Monday, April 19, 2010
-big breath-
i feel better.
well felt.
had musical today on school development day.
got rung up at 8am but fell back asleep for half an hr.
then finally got up at 9 exactly.
and spazdressed and brushed my teeth and etc.
dad was coincidentally up too.
so i asked him to drive me to station.
dad is a legend<3
you know why?
cos even tho we just missed the train when we got to pymble,
i asked him if it wud be ok to drive me to gordon.
cos i knew there were a few trains between the 20 and 36 that started further down the north shore line,
so i assumed it wud be gordon
but instead it ended up being chatswood and lindfield at 37
so instead i asked him if he could take e to lindfield
then
i changed my mind and asked if chats wud be ok since it was earlier.
and even thru all that selfish pleaing
he was still ok with it.
i love you dad.
no matter how much i don't show it.
what made me feel worse is that once we got to chats i just missed the train too ><;;
so he could've taken me to lindfield...-sigh-
i sent him a thank you txt.
porbably the first txt i've sent dad in a while...
i ended up getting to nsb just in time for 10 =)
so i wasn't late
for once
<33333 yayy
becoz for once the 144 bus came!!! ^w^~
anywayz
yes
got there
and saw cathcath<3
then lenloe<3
and we all huggu-ed
=)
we were clearing the stage.
which we did for a while.
LOL moving the amps via trolley.
there was a squeaky very annoyingly noisy trolley.
it reminded me of tinman =)
wich reminded me of aidan =)
anywayyz
yes
i think i'm half deaf from it xD
and then when we switched to the wooden smoother trolley.
the wheel came off LOL
jsut like all wheely things in nsb AT LEAST ONE WHEEL HAS TO COME OFF! fking hell xD
costume racks, bbq's...aish xD
oh
and another wheel came off while we wheeled it down.
so therefor there were onli 2 functional wheels left ont he wooden trolley gg xD
twas funny watching them move the choir stands after collapsing them.
stupid nsb hall shud clear away its exam tables and chairs xD
ahyes,
and lauren played the piano<3
lauren is so good at the piano<3
its music from the heart =)
and i managed to spout out a bit of teayang's wedding dress on the keys...somehow
i guess my memory is not completely fail xD
lenloe and me and carumen-chan went up on the mezanine to stalk ppl,
as well as cath and ness later =)
lenloe and lukey are good listeners<3
it doesn't matter if u have nothing constructive to say
its still...good to have someone to listen...and with experience<3
thankyou<3
i guess...its interesting to note who always notices.
since i'm not the type to make it known i guess...
as in
flaunt stoned/depression-ness
so when someone notices...it's just that little reassurance that ppl care =)
and yeah
poured my heart out.
both up on the mezanine, on the phone and outside looking at the nsb sign.
-sigh-
but yeah was very stoned for most of the day.
when the cast finally came
we finished up on the orchestra hole-y music stands with their lamps
kwan had very flat hair today.
and howell was wearing his vest again...which he always wears xD
and robine finally remembered his dance partner after much prompting ;P
ahhhhhhh
oh and
haha
when he came in and hugged her from behind.
SHIFTYYYYYYYYYY~!
yeah i notice the weirdest things. xD
waltzing was...interesting.
the teacher was very er...demanding.
'LOOK THEM IN THE EYE'
was hilarious when she used tristan and lia for an example ;P
and then lucy L pointed out the obvious xD yes they are dating -facepalm-
me and jacob are like -looks in the eye...stsrts cracking up and lookks away-
-awkwarddddd-
me carumen-chan and sarah got kidnapped away from the dancing scene to have pizza for lunch
wait
i mean
-cough- what pizza?
so thirsty at lunch
and simon manning it xD
-eyecandy-
lol inorite lenloe? =)
haha checking each other's faces and teeth for incriminating evidence before we went back in xD
and then i found out me and jacob had been swicthed to the back for tristan and lia
which all ok
until margery and her partner got put at the front and centre even tho they were late ><;;
ah wells
cant be bitter
=)
afterwards so awkward.
cast ended up being needed for onli 2 hrs (12 to 2)
so
pointless
xD
so we (crewable cast) went to help with the banner putting up
along with howell and paul as well
and then
and then
HAHAHAHAHAHA
suvie and vin came
with teh V shape formation between.
and
me and carumen-chan started screaming.
altho carumen-chan's was more like...excited.
while i was in...trauma?
xD
paul was getting his butt spiked ><
and then i went outside the school to tell them the banner's straighness =)
lenloe joined me shortly.
and again we talked<3
-sighhhhhh-
oh yeah
some guy in vans drove across while we were trying to hang it up
and started singing i dreamed a dream
and asked when the auds where
and
lenloe called faggots xD
SIMON SAYS~! xD
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
yeahhhhhh
stuff
we pow wowed in the middle of b quad while we waited for carumen-chan simon and ness to come back
me and lenloe and cath sat in the middle
and me and lenloe raved
lying down.
LOL
xDDD
and scared teachers walking by.
oh and kwan came back to wait for carumen-chan LOL
anywayz
yeah
we finally got out
and we were at the bus stop across the road.
but the migrated
and
yeahhhhhh
i was stressing abotu ext english.
oh and the bus was full of annoying marist-ers
xD
very annoying
xD
and me and cath went down north shore way - said byebye~
and i fell asleep on teh train with my feet up.
-sigh-
got home
was uber tired
thot food might help
but
a yoghurt and iceblock later
still feeling stoned.
called joey on the couch
and talked
wonder if he's rly ok...
and then
mum came bakc
so i had to hang up
went to room and read shrew on the bed.
fell asleep.
so fking tired.
like
emotionally and physically exhausted.
-sigh-
woke up at 7 by parents for dinner.
felt a lot more awake and better.
then got bak here and read his blog.
tears again.
great
><
-sigh-
oh wells
WORKWORWORKWORKWORKWORKSSSSS~!
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