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i feel blank...

i don't know why ><
i'm such a...despo >[ screw it...

today~ morning haha guess what? SCRAM~! what else xDD -sigh- 7:30 get to school = wake up at 6. Yeah i know, thats probably normal for most people but wateva, i want more freaking time in my bed.

was first one there. dark~ :3 crashed CT1 before seeing ms achele. then ppl came and didn't see me haha =L thank yuu ms achele for lending (-shift-) 2b pencils.

damn chem quiz. science not my thing. actually zoned out and (almost?) fell asleep for like 5 minutes. then guess wat woke me up?! ;D a certain sound...a very loud sound that i've been hearing a lot :3 no i'm not kidding ><;; anywayz. screwd up badly...but cbfed to worry over it. although lol for Q1 - as soon as finishd, compares answers for Q1 with weelay and lenloe = all different xDDD

pd2...MORE SCIIENCE D; frekaing hell...oh well. easy stuffs. dodge crosswords...retardation xDDD yep that would be me >] celia and wheeza are so camerashy ;D '~gonna getcha!'

recess was random...probs? sorry...doing this on friday night O_O

jap haha lol scary jap actors/actresses and scary bogan ppl who try to be overenthusiastic japists...funny shet. yay got goodlucked for sunday^^

again...lunch...dont really remember >< ah thats right...haha >] yes 'sit eat and chat' as i told someone >]

maths...westpac practice...sorry i didn't duck.

commerce was...O_O bleurgh i dont even remember what we did? a video i think? oh that right == the castle...wth =L "go on tell them wha you did! -bashful- (name) dug a hole! =)" lol and were like "=D i live in a hole! 8) i dug it myself!" yesyes haha lols me log and elaine fun.

after school met up with cath and shirley and jassy and went to ct1. (subject selection at 7). bummed around (LOL! "TIM(E)! COME TO DINNER!" xDD) and did...work -shift- well they did =) jassy's brother jason came and crashed us =D they look so alike! haha...talked about random stuffs.^^ was nice =)

around 5 went (with cath and shirley^^ tagalongs ;P) to nsb 'art' expo to meet up with mum to look at my bro's work...supposedly (fail...she didn't come till 5 miniutes before it ended ==) lol nsgs were already there; em and ange from y 11, and kath and vianna and terry ad co. also saw paul, nathan, timothy, alexk, du and tristan =). haha yay^^. ppl keep owning me for my dodge badge...mebbe i should take it off -shift- haha nice work yr 10 quartet ;D tristan's guitar and vocal solo hallelujah - amazing~. bahaha we had to keep turning around. they should put the piano and guitar stuffs in the same place O_o caught up with mr weiss =)

went to ramen shop for dinner!!! haha saw angela (from yr 10) with her mum and dad =) meanie...making us hungry while we stood out in the cold waiting for a seat =L yay tokyo style ramen dish :3 bahah shirley and her kids ramen xDD proportional maybe ;P wet seaweed =L

walking back to school. ahahahaha hilarious ways to deal with rapists = just throw all your stuff at them xDD i've got my folder and schoolbag >] that would hurt (Y)

hehe coincidentally met up with REC back from city. subject selection...lol majo and her mum xDDDD funny pair (Y) now tossing up between beginners italian and pd for last subject...=\

lolz...phone lag. screw you battery. massive text day =L shirley and cath would know...yeh the tone's really loud xDD

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, friends, life, school

teachers…heaps are dooshes but some are just awesome =)
haha random much?

So freaking cold this morning… thank you to chilli and floppy for keeping me warm :3

Had the company of STEPHen yates on the train =L yes carumen-chan, Stephen xDD when I got to school, had to tour whole of E-block to find everyone D; can’t we make up our mind about where we sit in the morning? ><

Maths…didn’t fall asleep~! =O yeah! swapped around the seats…haha sort of >< [still sitting in same seat cos cbfed to move xD] now with TONG~! <3 …aka daisy xDDD fail vertical messages on the sides of the page. I was like –reading-… “you’re so…cloo…clueiei…oh >< clueless” only it took me a bit longer than that ><;; but then she was even more epic fail xDDDD took her 5 minutes to work out “derob ma I” ;D haha moo to you too ;P

Science…heh >< failed chem shortquiz. Should’ve gone with gut feeling…crossed out a) and coloured in b)…ended up being freaking a)! >[ baka~! Mr k is such an aggro teacher =L throwing laptops and dusters at students to test force xDDD

Recess just talked. Cheesecake yogurt~ yum :3

PE o’sullivan is back . soft…hockey bats thingies. Fail ‘dribbling’. Was…alright == lost interest in the game…although it was getting disturbing how many people just stood there with the sticks sticking out between their legs…then are like “WHERE’S MY BALL(S)?!??!” xDDD

Status: communication ok! ^^ (Y)

Battle of the year advisors in the hall at lunch. Haha miss banks and miss senthi<3 eardrums got blasted out…and freaking yr 7s and 8s: GET OVER IT! == why so fking competitive.

Pd4 English with ms seeto…HAHAH EPIC! ^w^ as always. Talking about English extension…then ended up turning to ms seeto’s hsc…then to her uni…then dodge schools she’d taught at (BAHAHAHA “guys with names starting with J are such a pain in the ass” ;P)…and then to ambassadoring overseas in china for teaching…then disgusting foods that chinese eat “have fido for lunch =)” =L and LOL but ew = turtle swimming in the soup brought out …then her hate of frogs…then chinese men growing out their pinky nail to pick at earwax xDDDDDDDD QUOTES QUOTES~! >] (*note:BAGS quoting these to school mag team >])
“student: Ms seeto do you talk about kids?”
ms seeto: Of course I do! >] I bitch about them all the time~!”
Funny stuff xDD

Finally pd.5 wide reading English with ms mattick. Thought I was shetted cos we were doing out speeches…but she forgot the palm cards >] YES~! So we read. Haha damn right~! I’m so tank I can carry the whole crate of books by myself! =O…no not really is it? xDDD started reading tomorrow when the war began. then OMG >w< heal the world started playing while we were reading!!! :3 was suddenly reminded of someone so I txted em^^ lol crazy bus drivers xDD nicenice. =\ r.i.p right earphone =)

SCRAM afterschool. xDDDD wendy’s taller than weelay, oh SNAP! =L were hungry so ordered pizza…then BAHAHAHAHA greekness vs. asianess with money xDD epic conversations with ms achele ^w^

Haha just thought of this. Screw it’s lameness >< SCRAM PICNIC<3: ness is barbeque, Shirley is aluminium foil, and me and weelay are m&m’s :3 dw if you don’t get it >]

haha weelay yay for procrastinating. dont wanna go home~ ;D

Txting on the walk to st leonards…almost tripped and crashed into people xDDD epic ><

Haha mum was ok with me walking home in the dark…maybe I can stretch that a bit for future purposes >] –takesnote- but for now allowed is get home before 6. Cos yay I’m a girl, imma get raped ==

Rawr, got on comp for like 2 minutes then dad goes “turn it off, it’s slow on the other side and I need to use it” GARGH! So just wrote this on word first. Consequently fell asleep cos the heater was so warm and…sleepy haha? :3 although I shouldn’t be cos I went to sleep at 1:30 last night…=\. Anyway, was woken up by txt tone on phone^^ chicken again? xDDD

wondering what to do for filler subject...still only got 11 units. thinking about: drama, society and culture, studies of religion (but dont really want to ><)...but then i'll have 13 units...unless do studies of religion. or maybe a beginner language? gargh...

S’all for tonight. Gonna go turn on the net and post this now. Ttyl yay^^

night hobo ;P

you just make me smile =)

wonder who will appear in yor dreams tonight. i know who will in mine =)

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, life, school

damn cityrail. R.I.P to person who died at roseville...BUT FREAKING HELL! delayed for over half an hour... ==

mum picked me up at gordon and drove me and kev to school...got there at 8:20 for combined choir >< fail...=L timothy got a haircut...damn no more shampoo ads =\

scripture fun^^ didn't do anything but just epic conversations :3 assembly...YAY~ HOODIES!! =D year meetings fail == we have no year advisors xDDDD

hate the feeling you're getting barred...really makes you wonder what you did wrong...AGAIN ><

pd2 Jap uneventful. wish we watched the sumo movie D; then sorta dozed...FOR A SECOND! but yeah...me sleeping in jap? not a good sign -sigh- and yay got test back. was actually REALLY suprised got 75(/75 ><) for listening...could've sworn i got all the times mixed up =S and yeah...haha blaming the grapes for my one mark off reading >]

recess was ok. just the usual...? -yeah definitely getting barred ><-

pd3 science. so out of it >< fully just copied the answers off the screen -shift- weelay's dodge txting haha^^

lunch yay dumplings. was SO stoned >< then got snapped out of it...and then everyone got sus again xDDDDD -unbarred yay- and to lenloe...no its too sus >< no for now ><

subject selection stuffs with mr jones in staff common for pd4. was err...stuffy...so er might've dozed off for a sec >< but waaah...now i'm considering doing maths again...hmmm wat to do~

(2u) Jap continuers
(3u) english ext
(2u) eco
(2u) Modern History
(2u) maths (maybe?)
[still need one unit...hmm...NO IDEA D=]

to jassy...you got it >< but -zp-! D; promise yeh?!

pd5 MAJOR BLUDGE~! drama...even miss mac cbfed so we ended up gossiping about movies and actors ;D lol hp6 obsession circulating...wanna wacth it...D;

SCRAM afterschool...lol miss mac joined in. man this problem is so depressing >< but hope we wont be screwed...

walked home in the dark-ish. lol mum and kev and dad sped past on pacific hwy "-beep!!- shet O_O oh...-waves like a retard-"

now being random. got dinner now~ maybe post later.

~<33 beedee

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todays a shifty day =L

woke up late (haha shock!) and was just in time. got to school.

1st pd drama. assessment marks = 9 and 10. haha i guess thats alright >< spesh since the 10 (improvisation piece) was made up the night before :S shhhh ;) bahahaha funny exercises. walking then STOP and smile/frown at closest person...even if they're not looking at you xDDD. kept cracking up. then being driven around hall with eyes closed...freaking scary >< too damn chicken to go fast (couldn't feel or see damnit!) then -SCREEEEECH- hard brake (literally...that sound xDD). then the 'i have the force~!! >]" game xDDD silent game where other person moves hand around slowly i had to keep my face 3cm away from other person's palm. so damn creepy...just try imagining it xDDD should film us doin it one day >] 'My house' game...haha ok? O_O and then LMAO~! blind sculpting >] one person has eyes closed then other person strikes a pose & facial expression. blind person has to feel their way to other person then mirror the other person by trying to feel what other person's position is. xDDDDD including the face xDDDDD yes such a perverted game =L thank god we're all girls LOL
(sorry. fun lesson = lots to say ^^)

2nd pd geo. totally zoned out >< so screwed for this...don't know any trade. was doing drama journal for half of lesso -shift- don't wanna have a repeat of last term so =S

recess...uhm...dont remember much ><

3rd pd commerce - finished chamberlain case video. waaaaaah~ got so scared during dingo perspective part. freaking screamed when it attacked the baby (yeah i get scared easily ><) txted^^ was nice. =)

at lunch...people were sus xDDDDD especially carumen-chan ;P. funny xDD

then had sport. DOCTOR melville has us for tennis...uhm lol? we fail...balls went flying everywhere xDD me, bella, weelay, carmen-chan, cassy and lisa shared court :3 haha was def on a high...then low >< last game - how did melville end up playing too? O_O

after carumen-chan bella and weelay diched me to go stanton D= thats right...haha jksjks^^ got to north sydney afterwards at the same time anyway so >] and then took dodge loner foto xDDD u'll see what i mean ;P

after got to city bummed around with weelay...doing nothing? xDD call from log -shift- haha shhh weelay xDDDD well had nothing to do till 5 >< hmm so we walked to our spot (lunch from outing) near darling harbour<3 haha just sat there... talked lots...and listened and talked more =L but was nice <33 just to talk ^w^ and exchange worries? on the same topic =) thank you for not judging me. and BAHAHAHA this whole time dodge bike guys were flying (yes FLYING! xDD) everywhere around us...and they were wearing their pants halfway down their butts == not cool...to watch xDDD

5-ish we went to harbourside to buy ice cream from andersens with coupon >] so slack and azn >< it said nothing about what we could get (apart from that it had to be ice cream) so we got 2 scoops in choc-dipped waffle cone ^w^ felt realy bad but...was good ice cream >] mocha almond fudge<33 sharing on the way to dance...must've looked dodge xDDD and OMG! shibuya shop~!!<33 must go there someday :3

at dk. just went over crazy again. LMAO! nooby girls >] even noobier than us!! xDDDD and haha...so embarassing >< lent jaye ipod to play 'crazy' but then he decided to use other songs first and raided my songs >< fking...argh! so embarassing wen THAT song came on after the one he picked finished >< and then 'love will find a way' from lion king 2 D= waaah~ and then shet....he switched it to sometimes by brit >< DAMNIT shudn't have volunteered...but we added a new part so yay^^ the longer the better :3 almost finished to end of chorus now i think^^

more dodge talk xDDDD took train home and stuffs...fell asleep in the carriage then woke up a stop away from pymble >] SKILLLLZ~

yay for decorating pencil cases =) one-sided webcam and emotes ftw~ :3 and haha yesh lindt bunnies -munchmunch- night poserr ;P

~<33 beedee

p.s. i sorta hope you havn't found this place yet...cos if you have i've totally given myself away D;

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11:40pm why am i so fail?!

procrastinating...to the really last minute. you were right weelay, not even CRAMMING's gonna happen ><

steffu makes to-do lists...i make...should-have-done-now-you're-screwed lists (Y)

*note...most of these....HAVN'T STARTED! fk bec...

*english - practice wide reading speech - Wednesday 29.07
*english - memorize script - errr...next english lesson...Wednesday 29.07
*SCRAM - just do it! - Friday 31.07
*commerce - court case research - Tuesday 04.08
*science - DO LOG BOOK AND FKING GET A SRP - ASAP! (Friday 14.08)
*PE - Group game (ESP MY PART!) - fk i dont know when but ASAP!
*maths - revise and DO HW OF HALF A YEAR! - ASAP!
*Formal - ...........that - End of Week 5 officially but gonna make it week 4 personally
*geo - population assignment - Wednesday 26.08
*PD - Group research project - Friday 25.09
*Formal - Save the fk up! - end of term for us...dno when for SB

oh and quickly for today:

haha despite last night (this morning) 4:40, actually managed to get up at 8:30 in time for work. of course with a bit of unwnated help == like "KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK " hmm...yeah that got annoying...

then of course there was "are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done?"

amazed i didn't snap. should've when my dad came in while i was changing...but managed to only say exasperatedly "Oi I'm changing! get out." what i WANTED to say would've gotten me in just a bit of trouble...
*note: my dad is NOT a perv...

choked down brekkie. got in car and we went to north rocks for market. -sigh- routine stuff. setting up all the monitors and testers. freaking neighbouring table stole 2 of our 3 table covers. deathglared them for a while before i gave up. sales went up during 11 - 1. mum brought lunch but for some reason wasn't feeling all that hungry... so only ate half the lunchbox.(NO i'm not going ano. knowing me i couldn't even if i tried == cant stand missing out even a meal) -sigh- i think i'm getting sick of the hsm3 movie (not the music :3 thats still >w<) cos i used it as the sample for all the screens. can almost freaking recite the lines...only reason i use it is cos its music and bright graphics = loud and visually snatches people. yes this is my advertising skills coming into place. and also cos it attracts litte kids with their parents. the kids stay there with eyes LITERALLY glued to screen >] and then parents can't get them to go away so stay and wait as well >] hehehehe. problem is that my eyes somehow get glued to the screen as well...GARGH NOT GOOD!

anywayz. started txting around 1. was ULTRA bored. dodge topic with weelay =L hehe.

packed up at 3:20 and left. haha...txting kept my spirits up >< fk i'm becoming a phone junkie xDDD

fb notes = addictive.

confused...like...wtf?

slept at 6. yeh...6 in the morning >< shuddup...i dont know what i was doing either?

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fk its sunday night
fk its te last day of holidays
fk schools tomorrow
fk i'm fked...
fk my life

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ok quick QUICK REALLI QUICK recap

Monday 20th July: slept till 2 or 3 or sumthing >< realised needed to leave soon. went SO :3 >////< on msn. also a bit O_O ...sus. don't really wanna say why. went to dance :3 we learnt more for 'crazy' dance^^. yay. and got the warm up songs names >] altho cant read artist for one ARGH! "you" got back. lol owning ppl on msn...funfun. dont know why vincent likes runnning around telling ppl i'm holding a party...just cos he wants one == ah...right this day (refer to tuesday post) >< stopped breathing...srsly...lol weelay 'male source' <=)

Tuesday 21st July: OUTING~! ;D yeh...sorry for being late >< [weelay, steffu, bella, shirly, maz, carumen-chan, cath, ant, dc, paul, oliver, ian, jacky, vinnie] lol Duke of Ed around city for shirley >] capsss~ funny stuff. and i [ph]ail at decorating D; being shifty with stickies >< then wen market city. yay^^ galaxy world. bahaha "HARDER RENEE HARDER...wait FASTER!!! no TOO FAST!" BAHAHAHA funny stuffs. then everyone sorta died...outside...dodge dropping 5 cents from top floor ==;; wandered to spesh place for last time^^ wen harbourside to buy lunch. lol jacky = anthony's wife. -runaway- bought twister and wicked wings. so high at lunch^^ talking to lauren on speaker xDDDDD fail bin. byebye jacky and vinnie. dogged k and went pool instead. xDD we fail (Y) epic. after pool went back down to steps of hrbourside. (*so fked i just found 4 andersen free ice cream coupons...NEXT TIME! >] ) and had mini frozen blueberry fanta...while ant had the big one lol! proportional much? and random orgasm card games... xDDD then walkin back to town hall...dc and ant shouting orgasms...that sounds weird o_O xDD and then got to TH said bye to shirley, ant, dc, maz, bella, oliver, carumen-chan. and BAHAHAHAHA me and weelay mimicking xDDDDDDDDD -shift- then bummed at a street corner before leaving as well xDDDD got home and uploaded fb :3 (NO! did not come home to do that><) and got spammed with comments. foneno. YATTA~! >< shhh... and i'm so fking...selfish? no wrong word...uhm...self-centered...i guess? and promises<33 omg such a <33 convo >///< actually about really random stuff but...it's just really nice when talking about stuff like that. makes me smile =) a lot =)

Wednesday 22nd July: woke up at 3pm hehe ><...then mass fb uploading. weirdish requests...maybe? O_O and yay for mutual interests^w^ bittersweet...a million emotions..."draw with me"<33 must remember to ask him to finish it =) lol busy night. on fone with lenloe, then msning/webcamming, and helping mum with emails and attachments cos she's techfail. xDDD and then kyaa~ :3 and epic webcam session xDDD yay^^ thanks for staying up with me =) you were tired... i could tell =( after got turned off kept drawing =) some of those...yeah must make sure nobody sees them >< cept mebbe...yeh haha. Yay SCRAMsemis^^ feel accomplished >]

Thursday 23rd July: think i woke up at 3 again >< i'm so fking sad... first thing in the morning before anything els i turned on te comp>< shudup D; lol at weelay's sister and immaturity xDD. capped freaking hell! YAY for dodge screenshots^^ haha cant stop laughing at it now. will secretly be =) that i took it^^. YAY FOR MORE MUTUAL INTERESTS! >] [*note: convos seem to get more and more fun later at night >] i need to stop sneaking back on with expectations [*note: sorry that i'm talking in riddles. yeah i admit it...a lot of this stuff is record for my own sake, not relaly for people to read it >< sorry~] crushbot is fking DODGE!

Friday 24th July: fk being capped! oh and i'm really slack with desktop contacts -shift- dodge convos...sus...VERY sus...wtf is happening?! D; why am i getting drived == convo with steffu was =) and LOL $60 PINK POTATO SACK! nicenice (Y)^^ xDDDD congrats =)YAY FOR JAP EXCHANGE INTERVIEWS~! WAAAAH SO HAPPI~ ;D yay steffu, and jassy~!!! hmmm formal afters....inteesting? haha will think about that... i'm a stalker...>< shudnt be asking these questions..D= but its awesome how much i think nobody else knows/cares about and you know =) lol vacuuming >] and YES! CHAAAAANSU~! >] yay^w^ lol for going the rong way with words xDDDDD and lol for misinterpretations...:3 me having a part in that most probably >< lol formal dresses being kept a secret^^ and GARGH I'm SO FKING OBVIOUS TOO~ snuck and talked to carumen-chan. was sweet :3 haha yeh i'm creep no? haha latenight/morning stay-uppers ^^

Saturday 25th July: WOKE UP AT 12:10am!! BY MYSELF! =D shuddup >< its an achievement for me >< SCRAM outing :3 was productive^^ but also...haha funfun shopping^^ rawr at de lourve for being so damn cute but so damn expensive D; fob shops rule but suck >< WAAAAAAH~ I LOVE MY NEW CARDIGAN!! HI5 BELLA!~ :3 really warm and fuzzy^w^ and LOL for dodge confidanting hehe^^;; and then >< on bus...mass txting =) was very pleasantly surprised. :3 cos took out phone to txt cos i remembered where u were...then saw sumthing waiting there =O >< shush... stayed up till 4:40am...>< -sigh- smittenbadly. lol yes champy junkie ;P ccs and tsubasa<33 *note: very weirded out...HOW?! WHY? O_O like....wth?! don't know what to think anymore >
~<33 beedee

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if what i'm sussing is true...

then you're BOTH too obvious ><

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions

~Snowies 2009~

DAY 3 - 19.07

ok i didnt write this one on the day so will be shorter ><

woke up. walked with ppl to mess hall. frekaing...so many kids. fail when getting stuff with ladle (like in cafeterias ><) ate too much...again==
got out and evryone was packed. drove up there. on ski train mish's mum asks me about earrings. ok? O_O
arrived and LOL parents aren't allowed to dirnk wine in the room anymore cos there were skool kids there. had to keep it in a locker xDDDD outside was all white =O really awsome looking^^
Skiing - tried out the easier tracks to warm up (yeah weird...warming up in the snow ><) met our instructor for today...ngaaaww beau wasnt there =( new instructor - mark. FREAKING HELL YOU KNOW HE SPITS SO FKING MUCH! its like he's FROTHING at the mouth the entire time. and its just running down his chin -shivers- urgh. its FKING WHITE! saliva far out. anywayz. he was crappy instructor == left us behind then stacked it himself. bahahaha karma >] he took us down the easy tracks then to pleasant valley where it was all white. :3 srsly the snow blended in with the sky. you could barely see in front...yeh dodge>< but it was kool ;D patrick kept going off on his own == kids shudnt show off -patpat- HAHAHAH xDD
rope tow (like a t bar except with frekaing rope) - was so fking annoying. the rope SLIPPED out of your gloves...and even thru frekaing thick gloves you could feel the rope burn! frekaing mark for taking us there >[ tbh was so fking relieved when lesson was over. was like thinking "YES FKING HELL GET ME OUT OF HERE!" well was also thinking "LUNCH! OMFG IM HUNGRY!" but yes =)
lunch was hectic. 200 school kids crammed into a room made to seat probs about 50. ngaaawww dove choco wrapper quote: "a smile is a curve that sets a lot of things straight." i dno if its meant to be sweet but it is fo me :3
skiied around a bit. went with mish and winnie and kev and derek to make snow angels :3 but our snow is shet == my arms got so tired. the legs part was like 3 times as deep == oh wells. was the experience that counted (Y) (even though it didnt show up that well on the camera ><) and SNOW HEARTS! :3
then went down pleasant valley. nice cruise. got to the end where winnie and derek went back up chairlift to parents. me mish and kev kept skiing down rollercoaster (blue) AND WAS FKING AWESOME! so fun^^ like hill after hill after hill :3 but then got to bottom and were like...O_O shit how do we get back up. cos we were literally in the valley. so we took the ridge quad chairlift back up and OMFG! the view was AWESOME! we could see the WHOLE valley. meaning we had skiied down the whole mountain! =O (so pissed that i was too scared to take a photo...we could actually see ourselves going into the clouds! ^^) so the chairlift went all the way around and up the mountain back to summit where kevin went down zali's for the first time. he was like swearing down the whole thing =L but yeh that was awesome^^ too bad we did it at the end =( had to go right after that...oh well NEXT YEAR! >]
on ski train back, sat with nathan. just talking =) then took pics of ppl. bAHAHAH nathan so stoned. >]
got back to bottom. got in car and went back to lodge to pick up luggage and return ski gear. shet the guy serving us looked like eren O_O -nocomment-.
then we were off. BAHAHAHA me and kev raved to mj music in car =L then after the 2nd repat of disc fell asleep. mum had said we were having dinner at hungry jacks but we were sleeping so they decided not to wake us up or stop. ngaaawww <33
got back and we got kfc from north ryde. ^w^ SUPER VARIETY BUCKET (ordered it cos the ad was stuck in my head xDDD) then read the paper on the tableat kfc and saw story about family murder at epping. D; R.I.P<33
got home and fking jumped in the shower. AAAAAAHHHHH~~ so WARM! and Aaaaaaahhh~ =D
ate. talked on msn a bit^^ fb >] and thats that.

might not be going snow nxt year so must savour this :3

~<33 beedee

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SNOWIES (again)

DAY 2 - 18.07

11:05pm.Didn't have time to write today other than now. so currently doing this under my blanket in my bunk (i'm on the bottom). using mobile as torch. it's amazingmum/dad hasn't complained yet.
So...today. Failed getting up. ended up getting up at 6:45. Brekkie was at 7 D; not to mention i still needed to get to mess hall.
the grass and plants were frosted over. so cool :3 took fotos on macro >]
Learned lesson last night - didn't overload. Poached eggs = lol?! no bacon D;
Got back to lodge and stuied up. felt and looked like a frikkn marshmallow.
Car was iced over and windows frosted. wrote a certain 'line' i can't get out of my head on the window. YOU might know what 'm talking about ^^
Drove to ski tube. Nathan was snowboarding...wanted to try it so much D; but not exactly prone to balance >< Maybe next year :3
Ski train was stuffy. All the way up to My BlueCow. NSW sport and rec centre private room = warm. >] Suckballs...
Got out in the snow. Ah it was good to be back :3 had an hr till lesson (part of package == had no choice...) so we jsut tried out east track. felt good to be skiing again^^ Quite easy ><
*Note: i HATE walking up the hill in ski gear...never do it in skis == waste of effort...
10:30 lesson. we were all booked in for skiing so nathan had no instructor xDDD...had to wait till 11:30 to organise one...but he got a priv lesson xDDD nicenice.
Instructor Beau. When telling us possible nicknames (Bozo, Boey etc.) thought he meant his name was 'bo" so when he said "call me anything with 'bo' in it" automatically said "BOOZE! >]" xDD
2 hr lesson. all in all easy. Mish's dad and Kelly and Richard (rando parents) O_O and me, Kev, Mish, Winnie, Patrick, Derek. Mish's dad = <33orangetea xDDDD lol
Quote Beau "Awww Bec you're killing it! YOU ARE JUST KILLING IT!" I was like thinking "O_O is that a good or bad thing?" xDDD (turned out to be a compliment).
Lunch - lamb (slosh?) with veggie rice yumyum :3 HOt coffee~ (ncie weather - sun, not snowing. btw face gets whipped on chairlifts D;) Vincent and Jay met up with us. Joined them after lunch cos they go on hardcore tracks >] WEnt up to SUMMIT with them and did some badass tracks >] (side saddle and zali's) Sun was visible circle cos of clouds :3 was cool.
Met up with RIcky and Patrick and UNcle Tony on Zali's track (double blue). ALmost ice (the snow) but was heaps fun - steep >] (45-ish degrees?) [Nathan was still shaky on board so he was cruising on pleasant valley. Kev was sick cos of lunch ><] Vincent and co went back to Perisher so i took patrick and Mish and winnie onside saddle (yesyes == being the responsible 'older sister'babysitter) Mish was able to swerve slightly, altho breaking all the way, but winnie was having trouble (breaking only - no swerving) so we only went up side saddle 3 mroe times cs me and patrick and mish wanted to do zali's. i love bombing the last part of zali's (-shift- ignores big orange SLOW! sign xDDD) Pretty fun...managed to keep the 2 kiddies safe ><.
Skitrain back - long ride ==
Bagsed hot shower when we got back >]...so relieving.
DInner. me and nathan accidentally wlaked there 15 min early -shift- not my fault. paranoid about kangaroo shit in the dark now. random primnary school and 2 high school groups as well...i eat way too much...O_O nathan calls me half vegn just cos i eat veggies AS WELL AS meat wtf?
walking back with nathan. talked about formals for girls vs. boys (financially xDDD) and doing work at our dad's places...he got paid freaking $150 for 2 DAYS! d;
Got back - watched the simpsoins marathon >] hogging cushions on the couch lol xDDD Patrick invades! ARGH!! xDD Prngles = crumbs from little kids >[ jeez == Lotte waffle obsessions :3 Then watched Adam Sandler in Happy Gilmoe.^^ Such an epic movie xDDD *Nathan didn't take his hat off till end of move =L i was like "...you're still wearing your hat. xDDD"

I want a hug from someone ><

That's all for tonight. Last day tomoz. Hoep it will be fun :3 missing you all~ sweet dreams~
signing out 12:03am.

~<33 beedee

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-sneaking back into blog room- "oh hi...uhm...hehe ><;; my bad"

shuttup bec.

hi...i'm alive? no didnt seem like it >< havnt done ANYTHING these holidays. so fked. admiring ppl who hav the willpower to do work (yes...i'm ESPECIALLY looking at YOU! yes you know who you are!...ok maybe you dnt O_O)

yeh..."promise to write bout snowies 2moz." ballshit bec...ballshit

well beta now than never.

~Snowies 2009~

DAY 1 - 17.07

Writing this up in the car. it's 2:30pm. Woke up at 9:30, thought we were leaving at 12 but turned out we were leaving at 10. FREAKING...
Just as we were leaving, faxed off Work exp forms to Lauren.
Trying to get comfortable in the car (normal 5 seater with the 4 of us) Very squished, ended up taking off shoes and using the eski as a pilow and lay down in fetal posiion xDD Kev played PSP...typical. Mum talked xDD and Dad drove <33
Sent dodge txt to Weelay. Phoned lenloe to see how ipt was going (after staying up all night D;) and talked for 16 min :3. Gave dodge advice >< cos she was depressd D;. THnk you for confiding in me -hug- Means a lot to me.
Then fell asleep. Woke up at 1:30pm to MJ music (Heal the World) that mum had put on. Was reminded of someone...missing you<3. Stopped at Hungry Jacks for lunch. Orders wre dodge xDD:
Jnr Whopper - Mum
Whopper - Dad
Double WHopper Meal - Kev
Double Cheeseburger Stunner Meal - Me
Saw a maccers ad on the TV in HJ xDD fail.
Mum is playing Blue Danubes Waltz. Now gonna go sleep again. Hope everyone back in SYdney is having fun. MIss you guys already (but no Weelay, not too much ;P)

11:20pm Everyone's asleep. Sitting in the lodge corridor writing this. Turns out it's the same place as last year. THe lodge is nice. Very comfortable and warm :3 In the room no. 5. I just realised that i'm the oldest out of all the kids...so i'm responbsible for everyone. Bleurgh...just cos Nathan is 20 days younger than me >[.
ANywayz so we got to the palce and went ski hire. When they were measuring our height I, by some miracle, ended up being 170. The guy was like "WOAH! You're giant!" == one you can't measure cos i'm supposed to be 165, and two 170 i not giant >[ not when you know guys the size of ant nad JZ xDD
ANywayz, kids witha couple of adults got dinner in the mess hall. At first thought we were drivng - but i wanted to walk. So nathan agrees and we start running. It was dark so I'd ran for about 100m before I realised he'd conned me and stayed at the car D; freaking bastard >[. Then turns out Mish's dad cbb driving us so we walked anywayz == gg...
The kids (ranging 8-13 yrs old) were all high and ran ahead. Me and Nathan lagged behind and talked. THen my brother crippled Nahtan by elbowing him in the back xDD. Nathan wouldn't stop going on about carnivorous kangaroos...then speak of the devil, we saw one! Funny...cos it jsut stood there. Tried stalking it with camera, but was too dark D; ALmost got lost on the wat to mess hall cos of kids' dodge directions...
Overloaded at dinner D; think i ate more than Nathan/adults! so me and nathan decided to walk back ahead, since we both were stuffed. Saw 2 more kangaroos ^w^ Nathan had indigestion on way back -patpat- now almost every plant in the place is infected with some part of his dinner XDD Being ninja and stuck to the shadows so we could run away from Patrick -shift-
After got back watched Masterchef (mmm...tomatoes and chocolate mousse :3) and SYTYCD. Hehe...Nathan owned the kiddies by moving couch in front of theirs so we could see/hear clearer. Hey, they weren't watchin TV anyway so meh >]
So yeah...should sleep now...hoping to catch the sunrise 2moz. it's really cold in the corridor >< think it's ike -5 outside.
THe sky is really clear ot here. filled with stars :3 very...romantic? xDDD ok sorry D;
Hoping tomrrow will be fun :) the snow is apparently really good :3 (if you're lucky, might bring back a snowball xDD lol DC)
Sweet dreams everyone <33 nite [finished 11:47]

~<33 beedee

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promise to write bout snowies 2moz.
but right now...i just can't think about that.

i'm so confused.

why am i like this...damnit.

thank you weelay for listening to me. love you muchly<33 thanks for being there, i'm hopeless without somone to listen to me. i actually can't wait now...for that to happen. >////< :3 sorry for keeping you awake. i can't help wanting to talk about it >< hopeless romantic indeed D;

why are you so...frustrating? no i'm not mad. it's just...what you do it's like...argh! are you serious or not? you're sending me all these mixed messages that i just don't know what to think anymore

i stopped breathing. then the illusion was shattered. that was my fault. i'm sorry. i'm lousy like that. fk my stoopid 'clueless' "?". im such a freaking coward.

my hearts feeling...like it was ripped out, and put back in...but its not genuine anymore? i don't know! i'm sorry that i seemed disappointed. i'm sorry. i'm just really sorry that i made you feel bad. i'm such a manipulative bitch.

but...i just cant help it. you're the only one that can make me feel like this. now it's just painful to think that i could never be number one. and, selfish as it may be, i'm sad to think that it was...again...just wishful thinking on my side. of course it couldn't be serious^^. i'm such an idiot for thinking anything else.

i'm sorry.

but i won't give up. ganbarimasu~! baka demo...

someday...just maybe...

~<33 beedee

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can now dance the chorus of Gee~ :3

~<33 beedee



it's 2:36am

i'm on cos i turned the net back on :3 don't feel like sleeping...and haven't finished packing ><

talking to Elena who's webcamming with Ike, who i'm blaming for Elena not doing her ipt because she told me to xDDD funny stuff.

snowies tomorrow...so we'll be driving for a while. can sleep then >]

will mass-text people while there cos i'm bored xDDD be prepared^^

~<33 beedee

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yeh lame title ==

soz...its hols...i'm bored and cbf to blog (Y)

Tuesday - spent most of day sleeping (wat els? ==)and then went work experience hunting. got owned when i called up 2 different newpapers then got directed to same person who organized both places T_T anywayz. stupid event management place person who said -nasal voice- "you know normally they do it in february." shut up bitch! stop putting me down >[ i dont fking care.... i left it till late got it?! haha pmsing >< then cosmo lady lauren sounds nice =) mebbe she'll give me a place? -hopes-

funny convo. shower business -shift- xDDD yay for hopeless romantics =)

and you tell me to ask...but you have no idea how hard that is for me D; especially when you're...

Wednesday - Went to work with dad and kevin. at first tested monitors then folded (about) 250 boxes. Freaking didnt need that many either xDD Uncle Ahmad gave me passionfruits (2 cos my bro didnt want his >]) and they were SO NICE~ ^w^ <33 must buy some more one day >]

things to remember to try (on someone) one day:
"Hey what's your name? Oh dont tell me I know already. Bastard right? B for Bitch, A for asshole, S for shit, T for turd, A for ANOTHER asshole, R for retard, and D for dick. right? >]"

and

(tried this one on my brother...hilarious =L)

you hold a big fat permanent marker (lid off) in your hand like you're about to write with it, the you pretend to write with index finger on the back of their neck. they turn around and see you holding the permanent marker and are like "shit" but they can't see what you wrote. >]

hilarious stuff.

then Harry with his dodge Iranian accent started calling kevin "antistatic" cos i stuck an antistatic sticker on him and he realised but forgot to take it off for a few hours =L then Lin comes in and is like "Harry, have you got any antistatic -some stuff that i couldn't make out from his asian accent-" me and kevin cracked up so bad =L couldn't stop laughing for ages.

GROUP OUTING! planned for next tuesday >] can't wait to see everyone again<33 haha...yes even the guys =L those stooges...

also going to city/movies/k with andy/steven/jj and hopefully (>]) cc next thursday. haha cant wait >] to meet the legendary jj and cc. =L

i think i scared him away. D;

~Thursday (today)

went to work again. hey i get paid, so child labor is still worth it >] moved/stacked/checked (i counted) 140 computer monitors (allboxed up with foam and all that crap) from 17 inch to 24 inch. PLus had to lift and move 4 72-inch TV screens out of the way to make room for them. argh. ALL BY MYSELF.

but it was relaxing in a way to do some work just by myself. it was a nice getaway.

Iranian/Persian food for lunch with dad. Was nice. Very meaty though O_O Aran yogurt drink :3 <33

then helped Harry and Lin to move some huge LCDs. Lin promised Harry $100 if Harry could jump and touch the ceiling (bad idea...he's 188cm =L) then Harry did, and Lin promised it for Tuesday xDDDDD Harry bugged Lin for the rest of the day for the money then and there xDDD funny moment when Ahmad 'pays' Lin and Lin gives the money to Harry, but then Harry gives it back to Ahmad. Ahmad says he's already given the $100 to Lin, but Lin argues "but Harry gave you back!" and Ahmad says "no what happened there was me and Harry's own business." =L

ok you probably dont get it but oh well xDDDDDDD

bludged with Harry packing for the rest of day.

got home and went on msn. Weelay very high on the phone when we were webcamming =L

OMG I GOT FREAKING WORK EXPERIENCE!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY~! yes it's not that exciting...BUT FOR ME IT IS!!! going to cosmopolitan magazine~!!!! <33 bride.prenancy.hair and beauty dept. :3 editor Lauren is so nice!! THANK YOU FOR TAKING ME~! YAY =)

dodge convo with big ant =L I'M NOT SHORT! >[

tonight i promise i won't bother you unless you bother me :3

that's all for tonight~ if i'm bothered will blog again. cos going to snowies 2moz till sunday night...won't be able to blog for 3 days =( bibi~

~<33 beedee

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i'm so...urgh. its kinda annoying...

4 days without blogging and all I have to show for it is a smitten message. a bit pathetic yeah? -sigh-

hmm...the time. yeah its 2am xDDD hey i'm not the only one on ;) still msning. proof i'm not the only one crazy enough to stay up till this late (COUGHsteffuCOUGH) xDDD

to be honest, hols haven't been all that eventful so I won't waste blogspace trying to make a boring day sound interesting. i will talk about last day of school though. cos funnily enough school is a lot more interesting xDD

Friday, July 10th~
THank god we cancelled year 9 netball. I was so not bothered to get out of bed early. when i tried to get in via eblock entrance, got barred xDD

ipt people were all stressing this morning. most weren't finished when i got to school D; to think we'll all be like this in 2 yrs. shoit?

maths. well last lesson of term. more standard deviation and means and z scores and stuffs. then ms v's holiday trip photos. SO PRETTY~! WANNA GO!!!! D; ms v is an awesome photographer xDDD also good excuse to bludge the lesson =L

english. hehe ms seeto doesn't know but i think i've lost my mice and men. i'm screwed D; were watching a chinese-based american movie. very emotional. i cried D; and apparently this was the not as good half. damn i wanna watch the beginning. will ask ms seeto to borrow during a lunchtime next term >] haha waverly is a funny name =L watched the vid through recess. regret doing now cos i missed registering for D2MG D; (snr challenge at lunch).

pd. 3 drama. very bludge. ninja destruction fun. xDDD miss mac (is that weird...calling her that? O.O) goes out to 'photocopy' handouts and is gone for like over half an hour. urgh so bludge. stella kept undoing my shoelaces...footrape xDDD

lunchtime...very empty? no seniors practically. i don't quite remember what we were doing. >< people talking about formal shopping ^w^ although feeling a bit...left behnd cos everyone's still shopping. that doesn't make sense does it? O_O well that's jsut how i feel. i wanna go shopping anyway! >]

4th pd. History. haha angel/steph/al with their smh word game (i forgot what it's called ><) miss whiting trying to find out where they hid the letters, then forced hem to write it up on the whiteboard xDDD then dodge 'newspaper article' which everbody 'finished' xDD weelay went home after this =(

5th pd. science. by now...i tihnk there were probably like 12 or something people in class. funny how the number depletes magically throughout the day. =L anywayz we had trivia battle with miss oliver's class. hehe sumo question = "-pause-OH!!!!-hand up-" xDD. hey we only lost by a bit D; PLUS we were outnumbered -nods- BY A LOT!!! hah >] mr kulesz and his dodge 'takeoff 3 points for calling out' xDD and ZAT IS THE END OF TERM 2!!! woot :3

me and lenloe walk out of class early :3 walked with her to outside where i said bye to everyone. lol lenloe told me to go 2 central -shift- :3 ah couldn't had ERNIE's.

yeah has anyone else noticed that in our group i'm the only one who takes train from st leonards? D; it's lonely. plus i don't see cath and lauren all that much since i walk by myself. oh well. took train with al till chats. got off and saw neel. still think he walks funny =L. then awkwardly walked off when neel saw his 'girl' friends xDDD so funny (friends: neel!, neel: oh no!...) xDD

getting braces off on the 14th aug. b4 bday yeh^^ so creepy though. after he told me the good news, ernie says "so when are we going to celebrate? will you invite me out for lunch or something?" i awkwardly lie there O_O "uhm...i don't think it's really something to celebrate...? -shift-" as i'm walking out the door i say "if all your patients invited you out for lunch everytime they got their braces off, you'd be very fat/lucky (i forgot which one i said, whichever it was, he then said "no i'd be very (other one)") then what was creepy was that he then said "rebecca, i only invite hornsby girls and north sydney girls out. only smart ones (Y)" O_O OMG FREAK ME OUT WON'T YOU?!?! xDDD

looking at retainers schedule. depressing...

after ernie's went back to st leonards to watch bro's bball final at rooftop. clara and wendy stole my phone >[ had to chase clara round the bleachers to get it back. then we prank-called wendy on m phone xDDDD >] wendy tehn said camthom was hot (Y) hehe so funny. since nsb's are like the only asian team, the rest of the teams have like supprtive parents nd familes and stuff right? and they were all sitting behind me yelling "GO BULLETS!" and stuff. and then it really started to piss me off so when the parents next yelled "go bullets!" i go "GO FALCONS~!!!!!!!" xDDDD hehe didn't see that coming aye? suckballs, asians can scream too. then i practically became my bro's teams cheerleader =_= my mum was like "yeah you scream enough for all of us..." xDDD well that's cos all you parents are like... STONING! i gotta do SOMETHING! ><

i hate parents who comment on sports matches as if they know more than the ref, as if they play, as if they know the rules and all that shit. then they say "THAT WAS A FOUL!" BULLSHIT if it was the ref would've called it up! that's why they have qualification bitches. >< sorry its just really annoying. just....urgh >[

-sigh- in the end bro's team (orange falcons) lost like 31-33. fail by THIS close...like last year. -sigh- team was so pissed lol. edward was like "I CAN KILL SOMEONE NOW!" then sahan says "go kill them -points at other team-" lol. oh well they got 2nd place. always next term (Y) then they got dodge trophies with flashing rainbow balls (basketballs xDD) which made them look even more plastic O_O like toys, wtf.

was going to talk to [youknowwho] when found out that he [....] for the holidays but didn't. D; ended up regretting it for the rest of night when he signed out.

-sigh- holidays :3 started getting boring already. found nothing to do D;


saturday, July 11th~

saturday night fever (Y) literally T_T

woke up feeling like shit. didn't know why. checked temp = 37.19 degrees. didn't know what that was and mum wasn't home.

remembered that lenloe was going to vic so txted her to ask if she was there yet. then voila she calls me back and its carumen-chan xDDD who tells me she left her fone in her house, where she is at the moment. so, i being the slow idiot, believe it and the rest of convo on the fone i believe that carumen-chan is at lenloe's house seeing millions of spiders and spamming her bandwith and digging up random stuff such as toy cars and street directories, when really lenloe and carumen-chan are in the car going home after du, sneakily conning me. D; and i being the baka i was couldn't even tell their voices apart after they switched on the phone. damnit -headdesk- can't believe i fell for it. should've known when carumen said she'd need 15 minutes to turn the computer on. i even believed her parents talking in the background was youtube!! D; (what's worse is i would've kept believing it if it weren't for lenloe telling me on msn ><)

found out later on when mum got back that i really did have a fever. jinxed myself the day before wen i said everyone had gotten sick except me =_= damn that. so felt like shit for the next few hours. had panadol and fell asleep on the couch till dinner. felt better almost straight away after waking up. the miracle of antibios (Y)

not much happened after. andy, matt and steven came over and we bitched about cc. xDDD

trying to learn gee dance D; epic failing.

sunday, July 12th~

slept 2am till 2pm (Y)

played kh2 after kicking kevin off. he plays jak3 too much =_=

played mah jong as a family. got owned xDDDD got freaking 'eaten' twice. (as in they 'ate' from me only) then ate (for real xDD) FROZEN CHOCOLATE CHEESECAKE!!!<333 hehe ^w^

was very surpised to see youknowwho online. talked on msn :3 made me very happy :3 couldn't stop smiling >w< (hence the weird message before...had to express it somehow D;)

i'm very happy i got to see you :3 i guess if you're reading this then you'll know who you are straight away >< i'm not very subtle D;

went to sleep smiling ^w^

monday, july 13th~

first of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIRLEY<33 sorry we're not there to celebrate with you D; but our hearts are with you^^ will give you an awesome celebration when we get back together.

played bejeweled late in the arvo and go hooked. ended up being late to station cos of it and ended up not making it to George St maccers in time (was supposed to be there by 5...ended up getting there at 5:10) but then weelay wasn't there either. called her like 3-4 times and she didn't pick up and i srsly thought shegot kidnapped for a while D; then she picked up -phew- and it turned out she was later than me!!! that's a first =L

met u with weelay and...haha u guessed it. Ian! went to get easy way, where jchou concert was playing again ==

dance was fun and not that hard today :3 i've already forgotten the steps xDDD but it was fun. and sexy xDDDD finally got 10-pass. :3 also finally added jaye's real fb.

mass latenight/earlymorning msning xDDD well only cos i turned the net back on >< shhh. had an interesting convo with steffu xDDD sorry for being dodge and secretive ><

FINALLY!!! gna sleep now >< nite~! (or morning O_O)

~<33 beedee

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YES i realise it's winter. NO my heater's not on. and i only have 2 layers so its not overclothing. >< and i'm feeling dizzy @_@

maybe i have a fever... or maybe it's cos i'm frustrated...

dno

so...today.

had to carry the heart cake tin to school...but when i put it together with folder in a shopping bag it made a hole i the bottom D; was awkwardcos it broke while getting off train. >< was really worried it would burst completely. D; but it didnt (Y)

history first period. 20/30 people (Y) women's rights stuffs. hehe =L i've always wondered if that was part of the compulsory syllabus. like...guy schools have to do it too. but maybe that's a stupid assumption. cos...maybe...argh wateva i'm dumb. it would just be funny if they had to learn it too ><

then from period 2 went to SCRAM. QUARTER FINALS YAY! dumped cake tin in locker so i could get rid of the huge shopping bag. then steffu and cath (i think) took the string off the shopping bag and kept it. xDDD i thought it was a shoelace at first O_O getting ready, we got into 'costume'. urgh...i am NEVER tucking my shirt into my school skirt O_O weird experience. and T_T im too fat to fit into weelay's blazer. buttons go -PIW- or sumthing >< THANK YOU JASSY FOR ALWAYS LETTING ME EAT YOUR FOOD~! <33 sounds dodge but really, i'm sorry for being a pig D; then weelay and her hardore makeup. shirley and her green eye shadow xDDD leaf = HIPPY!

during it...we went round and round in circles (very my fault ><) but overall i think maybe we did alright? time management was bleurgh >< like 1 minute left =L so funny. me and weelay trying to own each other, and then shirley vs ness as well. xDDDD sorry to Bella and Jassy >< we definitely made it hard for you D; but you guys did awesome!!<33 it was fun. and i know it's too late today to think like this but we should treat every round as if it's our last now cos we don't know when we'll be KO'ed >< so (Y) have fun while we can :3 good work guys^^

in the end...i didn't get the instant coffee D;

During lunch, we had very fun talk xDDD apart from someone who was very down D; wanted to help her but...i dno. how do you help someone without insulting their desire to be...alone? like...ARGH help but...'passively'? i dno D; anywayz. you know how we said one of our group's issues is always 'tangent'ing. i think it can be bad >< but it's also a characteristic. i mean this way we have fun. :3 i don't think optimism is bad...and seeing the brighter side of things and making a bit of fun out of depressing stuff isn't always bad. i'd prefer to see people smiling - it's not like we're disrespecting the 'concerning' issue. it's just our way of getting through difficult stuff. keep smiling<33 =)

i wish you would open up. you're only hurting yourself, and we only want to help. please, don't push us away. we have no ulterior motive i promise. it doesn't have to be now, it doesn't need to be quick. but, i just wish you'd let us help...=(

saw al's mum in the canteen and talked dodge mando to her =L

i dont like FLARTING >[ OUR SCHOOL IS NOT FKING RACIST! at least we dont make up nicknames for ppl like 'lebo', 'black', 'yellow' and 'terrorist' and all that. jeez. sabrina's play (i didn't see it but i'm sure it was: )is awesome! you obviously haven't seen enough of the world to see 'racism'. go do some research before you go making fking assumpions about people you'll never understand because YOU'RE the racist one >[

4th period maths. standard deviation somehow turned into hsc scaling xDDD TANGENT! :3 xDDD but it was interesting ^^

5th commerce. lindy chamberlain vid. prosecution lawyer's a bastard >[ lol i know it's dramatized but >[ dear lindy chamberlain if you're out there. i'm sorry you had to go through all that hell. im sure azaria's happy somewhere and you are amazing for standing up for yourself like that. you are AWESOME!

>< yes i know that was heaps random...but hey i can write whatever ;D

DoE training typical - commonsense stuff. walked to station while al everyone else bussed. funny xDDD w/e i like walking ><

GOOD LUCK IPT PPL! ONLY ONE DAY LEFT! GANBATTE~! you can do it<33

*note1 - please stop patronizing me. i'm not being modest. i know who i am and my looks. it's awkward and weird to respond to. so...yeah >< could you stop? it feels like a conspiracy -shift-

*note2 - :3ing is actually very fun and an interesting way of passing time while you walk to the station. ^^ i think people looked at me weirdly though >< i was probably making weird faces D; and...sounds...maybe

YEAH~! IGNORE THAT! xDDDD

~i'm honestly a bit sad that you can't go out during hols...D; but i hope you don't know this.

GEE GEE GEE GEE~

1 day till hols~!!

~<33 beedee

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charities day today. went to combined choir for the first time today. haha so funny that i can navigate my way around nsb perfectly (Y) crew 2008 ftw! also funny/creepy that ms moulton knew my name >< argh i fail at reading 4-part music. D; i kept reading the bass part! T_T alto habits (Y) speaking of...bass is so loud O_O the're like, behind you and then they start singing and you're like WOAH! xDDD but what's funny is that the bass part range is like the same as our alto 2 range :3 proves we are men yeah? =L paul says hi to everyone.

monica, em, me and sarah walked back up, after neel did something with em (sounds dodgy xDD) so we were a bit late -shift-. then i ofound out we were doing jap speaking test D; and we were going alphabetically (at first) i was so fked. THANK U MAJO FOR SAVING ME~ T_T so tomorrow >< haha funny sumo movie.

commerce watched a bit more of lindy chamberlain case. its actually really interesting! :3 obviously it's been dramatized but, still...its so horrible. D; i hate the police >< (in the program O_O not in real life -shift-)

charities - talent quest. yeh lenloe...showed me and tried not to scream. omgomg it's like...so not possible D; i still can't believe it. wel...key word 'think' ok? it was only 'think' and 'might' >< yes i like being in denial ><

talent quest was funny. hahaha love the judges. epic comments and epic performances xDD awww the year 7 kids were so brave and awesome. talented year (Y) hsm one was so funny xDDD and other people like steph/cecily zhu piece...so sad T_T <33 in all...awesome stuff guys (Y)

my fail chocolate cake >< tin was too big so it ended up looking like a huge biscuit T_T then when i was getting it out of the baking tin it broke in 2 D; so i had to stick it back together with icing >< yeh dodge...at least you can't see it? >< meh hope mrs kulesz likes it<33 congrats!! $15

rest of teh day pretty much bummed around. haha fail pillow fight >< and stuff? then we cleaned up history storeroom for $30. hehe believe it or not it was worth the job O_O.

group fotos<33 orlando and his dodge cam-perv talk =_= sounds like a pedo xDDD

scram was interesting xDDD its getting so deep >< like...argh! got so much to remember as well. is funny what we end up talking abotu in scram. completely off topic though. and crap its in 2 days (Y) screwed much? but then again we're doing pretty well impromptu so i think we might be ok. privo info beta not be screwy T_T

was feeling very..giddy when i walked to st leos. why? >w< just did. couldn't stop smiling~!! ^w^

more parent argument when i got home. don't blame them, i blame me, and menopause xDDD but srsly...i really need to be more considerate. D;

there's gotta be a mistake. i think that even more so now. i don't want to be conceited. i don't want to make pre-assumptions. argh~ i'm so confused!

Romeo save me, i've been feeling so alone. i keep waiting for you but you never come. is this in my head? I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO THINK~!

that's all folks~!

_____, i didn't tell you today. but i'm gonna say it now: i'm so happy i could burst<33 it feels selfish to be feeling this way, but i can't help it. i can't stop smiling. <33 kyaaa~

yep...ignore that (Y) xDD

~<33 beedee

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ok YES i'm sorry. i've given up on recapping. i can't remember half of the stuff that happens in a week so i'm just gonna hav VERY brief notes on last week. dont hate me >< i just cbf. plus i'm freaking exhausted. o wait i'llt try...but cant promise anything.

*thursday 2nd July~ (was a very spesh day so long recap ><)
i dont remember..i think this was the day that they emptied my bag =L OH THAT's right! the night before i found out that i needed to do my english speech so i didn sleep - ended up getting half an hour of sleep (slept at 6:00, woke up at 6:30) shut up i know its crazy>< then cos of english, completely didnt have time to do drama journal and srp log book.

thot that jap writing test was on so i brought the jap dictionary to school. except it wasnt on. dayum betch this is wat i get for procrastinating. instead had jap reading test. yeh...i didn't study at all. fk much? then again didnt do TOO bad i hope. Just pissed that i didn't realise that "budou" was grapes. dayum that.

drama journal - didnt end up finishing shit. bag was shtload heavy, ppl emptied at lunchtime...then had to repack damnit =_= Duke of Ed training after school. they took all our chairs away xDDD

got to pymble and bought flowers for mum<33 happy bday!

*friday 3rd July~
ok this day was just a blur (cos i spent most of the day finishing drama journal...yea major procrastination. you can ask weelay and lenloe T_T). morning 7:30 coaching netball team; i love my yr 9 team, have i said that? maths...not much to say - the usual. 2nd period had english (lol audrey stripping/touching herself) when mice and me script was due. spent the whole period doing drama journal. went down to CT1 with lenloe and weelay and wacthed taylor swift mvs. (8)YOU BELONG WITH ME<33 so cute vid. ^w^

science period 3. thot i was fked cos i didnt hav my log book. but priod was devoted towards careers cubject selection. and...yep yo guessed it. i fell asleep (Y). oh well. got a hugeass folder with lots of borchures and a hugeass jobs book.

american teacher in history. thought my drama journal was notes on the textbook LOL. last period had miss...i forgot her name D; the young asian one who i always think used to go to our school and looks really korean but isn't. me, lenloe and weelay went FULL high ^w^ good times. went high on...gee xDDDD had lots of fun ths period.<33

walking to station (northsydney) weelay and lenloe went on scary highs. like...SCARY high xDDD had a lot of trouble getting around at this point because 1.had to handle folder (self explanatory xDD) 2.was holding ms english's heart-shaped cake tin, 3.was trying to eat lunch (wrap) which was really hard cos i had 2 ulcers. got lenloe and weelay to take turns holding my folder =L

luke got on at...i forgot what station (Y) he couldn't recognise me xDDD got to central. and we changed to the other platform. >w<. no comment. also...everyone's grown! D; like...i swear everyone was shorter last time i saw them. haha and hence anthony and jz too tall to do the \/ position xDD ended up looking very fail =L ah~ their train is always so lively and cheerful <33. anywayz lenloe was sad. i dont know why D; wanted to help but didn't know how. then epic moment where lenloe holds out arms to hug kenneth, who bars, then i tell him to go hug her back, then he goes and holds out arms, and gets barred. kenneth holds up her limp arms to manually hug xDDDDD EPIC! =L got off said bye

>w< (ok i'll stop D;)

walked to lenloe's house. haha lnloe and carumen-chan linked arms then went over the random stranger. he was like "WTF?!" =L epic.

gotto lenloe's house and w got a strip show (Y) hha jks jks ;P we looked away, at he mirror xDDD oknot that either. we just didnt look ok?...a least i didnt -shift- lenloe wore her formal dress for us. T________T SO skinny man. very curvy (Y) ;D the dress is very pwetti ^w^ srsly it isnt as bad as you made it sound len D; its very classical and fairytale like <33 and like...ethreal! thats the word i was looking for that day. ^w^ and pretti lingerie ^^ HAHA wear the lingerie to formal >] xDD

then left for carumen-chan's house. haha catlegs gf? =L then ate dinner in carumen-chan's room. she switched on webcam for everyone D; =L then everyone got to see us/esp. me pig out >< then watched carumen-chan tag xmen pic on fb =L haha jz shud be honoured to receive the title of wolverine, as we sed =L carumen-chan was very reluctant to give away...like -claws at screen "NOOOOOOO!"- xDDDD talked to ppl on msn. ^^ msn called lenloe^^

then martin drove us to lidcombe. was veyr hyped up^^ and cold D;. caught train. carumen-chan was scared of lidcombe xDDDD *note must pay back martin for train ticket) train was...azn xDDD

olympic park. carumen-chan and her glow stick xDDD found acer arena...frekaing long line D; saw a certain nsb bballer -shift- took a picure xDDDD when we finally got in went to souveneir shop ^w^ dodge figurine with the green/yellow shirt with kangaroo and surfboard (you can twist the arms and legs! xDDD). carumen-chan got pink shirt =) then i fail >< almost lost the freaking ticket. almost died D;

hired binoiculrs cos of our seats xDDD dodge seat (Y) see the back of his head and hence every time he walks = "LOOK THIS WAY!!! THIS WAY!!!!!" xDDDD nah we made the mst out of where we were so (Y) happy i went at all >w< THANK U CARUMEN-CHAN!!! agrh i think i lost half my eardrums tho. as well as my voice >< AWESOME night ^^

then when we wee goin out, i thought i lost my train ticket. and then i dropped my scarf and had to run back. then my dad was too busy playing chess to come pick me up, so there was a big fiasco abotu how i was getting home. >< sorry to trouble everyone. spent 15 minutes at lidcombe just being dodge (yes i took your advice and stood in the light carumen-chan :3) and waiting for dad. got kidnapped then held for ransom and raped. LOL no >< got picked up, went home, then jsut flopped.

OMG yes i am done! awesome day. had to say all of it.

in a sentence. Jay Chou concert was AMAZING! no regrets on going<33

*saturday 4th July~
netball in the morning. that day was proof that NSG OWNS SG!^^
1. I umpired game where year 9 nsg's beat sg's. the sg's were very...whiny to put it nicely ;)
2. my year 9 team smashed other SG team 30-something to something a lot less =L
3. MY TEAM WON! MY (year 10) TEAM ACTUALLY WON!!! yes it sounds sad that thats a big deal but screw that. i'm happy^w^ OWNED SG 20something to like 12 or something. yes it sounds like nothing but i dont care! <33 you lisa (year 8) thanx for playing up! you were aweome defence (Y)

hehe had cake ^w^

nm. just msned and fbed for msot of rest of day.

sunday 5th july~
nm. parents hate me. went to work with dad at north rocks. was extremely bored so texted weelay. entertained yself watching hsm3 ^w^ yes i know it's corny but it's sweet and i'm a hopeless romantic >< not a good combination. sahan (from kev's bball team) came to the market. His dad was like "hey! do you know me? ;D" and i had mental blank and was lke "i may have seen you before..." (a in i thought he was a regular customer or something) then i realised and was like "OH~! omg sorry i didn't recognise you!" and me being an idiot only then saw sahan. xDDD its ok if you dont get it. fell asleep in car after we got back.

had a huge argument with parents.

monday 6th july~
scram in the morning. fun stuff^^ drama - sub. almost fell asleep while we read a very annoyingly long passage on a weird book. did...tableux on a story with conflict =_= was pretty much a waste of time.

Jap. did writing test. yeh i screwed for this one too. didnt sleep the night before just to try writing up a practice one (the only studying i did) but only managed to do half. =_= oh well. winged it. if i fail i'll know why (Y)

maths. not much to say as usual =_= almost got caught out for sleepign again. actually...well i kinda did. >< freaking statistics

lunchtime did listening test. hehe...shit much? >< totally blanked out for one of the questions.

sport - TOM WAS BACK! LIAR! xDD yes admittedly we didnt really feel like it...seeing the van pull up was a bit...=\ but we had fun for the last lesson^^ tried out the skateboard ^^ hardcore! ok no i cant even stay on it long enough >< but it was fun ^w^

then we walked to north sydney (weelay, lenloe, bella and me) and me and weelay got off at town hall. went to maccers ^_^ and i pigged out (Y)

ian was late. went shopping around, and it was freezing. we've gotten sick of formal level in myer xDDD. perfumes...omg my hand smelled like crap after all that. do guys like wearing girls perfume beta than mens cologne? xDDD

dance. new part to routine before the original part >] wasnt as hard as i though it would be. at least we could keep up~ ^^ problem is...i cant remember part of it now D; jaye is awesome.^^ keeps lessons fun. bought easy way afterwards. dodge jelly xDDD turning straws upside down (Y)

will do today in another post (Y)

~<33 beedee

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ok so today...not much

Jap excursion to USyd. was late cos i fking fell asleep on the bed last nite...like ON the bed, not IN the bed...then mum owned me wen she found me still in uniform in the morning sleeping on top of the bed... yeah...shit...tehn was late cos i showered to make up for it. missed the train so i couldn't get to central in time for when we deided to meet up to take bus to usyd, so had to go to redfern to walk instead. met up with jowo and fi and sally.

Duke of Ed around USyd (Y) xDDD

Miss Wei is PRO-AWESOME!<33 coordinator of the day ^w^

so many freaking private schools...in red group 'A'. with Jenny Chang from PLC, Peter Tran from Stratty South, and Yuri Chen (?) from I forgot what school >< nice kids (Y)

writing exercise (brochure) then recess. then speaking (role play = epic fail D;) and reading ('brainteasers' freaking hard question about breakfast ina a cafe...frekaing maths in jap ]<)

got a golden gaytime at lunch (Y) ^w^ believe it or not...first time eating gaytime xDDD

Taikoz drum show. sorta kool...a bit random though. (haha btw, you know how they mentioned they're collaborating with Bell Shakespeare? well I SAW THAT MENTIONED IN TODAY"S ISSUE OF MX!! ^w^ haha talk about ironic. if you dont believe me, its in wed July 1st issue, pg.23, City Watch, "A night of Hope and Optimism" (Y)

Was gonna go back to school straight away but me and jo were too fascinated with usyd's awesome places, so we luvoed for like 10 mins after everyone left xDDDD then caught bus to central, and got back to school at 3:25 >< soz SCAM people and Miss Achelle ><

SCRAM - HIPPY~! VV xDDDD shirley (Y) xDDDD

Dad back from China. Got lai si from gparents 50th anniversary<33 and some uncle of a grandpa or something relative who's hit 98! (although i've gotten one for a great-aunt or something who passed 100) Yay!^^ dad got me ipod earphones...lost my other pair D; aut got me pretty phones charms. handmade (Y)

~

ARGH! its fking due 2moz! english speech!! fkfkfkfkfk...

yeah...my own fault for thinking that i wouldn't need to do it this term...(Y) just cos of jap excusion 2day. D; im fked...FML~!

ok to do list for TONIGHT:
*shower before 7:30 if possible.
*do as much of Drama Journal as possible (preferably finish T_T)
*finish reading Pride and Prejudice (got like fking 2/3 of book to go T_T)
*bs a speech out...somehow...
*find a random book for SRP Log Book and think of a DAMN EXPERIMENT~!
*if have time, get some research for log book

ARGH FK I NEED TO GET UP EARLY FOR SCRAM TOMORROW!

yup...looks like i'm definitely pulling an all-nighter. FML!

~<33 beedee

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i feel blank...

i don't know why ><
i'm such a...despo >[ screw it...

today~ morning haha guess what? SCRAM~! what else xDD -sigh- 7:30 get to school = wake up at 6. Yeah i know, thats probably normal for most people but wateva, i want more freaking time in my bed.

was first one there. dark~ :3 crashed CT1 before seeing ms achele. then ppl came and didn't see me haha =L thank yuu ms achele for lending (-shift-) 2b pencils.

damn chem quiz. science not my thing. actually zoned out and (almost?) fell asleep for like 5 minutes. then guess wat woke me up?! ;D a certain sound...a very loud sound that i've been hearing a lot :3 no i'm not kidding ><;; anywayz. screwd up badly...but cbfed to worry over it. although lol for Q1 - as soon as finishd, compares answers for Q1 with weelay and lenloe = all different xDDD

pd2...MORE SCIIENCE D; frekaing hell...oh well. easy stuffs. dodge crosswords...retardation xDDD yep that would be me >] celia and wheeza are so camerashy ;D '~gonna getcha!'

recess was random...probs? sorry...doing this on friday night O_O

jap haha lol scary jap actors/actresses and scary bogan ppl who try to be overenthusiastic japists...funny shet. yay got goodlucked for sunday^^

again...lunch...dont really remember >< ah thats right...haha >] yes 'sit eat and chat' as i told someone >]

maths...westpac practice...sorry i didn't duck.

commerce was...O_O bleurgh i dont even remember what we did? a video i think? oh that right == the castle...wth =L "go on tell them wha you did! -bashful- (name) dug a hole! =)" lol and were like "=D i live in a hole! 8) i dug it myself!" yesyes haha lols me log and elaine fun.

after school met up with cath and shirley and jassy and went to ct1. (subject selection at 7). bummed around (LOL! "TIM(E)! COME TO DINNER!" xDD) and did...work -shift- well they did =) jassy's brother jason came and crashed us =D they look so alike! haha...talked about random stuffs.^^ was nice =)

around 5 went (with cath and shirley^^ tagalongs ;P) to nsb 'art' expo to meet up with mum to look at my bro's work...supposedly (fail...she didn't come till 5 miniutes before it ended ==) lol nsgs were already there; em and ange from y 11, and kath and vianna and terry ad co. also saw paul, nathan, timothy, alexk, du and tristan =). haha yay^^. ppl keep owning me for my dodge badge...mebbe i should take it off -shift- haha nice work yr 10 quartet ;D tristan's guitar and vocal solo hallelujah - amazing~. bahaha we had to keep turning around. they should put the piano and guitar stuffs in the same place O_o caught up with mr weiss =)

went to ramen shop for dinner!!! haha saw angela (from yr 10) with her mum and dad =) meanie...making us hungry while we stood out in the cold waiting for a seat =L yay tokyo style ramen dish :3 bahah shirley and her kids ramen xDD proportional maybe ;P wet seaweed =L

walking back to school. ahahahaha hilarious ways to deal with rapists = just throw all your stuff at them xDD i've got my folder and schoolbag >] that would hurt (Y)

hehe coincidentally met up with REC back from city. subject selection...lol majo and her mum xDDDD funny pair (Y) now tossing up between beginners italian and pd for last subject...=\

lolz...phone lag. screw you battery. massive text day =L shirley and cath would know...yeh the tone's really loud xDD

~<33 beedee

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teachers…heaps are dooshes but some are just awesome =)
haha random much?

So freaking cold this morning… thank you to chilli and floppy for keeping me warm :3

Had the company of STEPHen yates on the train =L yes carumen-chan, Stephen xDD when I got to school, had to tour whole of E-block to find everyone D; can’t we make up our mind about where we sit in the morning? ><

Maths…didn’t fall asleep~! =O yeah! swapped around the seats…haha sort of >< [still sitting in same seat cos cbfed to move xD] now with TONG~! <3 …aka daisy xDDD fail vertical messages on the sides of the page. I was like –reading-… “you’re so…cloo…clueiei…oh >< clueless” only it took me a bit longer than that ><;; but then she was even more epic fail xDDDD took her 5 minutes to work out “derob ma I” ;D haha moo to you too ;P

Science…heh >< failed chem shortquiz. Should’ve gone with gut feeling…crossed out a) and coloured in b)…ended up being freaking a)! >[ baka~! Mr k is such an aggro teacher =L throwing laptops and dusters at students to test force xDDD

Recess just talked. Cheesecake yogurt~ yum :3

PE o’sullivan is back . soft…hockey bats thingies. Fail ‘dribbling’. Was…alright == lost interest in the game…although it was getting disturbing how many people just stood there with the sticks sticking out between their legs…then are like “WHERE’S MY BALL(S)?!??!” xDDD

Status: communication ok! ^^ (Y)

Battle of the year advisors in the hall at lunch. Haha miss banks and miss senthi<3 eardrums got blasted out…and freaking yr 7s and 8s: GET OVER IT! == why so fking competitive.

Pd4 English with ms seeto…HAHAH EPIC! ^w^ as always. Talking about English extension…then ended up turning to ms seeto’s hsc…then to her uni…then dodge schools she’d taught at (BAHAHAHA “guys with names starting with J are such a pain in the ass” ;P)…and then to ambassadoring overseas in china for teaching…then disgusting foods that chinese eat “have fido for lunch =)” =L and LOL but ew = turtle swimming in the soup brought out …then her hate of frogs…then chinese men growing out their pinky nail to pick at earwax xDDDDDDDD QUOTES QUOTES~! >] (*note:BAGS quoting these to school mag team >])
“student: Ms seeto do you talk about kids?”
ms seeto: Of course I do! >] I bitch about them all the time~!”
Funny stuff xDD

Finally pd.5 wide reading English with ms mattick. Thought I was shetted cos we were doing out speeches…but she forgot the palm cards >] YES~! So we read. Haha damn right~! I’m so tank I can carry the whole crate of books by myself! =O…no not really is it? xDDD started reading tomorrow when the war began. then OMG >w< heal the world started playing while we were reading!!! :3 was suddenly reminded of someone so I txted em^^ lol crazy bus drivers xDD nicenice. =\ r.i.p right earphone =)

SCRAM afterschool. xDDDD wendy’s taller than weelay, oh SNAP! =L were hungry so ordered pizza…then BAHAHAHAHA greekness vs. asianess with money xDD epic conversations with ms achele ^w^

Haha just thought of this. Screw it’s lameness >< SCRAM PICNIC<3: ness is barbeque, Shirley is aluminium foil, and me and weelay are m&m’s :3 dw if you don’t get it >]

haha weelay yay for procrastinating. dont wanna go home~ ;D

Txting on the walk to st leonards…almost tripped and crashed into people xDDD epic ><

Haha mum was ok with me walking home in the dark…maybe I can stretch that a bit for future purposes >] –takesnote- but for now allowed is get home before 6. Cos yay I’m a girl, imma get raped ==

Rawr, got on comp for like 2 minutes then dad goes “turn it off, it’s slow on the other side and I need to use it” GARGH! So just wrote this on word first. Consequently fell asleep cos the heater was so warm and…sleepy haha? :3 although I shouldn’t be cos I went to sleep at 1:30 last night…=\. Anyway, was woken up by txt tone on phone^^ chicken again? xDDD

wondering what to do for filler subject...still only got 11 units. thinking about: drama, society and culture, studies of religion (but dont really want to ><)...but then i'll have 13 units...unless do studies of religion. or maybe a beginner language? gargh...

S’all for tonight. Gonna go turn on the net and post this now. Ttyl yay^^

night hobo ;P

you just make me smile =)

wonder who will appear in yor dreams tonight. i know who will in mine =)

~<33 beedee

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damn cityrail. R.I.P to person who died at roseville...BUT FREAKING HELL! delayed for over half an hour... ==

mum picked me up at gordon and drove me and kev to school...got there at 8:20 for combined choir >< fail...=L timothy got a haircut...damn no more shampoo ads =\

scripture fun^^ didn't do anything but just epic conversations :3 assembly...YAY~ HOODIES!! =D year meetings fail == we have no year advisors xDDDD

hate the feeling you're getting barred...really makes you wonder what you did wrong...AGAIN ><

pd2 Jap uneventful. wish we watched the sumo movie D; then sorta dozed...FOR A SECOND! but yeah...me sleeping in jap? not a good sign -sigh- and yay got test back. was actually REALLY suprised got 75(/75 ><) for listening...could've sworn i got all the times mixed up =S and yeah...haha blaming the grapes for my one mark off reading >]

recess was ok. just the usual...? -yeah definitely getting barred ><-

pd3 science. so out of it >< fully just copied the answers off the screen -shift- weelay's dodge txting haha^^

lunch yay dumplings. was SO stoned >< then got snapped out of it...and then everyone got sus again xDDDDD -unbarred yay- and to lenloe...no its too sus >< no for now ><

subject selection stuffs with mr jones in staff common for pd4. was err...stuffy...so er might've dozed off for a sec >< but waaah...now i'm considering doing maths again...hmmm wat to do~

(2u) Jap continuers
(3u) english ext
(2u) eco
(2u) Modern History
(2u) maths (maybe?)
[still need one unit...hmm...NO IDEA D=]

to jassy...you got it >< but -zp-! D; promise yeh?!

pd5 MAJOR BLUDGE~! drama...even miss mac cbfed so we ended up gossiping about movies and actors ;D lol hp6 obsession circulating...wanna wacth it...D;

SCRAM afterschool...lol miss mac joined in. man this problem is so depressing >< but hope we wont be screwed...

walked home in the dark-ish. lol mum and kev and dad sped past on pacific hwy "-beep!!- shet O_O oh...-waves like a retard-"

now being random. got dinner now~ maybe post later.

~<33 beedee

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todays a shifty day =L

woke up late (haha shock!) and was just in time. got to school.

1st pd drama. assessment marks = 9 and 10. haha i guess thats alright >< spesh since the 10 (improvisation piece) was made up the night before :S shhhh ;) bahahaha funny exercises. walking then STOP and smile/frown at closest person...even if they're not looking at you xDDD. kept cracking up. then being driven around hall with eyes closed...freaking scary >< too damn chicken to go fast (couldn't feel or see damnit!) then -SCREEEEECH- hard brake (literally...that sound xDD). then the 'i have the force~!! >]" game xDDD silent game where other person moves hand around slowly i had to keep my face 3cm away from other person's palm. so damn creepy...just try imagining it xDDD should film us doin it one day >] 'My house' game...haha ok? O_O and then LMAO~! blind sculpting >] one person has eyes closed then other person strikes a pose & facial expression. blind person has to feel their way to other person then mirror the other person by trying to feel what other person's position is. xDDDDD including the face xDDDDD yes such a perverted game =L thank god we're all girls LOL
(sorry. fun lesson = lots to say ^^)

2nd pd geo. totally zoned out >< so screwed for this...don't know any trade. was doing drama journal for half of lesso -shift- don't wanna have a repeat of last term so =S

recess...uhm...dont remember much ><

3rd pd commerce - finished chamberlain case video. waaaaaah~ got so scared during dingo perspective part. freaking screamed when it attacked the baby (yeah i get scared easily ><) txted^^ was nice. =)

at lunch...people were sus xDDDDD especially carumen-chan ;P. funny xDD

then had sport. DOCTOR melville has us for tennis...uhm lol? we fail...balls went flying everywhere xDD me, bella, weelay, carmen-chan, cassy and lisa shared court :3 haha was def on a high...then low >< last game - how did melville end up playing too? O_O

after carumen-chan bella and weelay diched me to go stanton D= thats right...haha jksjks^^ got to north sydney afterwards at the same time anyway so >] and then took dodge loner foto xDDD u'll see what i mean ;P

after got to city bummed around with weelay...doing nothing? xDD call from log -shift- haha shhh weelay xDDDD well had nothing to do till 5 >< hmm so we walked to our spot (lunch from outing) near darling harbour<3 haha just sat there... talked lots...and listened and talked more =L but was nice <33 just to talk ^w^ and exchange worries? on the same topic =) thank you for not judging me. and BAHAHAHA this whole time dodge bike guys were flying (yes FLYING! xDD) everywhere around us...and they were wearing their pants halfway down their butts == not cool...to watch xDDD

5-ish we went to harbourside to buy ice cream from andersens with coupon >] so slack and azn >< it said nothing about what we could get (apart from that it had to be ice cream) so we got 2 scoops in choc-dipped waffle cone ^w^ felt realy bad but...was good ice cream >] mocha almond fudge<33 sharing on the way to dance...must've looked dodge xDDD and OMG! shibuya shop~!!<33 must go there someday :3

at dk. just went over crazy again. LMAO! nooby girls >] even noobier than us!! xDDDD and haha...so embarassing >< lent jaye ipod to play 'crazy' but then he decided to use other songs first and raided my songs >< fking...argh! so embarassing wen THAT song came on after the one he picked finished >< and then 'love will find a way' from lion king 2 D= waaah~ and then shet....he switched it to sometimes by brit >< DAMNIT shudn't have volunteered...but we added a new part so yay^^ the longer the better :3 almost finished to end of chorus now i think^^

more dodge talk xDDDD took train home and stuffs...fell asleep in the carriage then woke up a stop away from pymble >] SKILLLLZ~

yay for decorating pencil cases =) one-sided webcam and emotes ftw~ :3 and haha yesh lindt bunnies -munchmunch- night poserr ;P

~<33 beedee

p.s. i sorta hope you havn't found this place yet...cos if you have i've totally given myself away D;

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11:40pm why am i so fail?!

procrastinating...to the really last minute. you were right weelay, not even CRAMMING's gonna happen ><

steffu makes to-do lists...i make...should-have-done-now-you're-screwed lists (Y)

*note...most of these....HAVN'T STARTED! fk bec...

*english - practice wide reading speech - Wednesday 29.07
*english - memorize script - errr...next english lesson...Wednesday 29.07
*SCRAM - just do it! - Friday 31.07
*commerce - court case research - Tuesday 04.08
*science - DO LOG BOOK AND FKING GET A SRP - ASAP! (Friday 14.08)
*PE - Group game (ESP MY PART!) - fk i dont know when but ASAP!
*maths - revise and DO HW OF HALF A YEAR! - ASAP!
*Formal - ...........that - End of Week 5 officially but gonna make it week 4 personally
*geo - population assignment - Wednesday 26.08
*PD - Group research project - Friday 25.09
*Formal - Save the fk up! - end of term for us...dno when for SB

oh and quickly for today:

haha despite last night (this morning) 4:40, actually managed to get up at 8:30 in time for work. of course with a bit of unwnated help == like "KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK " hmm...yeah that got annoying...

then of course there was "are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done? are you done?"

amazed i didn't snap. should've when my dad came in while i was changing...but managed to only say exasperatedly "Oi I'm changing! get out." what i WANTED to say would've gotten me in just a bit of trouble...
*note: my dad is NOT a perv...

choked down brekkie. got in car and we went to north rocks for market. -sigh- routine stuff. setting up all the monitors and testers. freaking neighbouring table stole 2 of our 3 table covers. deathglared them for a while before i gave up. sales went up during 11 - 1. mum brought lunch but for some reason wasn't feeling all that hungry... so only ate half the lunchbox.(NO i'm not going ano. knowing me i couldn't even if i tried == cant stand missing out even a meal) -sigh- i think i'm getting sick of the hsm3 movie (not the music :3 thats still >w<) cos i used it as the sample for all the screens. can almost freaking recite the lines...only reason i use it is cos its music and bright graphics = loud and visually snatches people. yes this is my advertising skills coming into place. and also cos it attracts litte kids with their parents. the kids stay there with eyes LITERALLY glued to screen >] and then parents can't get them to go away so stay and wait as well >] hehehehe. problem is that my eyes somehow get glued to the screen as well...GARGH NOT GOOD!

anywayz. started txting around 1. was ULTRA bored. dodge topic with weelay =L hehe.

packed up at 3:20 and left. haha...txting kept my spirits up >< fk i'm becoming a phone junkie xDDD

fb notes = addictive.

confused...like...wtf?

slept at 6. yeh...6 in the morning >< shuddup...i dont know what i was doing either?

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fk its sunday night
fk its te last day of holidays
fk schools tomorrow
fk i'm fked...
fk my life

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ok quick QUICK REALLI QUICK recap

Monday 20th July: slept till 2 or 3 or sumthing >< realised needed to leave soon. went SO :3 >////< on msn. also a bit O_O ...sus. don't really wanna say why. went to dance :3 we learnt more for 'crazy' dance^^. yay. and got the warm up songs names >] altho cant read artist for one ARGH! "you" got back. lol owning ppl on msn...funfun. dont know why vincent likes runnning around telling ppl i'm holding a party...just cos he wants one == ah...right this day (refer to tuesday post) >< stopped breathing...srsly...lol weelay 'male source' <=)

Tuesday 21st July: OUTING~! ;D yeh...sorry for being late >< [weelay, steffu, bella, shirly, maz, carumen-chan, cath, ant, dc, paul, oliver, ian, jacky, vinnie] lol Duke of Ed around city for shirley >] capsss~ funny stuff. and i [ph]ail at decorating D; being shifty with stickies >< then wen market city. yay^^ galaxy world. bahaha "HARDER RENEE HARDER...wait FASTER!!! no TOO FAST!" BAHAHAHA funny stuffs. then everyone sorta died...outside...dodge dropping 5 cents from top floor ==;; wandered to spesh place for last time^^ wen harbourside to buy lunch. lol jacky = anthony's wife. -runaway- bought twister and wicked wings. so high at lunch^^ talking to lauren on speaker xDDDDD fail bin. byebye jacky and vinnie. dogged k and went pool instead. xDD we fail (Y) epic. after pool went back down to steps of hrbourside. (*so fked i just found 4 andersen free ice cream coupons...NEXT TIME! >] ) and had mini frozen blueberry fanta...while ant had the big one lol! proportional much? and random orgasm card games... xDDD then walkin back to town hall...dc and ant shouting orgasms...that sounds weird o_O xDD and then got to TH said bye to shirley, ant, dc, maz, bella, oliver, carumen-chan. and BAHAHAHAHA me and weelay mimicking xDDDDDDDDD -shift- then bummed at a street corner before leaving as well xDDDD got home and uploaded fb :3 (NO! did not come home to do that><) and got spammed with comments. foneno. YATTA~! >< shhh... and i'm so fking...selfish? no wrong word...uhm...self-centered...i guess? and promises<33 omg such a <33 convo >///< actually about really random stuff but...it's just really nice when talking about stuff like that. makes me smile =) a lot =)

Wednesday 22nd July: woke up at 3pm hehe ><...then mass fb uploading. weirdish requests...maybe? O_O and yay for mutual interests^w^ bittersweet...a million emotions..."draw with me"<33 must remember to ask him to finish it =) lol busy night. on fone with lenloe, then msning/webcamming, and helping mum with emails and attachments cos she's techfail. xDDD and then kyaa~ :3 and epic webcam session xDDD yay^^ thanks for staying up with me =) you were tired... i could tell =( after got turned off kept drawing =) some of those...yeah must make sure nobody sees them >< cept mebbe...yeh haha. Yay SCRAMsemis^^ feel accomplished >]

Thursday 23rd July: think i woke up at 3 again >< i'm so fking sad... first thing in the morning before anything els i turned on te comp>< shudup D; lol at weelay's sister and immaturity xDD. capped freaking hell! YAY for dodge screenshots^^ haha cant stop laughing at it now. will secretly be =) that i took it^^. YAY FOR MORE MUTUAL INTERESTS! >] [*note: convos seem to get more and more fun later at night >] i need to stop sneaking back on with expectations [*note: sorry that i'm talking in riddles. yeah i admit it...a lot of this stuff is record for my own sake, not relaly for people to read it >< sorry~] crushbot is fking DODGE!

Friday 24th July: fk being capped! oh and i'm really slack with desktop contacts -shift- dodge convos...sus...VERY sus...wtf is happening?! D; why am i getting drived == convo with steffu was =) and LOL $60 PINK POTATO SACK! nicenice (Y)^^ xDDDD congrats =)YAY FOR JAP EXCHANGE INTERVIEWS~! WAAAAH SO HAPPI~ ;D yay steffu, and jassy~!!! hmmm formal afters....inteesting? haha will think about that... i'm a stalker...>< shudnt be asking these questions..D= but its awesome how much i think nobody else knows/cares about and you know =) lol vacuuming >] and YES! CHAAAAANSU~! >] yay^w^ lol for going the rong way with words xDDDDD and lol for misinterpretations...:3 me having a part in that most probably >< lol formal dresses being kept a secret^^ and GARGH I'm SO FKING OBVIOUS TOO~ snuck and talked to carumen-chan. was sweet :3 haha yeh i'm creep no? haha latenight/morning stay-uppers ^^

Saturday 25th July: WOKE UP AT 12:10am!! BY MYSELF! =D shuddup >< its an achievement for me >< SCRAM outing :3 was productive^^ but also...haha funfun shopping^^ rawr at de lourve for being so damn cute but so damn expensive D; fob shops rule but suck >< WAAAAAAH~ I LOVE MY NEW CARDIGAN!! HI5 BELLA!~ :3 really warm and fuzzy^w^ and LOL for dodge confidanting hehe^^;; and then >< on bus...mass txting =) was very pleasantly surprised. :3 cos took out phone to txt cos i remembered where u were...then saw sumthing waiting there =O >< shush... stayed up till 4:40am...>< -sigh- smittenbadly. lol yes champy junkie ;P ccs and tsubasa<33 *note: very weirded out...HOW?! WHY? O_O like....wth?! don't know what to think anymore >
~<33 beedee

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if what i'm sussing is true...

then you're BOTH too obvious ><

~<33 beedee

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~Snowies 2009~

DAY 3 - 19.07

ok i didnt write this one on the day so will be shorter ><

woke up. walked with ppl to mess hall. frekaing...so many kids. fail when getting stuff with ladle (like in cafeterias ><) ate too much...again==
got out and evryone was packed. drove up there. on ski train mish's mum asks me about earrings. ok? O_O
arrived and LOL parents aren't allowed to dirnk wine in the room anymore cos there were skool kids there. had to keep it in a locker xDDDD outside was all white =O really awsome looking^^
Skiing - tried out the easier tracks to warm up (yeah weird...warming up in the snow ><) met our instructor for today...ngaaaww beau wasnt there =( new instructor - mark. FREAKING HELL YOU KNOW HE SPITS SO FKING MUCH! its like he's FROTHING at the mouth the entire time. and its just running down his chin -shivers- urgh. its FKING WHITE! saliva far out. anywayz. he was crappy instructor == left us behind then stacked it himself. bahahaha karma >] he took us down the easy tracks then to pleasant valley where it was all white. :3 srsly the snow blended in with the sky. you could barely see in front...yeh dodge>< but it was kool ;D patrick kept going off on his own == kids shudnt show off -patpat- HAHAHAH xDD
rope tow (like a t bar except with frekaing rope) - was so fking annoying. the rope SLIPPED out of your gloves...and even thru frekaing thick gloves you could feel the rope burn! frekaing mark for taking us there >[ tbh was so fking relieved when lesson was over. was like thinking "YES FKING HELL GET ME OUT OF HERE!" well was also thinking "LUNCH! OMFG IM HUNGRY!" but yes =)
lunch was hectic. 200 school kids crammed into a room made to seat probs about 50. ngaaawww dove choco wrapper quote: "a smile is a curve that sets a lot of things straight." i dno if its meant to be sweet but it is fo me :3
skiied around a bit. went with mish and winnie and kev and derek to make snow angels :3 but our snow is shet == my arms got so tired. the legs part was like 3 times as deep == oh wells. was the experience that counted (Y) (even though it didnt show up that well on the camera ><) and SNOW HEARTS! :3
then went down pleasant valley. nice cruise. got to the end where winnie and derek went back up chairlift to parents. me mish and kev kept skiing down rollercoaster (blue) AND WAS FKING AWESOME! so fun^^ like hill after hill after hill :3 but then got to bottom and were like...O_O shit how do we get back up. cos we were literally in the valley. so we took the ridge quad chairlift back up and OMFG! the view was AWESOME! we could see the WHOLE valley. meaning we had skiied down the whole mountain! =O (so pissed that i was too scared to take a photo...we could actually see ourselves going into the clouds! ^^) so the chairlift went all the way around and up the mountain back to summit where kevin went down zali's for the first time. he was like swearing down the whole thing =L but yeh that was awesome^^ too bad we did it at the end =( had to go right after that...oh well NEXT YEAR! >]
on ski train back, sat with nathan. just talking =) then took pics of ppl. bAHAHAH nathan so stoned. >]
got back to bottom. got in car and went back to lodge to pick up luggage and return ski gear. shet the guy serving us looked like eren O_O -nocomment-.
then we were off. BAHAHAHA me and kev raved to mj music in car =L then after the 2nd repat of disc fell asleep. mum had said we were having dinner at hungry jacks but we were sleeping so they decided not to wake us up or stop. ngaaawww <33
got back and we got kfc from north ryde. ^w^ SUPER VARIETY BUCKET (ordered it cos the ad was stuck in my head xDDD) then read the paper on the tableat kfc and saw story about family murder at epping. D; R.I.P<33
got home and fking jumped in the shower. AAAAAAHHHHH~~ so WARM! and Aaaaaaahhh~ =D
ate. talked on msn a bit^^ fb >] and thats that.

might not be going snow nxt year so must savour this :3

~<33 beedee

Labels: friends, life

SNOWIES (again)

DAY 2 - 18.07

11:05pm.Didn't have time to write today other than now. so currently doing this under my blanket in my bunk (i'm on the bottom). using mobile as torch. it's amazingmum/dad hasn't complained yet.
So...today. Failed getting up. ended up getting up at 6:45. Brekkie was at 7 D; not to mention i still needed to get to mess hall.
the grass and plants were frosted over. so cool :3 took fotos on macro >]
Learned lesson last night - didn't overload. Poached eggs = lol?! no bacon D;
Got back to lodge and stuied up. felt and looked like a frikkn marshmallow.
Car was iced over and windows frosted. wrote a certain 'line' i can't get out of my head on the window. YOU might know what 'm talking about ^^
Drove to ski tube. Nathan was snowboarding...wanted to try it so much D; but not exactly prone to balance >< Maybe next year :3
Ski train was stuffy. All the way up to My BlueCow. NSW sport and rec centre private room = warm. >] Suckballs...
Got out in the snow. Ah it was good to be back :3 had an hr till lesson (part of package == had no choice...) so we jsut tried out east track. felt good to be skiing again^^ Quite easy ><
*Note: i HATE walking up the hill in ski gear...never do it in skis == waste of effort...
10:30 lesson. we were all booked in for skiing so nathan had no instructor xDDD...had to wait till 11:30 to organise one...but he got a priv lesson xDDD nicenice.
Instructor Beau. When telling us possible nicknames (Bozo, Boey etc.) thought he meant his name was 'bo" so when he said "call me anything with 'bo' in it" automatically said "BOOZE! >]" xDD
2 hr lesson. all in all easy. Mish's dad and Kelly and Richard (rando parents) O_O and me, Kev, Mish, Winnie, Patrick, Derek. Mish's dad = <33orangetea xDDDD lol
Quote Beau "Awww Bec you're killing it! YOU ARE JUST KILLING IT!" I was like thinking "O_O is that a good or bad thing?" xDDD (turned out to be a compliment).
Lunch - lamb (slosh?) with veggie rice yumyum :3 HOt coffee~ (ncie weather - sun, not snowing. btw face gets whipped on chairlifts D;) Vincent and Jay met up with us. Joined them after lunch cos they go on hardcore tracks >] WEnt up to SUMMIT with them and did some badass tracks >] (side saddle and zali's) Sun was visible circle cos of clouds :3 was cool.
Met up with RIcky and Patrick and UNcle Tony on Zali's track (double blue). ALmost ice (the snow) but was heaps fun - steep >] (45-ish degrees?) [Nathan was still shaky on board so he was cruising on pleasant valley. Kev was sick cos of lunch ><] Vincent and co went back to Perisher so i took patrick and Mish and winnie onside saddle (yesyes == being the responsible 'older sister'babysitter) Mish was able to swerve slightly, altho breaking all the way, but winnie was having trouble (breaking only - no swerving) so we only went up side saddle 3 mroe times cs me and patrick and mish wanted to do zali's. i love bombing the last part of zali's (-shift- ignores big orange SLOW! sign xDDD) Pretty fun...managed to keep the 2 kiddies safe ><.
Skitrain back - long ride ==
Bagsed hot shower when we got back >]...so relieving.
DInner. me and nathan accidentally wlaked there 15 min early -shift- not my fault. paranoid about kangaroo shit in the dark now. random primnary school and 2 high school groups as well...i eat way too much...O_O nathan calls me half vegn just cos i eat veggies AS WELL AS meat wtf?
walking back with nathan. talked about formals for girls vs. boys (financially xDDD) and doing work at our dad's places...he got paid freaking $150 for 2 DAYS! d;
Got back - watched the simpsoins marathon >] hogging cushions on the couch lol xDDD Patrick invades! ARGH!! xDD Prngles = crumbs from little kids >[ jeez == Lotte waffle obsessions :3 Then watched Adam Sandler in Happy Gilmoe.^^ Such an epic movie xDDD *Nathan didn't take his hat off till end of move =L i was like "...you're still wearing your hat. xDDD"

I want a hug from someone ><

That's all for tonight. Last day tomoz. Hoep it will be fun :3 missing you all~ sweet dreams~
signing out 12:03am.

~<33 beedee

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-sneaking back into blog room- "oh hi...uhm...hehe ><;; my bad"

shuttup bec.

hi...i'm alive? no didnt seem like it >< havnt done ANYTHING these holidays. so fked. admiring ppl who hav the willpower to do work (yes...i'm ESPECIALLY looking at YOU! yes you know who you are!...ok maybe you dnt O_O)

yeh..."promise to write bout snowies 2moz." ballshit bec...ballshit

well beta now than never.

~Snowies 2009~

DAY 1 - 17.07

Writing this up in the car. it's 2:30pm. Woke up at 9:30, thought we were leaving at 12 but turned out we were leaving at 10. FREAKING...
Just as we were leaving, faxed off Work exp forms to Lauren.
Trying to get comfortable in the car (normal 5 seater with the 4 of us) Very squished, ended up taking off shoes and using the eski as a pilow and lay down in fetal posiion xDD Kev played PSP...typical. Mum talked xDD and Dad drove <33
Sent dodge txt to Weelay. Phoned lenloe to see how ipt was going (after staying up all night D;) and talked for 16 min :3. Gave dodge advice >< cos she was depressd D;. THnk you for confiding in me -hug- Means a lot to me.
Then fell asleep. Woke up at 1:30pm to MJ music (Heal the World) that mum had put on. Was reminded of someone...missing you<3. Stopped at Hungry Jacks for lunch. Orders wre dodge xDD:
Jnr Whopper - Mum
Whopper - Dad
Double WHopper Meal - Kev
Double Cheeseburger Stunner Meal - Me
Saw a maccers ad on the TV in HJ xDD fail.
Mum is playing Blue Danubes Waltz. Now gonna go sleep again. Hope everyone back in SYdney is having fun. MIss you guys already (but no Weelay, not too much ;P)

11:20pm Everyone's asleep. Sitting in the lodge corridor writing this. Turns out it's the same place as last year. THe lodge is nice. Very comfortable and warm :3 In the room no. 5. I just realised that i'm the oldest out of all the kids...so i'm responbsible for everyone. Bleurgh...just cos Nathan is 20 days younger than me >[.
ANywayz so we got to the palce and went ski hire. When they were measuring our height I, by some miracle, ended up being 170. The guy was like "WOAH! You're giant!" == one you can't measure cos i'm supposed to be 165, and two 170 i not giant >[ not when you know guys the size of ant nad JZ xDD
ANywayz, kids witha couple of adults got dinner in the mess hall. At first thought we were drivng - but i wanted to walk. So nathan agrees and we start running. It was dark so I'd ran for about 100m before I realised he'd conned me and stayed at the car D; freaking bastard >[. Then turns out Mish's dad cbb driving us so we walked anywayz == gg...
The kids (ranging 8-13 yrs old) were all high and ran ahead. Me and Nathan lagged behind and talked. THen my brother crippled Nahtan by elbowing him in the back xDD. Nathan wouldn't stop going on about carnivorous kangaroos...then speak of the devil, we saw one! Funny...cos it jsut stood there. Tried stalking it with camera, but was too dark D; ALmost got lost on the wat to mess hall cos of kids' dodge directions...
Overloaded at dinner D; think i ate more than Nathan/adults! so me and nathan decided to walk back ahead, since we both were stuffed. Saw 2 more kangaroos ^w^ Nathan had indigestion on way back -patpat- now almost every plant in the place is infected with some part of his dinner XDD Being ninja and stuck to the shadows so we could run away from Patrick -shift-
After got back watched Masterchef (mmm...tomatoes and chocolate mousse :3) and SYTYCD. Hehe...Nathan owned the kiddies by moving couch in front of theirs so we could see/hear clearer. Hey, they weren't watchin TV anyway so meh >]
So yeah...should sleep now...hoping to catch the sunrise 2moz. it's really cold in the corridor >< think it's ike -5 outside.
THe sky is really clear ot here. filled with stars :3 very...romantic? xDDD ok sorry D;
Hoping tomrrow will be fun :) the snow is apparently really good :3 (if you're lucky, might bring back a snowball xDD lol DC)
Sweet dreams everyone <33 nite [finished 11:47]

~<33 beedee

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promise to write bout snowies 2moz.
but right now...i just can't think about that.

i'm so confused.

why am i like this...damnit.

thank you weelay for listening to me. love you muchly<33 thanks for being there, i'm hopeless without somone to listen to me. i actually can't wait now...for that to happen. >////< :3 sorry for keeping you awake. i can't help wanting to talk about it >< hopeless romantic indeed D;

why are you so...frustrating? no i'm not mad. it's just...what you do it's like...argh! are you serious or not? you're sending me all these mixed messages that i just don't know what to think anymore

i stopped breathing. then the illusion was shattered. that was my fault. i'm sorry. i'm lousy like that. fk my stoopid 'clueless' "?". im such a freaking coward.

my hearts feeling...like it was ripped out, and put back in...but its not genuine anymore? i don't know! i'm sorry that i seemed disappointed. i'm sorry. i'm just really sorry that i made you feel bad. i'm such a manipulative bitch.

but...i just cant help it. you're the only one that can make me feel like this. now it's just painful to think that i could never be number one. and, selfish as it may be, i'm sad to think that it was...again...just wishful thinking on my side. of course it couldn't be serious^^. i'm such an idiot for thinking anything else.

i'm sorry.

but i won't give up. ganbarimasu~! baka demo...

someday...just maybe...

~<33 beedee

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can now dance the chorus of Gee~ :3

~<33 beedee



it's 2:36am

i'm on cos i turned the net back on :3 don't feel like sleeping...and haven't finished packing ><

talking to Elena who's webcamming with Ike, who i'm blaming for Elena not doing her ipt because she told me to xDDD funny stuff.

snowies tomorrow...so we'll be driving for a while. can sleep then >]

will mass-text people while there cos i'm bored xDDD be prepared^^

~<33 beedee

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yeh lame title ==

soz...its hols...i'm bored and cbf to blog (Y)

Tuesday - spent most of day sleeping (wat els? ==)and then went work experience hunting. got owned when i called up 2 different newpapers then got directed to same person who organized both places T_T anywayz. stupid event management place person who said -nasal voice- "you know normally they do it in february." shut up bitch! stop putting me down >[ i dont fking care.... i left it till late got it?! haha pmsing >< then cosmo lady lauren sounds nice =) mebbe she'll give me a place? -hopes-

funny convo. shower business -shift- xDDD yay for hopeless romantics =)

and you tell me to ask...but you have no idea how hard that is for me D; especially when you're...

Wednesday - Went to work with dad and kevin. at first tested monitors then folded (about) 250 boxes. Freaking didnt need that many either xDD Uncle Ahmad gave me passionfruits (2 cos my bro didnt want his >]) and they were SO NICE~ ^w^ <33 must buy some more one day >]

things to remember to try (on someone) one day:
"Hey what's your name? Oh dont tell me I know already. Bastard right? B for Bitch, A for asshole, S for shit, T for turd, A for ANOTHER asshole, R for retard, and D for dick. right? >]"

and

(tried this one on my brother...hilarious =L)

you hold a big fat permanent marker (lid off) in your hand like you're about to write with it, the you pretend to write with index finger on the back of their neck. they turn around and see you holding the permanent marker and are like "shit" but they can't see what you wrote. >]

hilarious stuff.

then Harry with his dodge Iranian accent started calling kevin "antistatic" cos i stuck an antistatic sticker on him and he realised but forgot to take it off for a few hours =L then Lin comes in and is like "Harry, have you got any antistatic -some stuff that i couldn't make out from his asian accent-" me and kevin cracked up so bad =L couldn't stop laughing for ages.

GROUP OUTING! planned for next tuesday >] can't wait to see everyone again<33 haha...yes even the guys =L those stooges...

also going to city/movies/k with andy/steven/jj and hopefully (>]) cc next thursday. haha cant wait >] to meet the legendary jj and cc. =L

i think i scared him away. D;

~Thursday (today)

went to work again. hey i get paid, so child labor is still worth it >] moved/stacked/checked (i counted) 140 computer monitors (allboxed up with foam and all that crap) from 17 inch to 24 inch. PLus had to lift and move 4 72-inch TV screens out of the way to make room for them. argh. ALL BY MYSELF.

but it was relaxing in a way to do some work just by myself. it was a nice getaway.

Iranian/Persian food for lunch with dad. Was nice. Very meaty though O_O Aran yogurt drink :3 <33

then helped Harry and Lin to move some huge LCDs. Lin promised Harry $100 if Harry could jump and touch the ceiling (bad idea...he's 188cm =L) then Harry did, and Lin promised it for Tuesday xDDDDD Harry bugged Lin for the rest of the day for the money then and there xDDD funny moment when Ahmad 'pays' Lin and Lin gives the money to Harry, but then Harry gives it back to Ahmad. Ahmad says he's already given the $100 to Lin, but Lin argues "but Harry gave you back!" and Ahmad says "no what happened there was me and Harry's own business." =L

ok you probably dont get it but oh well xDDDDDDD

bludged with Harry packing for the rest of day.

got home and went on msn. Weelay very high on the phone when we were webcamming =L

OMG I GOT FREAKING WORK EXPERIENCE!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY~! yes it's not that exciting...BUT FOR ME IT IS!!! going to cosmopolitan magazine~!!!! <33 bride.prenancy.hair and beauty dept. :3 editor Lauren is so nice!! THANK YOU FOR TAKING ME~! YAY =)

dodge convo with big ant =L I'M NOT SHORT! >[

tonight i promise i won't bother you unless you bother me :3

that's all for tonight~ if i'm bothered will blog again. cos going to snowies 2moz till sunday night...won't be able to blog for 3 days =( bibi~

~<33 beedee

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i'm so...urgh. its kinda annoying...

4 days without blogging and all I have to show for it is a smitten message. a bit pathetic yeah? -sigh-

hmm...the time. yeah its 2am xDDD hey i'm not the only one on ;) still msning. proof i'm not the only one crazy enough to stay up till this late (COUGHsteffuCOUGH) xDDD

to be honest, hols haven't been all that eventful so I won't waste blogspace trying to make a boring day sound interesting. i will talk about last day of school though. cos funnily enough school is a lot more interesting xDD

Friday, July 10th~
THank god we cancelled year 9 netball. I was so not bothered to get out of bed early. when i tried to get in via eblock entrance, got barred xDD

ipt people were all stressing this morning. most weren't finished when i got to school D; to think we'll all be like this in 2 yrs. shoit?

maths. well last lesson of term. more standard deviation and means and z scores and stuffs. then ms v's holiday trip photos. SO PRETTY~! WANNA GO!!!! D; ms v is an awesome photographer xDDD also good excuse to bludge the lesson =L

english. hehe ms seeto doesn't know but i think i've lost my mice and men. i'm screwed D; were watching a chinese-based american movie. very emotional. i cried D; and apparently this was the not as good half. damn i wanna watch the beginning. will ask ms seeto to borrow during a lunchtime next term >] haha waverly is a funny name =L watched the vid through recess. regret doing now cos i missed registering for D2MG D; (snr challenge at lunch).

pd. 3 drama. very bludge. ninja destruction fun. xDDD miss mac (is that weird...calling her that? O.O) goes out to 'photocopy' handouts and is gone for like over half an hour. urgh so bludge. stella kept undoing my shoelaces...footrape xDDD

lunchtime...very empty? no seniors practically. i don't quite remember what we were doing. >< people talking about formal shopping ^w^ although feeling a bit...left behnd cos everyone's still shopping. that doesn't make sense does it? O_O well that's jsut how i feel. i wanna go shopping anyway! >]

4th pd. History. haha angel/steph/al with their smh word game (i forgot what it's called ><) miss whiting trying to find out where they hid the letters, then forced hem to write it up on the whiteboard xDDD then dodge 'newspaper article' which everbody 'finished' xDD weelay went home after this =(

5th pd. science. by now...i tihnk there were probably like 12 or something people in class. funny how the number depletes magically throughout the day. =L anywayz we had trivia battle with miss oliver's class. hehe sumo question = "-pause-OH!!!!-hand up-" xDD. hey we only lost by a bit D; PLUS we were outnumbered -nods- BY A LOT!!! hah >] mr kulesz and his dodge 'takeoff 3 points for calling out' xDD and ZAT IS THE END OF TERM 2!!! woot :3

me and lenloe walk out of class early :3 walked with her to outside where i said bye to everyone. lol lenloe told me to go 2 central -shift- :3 ah couldn't had ERNIE's.

yeah has anyone else noticed that in our group i'm the only one who takes train from st leonards? D; it's lonely. plus i don't see cath and lauren all that much since i walk by myself. oh well. took train with al till chats. got off and saw neel. still think he walks funny =L. then awkwardly walked off when neel saw his 'girl' friends xDDD so funny (friends: neel!, neel: oh no!...) xDD

getting braces off on the 14th aug. b4 bday yeh^^ so creepy though. after he told me the good news, ernie says "so when are we going to celebrate? will you invite me out for lunch or something?" i awkwardly lie there O_O "uhm...i don't think it's really something to celebrate...? -shift-" as i'm walking out the door i say "if all your patients invited you out for lunch everytime they got their braces off, you'd be very fat/lucky (i forgot which one i said, whichever it was, he then said "no i'd be very (other one)") then what was creepy was that he then said "rebecca, i only invite hornsby girls and north sydney girls out. only smart ones (Y)" O_O OMG FREAK ME OUT WON'T YOU?!?! xDDD

looking at retainers schedule. depressing...

after ernie's went back to st leonards to watch bro's bball final at rooftop. clara and wendy stole my phone >[ had to chase clara round the bleachers to get it back. then we prank-called wendy on m phone xDDDD >] wendy tehn said camthom was hot (Y) hehe so funny. since nsb's are like the only asian team, the rest of the teams have like supprtive parents nd familes and stuff right? and they were all sitting behind me yelling "GO BULLETS!" and stuff. and then it really started to piss me off so when the parents next yelled "go bullets!" i go "GO FALCONS~!!!!!!!" xDDDD hehe didn't see that coming aye? suckballs, asians can scream too. then i practically became my bro's teams cheerleader =_= my mum was like "yeah you scream enough for all of us..." xDDD well that's cos all you parents are like... STONING! i gotta do SOMETHING! ><

i hate parents who comment on sports matches as if they know more than the ref, as if they play, as if they know the rules and all that shit. then they say "THAT WAS A FOUL!" BULLSHIT if it was the ref would've called it up! that's why they have qualification bitches. >< sorry its just really annoying. just....urgh >[

-sigh- in the end bro's team (orange falcons) lost like 31-33. fail by THIS close...like last year. -sigh- team was so pissed lol. edward was like "I CAN KILL SOMEONE NOW!" then sahan says "go kill them -points at other team-" lol. oh well they got 2nd place. always next term (Y) then they got dodge trophies with flashing rainbow balls (basketballs xDD) which made them look even more plastic O_O like toys, wtf.

was going to talk to [youknowwho] when found out that he [....] for the holidays but didn't. D; ended up regretting it for the rest of night when he signed out.

-sigh- holidays :3 started getting boring already. found nothing to do D;


saturday, July 11th~

saturday night fever (Y) literally T_T

woke up feeling like shit. didn't know why. checked temp = 37.19 degrees. didn't know what that was and mum wasn't home.

remembered that lenloe was going to vic so txted her to ask if she was there yet. then voila she calls me back and its carumen-chan xDDD who tells me she left her fone in her house, where she is at the moment. so, i being the slow idiot, believe it and the rest of convo on the fone i believe that carumen-chan is at lenloe's house seeing millions of spiders and spamming her bandwith and digging up random stuff such as toy cars and street directories, when really lenloe and carumen-chan are in the car going home after du, sneakily conning me. D; and i being the baka i was couldn't even tell their voices apart after they switched on the phone. damnit -headdesk- can't believe i fell for it. should've known when carumen said she'd need 15 minutes to turn the computer on. i even believed her parents talking in the background was youtube!! D; (what's worse is i would've kept believing it if it weren't for lenloe telling me on msn ><)

found out later on when mum got back that i really did have a fever. jinxed myself the day before wen i said everyone had gotten sick except me =_= damn that. so felt like shit for the next few hours. had panadol and fell asleep on the couch till dinner. felt better almost straight away after waking up. the miracle of antibios (Y)

not much happened after. andy, matt and steven came over and we bitched about cc. xDDD

trying to learn gee dance D; epic failing.

sunday, July 12th~

slept 2am till 2pm (Y)

played kh2 after kicking kevin off. he plays jak3 too much =_=

played mah jong as a family. got owned xDDDD got freaking 'eaten' twice. (as in they 'ate' from me only) then ate (for real xDD) FROZEN CHOCOLATE CHEESECAKE!!!<333 hehe ^w^

was very surpised to see youknowwho online. talked on msn :3 made me very happy :3 couldn't stop smiling >w< (hence the weird message before...had to express it somehow D;)

i'm very happy i got to see you :3 i guess if you're reading this then you'll know who you are straight away >< i'm not very subtle D;

went to sleep smiling ^w^

monday, july 13th~

first of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIRLEY<33 sorry we're not there to celebrate with you D; but our hearts are with you^^ will give you an awesome celebration when we get back together.

played bejeweled late in the arvo and go hooked. ended up being late to station cos of it and ended up not making it to George St maccers in time (was supposed to be there by 5...ended up getting there at 5:10) but then weelay wasn't there either. called her like 3-4 times and she didn't pick up and i srsly thought shegot kidnapped for a while D; then she picked up -phew- and it turned out she was later than me!!! that's a first =L

met u with weelay and...haha u guessed it. Ian! went to get easy way, where jchou concert was playing again ==

dance was fun and not that hard today :3 i've already forgotten the steps xDDD but it was fun. and sexy xDDDD finally got 10-pass. :3 also finally added jaye's real fb.

mass latenight/earlymorning msning xDDD well only cos i turned the net back on >< shhh. had an interesting convo with steffu xDDD sorry for being dodge and secretive ><

FINALLY!!! gna sleep now >< nite~! (or morning O_O)

~<33 beedee

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YES i realise it's winter. NO my heater's not on. and i only have 2 layers so its not overclothing. >< and i'm feeling dizzy @_@

maybe i have a fever... or maybe it's cos i'm frustrated...

dno

so...today.

had to carry the heart cake tin to school...but when i put it together with folder in a shopping bag it made a hole i the bottom D; was awkwardcos it broke while getting off train. >< was really worried it would burst completely. D; but it didnt (Y)

history first period. 20/30 people (Y) women's rights stuffs. hehe =L i've always wondered if that was part of the compulsory syllabus. like...guy schools have to do it too. but maybe that's a stupid assumption. cos...maybe...argh wateva i'm dumb. it would just be funny if they had to learn it too ><

then from period 2 went to SCRAM. QUARTER FINALS YAY! dumped cake tin in locker so i could get rid of the huge shopping bag. then steffu and cath (i think) took the string off the shopping bag and kept it. xDDD i thought it was a shoelace at first O_O getting ready, we got into 'costume'. urgh...i am NEVER tucking my shirt into my school skirt O_O weird experience. and T_T im too fat to fit into weelay's blazer. buttons go -PIW- or sumthing >< THANK YOU JASSY FOR ALWAYS LETTING ME EAT YOUR FOOD~! <33 sounds dodge but really, i'm sorry for being a pig D; then weelay and her hardore makeup. shirley and her green eye shadow xDDD leaf = HIPPY!

during it...we went round and round in circles (very my fault ><) but overall i think maybe we did alright? time management was bleurgh >< like 1 minute left =L so funny. me and weelay trying to own each other, and then shirley vs ness as well. xDDDD sorry to Bella and Jassy >< we definitely made it hard for you D; but you guys did awesome!!<33 it was fun. and i know it's too late today to think like this but we should treat every round as if it's our last now cos we don't know when we'll be KO'ed >< so (Y) have fun while we can :3 good work guys^^

in the end...i didn't get the instant coffee D;

During lunch, we had very fun talk xDDD apart from someone who was very down D; wanted to help her but...i dno. how do you help someone without insulting their desire to be...alone? like...ARGH help but...'passively'? i dno D; anywayz. you know how we said one of our group's issues is always 'tangent'ing. i think it can be bad >< but it's also a characteristic. i mean this way we have fun. :3 i don't think optimism is bad...and seeing the brighter side of things and making a bit of fun out of depressing stuff isn't always bad. i'd prefer to see people smiling - it's not like we're disrespecting the 'concerning' issue. it's just our way of getting through difficult stuff. keep smiling<33 =)

i wish you would open up. you're only hurting yourself, and we only want to help. please, don't push us away. we have no ulterior motive i promise. it doesn't have to be now, it doesn't need to be quick. but, i just wish you'd let us help...=(

saw al's mum in the canteen and talked dodge mando to her =L

i dont like FLARTING >[ OUR SCHOOL IS NOT FKING RACIST! at least we dont make up nicknames for ppl like 'lebo', 'black', 'yellow' and 'terrorist' and all that. jeez. sabrina's play (i didn't see it but i'm sure it was: )is awesome! you obviously haven't seen enough of the world to see 'racism'. go do some research before you go making fking assumpions about people you'll never understand because YOU'RE the racist one >[

4th period maths. standard deviation somehow turned into hsc scaling xDDD TANGENT! :3 xDDD but it was interesting ^^

5th commerce. lindy chamberlain vid. prosecution lawyer's a bastard >[ lol i know it's dramatized but >[ dear lindy chamberlain if you're out there. i'm sorry you had to go through all that hell. im sure azaria's happy somewhere and you are amazing for standing up for yourself like that. you are AWESOME!

>< yes i know that was heaps random...but hey i can write whatever ;D

DoE training typical - commonsense stuff. walked to station while al everyone else bussed. funny xDDD w/e i like walking ><

GOOD LUCK IPT PPL! ONLY ONE DAY LEFT! GANBATTE~! you can do it<33

*note1 - please stop patronizing me. i'm not being modest. i know who i am and my looks. it's awkward and weird to respond to. so...yeah >< could you stop? it feels like a conspiracy -shift-

*note2 - :3ing is actually very fun and an interesting way of passing time while you walk to the station. ^^ i think people looked at me weirdly though >< i was probably making weird faces D; and...sounds...maybe

YEAH~! IGNORE THAT! xDDDD

~i'm honestly a bit sad that you can't go out during hols...D; but i hope you don't know this.

GEE GEE GEE GEE~

1 day till hols~!!

~<33 beedee

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charities day today. went to combined choir for the first time today. haha so funny that i can navigate my way around nsb perfectly (Y) crew 2008 ftw! also funny/creepy that ms moulton knew my name >< argh i fail at reading 4-part music. D; i kept reading the bass part! T_T alto habits (Y) speaking of...bass is so loud O_O the're like, behind you and then they start singing and you're like WOAH! xDDD but what's funny is that the bass part range is like the same as our alto 2 range :3 proves we are men yeah? =L paul says hi to everyone.

monica, em, me and sarah walked back up, after neel did something with em (sounds dodgy xDD) so we were a bit late -shift-. then i ofound out we were doing jap speaking test D; and we were going alphabetically (at first) i was so fked. THANK U MAJO FOR SAVING ME~ T_T so tomorrow >< haha funny sumo movie.

commerce watched a bit more of lindy chamberlain case. its actually really interesting! :3 obviously it's been dramatized but, still...its so horrible. D; i hate the police >< (in the program O_O not in real life -shift-)

charities - talent quest. yeh lenloe...showed me and tried not to scream. omgomg it's like...so not possible D; i still can't believe it. wel...key word 'think' ok? it was only 'think' and 'might' >< yes i like being in denial ><

talent quest was funny. hahaha love the judges. epic comments and epic performances xDD awww the year 7 kids were so brave and awesome. talented year (Y) hsm one was so funny xDDD and other people like steph/cecily zhu piece...so sad T_T <33 in all...awesome stuff guys (Y)

my fail chocolate cake >< tin was too big so it ended up looking like a huge biscuit T_T then when i was getting it out of the baking tin it broke in 2 D; so i had to stick it back together with icing >< yeh dodge...at least you can't see it? >< meh hope mrs kulesz likes it<33 congrats!! $15

rest of teh day pretty much bummed around. haha fail pillow fight >< and stuff? then we cleaned up history storeroom for $30. hehe believe it or not it was worth the job O_O.

group fotos<33 orlando and his dodge cam-perv talk =_= sounds like a pedo xDDD

scram was interesting xDDD its getting so deep >< like...argh! got so much to remember as well. is funny what we end up talking abotu in scram. completely off topic though. and crap its in 2 days (Y) screwed much? but then again we're doing pretty well impromptu so i think we might be ok. privo info beta not be screwy T_T

was feeling very..giddy when i walked to st leos. why? >w< just did. couldn't stop smiling~!! ^w^

more parent argument when i got home. don't blame them, i blame me, and menopause xDDD but srsly...i really need to be more considerate. D;

there's gotta be a mistake. i think that even more so now. i don't want to be conceited. i don't want to make pre-assumptions. argh~ i'm so confused!

Romeo save me, i've been feeling so alone. i keep waiting for you but you never come. is this in my head? I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO THINK~!

that's all folks~!

_____, i didn't tell you today. but i'm gonna say it now: i'm so happy i could burst<33 it feels selfish to be feeling this way, but i can't help it. i can't stop smiling. <33 kyaaa~

yep...ignore that (Y) xDD

~<33 beedee

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ok YES i'm sorry. i've given up on recapping. i can't remember half of the stuff that happens in a week so i'm just gonna hav VERY brief notes on last week. dont hate me >< i just cbf. plus i'm freaking exhausted. o wait i'llt try...but cant promise anything.

*thursday 2nd July~ (was a very spesh day so long recap ><)
i dont remember..i think this was the day that they emptied my bag =L OH THAT's right! the night before i found out that i needed to do my english speech so i didn sleep - ended up getting half an hour of sleep (slept at 6:00, woke up at 6:30) shut up i know its crazy>< then cos of english, completely didnt have time to do drama journal and srp log book.

thot that jap writing test was on so i brought the jap dictionary to school. except it wasnt on. dayum betch this is wat i get for procrastinating. instead had jap reading test. yeh...i didn't study at all. fk much? then again didnt do TOO bad i hope. Just pissed that i didn't realise that "budou" was grapes. dayum that.

drama journal - didnt end up finishing shit. bag was shtload heavy, ppl emptied at lunchtime...then had to repack damnit =_= Duke of Ed training after school. they took all our chairs away xDDD

got to pymble and bought flowers for mum<33 happy bday!

*friday 3rd July~
ok this day was just a blur (cos i spent most of the day finishing drama journal...yea major procrastination. you can ask weelay and lenloe T_T). morning 7:30 coaching netball team; i love my yr 9 team, have i said that? maths...not much to say - the usual. 2nd period had english (lol audrey stripping/touching herself) when mice and me script was due. spent the whole period doing drama journal. went down to CT1 with lenloe and weelay and wacthed taylor swift mvs. (8)YOU BELONG WITH ME<33 so cute vid. ^w^

science period 3. thot i was fked cos i didnt hav my log book. but priod was devoted towards careers cubject selection. and...yep yo guessed it. i fell asleep (Y). oh well. got a hugeass folder with lots of borchures and a hugeass jobs book.

american teacher in history. thought my drama journal was notes on the textbook LOL. last period had miss...i forgot her name D; the young asian one who i always think used to go to our school and looks really korean but isn't. me, lenloe and weelay went FULL high ^w^ good times. went high on...gee xDDDD had lots of fun ths period.<33

walking to station (northsydney) weelay and lenloe went on scary highs. like...SCARY high xDDD had a lot of trouble getting around at this point because 1.had to handle folder (self explanatory xDD) 2.was holding ms english's heart-shaped cake tin, 3.was trying to eat lunch (wrap) which was really hard cos i had 2 ulcers. got lenloe and weelay to take turns holding my folder =L

luke got on at...i forgot what station (Y) he couldn't recognise me xDDD got to central. and we changed to the other platform. >w<. no comment. also...everyone's grown! D; like...i swear everyone was shorter last time i saw them. haha and hence anthony and jz too tall to do the \/ position xDD ended up looking very fail =L ah~ their train is always so lively and cheerful <33. anywayz lenloe was sad. i dont know why D; wanted to help but didn't know how. then epic moment where lenloe holds out arms to hug kenneth, who bars, then i tell him to go hug her back, then he goes and holds out arms, and gets barred. kenneth holds up her limp arms to manually hug xDDDDD EPIC! =L got off said bye

>w< (ok i'll stop D;)

walked to lenloe's house. haha lnloe and carumen-chan linked arms then went over the random stranger. he was like "WTF?!" =L epic.

gotto lenloe's house and w got a strip show (Y) hha jks jks ;P we looked away, at he mirror xDDD oknot that either. we just didnt look ok?...a least i didnt -shift- lenloe wore her formal dress for us. T________T SO skinny man. very curvy (Y) ;D the dress is very pwetti ^w^ srsly it isnt as bad as you made it sound len D; its very classical and fairytale like <33 and like...ethreal! thats the word i was looking for that day. ^w^ and pretti lingerie ^^ HAHA wear the lingerie to formal >] xDD

then left for carumen-chan's house. haha catlegs gf? =L then ate dinner in carumen-chan's room. she switched on webcam for everyone D; =L then everyone got to see us/esp. me pig out >< then watched carumen-chan tag xmen pic on fb =L haha jz shud be honoured to receive the title of wolverine, as we sed =L carumen-chan was very reluctant to give away...like -claws at screen "NOOOOOOO!"- xDDDD talked to ppl on msn. ^^ msn called lenloe^^

then martin drove us to lidcombe. was veyr hyped up^^ and cold D;. caught train. carumen-chan was scared of lidcombe xDDDD *note must pay back martin for train ticket) train was...azn xDDD

olympic park. carumen-chan and her glow stick xDDD found acer arena...frekaing long line D; saw a certain nsb bballer -shift- took a picure xDDDD when we finally got in went to souveneir shop ^w^ dodge figurine with the green/yellow shirt with kangaroo and surfboard (you can twist the arms and legs! xDDD). carumen-chan got pink shirt =) then i fail >< almost lost the freaking ticket. almost died D;

hired binoiculrs cos of our seats xDDD dodge seat (Y) see the back of his head and hence every time he walks = "LOOK THIS WAY!!! THIS WAY!!!!!" xDDDD nah we made the mst out of where we were so (Y) happy i went at all >w< THANK U CARUMEN-CHAN!!! agrh i think i lost half my eardrums tho. as well as my voice >< AWESOME night ^^

then when we wee goin out, i thought i lost my train ticket. and then i dropped my scarf and had to run back. then my dad was too busy playing chess to come pick me up, so there was a big fiasco abotu how i was getting home. >< sorry to trouble everyone. spent 15 minutes at lidcombe just being dodge (yes i took your advice and stood in the light carumen-chan :3) and waiting for dad. got kidnapped then held for ransom and raped. LOL no >< got picked up, went home, then jsut flopped.

OMG yes i am done! awesome day. had to say all of it.

in a sentence. Jay Chou concert was AMAZING! no regrets on going<33

*saturday 4th July~
netball in the morning. that day was proof that NSG OWNS SG!^^
1. I umpired game where year 9 nsg's beat sg's. the sg's were very...whiny to put it nicely ;)
2. my year 9 team smashed other SG team 30-something to something a lot less =L
3. MY TEAM WON! MY (year 10) TEAM ACTUALLY WON!!! yes it sounds sad that thats a big deal but screw that. i'm happy^w^ OWNED SG 20something to like 12 or something. yes it sounds like nothing but i dont care! <33 you lisa (year 8) thanx for playing up! you were aweome defence (Y)

hehe had cake ^w^

nm. just msned and fbed for msot of rest of day.

sunday 5th july~
nm. parents hate me. went to work with dad at north rocks. was extremely bored so texted weelay. entertained yself watching hsm3 ^w^ yes i know it's corny but it's sweet and i'm a hopeless romantic >< not a good combination. sahan (from kev's bball team) came to the market. His dad was like "hey! do you know me? ;D" and i had mental blank and was lke "i may have seen you before..." (a in i thought he was a regular customer or something) then i realised and was like "OH~! omg sorry i didn't recognise you!" and me being an idiot only then saw sahan. xDDD its ok if you dont get it. fell asleep in car after we got back.

had a huge argument with parents.

monday 6th july~
scram in the morning. fun stuff^^ drama - sub. almost fell asleep while we read a very annoyingly long passage on a weird book. did...tableux on a story with conflict =_= was pretty much a waste of time.

Jap. did writing test. yeh i screwed for this one too. didnt sleep the night before just to try writing up a practice one (the only studying i did) but only managed to do half. =_= oh well. winged it. if i fail i'll know why (Y)

maths. not much to say as usual =_= almost got caught out for sleepign again. actually...well i kinda did. >< freaking statistics

lunchtime did listening test. hehe...shit much? >< totally blanked out for one of the questions.

sport - TOM WAS BACK! LIAR! xDD yes admittedly we didnt really feel like it...seeing the van pull up was a bit...=\ but we had fun for the last lesson^^ tried out the skateboard ^^ hardcore! ok no i cant even stay on it long enough >< but it was fun ^w^

then we walked to north sydney (weelay, lenloe, bella and me) and me and weelay got off at town hall. went to maccers ^_^ and i pigged out (Y)

ian was late. went shopping around, and it was freezing. we've gotten sick of formal level in myer xDDD. perfumes...omg my hand smelled like crap after all that. do guys like wearing girls perfume beta than mens cologne? xDDD

dance. new part to routine before the original part >] wasnt as hard as i though it would be. at least we could keep up~ ^^ problem is...i cant remember part of it now D; jaye is awesome.^^ keeps lessons fun. bought easy way afterwards. dodge jelly xDDD turning straws upside down (Y)

will do today in another post (Y)

~<33 beedee

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ok so today...not much

Jap excursion to USyd. was late cos i fking fell asleep on the bed last nite...like ON the bed, not IN the bed...then mum owned me wen she found me still in uniform in the morning sleeping on top of the bed... yeah...shit...tehn was late cos i showered to make up for it. missed the train so i couldn't get to central in time for when we deided to meet up to take bus to usyd, so had to go to redfern to walk instead. met up with jowo and fi and sally.

Duke of Ed around USyd (Y) xDDD

Miss Wei is PRO-AWESOME!<33 coordinator of the day ^w^

so many freaking private schools...in red group 'A'. with Jenny Chang from PLC, Peter Tran from Stratty South, and Yuri Chen (?) from I forgot what school >< nice kids (Y)

writing exercise (brochure) then recess. then speaking (role play = epic fail D;) and reading ('brainteasers' freaking hard question about breakfast ina a cafe...frekaing maths in jap ]<)

got a golden gaytime at lunch (Y) ^w^ believe it or not...first time eating gaytime xDDD

Taikoz drum show. sorta kool...a bit random though. (haha btw, you know how they mentioned they're collaborating with Bell Shakespeare? well I SAW THAT MENTIONED IN TODAY"S ISSUE OF MX!! ^w^ haha talk about ironic. if you dont believe me, its in wed July 1st issue, pg.23, City Watch, "A night of Hope and Optimism" (Y)

Was gonna go back to school straight away but me and jo were too fascinated with usyd's awesome places, so we luvoed for like 10 mins after everyone left xDDDD then caught bus to central, and got back to school at 3:25 >< soz SCAM people and Miss Achelle ><

SCRAM - HIPPY~! VV xDDDD shirley (Y) xDDDD

Dad back from China. Got lai si from gparents 50th anniversary<33 and some uncle of a grandpa or something relative who's hit 98! (although i've gotten one for a great-aunt or something who passed 100) Yay!^^ dad got me ipod earphones...lost my other pair D; aut got me pretty phones charms. handmade (Y)

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ARGH! its fking due 2moz! english speech!! fkfkfkfkfk...

yeah...my own fault for thinking that i wouldn't need to do it this term...(Y) just cos of jap excusion 2day. D; im fked...FML~!

ok to do list for TONIGHT:
*shower before 7:30 if possible.
*do as much of Drama Journal as possible (preferably finish T_T)
*finish reading Pride and Prejudice (got like fking 2/3 of book to go T_T)
*bs a speech out...somehow...
*find a random book for SRP Log Book and think of a DAMN EXPERIMENT~!
*if have time, get some research for log book

ARGH FK I NEED TO GET UP EARLY FOR SCRAM TOMORROW!

yup...looks like i'm definitely pulling an all-nighter. FML!

~<33 beedee

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