool ><. so bad. tho i DID make some bs shots ;D.

DAMNIT! sits down...casual convo...then ant BANGS down between. RAWR! wanted SO BAD to rage at him >[ freaking...

*note: ian did it once too >[ xDDDDDD pushed between.

we finished. [had to go...soon...] so we started to leave. was gna ask to hang back...but AGAIN! damn ant >[ RAWR! WEEELAAAAAAYYY~ T_T help meeee~

free 2-scoop ice cream =) it melted...rly quickly T_T...

DH by night<3 was the BEST view ever. amazing^^ -note: did NOT plan this ><- lol stolen tie. ian you're a legend xDDDD

ant running...after the carriage thingo? xDDD fail~ can't believe u made it xDD

then...>////< waaaaaaaah. was shocked you didn't suss at all. freaking seagulls xDD. lol weelay and ian...take so long...pissing together xDDD but thanks =)

weelay and ian left first. stayed a bit longer^^ north line -hug- thanku. >< owed you =)

finally...you smiled at the camera =)

you noob! how the hell did you get lost xDDD FAIL! xD

omgomgomg mum believed it~! NINJAAAAA >]

damnit...the things you say are <3. stop being so...sweet! no!...dont stop D; RAWR! no it's not too late :3 ily

*note: $5 that i can own ant in bowling...hehe...><

haha...notice that this post has all tags except stress =L see how much that says about my life? ><

<3 10.08.2009

~<33 beedee

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<3

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i win >]

ok now i dont ==

=P you beta not give up either

~<33 beedee

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left ipod speaker on...again. hehe ^^;;

woke up to Miss Independent by neyo. well...TECHNICALLY woke up to Cartoon heroes and crazy frog (my alarm tones) but haha meh.

work with dad at market. put ipod on speaker to attract people/rock out. hey, better than eyes being glued to a movie on all the monitors (actually...i forgot the dvds today >< that's why there was no movie) anywayz.

hmm...when old men start bobbing their heads to taylor swift..you realise just how screwed up the world is (Y) xDDD

techie hatelist:
hp for their zig-zag monitor stands
philips for putting so much packaging in the boxes
middle-easters for being stingy customers (not racist...just facts ==)
customers who just won't listen ==

my very silent left earphone was starting to really piss me off. so went earphone hunting >] bought a $10 one. then HOLY SHET! 50c one! -buys too- xDDDD meh i break/lose/screw up a pair every 3 months or so, so beta be prepared >]

yay weelay thanks for helping/listening~ sorry for being...pessimistic. it's my job >< wish me luck<3

today is last day before [my] credit gets reset...have $24 left to blow...anyone? =)

shock! a short post! =O

i tell myself, today could be the day. But everytime...I lose my nerve...

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, life

just to finish off for last night

i hate family dinners. happy bday dad<3 but srsly...i hate them == why? cos parents bag me out/whine to gparents about my crap and how i'm being a naughty child...crap like that. then next to me little kids aka bro and cousins play psp and ds. and i'm sitting there...like an idiot...in neither age group. stoning. lonerising. being bored.

bored shetless.

was at carlo 'excellent' restaurant btw. foods actually not half bad =) lol but mum sent back a dish cos the fish was half-cooked.

txted weelay and we talked about 16th. -sigh- will worry about that later.

saw sharon~^^ [yr 9 one] yay...even though for just a second...as she was leaving...as she was leaving after coming out of the toilet xDDD but yeah. screamed her name and she was like O_O WOAH! who?! -looksaround- then we waved^^ haha yeh sad much? but was BORED ass so...anything was interesting =)

YOU~! far out...i'm sorry for txting you. damnit...i should've known yu'd reply if i did. DAMNIT -facepalm- RAWR! you dead >[ wait till i...haha nvm >] you'll know when the time comes...

camming~ sorry fr being stoned. i never was good at multi-tasking... ><

hate lagging

~<33 beedee

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weelay brought it up, and it's been on my mind for a while.

have no idea wat to do for 16th. as of today there's only 19 days. shet.

ideas? outing's a possibility but...god i dno. HELP?!? D;

RAWR~ hate being old.

NO! screw being legal ==;;

~<33 beedee

Labels: stress

something on my mind...will talk bout in another post.

mum&dad going to city so they drove me to netball. didnt have coaching or umpiring (day off wooh~) so only had to get there at 12. wandered around like a loner for half an hour. then finally saw vicky and sat down. hadnt trained in ages ><. so screwed.

played northbridge. took GA for first quarter...almost fainted halfway through. dehydrated maybe? >< dno...

blinkblink. argh maybe something in the eye. wait...no. it wasn't going away. blinkblinkblink. this definitely was't normal. could no longer see the outlines of things. the girl's back was going fuzzy. where was the ball? damnit, couldn't beathe either. heard myself wheezing. couldn't breathe in enough. Not good. at this rate, i'd collapse. the whistle blew. ah, the other team just scored. the world was spinning. eveything was going white. no...couldn't take it anymore. turned to the umpire.
timeout.

haha random much? yeah...can't really describe it any other way. was quite...surreal. anywayz, trace said i needed water, that was why. sat out of rest of first half. damnit i was so useless...

GD had elephant feet. landed -BANG-. kept shoving me. lol shoved back. *note: she was about 180cm tall (Y) obviously not asian ;P. she got pissed when i intercepted a ball to her >] damn right betch xDD height doesn't rule all >]

we lost in the end. meh, wasn't expecting much anywayz. walking out. talking about formals with trace and alice. lol alice complaining about being conned into paying for sb (Y)
tracey: ngaaawww bec you have feelings! :3
course i have feelings you doosh! =P

caught bus to chats. tried something on in calla. dodgiest changeroom ever. half my head was visible over the top of door. some woman's head was completely visible on top of the door. fking...beta not have looked in. >[

at shop register about to pay. asian woman was buying in front of me. looked away for a sec and asian woman was finished. white (no racism ><) woman jumps in front of me in the queue. while paying, looks back and is like "oh SORRY! i thought you were with that woman." PSH thanks a lot. just cos i'm asian ==;;

at station. train didn't come for 10 mins. the wind was being a betch -WOOOSH- and was freezing my ass off. whoever freaking invented the rule that netballers have to wear a skirt is a DOOSH! why the hell would you wear skirts for sport?! D=

damnit didn't forget dad's bday was today [08.08 <3] but forgot to buy pressie. but what to buy? CRAP! SUGGESTIONS?!?! WHAT DO YOU BUY FOR DAD'S BDAY~?!?! D; SOMEONE!!! ANYONE!!!

lol weelay passed on the message. vid on outing for dancestuffs? sure =D...people can do gee >] yeah i'm looking at you 2! >]

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aferthought for last night

-sigh- im so conceited.

i'm not stiff~ D; xDD and nutino<3 cam was fun =) such a poser =P -squat- hoebo formals~xDDDD dodge lag but was fun^_^ sorry i died like that ><

fell asleep with ipod speaker playing on loop ><

today~

haha great...7:22 train? woke up at 7:20 == baka bec. gotta stop doing that...not fair to ppl >< dad is awesome~ drove me to carlo. fell asleep in the car then woke up and we were there. WAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH reminds me o the old days =) even though...i lived in carlo for 8 yrs and never went to the station -shift-. but srsly =) was nice remembering the place. walked down to station (wat a hole xDD) and went lonerised xDDD everyone was late...even later than me~! =O waited at station for bout half an hour b4 i saw lenloe~<3 she'd already been to rusey.

sat down against fence with lenloe and talked. i'm happy we did =) we havn't...in a while. but hopefully wateva it was is ova -hug- sorry igore me ><. anywayz, bahahaha love 'virgin' jokes ;D caumen-chan and weelay got there bout...10-ish? then we walked to ruse. lol weelay's left sock is disoedient. or maybe your left leg is a lot skinnier than your right? ;P

ruse...is big. SO freaking huge. EVEN WITHOUT THE CROPS! >< if other ppl come visit our school they'll feel like...can't breathe D; ok i'm exaggerating ==;; but still! even just the office alone is a house! just the office~! (called barrengary house according to vt (Y)) anywayz. nicely asked for permission to say hi to friends. were rejected. downright barred. "sorry. hope you girls didn't come too far to get here." yeh...dw...we'r eonly from the other side of town. [weelay's train ticket $5 man!] fek that...dont like u office ladies either ==

so...wat did we do then? we weren't allowed to enter the skool grounds...so we circled the school. BAHAHAHAA thats right. we were all wearing black too...bex's worry that we might be considered terrorists became very likely after all xDDDDDD. well...we TRIED to circle the skool O_o halfway a nothrough road blocked our path...so we circled back! xDDDDD

school bus stop became our little spot. cos the pathway was wide there. just outside the oval. watched people doing pe and...drama? AHAHAHAHAHA love that ninja guy being filmed:
"AWAY FROM HER, YOU FIEND~!"
kept repeating it that doosh. stuck in my mind for ages. then CPR! =L should find out what they were really doing.

anywayz. entertained ourselves with cards. at first plyed big 2...which sorta failed. then we started truth or dare >] (everyone pick out a card and lowest has to do it >]) wont say anything...but was SO fun xDDDD funny reactions...sorry for being dodge? >< but lol "would you rather date...henry or..." -everyone pulls back with 'ew' face- xDDDDDD niceice. and lol "somewhere tie-uppable" <=)

"when the time is right" =) -blinkblink- no. xDDDDDD

btw...how did it end up with losing -coughvirginitycough- on a boat? O_O

yeh i'm gullible. damn you weelay sif you'd score home run...shuddup i know i believed it but ><
but yeah. bases...dodge xDDD

haha hobos reading this...wish u were there too? ;P ok >< shuddup bec.

recess. WTF is rong with their bell! like a freaking fire alarm!! thought they really were having a lockdown cos of us shifty ppl ><. half went by. met lenloe's cbbox friends =) then...YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY~^^ MAZILYN AND ANNA~~~<33 waaah was so happy to see them again ^w^ bahahha us dodge...flailing arms over the fence as we reach inside. yes a zoo >] xDDDDD "i wanna go feed mazilyn now~ no i wanna see anna!" xDDDD ngawww so happy to see them =) their uniforms are very colourful xDDD but wow...everyone wear s blazers. srsly. everyone =O. and then...(thanks to anna) GOT TO SEE FISH! [not a real fish == michelle =]) FISH<3 yay^^ been ages =( but was happy to see you^^...and that you'd grown taller...again xDDDD bet ur like 175 or sumthing D= also saw susanna. she didn't recognise me...even tho i rcognised her stright away...-sigh- oh well...7 years is a long time (Y) she was very...'meh'. oh well. i got to see her...gg. like mum said tonight..."tai gow daow". then ppl had to go for subject selection after recess.

played more truth [or truth by then xDD] funfun^^ >]. no mroe pe kiddies on oval...no we are not stalkers xDD.

lunchtime~ anna and other guy (i think blair?) had to go iscf. psh mazilyn doesn't go iscf even tho christian ;P compared ppl's blazers. bahahaha smooth vs. O_O carpet xDDD mazilyn ur blazer too big for youuuu~ D; makes ur shoulders look...manly! D; tell ur mum ur not growing anymore! xDDDD the guys started...getting closer outside (since we were trapped outside and waving against the fence like losers =P) some came outside the fence with us xDDD very dodge. sorry don't remember all your names but. homosexual and homophobic xDDD sorry but its funny. >< mazilyn poked herself on the plants...like 10 times ;P never learn xDD

left at end of lunch. hugged mazilyn lots of times xDDD. was nice meeting you guys [res, deagle, joshua and co.] ^^. nice ppl.

then walked back to carlo station. lol wth still cant get over those fenced/caged plants. 7 eleven me and carumen-chan got gaytime<3 got to station and train wasn't coming for another 40 mins. yeh was gonna be late for d2mg >< stoned for a few minutes then lenloe and caurmen-chan and me went to buy dominoes >] $5.95 lunch spesh!! >] meatosaurus and double bacon cheeseburger. meat<3 xDDD

got on train. was very full after the pizza ><. stop feeling up my legs guys T_T spasmss...

found a gaytime crum in my pocket O_O was tmpted to eat it >] xDDD no...just no bec ><

central at 3:30. people got off. hugged everyone bibi^^

blue blazered guys got on at milsons pt. very loud, tall, bogan, and stinky x(

got back to school bout 3:50 for D2MG. celia was wearing makeup =) very pretti~ the routine's getting cooler. oh btw its "closer" by neyo. =) very catchy >] YAY! learnt a mjackson-ish step >] and haha "show your face =D" trina gna be away for nxt 3 weeks. ah wells. hugged steffu lots after lesson :3

got outside and started walking with fi, maddy and ariel to st leos. SO windy~!!! like a tornado!!! srsly! swear i was being swept along xDD bahaha ariel putting on her jacket backwards to protect her face form cold ;P left them at rooftop to watch kev's game.

no silverseats left on court 3. had to sit on the 10cm window sill. dodge much? got pissed at fone cos kept failing to txt. had choco milkshake :3 nsbs won 46-8. kev acually got 6 pts ;P

YES! we should!! ball in irl =D i dno...i rly like that idea >] and lol stop hitting on ur mum ;P

fell asleep in car. got home. still sleeping. xDDD

lamb pot for dinner~ again =) as well as salmon! 8)

post later~

~<33 beedee

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ah...i forgot to mention...YES~! 3 days of holiday~ =O



looking for a new look for this place...its depressingly boring ==

*edit: what's sad is that i actually went through all 107 pages of templates...shuddup D;



-stretches- -crackcrackcrack- >< long day...

mmmmmm smell of mums cooking is drifting into the room...now i'm hungry >] lamb pot~<3 meh...will have to wait till dinner T_T

was gonna study last night in bed, but decided to wake up early today to study, so i slept as soon as i got off. yeah...pile of books next to my bed untouched >< but yeh...who would've guessed. i slept through my alarm ==

1st snr vocal for the term in the morning. i hate it that my mum rushes when kevin has something on...but never when i have something on in the morning. damn being first-born. >[

tried to study on train for geo...ended up listening to ipod instead ==

very few ppl at first. then the snrs left. then people started coming in~ xDD ave ave...vera vera...very nice song =) when it's harmonised right =S

first period was watching ppl's mice and men plays in drama room. wasn't ready yet =S thank god didnt get up to us...bahahaha celia, sally, tracey, sonya and yafei's play was so epic, even if it wasn't meant to be xDDD sally is such a cute lennie =) and yafei was awesome >] bahahaha height should've been switched around though ;P poor tracey xDD somehow...it ended up very romantic...true true xDDDD then steph doing an 'audrey' in the middle of the room xDD sarah, laura, kelly, audrey and carrie's scene was SO funny xDD damn those hilarious accents...were really good ;D esp laura =) legend^^

2nd pd geo. fk. inclass essay. fk. yeh shuddup i know i stress too much...and i'm a hypocrite cos i procrastinate ridiculously then get all stressed and bother people with it. i'm sorry. but i'm not about to change my habits. it's who i am...can't help it. at the very least i didn't lose any sleep over it. well...not really >< so basically...bsed the whole thing =S at least...long enough... yeah quality over quantity wateva == dont wanna think about it anymore...

waaaah cant take it anymore. too hungry. mum's cooking smells too awesome. -nomnomnom Club chocolate blocks- -sigh- you're right...the bunnies are still the best =D nothing measures up =(

recess...lotte waffles obsession<3 talking about plans for tomoz. bahahaha bex is so cute :3
bex: what if they think we're terrorists?! D=
shirley: do i LOOK like a TERRORIST?!? >[
weelay: bahahaha fk yeah >]
epic =)

english. westpac. another line of swearing~^^ yeah. that. dont really wanna talk about it. only thing i'm happy about is that i actually worked out some of the 3 digit numbers. yeah i know...not very impressive == go away neerrrdddsss

lunchtime had acapella auditions =) haha...yesh was even more nervous after westpac than before it == or hopefully it was nervous for acapella? >< meh.
-everyone starting to come in to music room-
Ms Cleggie: it's one on one~
"oh."
-everyone runs back out except bella-
-bella looking very lost-
ngawww xDDD bella brave =) ahahaha damn right suvarna >] evrybody loves celia<3 -glomp- :3
sang disney song >] "won't say i'm in love" awesome song^^ cleggie said i've been singing too low for too long and that i'm losing my head voice. haha in other words...i've become too manly >] hehe WOOH ALTO 2 PRIDE~(Y) harmony part was...alright? >< the tune wasnt hard but...i swear i went off tune D= oh wells. can't wait till results^^ gl to everyone else as well<3 we have 'priority' this year so i'm sure we'll all be fine (Y)

after finishing (waited for carumen-cha who was last ;P) went back out. signing bella's diary<3 and lol me and steffu's dodge handshadows xDDDDD sad much? nah was fun >] go my dog! i eat u steffu :3 -nomnomnomnom-

4th pd maths. hehe...volume...mixed up half the SA formulas with it xDDDD phail...shuddup D= -sigh- fk i can't believe coord geo's in stimulataneous equations as well. hate coord geo. starting to regret doing 2u next year ==

5th pd was commerce...'the castle' movie. joy == such a random movie. randomest i've seen in a while == the main guy's so annoying xDDD

walking to st leo's. love it when i'm walking there alone. it's like...thinking time =)just...me-time xDDD well...good time to reflect i guess =) its nice^^ of course...not to say i mind walking with other ppl D= thats nice too >] xDD <33 u cath, lauren and al

ultra stoned after getting back to pymble. walking with bro home. lol he's embarassed for me to be clinging onto his bag? O_O it was a hill and i was tired!!! D= since when was it humiliating to walk with ur sister?! D; waaaaaaaah i'm an embarassment T_T

got home and stuffed myself. lol dodge nutella. except not. xDDD 'nutino' (Y)

wow that post ended up a lot longer than i expected...felt a lot less...eventful ==

will post later =)

p.s. yay~^^ but... 2 phones...think you can manage? =\ ><

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, life, school

FKING~! parents are taking evrything at 10. fking hell...just cos i was caught on webcam last night. they're so paranoid!

planning out evil scenario:
"are you dating?!"
"yes -dead srious expression-"
"REAL..."
"yes." -deathglare-

rawr i'm pmsing i think. then again...meopausing i think >[

dont wanna think about this shet...lets think of sumthing more...=)

:3 sumone comes to mind<3 immediately ^_^

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waaaah someone hold my hand~ it's cold =(
~~
sitting on floor with heater blaring. and rocking out to patron tequila >] woooooh~ 'SO FKED UP!' xDDDDD damn creepy but awesome song^^

fell asleep awkwardly last night (sorta...just on the bed O_O) so couldn't wake up for ages this morning. got up heaps late. mum fully raged, and i raged back. think i've doomed myself. raging not good for mornings. left house very pissed.

walked to station and took 38. trying to think about how i'd forge the late note. got on 143 nsb bus cos nsg one didnt come for ages. freakinglady aggro bus driver...i ended up bashing into the bin thingo. got to school 9:12.

brb dinner. gna show parents the sci comp result nao >] they beta not be anticlimatic dooshes like they were with jap interview >[ itadakimasu~

freaking...they WERE anticlimatic dooshes >[ all it did was prompt them to ask my brother how he'd gone == wtf idc anymore...

continuing...

maths - sorry steffu =( maybe i should've just not come in? xD and hair was getting in my eyes so tried to tie it up. is that...wrong?! == and D= i look older in yr 7 than now (ref ID card) T_T.

pd - o sullivan trying to be kool == wtf are happy shoes? O_O and yesh thanks celia<3 admire you for being responsible D; teach me how~

recess - I'M NOT PREGNANT! D= cant help it if...my lunchbox makes me make those noises xDDDD

not meant it? i'm starting to doubt it...

Status: recovered...hanging by a thread

bottle was leaking the whole way up B block. could feel it dripping on my legs =S urgh! ><

freaking lunchbox/mini keep-warm box D; the lids so fking screwed up and thanks bec for screwing it up even more xDDD >[ steph is tank >]. srsly! xDDD me and weelay are like "WOOOOOAAAHHH~!". thought we had english until ms melky walked in. me and weelay fail xDD. halfway through history very...holy sounds came from outside xDDDD the yr 11 divas i'm guessing? xDD watermelon stairs = our echo chamber >] (wizcrew inside joke >]) Ms Melky's bf = Gough Whitlam xDDDDD they broke up after he got kicked off (Y) ;P

lunchtime went to yr 10 accapella. sang seasons of love to start with^^ that song makes me smile...for some reason =) too hot to samba is funky >]. go me and carumen and our swaaaying =L after ms cleghorn left had our usual JAM SESSION!! >] jassy has such <3 songs. its awesome how u and lauren sing all these god songs^^. and then WAAAAAAHHH you belong with me<3 and by your side<3 =) snr accapella audiions tomoz =\ trying to think what to sing...

science was epic ;D SRP EXTENDED A WEEK!!!! WOOOOH~ -cheeringveryloud- Sarah: [to mr k] did i ever tell you i love the science faculty? xDDDD G-FORCE~!!!! >] yer man! camwhoring majorly =) then lol 1 year extension? xDDDDDD fail charades and pictionary xD SQUISHFACE~! >] yay got sci comp bak^^ bahahaha carrie and audrey changing their names on certificates xDDD hilarious. happy with result >] first hd...in a while D; if only my fluke-ness could last for everything ><

yay jap was fun >] in E2. al = robodog = dumb an won't fight back >] = will die if you take fotos of it xDDD "won't figth back desu~" fail =) spent a lot of the time trying to take fotos of al shylvi and majo-chan xDD meigurumi ;P

walked to st leos with al. told her bout my teenage melodrama xDD was fun =)

lauren caught train with us =)

O_O started...singing while walking along pacific hwy >< shush!

fked for geo. don't get any of this at all~! D; damn fta's >[ and got friggin westpac too. wish i had dropped maths. *note: entered subjects into spreadsheet. have sealed my fate -DOOOOOOM!!- -sigh- just wen i though life had gotten better...

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~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, love

ok if yesterday was a bomb...today was a meteor D=

after allnighter forgot to print out commerce as i left D; damnit...was too busy putting patron tequila on ipod >]

also...put draw with me on as well<3 we never did exchange them...=( one day?

while was walking to nsb for combined choir, hugh was right behind me. yes as in "its HUGE!" hugh xDDD he walks so fast O_O!!! like...faster than neel! xDDDD cos he overtook me and looked really fun walking fast while wearing a sportsbag. was rying very hard not to crack up behind him as i tried to keep up...for no reason xDD stalker (Y)

combined choir was fun. BAHAHAHA Wimowee~ like my ringtone >] i should so get my phone to start ringing while we're singing that...just to be a doosh >]

scripture...didn't do much...that i can remember. >< assembly bahahhaa maddy's epi "did you know"'s that weren't true. xDDD Queen <3 AC/DC (Y) great xDDD yay scram got acknowledged~ ^^

jap. went up to ctl and cbfed to come bac down. but then steffu called to say we got scram results~! so rushed back down to ct1...we didn't get in =( but it was fun^^ awesome while it lasted...so we did our best^^ for rest of jap was pretty uneventful >< fell asleep...just a bit. thnx miss wei for being understanding D;

ah yeah...crap...recess...shirley, cath, jassy, bella then weelay (later).
KABOOOOOM~ HOW DUS EVERYONE KNOW?! D; srsly...got owned...rawr i blame myself. i've lost count of whoknows so i'm not counting anymore ==
yesh jassy the story was very sweet ^w^ but doesn't remind me of myself in the least == waaaaah...everyone's egging on. THAT's why i wanted to keep it a secret D;

english comp in commerce. waaaaah...you were fully in my mind after recess == damnit i blame ALL OF YOU~ >] xDDDD ok its nice thinking about you :3 but NOT when i'm trying to do an engish comp xDDDD like freaking hell go away~ D; -shooshoo- in all guessed heaps of answers O_O so much for making up for my maths with english...

this is the SECOND time you've txted me during a comp xDDDD do you plan it? ;P

lunchtime organised scram stuff for presentations&future mediation (irl). will be interesting ^w^ glad i get a rest tho. have been in every single round since round 2. gl and have fun to all yo guys<3 bahahha lol jassy get over my water swishing. its a habit...esp wen ur eating riceballs ;P xDDD

Drama 4th period. found txt. bummed in gym till we realised we were outside in the quad. played singing game where we have to improvise a song to a given topic in groups of 4-5. freaking embarassing O_O but would prefer to be doing this to forum theatre. our song was "my big hair" (xDD courtesy to clare) and "cheeeese". argh randomest stuff ever. but was fun...somewhat == endowments. too hard to explain but basically you take one person out and the rest of ppl decide on 1)a physical characteristic 2)a job 3)a state of mind. was funny but random =D

geo, sorta fell asleep near end. need to study for in-class essay shet. thursday. but yay at least it open-book >]

walked to st leonards and caught train. carl was there lol? he's so short now...O_O i swear he's the same height as me. aka...short. =L

another post? fine :P just cos u asked. =)

~<33 beedee

Labels: friends, life, school

~FINISHED!!

haha...i really did pull an all-nighter. sorry if i kinda...die at school people >< apparently we have an english comp as well so hopefully i dont fll asleep in that either...xDDD yea...that could be bad =S

it's cold

~<33 beedee

Labels: school

-sigh- i need a hug. it's cold pulling an all-nighter.

thanks tracey<33 sorry to bother you like that. really appreciated the help :3 -huggggu-

still havn't done part B D; hoping it will just come to me in the hour an half i've got left

(did i mention i have combine choir this morning at 8? ==;; waaaah why'd i do this!)

~<33 beedee

Labels: fail, friends, stress

hanging in there...barely...somehow...

what's keeping me alive? coffee and knowledge i'll be shetted if i fall asleep now.

this is karma, KARMA I TELL YOUUUUU ><

~<33 beedee

Labels: fail, stress

i hate this feeling.
i hate the fact that disappointment comes so easily...whether you want it to or not.
i hate that the smallest things...make the biggest difference.
i hate that i'm so paranoid.
i hate that i'm a teenager...and a freaking cliche one at that.
i hate that i have no bravery at all.
i hate that i sound emo right now but i'm not but i don't know how else to say all this.

i hate myself. (Y)

<3 Patron Tequila ♫ "By the end of the night I'm a have you so fked up!"

Labels: emotions, fail

sound of my stress meter blowing up as well as the bomb that dropped on me today...

day was screwed up from the beginning ><

realised as i was packing bag that i left my puffer at netball courts on saturday...well just great D; forgot my entire folder (thnk god only had sports for last 2 periods.) then missed the 8.15 train...by [.....] this much! D; damnit...

al got on at roseville. lolz showed her gee vid and she was like "O_O wtf" xDDD. got to school and had drama so went straight through side entrance to hall. FUCK! COMPLETELY BLANKED OUT ABOUT TRIAL HSC! ran in and opened the door and ran back out. almost swore at the top of my lungs...well was doing that where they couldn't hear me as i went back around D;

drama pd1: had Miss McAlpine sub (aka... "Xuaxua" teacher xDDDDD). Played "what are you doing? I'm blaaaa..." game. freaking caitlin. why'd you set me up with an elephant in bed?! O_O dmanit...was gonna make you be watchng porn on tv but my turn only came once == i'll get you for that...somehow D=. then played 'zombie tag' bahaha most hilarious stuff. everyone stands in a space (no running) and the zombie goes and tries to touch someone. has to go for the same person once started. person being targetted has to call out another name, and said named person becomes the new zombie >] if you're tagged you're out! xDDD got to top 5 >] (altho got elimintaed after that ==) aka me, elaine, tong, egg, and wendy. ahahaha tong is hilarious.(-can'tthinkofname- -POINTPOINT!-) then worked on forum(?) theatre exercise. our group doing feminism-perving/teen apathy.

Jap was in library - CTL. random research exercises on ads. damnit...stop...DARING so much D; but thanks for listening the 2nd time =)

recess jassy telling us about friend who was on fb while his pregnant wife was having contractions. BAHAHAHA "ARGH ARGH!" and elswhere "~baby~~^^". cute kid ;D bahaha its funny watching shirley try to swear xDDD "OMG Moorcroft that UHUHUHUHUHU! he's such a BEEEEEP~!" -literally said beep- ;P

during math was very much bludging. me and tong = no work<3 hate us for it or wateva, we have fun >] rawr TONG! stop singing that damn song!

"little circle little circle, biiiiig circle,
small circle, small circle, biiiiiiig circle,
half circle, half circle, biiiiiiig circle,
W, W, E E E~"

that pig has haunted my maths book pages. then you made it look like a chicken O_O! D; -scarred- speaking of scarred...i'm such an idiot ==;; wat kind of stupidass scratches their camera screen...un-accidentally? with a freaking necklace pendant! >[ yeah answer. obvious == now suffering from OCD xDDD (Y) miss v died near the end D;.

lunch. "hi bella~ hi bella~ hi bella~ hi b-" xDDD and then shirley you fail xDDD "PR = personal relations" ;P and more shirley quotes (xDDDD shirley being epic today yeah?)
"i'm not homophobic!"
-bellainchescloser-
bella:"heeeeey~" <=)
shirley:-spasmflinchesaway-

xDDDDDDD ;P and then comes bex with her brother xDDD
"mum asked me what i wanted...and i said a brother. OMG why did i say i wanted a brother?! D;...then it came out T_T" ;P

so yeah. wasn't txting (Y) being sad and taking down quotes on phone >]

carumen-chan dropped a bomb on me today D; frekaing...was i the only one who didn't know that you knew?! wait...not jsut that...AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO DOESN'T KNOW THAT EVERYBODY KNOWS?!?! D= man what a shock...havefixed that on fb already...although the damage is obviously done >< T_T why am i such an idiot...i wonder who else hasn't told me...

Tennis was so fun today ^^ cos we had an instructor this time ;D WAYNE~. bahaha he's so hilarious. just his imitations are so damn funny. he started calling jessica 'rebecca' and i was like "=L -nocomment- >]" GO US AND OUR EPIC -poses pointing up- >] and bella's team chant "WHOOH WHOOH WHOOH -cue carumen-chan: "it's TWO!-" ^w^ funtimes~ and yay, got to last 3 in 'community' (a KO game) >]. WAAAAAAH I'm SO SORRRY LISA~! D; D; D; call me if you have an head injuries T_T i blame my shet aim...

after tennis walked with carumen-chan, bella and weelay to north sydney. T_T i'm so unco...damnit man...almost walked through a red pedestrian light and also almost walked into the 'slippery wen wet' cone thingo. lolz bands. >]

funny thing was that we got there at bout 3:05. ended up catching richmond anyway ==;; oh wells =\. won't hold it against anyone. but yesh bella, let's ditch next time >] gl luke in nsb entrance (Y) BAHAHAHA hairy back syndrome~ -hi5jassy- yes carumen-chan O_O i'm going to eat my little sister...D: WAAAAAH noway~ -hug- love you jassy ;D

haha the weekly monday-arvo deep talk (Y) >] idno? i find it easiest to express myself then. >< thnx for listening...as usual<3

TAKERUUUUUU~ yumyum jap restaurant<3 SO awesomely yummy! me and weelay went fully ^w^ takoyaki, jap style pizza, and black-sesame icecream&cheesecake<3 (lol we actually ordered greentea icecream but meh xDD). we are azn >] ate all th crumbs and crap...even the leftover sauce and melted icecream ;D talked lots. sat there for ages~

bahahaha when i went to pay counter we had JUST enough! down the very last CENT! xDDDD so i just poured all my coins out with weelay's note. the reception lady was like "O_O uhmmm -shows bill- it's -points to the price-." i'm like O_O uhmm yeah? >< didn't i give you that much...? then SHET! i realised i hadn't taken out my $5 note xDDDD. gomenasai~. the toilet is so pretti =) yeh weird right? jap hygiene freaks xDD

WAAAAAAAH~ SHET JUST FOUND MYSELF UNCAPPED! =O!!! OMFG! YES! YOSH~! >] good timing! well as good as it could be at this rate...

anywayz xDDD continuing...

walked to dk. skipped out on situps today >] (well thats a good...AND a bad thing D;) the routine today was FREAKING AWESOME! "patron tequila" have forgotten some of the moves now and how to do it already...but -psychepsyche- OMG i love this routine. SO HARDCORE!!! >] cant wait till next week! BAHAHAHAHAHA i swear jaye and gina were advertising drinking in front of us. "jaye! we're of age now! come drink with us >]" xDD

trying to fill the void. please don't misunderstand =( i do wanna make amends...whatever i did D;

commerce. stressing out but obviously not enough ><

freaking court cases...i'd rather blog xDDDD yeh you can see i have prioritising issue (Y) at least will be easier now i'm uncapped.

*note: limit = 1 a day.

~<33 beedee

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oh it's ON! >]



since everyone seems to be on that topic =L might as well join in the fun >]

"im stay a virgin for a while then. -few sentences later- FUCK ME!"

bahahahahaha epic >]

ok i dont have enough to talk the whole post about it == mind dusnt really swing that way ;P

woke up bout 11:30-ish. stoned...realised i had an interview today haha. went on msn instead of practicing inteview potential questions. screw it, wouldn't have helped if i crammed anywayz =L was just gonna do it like how i do in speaking tests (which i dont write the answers for either xDD) = answer truthfully. that way the answers come easily^^

mass blog recaps.

thanks to weelay, ken, shirley joey and tracey for gl-ing (as well as steffu and jassy on fb)^^ (and to 2 of you for helping me with questions =D) haha ken bet you onli asked for help cos i had jap interview in my dp ;P oh wells =) havnt talked in a whilte so yay? waaaa...why was i pushed to last...oh yeah. i couldn't go saturday == (found out there that it was in alphabetical order...) waaaah weelay...maybe week 4? >< dno...WANNA GO WK 3!!! rawr teenager indeed...AND NOT SCRIPTING xDDDDD

"what do you hope to gain from this exchange?" COS IT'S FREEEEEEE~ >] xDDDDD haha no, you. not an answer ;P

turnd off the comp then reaked out about not having a copy of the application.

left house at about 2. yay wore my white cardigan~ :3 FLUFFY!!! ^w^ bella wear yours next time >] got to central...THEN WALKED DOWN THE WRONG STREET! D= damnit...i should've read googlemaps clearer ><;; haha I'M NOT UNCO! NO WAAAAY! ;D

got to the place and sat down with eva and lisa<3 yay for nsg'ers banding toggether bahahaha. group of white girls (no racism intended ><) sitting opposite us LOL eva: "they're so...blonde!" xDDDD nah they're cool. came all the way from wellington =O yes dedicated (Y) love lisa's hardcore boots >] LACE UP!!!! get me a pair~! BAHAHAHAHAHA a cameraman (like the ones that they use to paparazzi people with like pro cameras and recording tapes in hand) came out and started interviewing all the white chicks in the waiting area. we got barrrrreeed~ xDDD oh wells, like lisa said, we don't wanna be interviewed xDD log also there =)

afs person (natasha<3) came out and escorted us in. lulz... so high tech building. keycards and evrything. cameraman still filming this whole time...including in lift xDDDDD poor andrew (zhang xDDD)...face was stuck in the camera in the lift and couldn't do anything about it. went in and murray (i think) was guy explaining stuffs to us. wooooow 2000 ppl applied...500 got interviews...then 240 get in. T_T no pressure at all... totals about 700 people from all over world~!! =O like 60 from nz, thailand, filo, malaysia, indo and india each or something. =) awesomes~

host family's and schools~ sounds so awesome^^ WAAAAAH i hope i get in! but good luck for everyone too^^

got interviewed by natasha^^ she was really nice. haha jassy and gilbert had common ground of mediation~ well me and natasha's was hiphop >] DAMN RIGHT GSTAAAA! xDDD haha. but was alright. no jap speaking thank god =S

mum called me halfway through when back with the big group =S damn my stoopid ringtone. had like a spasm wen i realised it was my phone "EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAWHUMAWAAAAAAAAY~" damnit... hannah was nice^^ (one of the wellington girls) fail untangling human knot xDDD

ran over time majorly. ended at 5-ish? then stood in middle of surry hills for ages cos mum said they was in 'neighburing st' psh...neighbouring st took 15 mins xDDD

went to friend's dad's restaurant for dinner on dixon st. abalone hot pot bahahahaha was yummy^^ DAMNIT! this s all my fault! D; i'm sorry! i really am! T_T don't talk to me anymore...SRSLY!
fixing up contacts on phone to pass time while the adults chatted away. damn i need ppl's fotos xD

got home = STRAWBERRY CHEESECAKE~ and also warm milktea :3 no wonder mum was like "dont eat dessert at the restaurant >]" yay :3

lols everyone's procrastinating~ we're all fked~ ><

yes weelay, so used to him there xDDDDD and yay for slezy outfits <=) bahahaha vt, i like my photographic and music taste thank u very much ;P go luvo you term-old person xDD

yay northies~<3 starship looks awesomes inside AND outside :3 -psychepsyche-

*note to self: remember tennis racquets tomoz

AHAHAHAHA
dad:"COME OUT! theres something good on tv!"
-comes out- -sees miss (chinese) melbourne on TV-
"look look! she's a hiphop dancer~! she even teaches!"
-the chick's just touching herself-
"dad O_O are you serious?"
mum:"yeah i told him even you could dance btter than that >]" ahahahahaha

so many ppl have blogs now D= can't keep up

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, friends, life

it's 12:23...interview is at 3:30...still in pjs...should really write my intro speech.
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pissed. you're a hypocrite. thats frankly the truth. stop accusing people when you should really be looking in the mirror. i admit it, i have a real problem with people judging over small things. Hey, i'm allowed to have btch moments too. i'm the one being barred.

*note to self: he's the hobo xDD

have decided will do PD~ (sorry jassy =( please dont be triste now -hug-)

was late-ish to netball. but then again alice was even later ;P wang was sick again. umpiring, i think i pissed the sg's off. xDDD well sorry for my shetty calls. yay my yr 9 team thrashed loreto >] damn right! we're going for the TOP! xDD and yr 10 team -sigh- well we play for the sake of playing. good exercise? and i still love them as much~ thanks tracey for being so supportive during the game<3

after ntball went to chatty cityhunter to do research. YES my net is THAT bad. and YES i am sad...first time to a netcafe and i'm there to do work. NOOOOOB~ and was major pissed that you can't use usb's...YES i know! probably everyone knew that and knows why but i'm NOOOOOOOB~ ><

had sdden urge to go formal shopping (obviously not buying ==) so went hiking around chatty for a while. the styles now are so boring =( DID find a white dress from cooper st that was realy nice though =) (none of my size) hey...its never too late right? >] if i'm lucky and find <$50 i might actually get another one. shuddup...i'm not richbtch. i just want BOTH to be spesh :3

got home and asked dad to pick me up (pitch dark already). and was standing in the cold for over 15 mins T_T he was supposed to pick me up on the way home from killara but FORGOT and went home first!!! D; waaaaaah -barred-. sed hello to Florist man while waiting =) (O_O i hope he's figured out i'm a local)

yay jap interviews tomoz...havnt prepared...at all. ohwell ^^;; EVERYONE DOING IT - GOOD LUCK~! GANBARIMASHOU~! ^^

everyone's asking for my bday O_O err why? stop rubbing in i'm old damnit...i KNOW i am D; but then haha

lol yes..."ohayougozaimasu...-silence-...hajimemashite!" xDDDDD

woah...shet 7pm to 12am...O_O KONO BAKAYAROU bec! stop it~!!! -headdesk-

there's a good reason i can't show this you yet. cos i'm the least subtle person in the world so...>< if you've found this already through links...my plan has failed and i'm screwed (Y) hopefully you havent D; one day when you're reading this...you're gonna realise how ______(replaced with blank)_______. creepy yeah?

really? nobody? AT ALL?! O_O i still don't believe that. either you're lying or you...ok i'll stop. emote wars xDDDD sad much? OLDIES~ -hi5- ^^

dude i'm not gsar...i'm BSTAA~!! >] xDD sorry...excuse the lameness D;

YAY for mass dp changes >] camwhoring so fun =L all the epic poses >] yay one day...do it together irl :3 YOOOOUUUU~! haha cam console so epic. please dont bring back your clone D; one's enough trouble ;P baby photos<3 gee obsessors >] waaah sorry i was so slow~ you shouldn't have waited D; i'm not letting you do it next time >< and yeah, i meant that last part of the last message. really=)

night sleepy poser ;P

eotteoge hajyo (eotteokhajyo) ddeuleeneun maeum (ddeuleeneun maeum)
(dugeun dugeun dugeun dugeun) dugeundugeun georyeo bamen jamdo mot eerujyo

naneun naneun babongabwayo
geudae geudae bakke moleuneun babo
geulaeyo geudael boneun nan

~<33 beedee

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recap Friday 31 August, 2009

crazy day...hectic.

coaching yr 9 netball at 7:30. only cici, esther, neon, susan and rachael came. must go smack the others =L jksjks. love my team<3

maths. didn't do westpac'06 for hw >< rawr subject selection. i blame you. and i'm sorry i'm tall O_o haha maths with tong is funny. jeez get over the pig xDDD

status: online
communication: static

english. stoned. majorly. thank you, steffu and bella. and thanks bec.

recess was interesting. did you know a circle can be cut into a smaller circle with just an addition to the middle? i'm sorry. ignore me. i'm thinking too much again.

*later note: sorry you. i misjudged...based on something else. i already said sorry before but, i hope you forgive me for being so immature and self-centred. my judgement's never been good.

end of recess...it was a small gesture, but it meant the world. thank you<3

science bludgey. mythbusters was interesting/funny =) the guys are so fail...but pro xDD penny drop and eevator of death (Y) temptation got the better of me and i feel asleep near the end.

went to meet up with scram ppl at ft1 when bell rang. lol mash and miss senthi came too. damn opening statement...damn ct1 jammed printer.

bus to martin place. uwaa~ addie's chocolate crepe SO NICE :3 and lol fbing on mobile. -sigh- had to write up opening statement. didn't realise how long it was till i wrote it up by hand.

then walked to law society. yay omg -psychepsyche- the place was so pro...=O! finished writing up opening statement. hate ct1 printer. could only think of one person to cram txt. thanks for the good luck =) was funny cos i accidentally left my phone inside as we were starting and we went outside. so scared it would vibrate and be sus if replied.

in all, went ok. was surprised how smoothly it went despite us only rehearsing the opening 20 minutes. think cos it was so deep...i kept making random irrelevant comment. >< well...haha loosen up the tense atmosphere? =S i dno...but it was kool. BAHAHAHAHAHA bella says "congratulations on solving your problem today etc." stop. we all BREATHE~ SIGH~ 5 seconds later. -BEEPBEEPBEEPBEEPBEEP- TIME! OMG! xDDDDDD we couldn't see the timer and we ended up finishing with like 5 seconds left. ahahaha we fail. but it was good^^ -sigh- finally semis over. NOW FINALS~ >] i reallyhope we get in >]

wlaking back, me and steffu were screwed cos it was past 3:30 when we left law society. so late for d2mg. the whole way to wynyard we were like FREAKING HELL! run! most people left for martin place and etc. -sigh- caught 273 back to school. scarfed down lunch after north sydney. got back to school at 4. half an hour left =S

d2mg was interesting. a lot different to what i expected...like...was expecting jaye stuff, but the again you can't really do that with so many kids. trina looks like mish mok O_O at least i tihnk so. lol the heel toe thing is annoying. but fun. but annoying xDD overall was alright...but...tbh i might like jaye's better -hi5 weelay- think its cos i prefer it when people take it more seriously. meh, its only the frst lesson. who knows where it might go =)

walked with fi and ariel. thought kevin had bball then got to rooftop and was like O_O wtf none of the team are here. then foned my mum, who had forgotten to tell me ==;; -sigh- so walked to st leonards and caught train. yay for walking in the dark. was fun >] rachael forgot the team kit...-sigh- have to borrow again.

apologized on msn. sorry again for being such a...doosh. and lol live gee vid. scary guys who know the whole song and dance xDDD bahahaha convo with jimmy. was nice =) sorry for the randomness =S talking to the perfect kid xDDD i'm honoured ;P lol jassy and her dodge 'virus' xDDD i voted btw :3 fb stalkers page -shift- was number one on like 5 of them when i checked others -shift-

jassy! you're so bat gwa ;P and least you could do is say the name xDDDD instead of giving random nicknames xDDD wooh voda ftw! refuse to be converted to the virgin dark side >] ahahaha. baha omg lol i'm an influence^^ that's...kyaaa~ ant, my comebacks are awesome >] leave them alone! just cos you cant do it ;P

gee obsession~ xDD bahahaha swearing mum ftw^^ LOL! half-hand size moths. -BANGBANGBANG- then step...-STACK- ;P sorry for randomness ><
*note: dl November Rain and let it rock
*note: 16th - don't kill his phone

thanks for confiding. meant a lot to me. and then thanks for listening =) and we really did 'click' tonight xDD waaaah thankyouuuu<3 -hug- thanks for offering next time~

we're in this together yeah? =)

~<3 beedee

Labels: emotions, friends, life, school