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Monday, October 18, 2010

Wow...and I thought YESTERDAY's cryfest was bad haha.

But thankyou to everyone who replied etc. <3
Was inspirational.
I think I've become more...happy =) (lol lame wordchoice)

Unfortunately tonight was 100x worse but for completely different reason.

It's funny how I've been having emotional conflicts with the 3 most important groups of people in my life recently:

1. [bf]
2. [atoms]
3. [family]

Tonight number 3 finally reared its ugly head. The incident obviously coincided with number 1, as it would. But after crying a bucket of tears (I think...quite literally that much) while making as ugly gurgling and choked sounds as those during sex (WTF is that analogy...i dno), finally defended my point (quite badly might I add) and all is good.

Well...I think I'm grounded forever...like never allowed to go out again.

BUT

all is good.

It could be a lot worse =)

So self sacrifice in this case goes a long way =)

Hope you are sleeping soundly in your uber soft pillow, without a care in the world.
You deserve that kind of peace of mind =) -hug-

And to all who noticed last night's post, thank you so much for being there. In all honesty I am now ashamed that I doubted you guys. I am nothing without you guys. Really. Please don't leave me <3

Oh and shoutout to Carumen-chan, thankyou for putting up a trying (albeit feeble) fight against the scary mum-monster on the phone. And I'm sorry you had to go through that =(
(Although you obviously aren't reading this because you have no net LOL)

And to all those not mentioned:

You're beautiful <3

~<33 bee[d]ee @ 9:18 PM | 0 Eaters