Sunday, February 21, 2010
gomen ne.
i did it again.
i'm so useless.
spur of the moments used to be so awesome.
now it's killing the people i don't want to hurt.
you can feel everything spiral down slowly.
i've always been a walking cliche.
so i'll say the cliche things...because that's the only way i can express myself.
i'm sorry for hurting you.
it hurts.
it hurts to think how much i hurt you.
it's so hard.
why can't i say the right things.
why can't i just shut up for once.
why can't i for once take into consideration what other people think.
(how hypocritical.)
i tend to exaggerate a lot.
and i didn't realise this.
or is that an excuse for being horrible.
maybe.
i'm pathetic like that.
trying to make out myself to be the innocent one.
i'm 2-faced.
if you didn't know, you know now.
what a hypocrite.
and as i scrolled down, my heart was painfully wrenching into knots.
i'm so shallow.
perhaps i knew all of this already.
or maybe it never occurred to me how fragile everything has become.
and as always
i accidentally knocked it to the ground.
I'm sorry.
Please don't forgive me.
i don't deserve to be forgiven.
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