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If you do, i'll make sure u don't again -blink-
Swearing = ok (Y) cos i do it too ><
All work is original except for song lyrics xP
I take no credit for those at all~








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aish~!! stoopid poem. too deep. TOO DEEEEEEEEEEPP~ @_@

~<33 beedee

Labels: fail, stress

had work so had to wake up early on a sunday...aish~

the market was uneventful. neighbouring stall all 3 kids came today =) well the guy (17 yrsold) left bout...after 11-ish. middle girl and lil Katherine (:3) stayed for rest. omggggg Katherine is so kyooot~ ^_^ she smiles more nowadays too. waaah havnt seen her in ages~ she talksabout kindy so cutely >w< "and...and...and i have friends and i do my homework =D" OMGGGG~ -squish- xDD

fb pokefesttt~ lol nathan ur such a loser ;P dont poke if you dont want me poking back >
]

lunchtime. WAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH~!! >////< doosh!!! DOOOOSHHH!!! >< omgomg i swear i went red...if not dark pink >< yesh song 3 <333 stoopid lyrics. -melts...mush- go do geo instead of screwing me all up inside >< but yeah i thougth you wrote it urself at first ;P

finally paid kev back the 70. loll yeah thats right go buy wateva offer thingo == aishh...

stoopid LCDs...why wnt u freaking play the dvd on ur screen >[ go be...gay ==

call as soon as i got home xD :3 LOLL '2 perfect girls' ;P but sorry if it pisses you off =( AND I TOLD YOU IT WASNT THAT BIG OF A DEAL! >[

=( mum sick. wish i could've made ALL of dinner...but dont have that kinda ability nor sense of responsibility. aish. thanks mum for helping/showing me how to cook<33 even though i only cleaned the lettuce and stirred the wonton xDD

dinner filling. sorry i didnt do the dishes =( had to fix the stoopid lamp. waaaaah the glass-hoder-inner-screw thing fell ont he floor and my stoopid floormat hid it >[ took me ages of crawling around the floor like a hobo to find it ><

AHAHA "anyone can screw a few things" "so you can't screw? D;" xDD you gotta admit that was epic >] lol flipping cams. funfun

aish...be careful you =\ i dont doubt ur connections but...just be careful. i'mf king worried about you D;

you!...i dont look like a ghost >[...and screw your stoopid comebacks...nobody gets them anyway >< psh...you're one to talk...just cos you dont have one ;P

yayayyy~ thanks luke =D awesomesss :3 no rush giving them...thanks so much^^

BAHAHAHAHA poor maz. "i'm yours" so epic xDD i'm sorry, blame that doosh -points- ;P

and Wang you fail ;P you just do. it doesnt even make sense THAT way ;P

stoopid cookies. bite your mum! DISTURB YOUR MUM! >< and hence...more call xD songs high. aishh teary by the end >< and also funfun with disney songs =D haha your zazu impersonation so retarded xDD but wats scary is that u actually sound like him =S ;P waaaaaahh<33 was awesome. song high~^^

lol Ike what a fail ;P go to sleep you hobo.

writing THE book...gl<33 i'll help xDD

nts: type up txts

sorry about failing at night T_T ninjaing is hard...thn i fell asleep. aishh sorry =(

gnight (morning)<3

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, life, love

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

(Chorus)
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

(Chorus)
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

(Bridge)

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

(Chorus)
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

(Chorus)
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

(Chorus)
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing

btw...that was a song :3 fking love you doosh

"I Don't Want To Miss A Thing" by Aerosmith

~<33 beedee

Labels: love

Txt first thing in the morning<33 ily~

Woke up at 1 haha…weird dream xDDD barred from a holiday bus in china then walking the rest of the way. yup think it was my rebellious mood =\

I love weddings xDD Shud’ve told me earlier they were gone at 12:30 though D; ah wells…we still got 2 and half hrs in :3

Aston came over to study ‘comedy’ with Kevin. So watching john tucker must die counts huh? ;P DAMN you and your stoopid accents doosh! xDDDDDD fking hilarious. –megasigh- yayy Thursday and Friday >< YESH I like the idea shuddup T_T yeah enough of ‘your mum’ xDD BRRRUUNOOOOO~! xDD

Epic mass convo with luke, jacky and the doosh. LAWL by the end wasn’t sure who was a guy anymore…for all I knew I was one as well xDD luke owned ;P haha jacky keeping score xDD

Btw…beary’s insides all gone~

Haha 1 cookie left. Eat it you doosh ;P me = 20 balls left xDD lol shifty chinese ;P after formal stuff =\ aishh…I hate being a girl sometimes >< I wont get fking raped T_T unless HE rapes me :3 then no objections xDDD ;P
Aish fk you doosh! >///< I will fking rape you for that. And I wont forget! >[ DEF not >////< fking unexplored territory >[

Sorry I hung up on you like that >< night doosh~<33

Nts: need to help organise DOE D; sorry guys…will get back to you asap!!

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, life, love

lalalalalala~ today was...interesting? =)

yeah 3:30...sorry D; barely finished brochure in the morning. woke up at 6 to do it >< finished...then fking printer went spastic on me! >[ first paper jam...wich didnt process as unjammed even after i unjammed it >[ fking...then wouldn't connect to laptop...aish! >< drama drama drama...was stressing like hell.

cheesecake = fail >< aish...the base was falling apart even as i took it out of the mold D; waaaaaaah sorry guys ><

haha hot in the shower :3 hot in the morning, hot at night, hot whenever :3

thankyou mum for driving me there<33 i know you hate me (ok well i hope not but...) but thankyouuu~

sorry cath for being late...as usual >< sorrysorrysorry T_T halfway down the driveway i realised i forgot the addrss/map to the place. shiieeettt! thanks for the address cath~ ^^ lifesaver<33

got to miller st/ernest st cnr. haha shoot cant turn right. mum kicked me out (not rly xDD) of the car while we were at red light cos we saw other nsgs at light.

met up at the park with rest of ppl. yeah uhmmm sorry for the noob brochure >< i didnt realy do anything aish... >< i brought postits tho ;D yayy for heart postits^^

got inside and set up. audz and kelly awesome =) body shapes thing was awesome ;D thanks you guys -hug-

ran around slapping postits on ppl :3 was AWESOME fun xDDD its like -runsuptosomeone- 'heyyy~!' -hugslaponback- 'seeya~!' xDDD not suss at all...was realy nice seeing everyone with pink hearts on their backs...and later arms and...boobs xDDD hey wasnt me ;P



among other things :3 lovelove<33

LAWWWWLLLL~! health promotion officers were...aish. our thingo was so dodge. we didnt even have a real wall xDD they asked for cake xDD cheesecake had a breakdown D; the guy just scraped some with his hand lolll~! after that we were just like MEH! WE'RE EATING THIS~! then ppl started swarming xDD aish...hopefully i didnt give anyone food poisoning ><

epic txting :3 for some reason...imagining you as a peer support leader is really...<33. dont ask why...i'm weird >//< but rly...its just...awesome ;D altho the corrupting part is HILARIOUS~! xDD pimping advice...do you even qualify? ;P 'confess first or you'll never live it down D;' xDD that was a good call and you know it >] loll have ball(s) today? ;P all 4 bases :3 OUR epic darling harbour night<33

presentations. funfun :3 haha ppl were so pro. love with vids...epic xDD freaking hlarious some of them xDD shedding 'fat' -coughclothes- xDD love that. inspirational though^^ BAAHAAH 'now remember to use protection properly. and stay on the pill in case...' -balloonsomewherebreaks- 'was that the condom balloon?' lol fail. OMFG what are the odds?!?! sex every 7 seconds...i TOLD you you're everywhere!!! xDDDDDDD doosh ;P tracey you're an inspirational emo -hug- =) overall everyone was awesome~

lenloe got a bit =( when fall for yu was used in vid. -hug-

WAAAAAH i fail...i EPIC fail >< T_________T went into bathroom to wash cakeplate and knife and stuffs during break. came out and the lights were out and my group was already on stage. sheeeeettttt~ ran to stall to put down stuff then ran to stage to get up there while o'sullivan was talking on mic. leapt up the stairs to the stage and just as i stepped on them THE FKING STEPS SLIPPED!! D; like...a whole metre to the left >< the whole grade was watching too T__________T aish -diesfromembarassment- i'm such an unco T_T. the presentation was ok i hope? we got cut for time >< aish...JUST squished the slogan at the end =)

lying on floor with carumen-chan and lenloe after ours. haha lenloe was listening to a class on her phone. fb pokefest with andy~!!! xDDD funfun ;D

ended about 20 mins late ==;; aishh...

sorry for accidentally calling you >< oopppsss~ walking back to school. camwhoring with steffu and cath =) d2mg. yayyy breaking~!!!!! ;D funfunfunfun~! altho felt super unco doing it xDDD like...bouncebounce >< lol ddr mat. ASIAN SQUAT! xDD learnt top rocks and...6-step? >< sorry forgot the step name xD

waaaah the mix for like a boy and love spaceship tracks is scary >< its so loud D; level 7 died =( cos nobody had time...well not rly but the times didnt add up >< aishhh...nxt time =)

lol faceflooring is awesome ;P your MUM touches herself >< yes touch you :3

walking to st leos. AISH! running in flats hurts like hell >< AHAHAHA guy near coles advertising. walked past and he's like "HI GIIIIRLLL" complete with the creepy wave. LOL i think he was gay (had an ear piercing) xDD awesome tho...tried not to crack up xDD.

got to pymble around 6. woooahhhhh walking home after 6 -shock- xDD not rly. was cool~^^ wish i could do it more often =(

nutino bread for arvo tea<33

haha lukeing xDD bursting in with your underwear xDD yayy spiderman style xDD fun with 'joey' aish =( andy...u deserve better >[ def! and thanks for being so nice >] haha all of him >] LAWLLL~! i fking love your mum. she is AWESOME!!! xDDD -horn- -haiyahh~smack- xDDD closest thing to sleeping together xDD :3

aish phone bill...fking hate voda =\ LEAVE HIM AND HIS PARENTS ALONE btch >[ do watever to me but dont take i out on other ppl...GARGH! >[



~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, life, love, school

yupyup i be fail >< ehe :3 was fking hot today >< very stufy...yeh def summer

lastnight:

lol stripshow ;P one more button in ur dreams bby >]

aish...no time to minimize. took away laptop. rage. fk the assignment. aishhhh~
was gna wke up at 1 to do english. slep thru alarm.

haha yeah dw i'm scared of her too >< aishh...and dw bout it. i rly didnt read t till morning xDD

woke up at 6:30. lay in bed for ages till mum came in. she'd sed if i didnt get up when she woke m up then she'd never do it again. aish gg. meh. got up to do english. didnt exactly finish. mum wouldn't drive me. meh late again ><

picked up 2 copies of the new timetable at pymeble ticket office. also got nothern line's :3

met aland joy n the bus. office ladies sed there werent enugh of us to report late bus. meh. aishhh idc anymore ><

walked into english late. lol mardi was late too and she didnt need to get a late note. turned out we didnt have to either D; waaaah stoopid >< Everyone's representations were rly good. was finishing speech while other ppl presented. haha...failll....lol love watching ppl rush at the end. its hilarious xDD but srsly good wrok everyone ;D i feel so dumb now D; lol steph and her candle in a box (Y) al's was rly nice :3

geo bleurgh. reconciliation. haha passlow caught me writing speech. talked about lovelife/hatelife with weelay. aishh...=\ dont get to talk him down anymore >< meh...fking 6~?!?! == aishh...lost cause~

recess LOL! did drama thingo. 'foreshadowing' we lay...in the middle of the quad in a circle. yr 10's were being dooshes and yeah...lol."should we sit in them" "i think you have to wake them up "WAKE UP~"' aish was hot >< sunburnt indeed. aishh...they changed it >< but i hope it turned out all right? haha miss mac came and told ppl not to touch us. aish they filmed it ><

miss seeto told me we changed rooms to b4. sat there for ages eating my recess. wow ppl had such good presentations D; nts: watch jarhead =) ninja-ed out of doing it. but must remember to swap te speech next wednesday when she gives speech back >< altho i dont think i put my name on it :S

lunchtime. aish not many ppl. me, weelay, shirley, carumen-chan and cath&bex later. more drama stuff at half. WAAAAH dont think anybody could hear us >< hope the message got across...yesh kiddies you control technology, technology does not control you. ~woooh

Maths did something cool/new. rotating in groups to solve/teach problems for coord geo. yayy got...most...some...most of it >< aish i failed teaching tho. meh. LOL a question in HSC~!! yesh i can do ONE QUESTION!! haha lol hi5 lenloe.

Commerce had group work again doing research again. haha went to b3 and did 'work'. room was all dark and me and shylvi-butt lost the rest of group so we just bummed in the room 'working'. lying on the floor txting xDD shush you perfect position >< bahahaha shylvi needs a boyfeee ;P dude you cud get anyone u wanted >< shylvi-butt...is a butt~! >< my baby...my doosh! :3 xD "please bang me now bby" :3

aish def summer. walking to st leos and everytime pass by a doorway rush of air-con blows out and its like -sighofrelief-ahhhhhhh~ >< walking with diwee. missed normal train but meh.

got home. haha mum was like 'ONLI EAT THE YOGHURT! we're eating dinner early!' aishh she knows me too well xDDD meh.

after 5 spent and hour or so jamming on piano (that sounds so weird....) ok fine just playing random stuff. was nice. i didnt realise how nice some of those songs are :3 was nice anywayz...to play again^^~ shud do it more often.

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOGMOMG~!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ifly[-ourmum] xDD yayayay~ :3

at 6 dinner. aish jeez kev get over it...i just put a bit more in ==;; you're supposed ot be eating more than me you 'growing boy' ;P xDDDD and no i didnt go high ;P

after dinner home alone. ppl left. you still at dinner tho so i cleaned up straight after they left...for once xDD

call~ sorry i was preoccupied =( and stoopid cam >[ hate how it freezes. must've been boring for you =( nxt time you and ONLY you :3 no freaking cheesecake >[

waaaaah sorry 3:30 never came cos i died >< sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry see how unreliable i am? D;

finished brochure...somehow >< in the morning...xDD

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, life, school

must...resist...beary's insides aishh!! ><

p.s. why am i stressing about beary when i should be doing english?!? D;

~<33 beedee

Labels: fail

ah yeah. guess wat. i'm alive. gg

fk i'm sorry. aish...this goes beyond shameful ><

i do wanna blog...i've just been...distracted

I KNOW THATS UR EXCUSE BUT I CAN USE IT TOO! =P

aish sorrysorry....i'll try revive you [blog]...even after dogging you so many times

i should be doing english poem. i should be doing my jap poster. i should be doing pd brochure stuff. so be honoured i'm reviving you first! =P yeah...>< i have prioritising issues...D;

i guess where to start...today...while its still fresh in my mind...sorta...

woke up lol... realised 4:30 didnt happen. meh...still got tonight ;P

realised i had pe 2nd period. ran around getting pe stuff in my bag. in process found my pumas that i bought in china 3 yrs ago...lol wnder if i still fit them. meh they're light, so i stuffd them in with my pe stuff anyway xDD realised i didnt need myfolder today YESH! >] cos maths, then pe, then history [presentations] then excursion, yerr man!

mum said she wudnt drive me if i didnt get into kitchen by 8:15. got in there at 8:16 gg.... aish got pokgai-ed again...-sigh-

walked to station. err...stone?

got to st leos and saw nayo. haha she was cbfed to go to maths. i felt opp...cos i was shetted that miss v wud rage...since i'm always late on wednesdays >< waaaah i swear i dont do it on purpose. anywayz, lol nayo and marsfield ;P wth like ike?! xDDD gg~

got to class. coord geo. did random stuff. miss v left room and i turned around and lenloe had apparently been calling my name for ages. ahahaha shoot...sorry >< i'm deaf~ lol bad boy vs. naughty girl >] bring it bby.

had lean on me stuck in my head the whole morning. "you just call on my brother...~"

found out we had pd instead of pe. FK u srs?! T_______T brought all my crap or nothing...aish. on the way out of e block passed the noticed board and realised the formal seating was up. sheettttt...our group not on a table yet...and they're filled up! shetshetshet...why do ppl have to be so fat and 7 people take up a 10-seat table >[ rawr!!!! >[

pd in the library. Be You (tiful)<333 :3 talked about formal tables arrangement with weelay and lenloe. lenloe wnted to be on our table? aish i be a stressball >< helped with survey making. they're the same questions everywhere ><

recess. met up with rest of atoms at noticeboard. yay we got tables~ table 22 and 23 :3 haha yesh steffu22 be ur bday =) and also 22 be :3 =P doosh. lauren on our table or not? ><

3rd period history. ate recess...ended up eating whole lunchbox -shift- waaaaah everyone's presentations so good D;

at 12 we went down to get marked off for english excursion then get on bus. sat in 4 seater with weelay, lenloe and al. gave formal money (mine...only ><) to lily. lol niki...no u dont know him ;P it still feels weird...saying it...like...its not true? but it is ^^~ it soooo is :3

got to rocks sydney theatre company. lol steffu crashed clare's group's ninja destruction. yay bex' pasta :3...naka de...chotto...eeee~? >< aish. meh its just me. forgot to go bathroom...so ended up having to hold it throughout whole performance T_____T. lol carumen-chan...biography >< fking long aye? xDDD sure u mean canteen lines? ;P

performance was quite entertaining. confusing and confronting...but entertaining ;D i laughed so hard i couldn't breathe at parts. the constable chick was so cute :3 but...kinky...in a...slightly disturbing way...xDD yeh mad guy was hot >] so many innuendos...aish sex-obsessed. its like the grenade joke...the guy was putting the thingo in the bomb all slow-mo and everyone was like...moaning...yeah...in that way xDD and the guy flashed...well no not flashed...like his butt...mooned us...for like a full 5 minuts. running around with his pale white butt inour faces. argh was...O_O dodge... wonder if the english faculty reali meant for us to be corrupted with this stuff xDD

after performance...got held back by crew. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahh tf?! i wasnt taking photos!!! i didnt even txt during it! i didnt even open my phone!! [altho it wasnt off but still!! D;] carumen-chan, me and sarah (G7, G8 and G9) got accused of taking fotos. guy made me show him my fotos. SEE betch?! nothing!! D; >< damn whoever was the real culprit...the guy looked like he was gna arrest us...had a freaking heart attack ><

bus back to school. walked out eblock way with carumen-chan and lenloe, then walked back the other way. met up with cath, jassy and lauren who were also walking st leos way. jassy crossed later to get back to ns. haha talking about formal. aish its on evryone's minds >< aishhhhh too azn to buy another dresss~ T_T butbutbut...its tempting...oh wells. i'll go with you guys...and i'll be azn and buy if theres a bargain xDD

mx overheards are so fail xDD virgo and libra horoscopes seem...similar all the time? or is it just me... >< wat do u think natural flirt? ;P

talked with claudz bout bases. lol...grinding...O_O;; total strangers...wow...

walking home. my skirt looks so short with my jersey on O_O;; [yeah you notice things in shop windows ><] aish...hsm3 'Can I have this dance?' song...made me feel floaty...started twirling around in circles on pacific hwy. i think ppl in cars looked at me weirdly xDD shush~ =P i cant help dancing to a dance-y song >< esp after so much formal/slow-dance talk D;

got home. pigged out on rest of fruit tarts and made nutino bread :3 also scabbed a few macadamia and a yogurt. beary has 2 insides left >< aish...

thats all for today. dont stay up tonight if you dont need to doosh D; freedom gone now so be a GOOD boy ;P

p.s. i just realised...theres a red balloon in the dining room left over from my bday party...and its still blown up xDD lets see how long it lasts? :3

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, life, school

kevin was sick today =( stoopid hobo...rest up D;

late for combined choir. c pissed me off at st leos >< aish... got to nsb, and edward and sahan aske for chocos...aish wanted to sell but moulton's scary so i had to dog them for now D; lol sarah didnt see me come in. MOULTON WASN THERE! >< bleurgh shudnt have run...sat next to mon. suvie was leading.

didnt know the first song >< aish....learn later. then singing lion king songs :3 yeah...somehow...you're everywhere! even in choir!! >< how do you do that? D; and you know i'm talking about you ;P fav disney song -hinthint- but was singing circle of life~ nananananananana xDDD unco singing. rly wanted to move on but we didnt =( oh wells...next time ^///^ lol th paul? >< why singing in the bass section when ur singing tenor? O_O

tristan and suvie...aish? felt like i shudnt have been listening O_O walked with timothy down to art classroom. YAYY~ he bought a choco~ :3 said bye while he turned into b block and i went down the stairs. wlaking back up. yeah...little nsbs running to school...then imagining you doing the same ;P rly ;P aishhaaa howd you oversleep THAt much? hobo ;P told you i spread my disease ><

non-scripture. voting for youth decide. aish...why so btchy >< im voting jeezzz...yay free choco cupcake~ :3 i hate my gluttony >[

aishh =\ yeah i'll talk to him...i need to talk to him...bash some reason into that supposedly smarter/older brain of his ==;;

assembly. lol got my hd cert finally. jap 2nd period. ms wei made me put phone away >< bleurgh...never bothered anymore. i'm sorry...you jsut piss me off. its not fair and i'll try not to be so btchy...and i'll try to at least be nice to you...but aish...its hard.. >< sold chocos yay. 4 left~

yay waffles~ love waffles :3 ate whole lunchbox ate recess >< aishh....

3rd period. commerce. split into groups and went into staff common room to do 'research'. my topic = changing laws. didnt end up doing anything xDDD shylvi-butt stalked my phone. lol wth xDDDD random names. thnx but i prefer the ones i already have butt ;P nathan blew up at me in txt >< waaah sorry i didnt mean it...happy bday anyway tho? =)

lunch...did...random stuff? >< dont rly remember. asked passlow about alternating for vball~ :3 YAYYYYYY~!!! its alrite!! its alrite to alt!!! see~?!?! see doosh! ;P okok im sorry...but cant help being excited >///< and no i'm not ur mum! but ur still welcome to sleep wi- -shhh- yayay~ sold out chocos...haha i ended up with $1 more than i shud...meh xDD

Drama was cool. had miss sang =) yay she got the message~^^ waaah niki told me off >< aishh...sometimes she scares me...cos i'm a chicken ><

Geo. majorly tired. fell asleep >< dont remember what we did...lol duty girl came with my receipt for english. was asleep when she called me...twice according to passlow xDD aishh...so stoned~

failcouple<3

waaah no way! siff~ it cant be THAT much of a coincidencecan it? >< meh so first we're telepathically connected...and now our ipods too?! xDDDD yayy :3

missed normal train...but meant i could think alone on the late train =) yeah alone time is nice sometimes ^^

got home. yayy~ mum got mini fruit tarts from a friend. a whole box of them :3 tried not to eat too many ><

you didnt use all your luck that night...if anything i did >///< so stop thinking that way...cos every moment is better than the last ^^ and this is just the beginning...so dont go thinking that was the best night ever...cos i'm gna make sure it wasnt >]

you're too freaking sweet >////<

song on repeat...>< FAR OUT kev had to come in at that moment >< aish... >///< 'ask mum for the mummy' xDDDD faiiillll~ lol outsexied and outsung by aladdin and jasmine. meh~ we can still pretend :3 ntw: owe kev $70 xDD

BAHAHAHA bed fun >] yeah its my job to distract you while you're on the phone xDDD ;P fk yeah i'll strip you someday ;P haha let's see which of us fills our books up firt~^^ stiff ;P haha 'come on over bby~' i will fkyouup >] lol drugging parents.

mum is suss...i think both of them are...aish -sigh- they're insisting on it T_T

stoopid frozen msn >[ dmn my =\ face ><

ily doosh~




~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, life, love, school

late...again...aish ><

well at least i didnt have maths 1st pd...

luke called me on train and i stood there for a whole minute wondering why nobody was talking. xDDD turned out he accidentally called. gg fail ;P

got to drama. yayy we're almost finishing up. just need to polish up. yayy i hope ppl will get it. hoping for them to like it might be wishful thinking tho >< but still...=)

2nd period jap. -sigh- getting more and more cbf with it.

whole school photo. lol i totally forgot about it >< aish. sport day so i wore sport uniform shet. thot we'd be fked for it >< 'ruining the photo' >< haha but they just pushed all of the sport uniform ppl together. then evrybody just meh-ed and went with their friends. joined up with rest of atoms. LOL everybody had to tuck their shirts in. yay for wearing sport uniform then xDD bella accentuating features ;P lol ppl taking pitures of the guy taking our photo. [was the same guy from school photos] haha yayy me and bella did epic pose for muckup ;D

Maths...dont remember xDD ranndom...stuff? aishhh tong =( waaaaaah i'm so slow. i'll miss you too~<333 T_T went for longer cos it got cut into >< dayummm

lunch...lol recounting sunday to lenloe and carumen-chan >///< waaaah bleaurgh why so much detail >< lenloe stole my choco box xDD

tenisu was funfun~ xDDD i fail so much xDD its like "bec it's up to you now~!" ok...-swing- -ball goes up...and backwards- (Y) gg xDDD lolll BAHAHAHAHA serving demo...-tosses- "SAUSAGES!" -hitsball,hitsnet- ">[ who said sausages?" -weelay- xDD bella sat out. :3 she looked so peaceful~

walking to north sydney. haha went into Shelley shop xDDD lingerie shopping :3 (Y) waaaaaaaaah boy/girl whistle keyring :3

missed a few trains. took train with bella and carumen-chan. haha mx overheard.

got to central. lol "is that daniel? it's daniel! DAAAAAAANIIEEELLL!!!" yayyyy he bought a choco~ maidoari~ thanks chandrew for buying too =) LLAWWWLLL weelay asking around for lawrence lu. saw your head above a sea of short people xDDD ninjaaaaaaa~ xDDD yupyup...-shift- xDD matt barred my choco =( so did kerry and his hungry jacks >[ aishh...ian arrived lol.

went to park. and hung out there for the whole time xDD. i be on top ;P RLY didnt wanna go =( waaaaah both of you dooshes...stay with her~!! >< aish. neither me nor weelay wanted to go dance...so we skipped again xDD sorry weelay for dogging you D; haha yayy i be the shouter for once >] splitting takoyaki :3

belmore park at night is...the SEX~! :3 waaah was so nice~^^ yeah we have to come after formal :3 hahalol empty trains = rape~ doosh...u rly shudnt be going all the way >< aishh...lol we were early so we kept waiting trains. BAHAHA found macq uni button on ticket machine. haha ninja-ing inside the block. then inside the bush xDD ifly~ one more? :3

lol was in the toilet -shift- you asked for it btch >[ aish dad suss but mum was understanding. thankyou mum -hug-

3am...aish i'm sorry ><

~<33 beedee

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aishaa i fails.

since last thurs no blog waaah sorry

okok lets try this again...

todayayayayay~

first thing i hear in the morning is your voice <33 (apart from ringtone/taylor swift xDD) thanx :3
shoot i fell back asleep after a while T_T waaah sorry. i wasted ur effort D; hope ur morning was more productive than mine =\

didnt bother with mufti. too cheap to pay for it xDD. just missed 21 train for combine choir. then mum wudnt drive me till kev was ready. and he took his own sweet time == meh, no combined choir todayy. cbfed.

got to st leos and claudz asked me to bum around st leos with her...cos she didnt wanna go to school yet...lol tf? O_O freaking clara stop abusig ur elders D;

crashed ipt to meet up with scram ppl. stooooonnneeeee. yay for shortbread cream :3 thanx carumen-chan~ nice talk with bella and jassy =)

thank god you're ok with it...but i hope you mean it =\ i've been shetting myself over this

saturday morning isnt enugh time...=( and LOL srsly...rhar wud be scary...well not scary but...waaah my parents wud be like tf?! O_O then raggeeee~ yayy was gna get to hold up sign for scram demo~ [ff] no not final fantasy ;P xDD

assembly...haha i was so fail xDDD but i guess the audience liked it? meh xDD was fun to listen to. and our fail "and they all lived happily ever after~" psh xDD

got to stay behind after assembly YESH! >] but...grade got bagged out for being truant-y and late-y. aish...haha i be somewhat part of that ><...ish...LOL bella - right after she says she' gna go to movies 2moz ;P

jap...== stone. GARGH! UR ANNOYING! stop...gargh! im a btch for being like this bt i cant help it >[ yeah maybe u were right...personalities clash sumtimes =\ but i cant help wish u'd be a BIT more considerate towards other ppl. JUST A BIT! == lol shylvi-butt ur so slow ;P

recess...ah shoot dont remember ><

Science watched 5 disasters waiting to happen vid. survived first half...then died >< aish...weelay was sad...well troubled =( -hug-

lunchtime~ ppl at gen earth. uhmmm think we talked about...no idea =L aish this is why i take notes T_T and tis is why its bad to not T_T screw my cbf-ness

4th pd haha crap thought i had drama...so walked al the way to the hall. on the way saw elaine and celia's group huddled. waaaaah ppl looked all depresed and elaine was...crying? D; suvie shooed me away...so tried not to worry about it T_T Commerce lol tf?! random calls D; wasnt sure what to think O_O lol ninjaed out of class to 'get something from comp room' then called back. aish wth. watching Plea bargains vid. realy sad =( stoopid american law system. elaine didnt come =(

i wasnt daydraming! D=

drama in drama room. aish stoopid...didnt feel like it =\ elaine told me they had D&M =( did random stuff. almost finished forming assessment?

went to chats with bro for dentist to clean teeth. lol we got lost...at chats...wat fails we are. aish...mum gave me rong directions D; or...i didnt bother listening to them >< aish...lost for ages

at dentist. lol fernwood logo...very eye-catching ;P haha the dentist-guy was hot >] john...wong? or something xDD meh. he was kool =) talked a lot xDD >< it hurt D; there was blood...as warned by mum >< urgh it hurt a lot...i was flinching. calculus...not the maths one xDD lol freebies~!

yayy mum bought sushi rolls for us. haha 4 for $8 xDDD aznnn~ got 2 huge rolls >] yumyum~

haha no reply. got worried... =P >< aishhaaa fake-crying xDDD ddnt know i was capable of it >< STOOPID UMBRELLA! >[ screw it >[ ah lol fleecey :3 haha u keep predicting my lines...i'm becoming predictable D; damn your book...full name...melt...waaaah >///< stoopid lines<333 lol 'my doosh' 'my whore' awesome ^^;; waaaah so tired >< haha epic line ;D and yeah i can totally do it >] opportunity ;P



~<33 beedee

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fkfkfkfk...left this post overnight then the WHOLE like...3/4 end of it died. fking hate blogger >[ dont even have the notes for this one anymore! D; stoopid blogger!

wake up early = fail == freaking retainers...i hate having to brush them >[

yayayay~ nutino sandwich for brekkie<33 :3

wasnt sure if yr 9s were training so i deided to go early. but missed 52 =\ got 7:07 train...late =\ fail coach...

hugh is such a fail on the train xDDD at least i can handle having a huge bag. he's like -bangbangbagn- ;P

lol as soon as i got out of barriers majo-chan and claudz bombed me to buy legacy. i srsly didnt have any money xDDD (apart from english excursion money...which i didnt end up using anyway -shift-)

haha took 144 cos i cbfed to wait, then saw jess and angela walking with legacy stuffs. told them i had no money >< so they start walking down he opposite path, then they see mis senthi behind them, turn around and bomb her "MISS SENTHIIIIIII~!" xDDD nicenice

got to school rund 7:35 and turns out team wasnt there xDDd meh. went to eblock and just plonked in CT1. took out maths hw. cleaner lady came in and vacuumed up every inch of the room surface i swear! and she kept giving me dirties D; so i migrated back outside in the corridor (it was cold >[) and plonked outside CT2. got a lot done actually ;D listened to ipod while sketching curves and gee came on xDDD started sit-dancing >////< shush

the yr 7/8/9s were annoying >[ so frekaing loud. SHET! i lost my blue groupie stickie form my phone! D= shetshetshet! T__________T -cries- aish. baka. sarah and vianna phoned to ask where i was and i sed eblock corridor. sed they'd come to me (lol sounds shift) and they never did ;P fail. bell went and i went up the stairs and saw them. they were like 'WHERE WERE YOU~?!?! D;' ebign a hobo you dooshes ;P yay finished all of hw :3 feels...weird xDD

legacy 2day so 17 ppl in the whole grade at school. lulz 6 ppl in maths class - me, lenloe, celia, terry, bec chapman and suvie. haha mating birds...so dodge >< cover ur eyes children~ aish the onli time i di m hw it didnt matter =\ meh. consolidated th classes. did SC pass papers. sat with lenloe. haha made stoopid mistakes but was...alright? >< meh... haha maths subby made lame maths jokes. "weapons of maths construction" and "he was just a mean teacher"

english. just me lenloe and celia...fail~ xDD lol miss seeto such a legend..."i hate c-block! its like in the middle of nowhere! dont u think so?!!?!?" lol. went up to library where more loner yr 10s were. haha helping miss seeto with her yr 12 reports. ngaawwww beary "he's sad cos he's in the IT dept." oooh snap! haha using mobile fb for the first time~ ;D yayay funfun~ lying on the floor. so peaceful~ ^^

jassy, lenloe and me at recess =) there was more to say about it but afta my comp crashed i lost this section >[ sorryyy D;

3rd period drama. haha...i was the only one...FAIL~! D; miss mac told me to go to the library and do privte study. haha xDD more bludge~. lenloe and jassy came up as well =) more lying on the floor. LOL! using lenloe for dodgy txting. STOOPID locked phone >[ haha as soon as i was about to txt you on lenloe's phone u txted me ;D awesome~ :3 bahaha you doosh. u shud listen to jassy u horny bastard ;P red cliff haha...epic =) lol the other 2 were doing maths.

lunchtime the legacy ppl were back =) waaaah steffu i'm sorry =( we'll stop. i can ee where you're coming from too >< its slack...i know. legacy ppl left. aRGH~! SHET! inever thot of it tht way. shetshetshet i've been so oblivious...omg i'm such a btch. fk man...depressss~ thanks lenloe and jassy for the...drinks? xDD

met up with combined choir ppls to walk down to nsb. haha there were so many ppl for the rehearsal. cute voodoo doll ;3 tried to help out setting up te bleachers but got barred. yes...outmanned...just cos we're girls >[ haha basses and tenors in the middle and altos and sops on the side bleachers...psh == biased much. ms Ee fking scares the shet out of me. guy sops and altos never cease to disturb me...they can sing higher than us! D; haha feeling claustrophobic from all the guys. the guys behind me kept kicking me! >[ far out. haha ecce gratum song never ceases to amuse me. BAHAHAHA cymbal guy's hair kept flying up. me and sarah having a lot of fun looking at him. loool "are you GAY or something?!"

shoot didnt have a blazer. scared moulton wud smack me. me and mon went back up to nsg to get one from mr jones. yayy mr jones opened up the clothing pool for me :3 haha he locked it up...then i realised my jumper was stil inside >< woopsss~ D;

D2MG today was fun ;D YAYYY LAZELLE IS BACK~! for the rest of the term!! ;D haha "pick up your trash...wait...i mean...tak off your pants...wait..." xDDDD epic lyrics. haha be a guy. pull up your pants? ok...? -picksupskirt- xDDD nicenice. "like a boy" by ciara (Y) kool moves to this one =) i like i like~ :3 no jam session today ><

aftewards outside saw charmian and wendy. lol charmian stalked you. wendy ur such a gossip xDDD borrowed wendy's phone to tell mum i wasnt going to rooftop. yay we have a cheerleader for 2moz~!! xDD wow team had training this arvo ;D awesome...thats my team^^ -proud-

walked to park of joy and met up with sarah, em, vianna and terry. went with em for subway double dinner deal >] got steak and cheese. yy mixing drinks. BAHAHA bit into my steak and cheese and was like...why is there bacon in my sub? O_O only then me and em realised we'd accidetally swapped subs xDD gg~. shoot i finished a footlong in the time em finished 6-inch! D; WAAAAAAH~ PHAT >< haha looking out the door and we see terry sarah and vianna being random hobos back at the park. so funny. double choc cookies :3

went back after em finished her first 6-inches. bahah random voice-mails. sarah so bouncy cute and high xDD i wann be VIRGIN~!!! D; (lol yes its possible to gain ur viriginty back ;P) according to em i cry like a jap xDDD haha we were so high. left at about 6:15 to get back to nsb. BAHAHAHA saw the crows nest restaurant called "Lees FORTUNA" xDDD a sign...as em said xDD

got to nsb carpark and saw mums car. she hadnt seen me, she was inside reading xD. so ninja-ed up to the windscreen and splatted on it. i think she had a heart attack xDDDDDDD yeah man >]

got back and went to foyer toilets. bahahaha vianna epic fail. -creeps hand around corner as toilet flushes, head around corner- "emillllyyyy" in a creepy voice. a middle-aged woman walks out looking weirded out and goes to wash her hands. BAHAHAHA vianna dies of shame ;P em walks out of the neighbouring cubicle xDDD

we sat in the back. BAHAHA 11 NSGs outcheered the whole audience. we were bouncing/clicking/swaying with the music. went out to buy cake from the charities council canteen. JEEZ make up your mind about which are 50c and wich are $1 so i can choose the 50 ones!! ;P lol yes very confused. cello guy was annoying...he kept telling us to tone it down >[

haha went on high in J block music room during iterval. fail...interval stared at 9, even tho the whole thing was meant to finish at 9:30 ==;;

sing and rejoice, then this littl babe. we sung...haha ok? >< hopefully...

tf. yr 9s both wolf-whistled me and calld me ugly in the same night == meh...O_O

went on high after our performance. LOL me and sarah (well sarah more xDD) chasing du around the school. papparazzing ppl -hintsurvanahint- xD sarah and her $1 coffee xDD on high in the dark :3 singing at the end =) haha ninjaly filmed it from the stage. aish the guys were a bit off time but was still fun =) LOL! yr 10s singing for miss scott xDD nicenice. finished 10:50-ish

going home, nathan and his mum asked us if we wanted to drop by for supper at gordon maccers. got there and it was closed xDDD epic fail ==

got home around 11:30. uncapped~!!! ;D

yeah...this took a while. i'm sorry ><

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cant wait for the wkend to come. cos...well obv cos its the wkend >< but also :3 never enough~

early for Vocal this morning ;D yayy lol. was 6 ppls~ me, vianna, cathmac (xDD i jsut came up with that) anjali, sarah and suvie. BAHAHHA epic warmup. mimimimimi, memememe mu...ma...mo? O_O xDDDD my bad ;P was lonerted in men/alto 2 section for a longs time~ xDD not rly. haha harita owned for not coming ;P waaaw i got 2 teach harita! -shock- wat an honour~ xDD jksjks. hari's awesome^^

1st pd english swapped rooms [B12] with yr 9 class [B4] ad haha was just sitting in the room like a loner for agggesss cos ms seeto told me wen i got to B12 early. kept telling yr 9s to go away xDD well not rly >< 'redirecting' them ;P

Miss Seeto plonked down nxt to me haha...-shift- freaking prac teacher was ==. like...tf themes? and stop treating us like we dont give a shet...we DO give a she about it all but...we cant help not being close to it. we dont all have a friend in the war ==;; BAHAHa empathy...sympathy?! -hi5 lenloe- >] but...mebbe we've been getting it rong for the entire SCRAM time then xDD waaaah @_@ confusing~

geo~ haha was actually pretty interested. hehe NSG's stalking Mr passlow in public xDDD bahaha Hursti-Kogarah turning HongKong-nese. AZN INVASION~! >] yeah i'm having hearing prolems >< nuclear family? xDD ngaaaww =( poor Mr Passlow's dad...he's a vegetable xDD =(...

stayed in geo room (D1) for recess...WOAH! FK got bombshelled! holyyyyy~ omgomgz...BAHAHAHAHA omg ur amazing xDD awesomes~! waaaaaaaw you freaking legend xDD (Y) but yes dw. =# and i'm here for you if you need to rant/worry =) -hug- <3 [confusing much? xDDD]

waaaah jassy why am i noob?! D; AHAHAHA interbreeding pencil cases >] :3 so cutteee~:3 lol Carrie and her war poem...'HUH! WAR! what is it good for?! absolutely nothing~' and ms seeto goes: isn't that plagiarism? xDDD ;P Steph pees quickly ;P and YOU! you need to eat!!! D; frekaing hell i'm worried about you...

lunchtime~ ehehehe fking yr 12 tbs ==;;...well not even tbs realy. just...BLEURGH! lol '9o'clock...wait no...MY 9 o'clock ><' they're so annoying >[ '-sitting down waves arms around like a jellyfish- CAAAAAAKKKEEEE~!' ok wait...that sounds like something i would do O_O >< well it looked stoopid ><. anywayz >] bahahaha i intercepted heaps of the trays going to them >] suck on that betches~ spent 70c on bakesale stuffs =) 'Umbrellas go up whenthe rain comes down~ you can see them pop-' ok i'll stop >< wait...WAT?!?! waaaah-?! HUH?!?! how come I (we) haven't heard about this?! D; watwatwat?! [will spam you later to see if its true ><] tf...i'm sorrryy~!! D; shet i just realised how slack it is to you. T____T i've been oblivious i'm sorry! T_T fk i'm sorry A D;

Maths. cbbed to talk about it. cos it depresses me. esp when test results come back to slap you in the face T_T

what else depresses me? the rain. -sigh- just...dulls my mood. stonneeee~

Commerce in CTL. stonneeee~ waaah cbfed with crime reduction. see this is why i'd fail legal if i did it ==;; yayyy~ get to help little yr 9 babies with commerce business day on Tues last week of term pd3 =) SHOTGUN SHARON'S GROUP >] ehehehe~ ^^ ooooo 612 bus ppls =\ yr 7s nad 8s == sigh...

wondering what you're doing now...

Walked to ST Leos in the rain. Ariel was also walking...alone...hlding an umbrella but not using it D; she looked so tired...like she'd been crying -hug- said she needed to think. let her walk alone =( -sigh- wih i could do something but she needed her space i thinks so i walked a bit further behind. SHIET! my umbrella broke halfway! >[ stoopid...gargh!

got to st leos and Nathan[&Camthom] pranked me on the platform >[ doosh...you're so bored xDDD Train was squished >< TF?! nsbs rubbing each other...O_O okkkk~ -looksaway-

Clara you loser >[ that punchis gna bruise i swear >< just cos you're aggro and small and need anger management =P hahah jksjks. but srsly my bro sed ur tiny ;P hehe

lulz kev wrestling mum to get to arvo tea pastry foods thingos~

boreddd...dont wanna go to school 2moz...-sigh- but dont have a choice. stoopid donald >[ tf is wrong with leaving early == aish now i have to do maths T_T

will probs post later tonight~ bb^^

~<33 beedee

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waaaah stoopid food<3 i love it...but its so gna be the death of me T_T

GLUTTONY FTW (not rly ><)

ok. woke up alright but went back to sleep accidentally T_T. like ACTUALLY accidentally...ok i know that sounds like bs but >< waaah wateva. anywayz. got up at 7:55. Mum wouldn't drive to station so endedup walking. wouldn't be able to catch 22 even if i ran so meh took my time.

your life's a mess...D; so's mine. we're a messed up pair of fail ninjas =) let's be messed up together xDDD then we'll clean each other up =) ;P haha and oooo awesome you can spell it ;P but can you do it? >]

Freaking guy at Telegraph intersection ran through the pedestrian green. but could see it coming though so wasn't runover xDD. WAAAAH saw a SKY BLUE buggy~!!! :3 hehe ;] GIMME! >]

On platform. A bit shietted cos this meant i'd be late for incursion =\ thanks weelay for saving spot =) ended up eating my recess on the platform: banana, waffles and fruit stick. lol. apparently its the mark of a slacker if you eat on the train. MEH~

-sigh- the bus never comes quickly if i'm late. then frekaing 265 came. hate having to walk back up. signed in and got a late note but turned out the teacher didnt mark names anyway! D; far out means i admitted i was late wen i didnt have to T_T BAKA! shud've followed jo and christine T_T.

Film studies. waaah couldn't find anyone for ages. lol Helen Mirren = scary queen. -stoneeee...turns eyes- WAAAH! scary xDDD Yes Reese Witherspoon OOZES bubbles when you're taking to her xDDD gg.

Steffu you're awesome~ you noticed =) ok i dno why i'm smiling...but yeah -hug- thanks. you're awesome friend desuu~<3

Recess: helped sell for bakesale. NG and prefects scare me T_T and so does Mash >[ far out...got so paranoid (THERES THE PARANOIA AGAIN! D;) but according to Carrie they were bsing...but still! D; yay thanks majo-chan for helping with selling =) haha lol the choco cake was FAILL! well i didnt cut it fail so not my fault >] haha cheapo azn skool...everyone was asking for discounts == LOL me an majo-chan ninja-ed a piece of the choco cake >< SHHHHHH! it was falling off and crumbing anyway -shift- No srsly...it was falling apart ><

carumen-chan not here today =( gl with major<3

3rd pd fim studies. BAHAHAH HAPPPPPYYYYYYY~! (like happy gilmore >]) -sigh- hierarchy within groups huh...thats so...BLEURGH! inner-workings of a group. so depressing to think about that...=\ dont ask why. just is >< i dont like to think of our group like that...i dont think we are...are we? D; AHAHAHA alice in her shrek mask. Yes she'd TOTALLY work at maccers == let alone wear a shrek mask while working there xDDD and yes to formal xDDDD was epic xDD Ate all of lunch plus jap choco bikkies from bday basket during the talk lol. told you i'm fatt >< see? THIS is why i'd EPIK PHAIL at dieting == mostly boring overall =\ but extrcts were awesome =) mean girls seems so awesomely epic now that i havnt watched it in ages xDDD and legally blonde =)

Yr 10 vocal at lunch =) too HOT! to sambaaaaa~ LOL! Ms cleggie: "We're gonna GRUNT noW!" xDDD "UH!" yes cath we're just to lazy to grunt. like a cbfed 'eurgh...==' xDD YAYYY~ jam session. stella helped jam too this time =) Not me not I~ ahahaha nyaawww lenloe started crying after "did you think that everytime i see you i would cry?" line. -hug- and YAYY! In this LIFEEEE~<3 waaah brings back memories^^

Science 4th pd watched the rest of An Inconvenient Truth. Al Gore awesomeness =) was...scary >< eerie ><. waaaah everytime they say how insignificant our planet is in terms of the whole universe...and how insignificant WE are...i get so depressed. Like this sense of...smallness. we're so...insignificant.

Guess what?! I DID WORK IN JAP! =D haha >< yeh prcrastinator talking here >< *note: must do chirashi (poster ad) tonight. after you asked i REALLY wanted to go >< so phoned mum while 'going to the bathroom' to tell her i was 'scram'ing after school. Got the ok >] ...you know my hands wouldn't stop shaking while wrote after that...was the thought of seeing you >< omg yes...you really have that effect on me >////< no jks.

ran outside after bell in case we were walking. but then we were catching bus. waaah lenloe rejecting me (not srsly xDD) and rejecting me from weelay too xDD. weelay going to meet gg. gl<3 got on 253 and got off at gasco. just made train =) LOL luke was there too. you fail. BELLA! what are you SAYING?! xDDD course he's not cute == ;P haha so slack xDD jksjks ;P haha 'prank me' dus sound a bit weird dontcha think? ;P

got to central~ yaaay ppl =) and no i didnt have your shirt/your towel cos 1) didn't know whether i'd be taking btown and 2) they weren't dry lastnight =P so suck wait till monday xDD sorry bella D; it was jassy who pushed you out but still haha >< sorry =( hope it wasnt awkward >< all in good fun tho =)

daniel blows bubbles too big =P how do you do it damnit?! D; mine = blow...deflate~ >< lol mx 'bun' hairdo...like EAT bun xDD Luke you're such a noob. BAHHA elaine's a pimpette >] with...guys...EXACTLY 3 yrs younger than her xDD haha dont care about me getting raped as long as its girls aye? >] wat if its guys then? ;O sorry lenloe for not getting off >< but i didnt have time for chips if i was to get back in time D; sorrryyyy -hug-

make a move you noob! >] you know you want to ;P anywayz best of luck from me :3 (Y)

my mind was a whir after that >///< stuffs~ waaaah close :3 aish ifly~ HAHA dettol toilet xDD drugs >] but was empty >] i love newcastle train compartments just inside the door >] always empty ;] waaaaah you stoopid hobo<3 course i dont want you to go but...>////< hate you<3 [i didnt mean that so it dusnt prove your point =P] and no you still will be the first one to find out =P so i'm NOT going to find out myself >< stoopid fingers.

after hornsby =) omgz RAPE :3 =P was very <3 >///< shush i liked it like i said i would ^w^ hehe you didnt end up getting me to sit tho =P cos i be ninjaaaaa~ >] [yes other ppl reading this are probs like HOLY WTF?!?! fully freaked out xDDD wat you dont know wont hurt you ;P be afraid~ be very afraid xDD]

paranoia kicks in xDD lol hidng under steps. ppl stepping on your head ;P haha was scared i'd miss >< but i didnt...i think? >///< waaaaah heart racing~ :3 2nd, 3rd...4th? xDDD <3 and WAAAAAH sorry~!!! T_T i didnt know. i srsly thot it was the chats...shet shet shet i'm sorry T_T

dad came 5 mins later. >< waaah -phew- not cut so close next time hopefully.

used kev's phone to check on you. -sigh- shet i'm sorry.

tryi g to stick to green colour at dinner >< then ended up pigging out on fish >< stoopid gluttony...

then ate ferrero rocher after dinner. see? FAIL! T_T

weelay...<3 -hug- bes wishes =) and yes...i promise (Y)

*note: call ms ray later.

haha omg forgot to tell you on phone again. mistaaaaaaaaake~! must remember next time >]

waaah need to find place for all my keyrings to go ><

all for tonight =) loveyuguys~

<33 beedee

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p.s. it's spring<3

~<33 beedee



thanks everyone<3

Bday txts on the day (in order of receival ;P):

Steffu
Lenloe
Luke
Al (lol so long xDDD)
Tracey&Bex&Lauren&Steffu
Joey (FAIL you're almost last ;P xDDD)
Ant (via Joey's txt cos he's LAZY~! xDD)
Euni
as well as Daniel for calling xDDD on Elaine's phone ;P

& everyone who made fb posts ^^ (i'd write all your names up but i'm capped so loading everything would take too long ><)

naooo~

PRESSIES! :3 and the like xDD:

(more or less in order of receival xDDD)

Voodoo Doll from Bella =)
Whisper of the Heart DVD from Log and Al ^^
Gion Bunny Bag and Notepad from Elaine<3
Cupcakes and Paul Frank (SKY BLUEEEEE) Hoodie from Euni :3 (it's a bit big but meh xDDD <3 and also i only got to eat 2 of them =( )
Card, Lindt Box (haha bunny out of stock ;P) and 'Joey' from Joey xDDD
Pink Bag from Zac =)
Kirby-chan from Daniel (hehe he beat you to it >])
Ferrero Rocher Box of chocos from Matt (xDDDDD dw i dont think ur cheap...even if there was an identical box on the dining table ;P)
Butterfly photo stands and scented candle and 'stone' from Paul =)
THE card from Ant xDDDD (i read it out oooo wtchu gna do about it? >])
Card and Bath set from Maz<3 (BAHAHAHHA the brand's called BODY IMAGE!!)

and now...OMGZ the AWESOMEST hamper/basket full of the most AWESOMEST stuff ever!! ~

Pink ribbon with the Sweet 16th Banner<3 (it dusnt matter if the handprints aren't there =) it's just as awesome^^)
Chain of men/bracelet =)
Stationary bag: Mini letter set, clicky lead box, glue stick, puppy rubber (so cute!! >w<) 'Aiyaya' white devil keyring xDDD, Inuyasha<3kagome badge, Babu rubber, Fat miffy pen, Blue bear pen, mini sticky-tape, heart-cherry stickers, blue&purple&black nailpolish =)
Marble Pocky
Natural Confec Sour Squirms and Dinosaurs :3
Mars Bars
Giant Toblerone
Hello KItty Marshmallow Cones
Jap chocolate chip bikkies
GIIIIIAAAANNNTTTT lollipop (how the HELL am i gna finish it?! D;)
khaki arm warmers >] (i'm not gstar ><)
'spring' notebook =)
Deathnote 'Light' phonecharm
Punching glove keyring
bear in pink phonecharm
bear in blue phonecharm :3
Hello Kitty Milk Candy
Shoe phonecharm xDD
Gion bunny couple keyring :3
Thumbsup smiley keyring
HUMONJOUS Toriko bear "Fruit Yoghurt Jelly" + Coin box ^w^
Meiji Grape Chocolate xDD
PHoto album<33333
Blush POOF THINGO!! OMG THANKKYYYYOUUUU!<333
BYS Custom Colours eye shadow + 4 x refills =DDD
BeDtime Stories Book<3333 i love you guys so much!! -hug-
RAISUUUUU~ ;D (sorry i forgot you the first time D;)
and the BASKET!! xDD and the ribbon :3

omg yes. that's it i think. who from? :3 who else^^
i love you guys. my precious, beloved, awesome atoms<3333

yes!! now that i've listed everything I CAN EAT IT! crap i'm gna get so fat on this xDDDD and you cant deny it. LOOK AT THE FREAKING LIST! xDD <333 love you all! was the most awesome bday EVER!

sweet 16th 2009<333

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, friends, life, love

I was riding shotgun with my hair undone in the front seat of his car
He's got a one-hand feel on the steering wheel
The other on my heart
I look around, turn the radio down
He says baby is something wrong?
I say nothing I was just thinking how we don't have a song
And he says...

Our song is the slamming screen doors,
Sneakin' out late, tapping on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real slow
'cause it's late and your mama don't know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date "man, I didn't kiss her, and I should have"
And when I got home ... before I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again

I was walking up the front porch steps after everything that day
Had gone all wrong and been trampled on
And lost and thrown away
Got to the hallway, well on my way to my lovin' bed
I almost didn't notice all the roses
And the note that said...

Our song is the slamming screen doors,
Sneakin' out late, tapping on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real slow
'cause it's late and your mama don't know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date "man, I didn't kiss her, and I should have"
And when I got home ... before I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again

I've heard every album, listened to the radio
Waited for something to come along
That was as good as our song...

'Cause our song is the slamming screen door
Sneakin' out late, tapping on his window
When we're on the phone and he talks real slow
'Cause it's late and his mama don't know

Our song is the way he laughs
The first date man, I didn't kiss him and I should have
And when I got home, 'fore I said amen
Asking God if He could play it again
Play it again, oh, yeah, oh, oh, yeah


I was riding shotgun with my hair undone
In the front seat of his car
I grabbed a pen and an old napkin
And I wrote down our song

~<33 beedee

Labels: love

afternote for last night: thankyou raisu for being there for me =) you were a great source of...silent...support xDDD but srsly =) sorry for getting you wet...but you're soft against my face so i couldn't help it ><

woke up surprisingly easily today. yesh i realise its cos i just...flopped last night. had combined choir so had to get up at 6:45. no rage. so this is wat a quiet morning feels like. i'd quite forgotten...what it feels like. -sigh- but hadn't packed last night so had to quite stonedly get stuff. phoned celia, wasn't sure how long open day would go for. ah...till end of recess. -sigh- no bludging.

got the 7:22 yay. not late~ got on 200 so i could walk from nsg to nsb... then 144 nsb bus came right as i got on. shet. damn you >[

got up to nsb. was err...4th one to get there? yes being early is...amazing xDD

performing 'this little babe' today and 'this little babe' and 'sing and rejoice' on friday. fk i dont wanna miss legacy to rehearse carmina burana (i think thats spelt wrong) >[. will talk to mr donalod to see if i can go and leave early. screw him if i cant...i will >[

haha frank and short clarinet guy on the poster =). frekaing nsb so...pro-looking. them and their airbrushedposters xDDD gave paul his bball back. uhmmm why? O_O rly idm but...why? ehhhh? -confused-

practiced in hall. haha i fail without the sheet music. shet i dont know the words to this little babe xDDD just lalalala the tune then...lipsynch the words xDD haha fun being between vianna and sarah =)

walked back up to nsg for non-scripture. haha formal bakesale -shift- so not suss xDDD bought an oreo/hundreds and thousands cupcake from steph and sandra. they didn't have a dollar change for $2 >[ so i bought 2. meh wateva == not bothered to be...bothered.

scram people scramming. thanks weelay for listening. other 1 of 2 =) <3

didn't do much to help sorry guys. was...kinda out of it. even if you didn't notice =\ -sigh- bella sick =( get beta soon~

assembly. guest speakers. had to leave at the beginning of gen earth one. lol celia's phone is fast ;P walked back down to nsb. haha dodge back room in music room. BAHAHAHA i advertised our school to the open day ppl >] yes...come to NSG!! we have tartan >]

then went to quad next to hall and sat there for ages. me and vianna on a high: -points- "DUUUUUUUUUUUUUU-" -breahtes- "-UUUUUUUUUUUUUU" xDDD nathan barred me >[ lol ike = noob. funny seeing ppl i know. then went on a low. played with my chain of men again. haha made them do ease on down the road. -sigh-

hope the audience didn't notice me mouth get a little less wider when i forgot the words xDDDD anywayz. sounded alright from where i was =)

ms moulton hates me i think. =\ i cant help wanting to go to legacy~ D; damn donald >[ and damn unintended alliteration xDDD

back up to school. recess. saw nobody in atom =( wandered around. heard about...the list. not dont care...but...-sigh-

commerce. yay vid. -sigh- weight of it all made me fall asleep for the last-ish part. sent gl txt =) hope it made it in time. yur periods aren't in synch with mine damnit >< ahahahaha LOL! ...that was lame ><

lunchtime~. nobody was there. yay D&M with cath and shirley (earlier) and weelay. nxt tuesday (Y)

drama was interesting xDDD spacejump~ lol "ok! -starts moving- wait...18 mths..." "yes he can walk" xDDDD hmmm the thing's turnig out interesting. although xDDD yes i dont get how it 'empowers' people either ;P

geo. very stoned. fully out of it. the senior toilets were very smelly ><. took home the book to finish notes. i need to start doing work. even if it's one step at a time. -sigh- ah also took home the formal menu choices and tallies. *note: must bring back tomorrow~!!!

haha cath glomped m on the way out. walked together to st leos. talked more about D&M. -sigh- i'm worried. and pissed. and worried. FAR OUT! why can't you just see that it...isn't RIGHT?!?!

took train. claudz joined me after chats...its...belurgh talking to her about that.

walking home. stoned.

finally found house keys!! (in the laundry xDD)

-sigh-...so much foooooooodd~ then i think about sarah dieting >[ dmanit damnit!! paranoid formal dress won't fit now D;

paranoia...-sigh-

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, friends, life, school, stress

will post...later...

aish~!! stoopid poem. too deep. TOO DEEEEEEEEEEPP~ @_@

~<33 beedee

Labels: fail, stress

had work so had to wake up early on a sunday...aish~

the market was uneventful. neighbouring stall all 3 kids came today =) well the guy (17 yrsold) left bout...after 11-ish. middle girl and lil Katherine (:3) stayed for rest. omggggg Katherine is so kyooot~ ^_^ she smiles more nowadays too. waaah havnt seen her in ages~ she talksabout kindy so cutely >w< "and...and...and i have friends and i do my homework =D" OMGGGG~ -squish- xDD

fb pokefesttt~ lol nathan ur such a loser ;P dont poke if you dont want me poking back >
]

lunchtime. WAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH~!! >////< doosh!!! DOOOOSHHH!!! >< omgomg i swear i went red...if not dark pink >< yesh song 3 <333 stoopid lyrics. -melts...mush- go do geo instead of screwing me all up inside >< but yeah i thougth you wrote it urself at first ;P

finally paid kev back the 70. loll yeah thats right go buy wateva offer thingo == aishh...

stoopid LCDs...why wnt u freaking play the dvd on ur screen >[ go be...gay ==

call as soon as i got home xD :3 LOLL '2 perfect girls' ;P but sorry if it pisses you off =( AND I TOLD YOU IT WASNT THAT BIG OF A DEAL! >[

=( mum sick. wish i could've made ALL of dinner...but dont have that kinda ability nor sense of responsibility. aish. thanks mum for helping/showing me how to cook<33 even though i only cleaned the lettuce and stirred the wonton xDD

dinner filling. sorry i didnt do the dishes =( had to fix the stoopid lamp. waaaaah the glass-hoder-inner-screw thing fell ont he floor and my stoopid floormat hid it >[ took me ages of crawling around the floor like a hobo to find it ><

AHAHA "anyone can screw a few things" "so you can't screw? D;" xDD you gotta admit that was epic >] lol flipping cams. funfun

aish...be careful you =\ i dont doubt ur connections but...just be careful. i'mf king worried about you D;

you!...i dont look like a ghost >[...and screw your stoopid comebacks...nobody gets them anyway >< psh...you're one to talk...just cos you dont have one ;P

yayayyy~ thanks luke =D awesomesss :3 no rush giving them...thanks so much^^

BAHAHAHAHA poor maz. "i'm yours" so epic xDD i'm sorry, blame that doosh -points- ;P

and Wang you fail ;P you just do. it doesnt even make sense THAT way ;P

stoopid cookies. bite your mum! DISTURB YOUR MUM! >< and hence...more call xD songs high. aishh teary by the end >< and also funfun with disney songs =D haha your zazu impersonation so retarded xDD but wats scary is that u actually sound like him =S ;P waaaaaahh<33 was awesome. song high~^^

lol Ike what a fail ;P go to sleep you hobo.

writing THE book...gl<33 i'll help xDD

nts: type up txts

sorry about failing at night T_T ninjaing is hard...thn i fell asleep. aishh sorry =(

gnight (morning)<3

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, life, love

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

(Chorus)
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

(Chorus)
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

(Bridge)

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

(Chorus)
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

(Chorus)
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

(Chorus)
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing

btw...that was a song :3 fking love you doosh

"I Don't Want To Miss A Thing" by Aerosmith

~<33 beedee

Labels: love

Txt first thing in the morning<33 ily~

Woke up at 1 haha…weird dream xDDD barred from a holiday bus in china then walking the rest of the way. yup think it was my rebellious mood =\

I love weddings xDD Shud’ve told me earlier they were gone at 12:30 though D; ah wells…we still got 2 and half hrs in :3

Aston came over to study ‘comedy’ with Kevin. So watching john tucker must die counts huh? ;P DAMN you and your stoopid accents doosh! xDDDDDD fking hilarious. –megasigh- yayy Thursday and Friday >< YESH I like the idea shuddup T_T yeah enough of ‘your mum’ xDD BRRRUUNOOOOO~! xDD

Epic mass convo with luke, jacky and the doosh. LAWL by the end wasn’t sure who was a guy anymore…for all I knew I was one as well xDD luke owned ;P haha jacky keeping score xDD

Btw…beary’s insides all gone~

Haha 1 cookie left. Eat it you doosh ;P me = 20 balls left xDD lol shifty chinese ;P after formal stuff =\ aishh…I hate being a girl sometimes >< I wont get fking raped T_T unless HE rapes me :3 then no objections xDDD ;P
Aish fk you doosh! >///< I will fking rape you for that. And I wont forget! >[ DEF not >////< fking unexplored territory >[

Sorry I hung up on you like that >< night doosh~<33

Nts: need to help organise DOE D; sorry guys…will get back to you asap!!

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, life, love

lalalalalala~ today was...interesting? =)

yeah 3:30...sorry D; barely finished brochure in the morning. woke up at 6 to do it >< finished...then fking printer went spastic on me! >[ first paper jam...wich didnt process as unjammed even after i unjammed it >[ fking...then wouldn't connect to laptop...aish! >< drama drama drama...was stressing like hell.

cheesecake = fail >< aish...the base was falling apart even as i took it out of the mold D; waaaaaaah sorry guys ><

haha hot in the shower :3 hot in the morning, hot at night, hot whenever :3

thankyou mum for driving me there<33 i know you hate me (ok well i hope not but...) but thankyouuu~

sorry cath for being late...as usual >< sorrysorrysorry T_T halfway down the driveway i realised i forgot the addrss/map to the place. shiieeettt! thanks for the address cath~ ^^ lifesaver<33

got to miller st/ernest st cnr. haha shoot cant turn right. mum kicked me out (not rly xDD) of the car while we were at red light cos we saw other nsgs at light.

met up at the park with rest of ppl. yeah uhmmm sorry for the noob brochure >< i didnt realy do anything aish... >< i brought postits tho ;D yayy for heart postits^^

got inside and set up. audz and kelly awesome =) body shapes thing was awesome ;D thanks you guys -hug-

ran around slapping postits on ppl :3 was AWESOME fun xDDD its like -runsuptosomeone- 'heyyy~!' -hugslaponback- 'seeya~!' xDDD not suss at all...was realy nice seeing everyone with pink hearts on their backs...and later arms and...boobs xDDD hey wasnt me ;P



among other things :3 lovelove<33

LAWWWWLLLL~! health promotion officers were...aish. our thingo was so dodge. we didnt even have a real wall xDD they asked for cake xDD cheesecake had a breakdown D; the guy just scraped some with his hand lolll~! after that we were just like MEH! WE'RE EATING THIS~! then ppl started swarming xDD aish...hopefully i didnt give anyone food poisoning ><

epic txting :3 for some reason...imagining you as a peer support leader is really...<33. dont ask why...i'm weird >//< but rly...its just...awesome ;D altho the corrupting part is HILARIOUS~! xDD pimping advice...do you even qualify? ;P 'confess first or you'll never live it down D;' xDD that was a good call and you know it >] loll have ball(s) today? ;P all 4 bases :3 OUR epic darling harbour night<33

presentations. funfun :3 haha ppl were so pro. love with vids...epic xDD freaking hlarious some of them xDD shedding 'fat' -coughclothes- xDD love that. inspirational though^^ BAAHAAH 'now remember to use protection properly. and stay on the pill in case...' -balloonsomewherebreaks- 'was that the condom balloon?' lol fail. OMFG what are the odds?!?! sex every 7 seconds...i TOLD you you're everywhere!!! xDDDDDDD doosh ;P tracey you're an inspirational emo -hug- =) overall everyone was awesome~

lenloe got a bit =( when fall for yu was used in vid. -hug-

WAAAAAH i fail...i EPIC fail >< T_________T went into bathroom to wash cakeplate and knife and stuffs during break. came out and the lights were out and my group was already on stage. sheeeeettttt~ ran to stall to put down stuff then ran to stage to get up there while o'sullivan was talking on mic. leapt up the stairs to the stage and just as i stepped on them THE FKING STEPS SLIPPED!! D; like...a whole metre to the left >< the whole grade was watching too T__________T aish -diesfromembarassment- i'm such an unco T_T. the presentation was ok i hope? we got cut for time >< aish...JUST squished the slogan at the end =)

lying on floor with carumen-chan and lenloe after ours. haha lenloe was listening to a class on her phone. fb pokefest with andy~!!! xDDD funfun ;D

ended about 20 mins late ==;; aishh...

sorry for accidentally calling you >< oopppsss~ walking back to school. camwhoring with steffu and cath =) d2mg. yayyy breaking~!!!!! ;D funfunfunfun~! altho felt super unco doing it xDDD like...bouncebounce >< lol ddr mat. ASIAN SQUAT! xDD learnt top rocks and...6-step? >< sorry forgot the step name xD

waaaah the mix for like a boy and love spaceship tracks is scary >< its so loud D; level 7 died =( cos nobody had time...well not rly but the times didnt add up >< aishhh...nxt time =)

lol faceflooring is awesome ;P your MUM touches herself >< yes touch you :3

walking to st leos. AISH! running in flats hurts like hell >< AHAHAHA guy near coles advertising. walked past and he's like "HI GIIIIRLLL" complete with the creepy wave. LOL i think he was gay (had an ear piercing) xDD awesome tho...tried not to crack up xDD.

got to pymble around 6. woooahhhhh walking home after 6 -shock- xDD not rly. was cool~^^ wish i could do it more often =(

nutino bread for arvo tea<33

haha lukeing xDD bursting in with your underwear xDD yayy spiderman style xDD fun with 'joey' aish =( andy...u deserve better >[ def! and thanks for being so nice >] haha all of him >] LAWLLL~! i fking love your mum. she is AWESOME!!! xDDD -horn- -haiyahh~smack- xDDD closest thing to sleeping together xDD :3

aish phone bill...fking hate voda =\ LEAVE HIM AND HIS PARENTS ALONE btch >[ do watever to me but dont take i out on other ppl...GARGH! >[



~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, life, love, school

yupyup i be fail >< ehe :3 was fking hot today >< very stufy...yeh def summer

lastnight:

lol stripshow ;P one more button in ur dreams bby >]

aish...no time to minimize. took away laptop. rage. fk the assignment. aishhhh~
was gna wke up at 1 to do english. slep thru alarm.

haha yeah dw i'm scared of her too >< aishh...and dw bout it. i rly didnt read t till morning xDD

woke up at 6:30. lay in bed for ages till mum came in. she'd sed if i didnt get up when she woke m up then she'd never do it again. aish gg. meh. got up to do english. didnt exactly finish. mum wouldn't drive me. meh late again ><

picked up 2 copies of the new timetable at pymeble ticket office. also got nothern line's :3

met aland joy n the bus. office ladies sed there werent enugh of us to report late bus. meh. aishhh idc anymore ><

walked into english late. lol mardi was late too and she didnt need to get a late note. turned out we didnt have to either D; waaaah stoopid >< Everyone's representations were rly good. was finishing speech while other ppl presented. haha...failll....lol love watching ppl rush at the end. its hilarious xDD but srsly good wrok everyone ;D i feel so dumb now D; lol steph and her candle in a box (Y) al's was rly nice :3

geo bleurgh. reconciliation. haha passlow caught me writing speech. talked about lovelife/hatelife with weelay. aishh...=\ dont get to talk him down anymore >< meh...fking 6~?!?! == aishh...lost cause~

recess LOL! did drama thingo. 'foreshadowing' we lay...in the middle of the quad in a circle. yr 10's were being dooshes and yeah...lol."should we sit in them" "i think you have to wake them up "WAKE UP~"' aish was hot >< sunburnt indeed. aishh...they changed it >< but i hope it turned out all right? haha miss mac came and told ppl not to touch us. aish they filmed it ><

miss seeto told me we changed rooms to b4. sat there for ages eating my recess. wow ppl had such good presentations D; nts: watch jarhead =) ninja-ed out of doing it. but must remember to swap te speech next wednesday when she gives speech back >< altho i dont think i put my name on it :S

lunchtime. aish not many ppl. me, weelay, shirley, carumen-chan and cath&bex later. more drama stuff at half. WAAAAH dont think anybody could hear us >< hope the message got across...yesh kiddies you control technology, technology does not control you. ~woooh

Maths did something cool/new. rotating in groups to solve/teach problems for coord geo. yayy got...most...some...most of it >< aish i failed teaching tho. meh. LOL a question in HSC~!! yesh i can do ONE QUESTION!! haha lol hi5 lenloe.

Commerce had group work again doing research again. haha went to b3 and did 'work'. room was all dark and me and shylvi-butt lost the rest of group so we just bummed in the room 'working'. lying on the floor txting xDD shush you perfect position >< bahahaha shylvi needs a boyfeee ;P dude you cud get anyone u wanted >< shylvi-butt...is a butt~! >< my baby...my doosh! :3 xD "please bang me now bby" :3

aish def summer. walking to st leos and everytime pass by a doorway rush of air-con blows out and its like -sighofrelief-ahhhhhhh~ >< walking with diwee. missed normal train but meh.

got home. haha mum was like 'ONLI EAT THE YOGHURT! we're eating dinner early!' aishh she knows me too well xDDD meh.

after 5 spent and hour or so jamming on piano (that sounds so weird....) ok fine just playing random stuff. was nice. i didnt realise how nice some of those songs are :3 was nice anywayz...to play again^^~ shud do it more often.

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOGMOMG~!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ifly[-ourmum] xDD yayayay~ :3

at 6 dinner. aish jeez kev get over it...i just put a bit more in ==;; you're supposed ot be eating more than me you 'growing boy' ;P xDDDD and no i didnt go high ;P

after dinner home alone. ppl left. you still at dinner tho so i cleaned up straight after they left...for once xDD

call~ sorry i was preoccupied =( and stoopid cam >[ hate how it freezes. must've been boring for you =( nxt time you and ONLY you :3 no freaking cheesecake >[

waaaaah sorry 3:30 never came cos i died >< sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry see how unreliable i am? D;

finished brochure...somehow >< in the morning...xDD

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, life, school

must...resist...beary's insides aishh!! ><

p.s. why am i stressing about beary when i should be doing english?!? D;

~<33 beedee

Labels: fail

ah yeah. guess wat. i'm alive. gg

fk i'm sorry. aish...this goes beyond shameful ><

i do wanna blog...i've just been...distracted

I KNOW THATS UR EXCUSE BUT I CAN USE IT TOO! =P

aish sorrysorry....i'll try revive you [blog]...even after dogging you so many times

i should be doing english poem. i should be doing my jap poster. i should be doing pd brochure stuff. so be honoured i'm reviving you first! =P yeah...>< i have prioritising issues...D;

i guess where to start...today...while its still fresh in my mind...sorta...

woke up lol... realised 4:30 didnt happen. meh...still got tonight ;P

realised i had pe 2nd period. ran around getting pe stuff in my bag. in process found my pumas that i bought in china 3 yrs ago...lol wnder if i still fit them. meh they're light, so i stuffd them in with my pe stuff anyway xDD realised i didnt need myfolder today YESH! >] cos maths, then pe, then history [presentations] then excursion, yerr man!

mum said she wudnt drive me if i didnt get into kitchen by 8:15. got in there at 8:16 gg.... aish got pokgai-ed again...-sigh-

walked to station. err...stone?

got to st leos and saw nayo. haha she was cbfed to go to maths. i felt opp...cos i was shetted that miss v wud rage...since i'm always late on wednesdays >< waaaah i swear i dont do it on purpose. anywayz, lol nayo and marsfield ;P wth like ike?! xDDD gg~

got to class. coord geo. did random stuff. miss v left room and i turned around and lenloe had apparently been calling my name for ages. ahahaha shoot...sorry >< i'm deaf~ lol bad boy vs. naughty girl >] bring it bby.

had lean on me stuck in my head the whole morning. "you just call on my brother...~"

found out we had pd instead of pe. FK u srs?! T_______T brought all my crap or nothing...aish. on the way out of e block passed the noticed board and realised the formal seating was up. sheettttt...our group not on a table yet...and they're filled up! shetshetshet...why do ppl have to be so fat and 7 people take up a 10-seat table >[ rawr!!!! >[

pd in the library. Be You (tiful)<333 :3 talked about formal tables arrangement with weelay and lenloe. lenloe wnted to be on our table? aish i be a stressball >< helped with survey making. they're the same questions everywhere ><

recess. met up with rest of atoms at noticeboard. yay we got tables~ table 22 and 23 :3 haha yesh steffu22 be ur bday =) and also 22 be :3 =P doosh. lauren on our table or not? ><

3rd period history. ate recess...ended up eating whole lunchbox -shift- waaaaah everyone's presentations so good D;

at 12 we went down to get marked off for english excursion then get on bus. sat in 4 seater with weelay, lenloe and al. gave formal money (mine...only ><) to lily. lol niki...no u dont know him ;P it still feels weird...saying it...like...its not true? but it is ^^~ it soooo is :3

got to rocks sydney theatre company. lol steffu crashed clare's group's ninja destruction. yay bex' pasta :3...naka de...chotto...eeee~? >< aish. meh its just me. forgot to go bathroom...so ended up having to hold it throughout whole performance T_____T. lol carumen-chan...biography >< fking long aye? xDDD sure u mean canteen lines? ;P

performance was quite entertaining. confusing and confronting...but entertaining ;D i laughed so hard i couldn't breathe at parts. the constable chick was so cute :3 but...kinky...in a...slightly disturbing way...xDD yeh mad guy was hot >] so many innuendos...aish sex-obsessed. its like the grenade joke...the guy was putting the thingo in the bomb all slow-mo and everyone was like...moaning...yeah...in that way xDD and the guy flashed...well no not flashed...like his butt...mooned us...for like a full 5 minuts. running around with his pale white butt inour faces. argh was...O_O dodge... wonder if the english faculty reali meant for us to be corrupted with this stuff xDD

after performance...got held back by crew. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahh tf?! i wasnt taking photos!!! i didnt even txt during it! i didnt even open my phone!! [altho it wasnt off but still!! D;] carumen-chan, me and sarah (G7, G8 and G9) got accused of taking fotos. guy made me show him my fotos. SEE betch?! nothing!! D; >< damn whoever was the real culprit...the guy looked like he was gna arrest us...had a freaking heart attack ><

bus back to school. walked out eblock way with carumen-chan and lenloe, then walked back the other way. met up with cath, jassy and lauren who were also walking st leos way. jassy crossed later to get back to ns. haha talking about formal. aish its on evryone's minds >< aishhhhh too azn to buy another dresss~ T_T butbutbut...its tempting...oh wells. i'll go with you guys...and i'll be azn and buy if theres a bargain xDD

mx overheards are so fail xDD virgo and libra horoscopes seem...similar all the time? or is it just me... >< wat do u think natural flirt? ;P

talked with claudz bout bases. lol...grinding...O_O;; total strangers...wow...

walking home. my skirt looks so short with my jersey on O_O;; [yeah you notice things in shop windows ><] aish...hsm3 'Can I have this dance?' song...made me feel floaty...started twirling around in circles on pacific hwy. i think ppl in cars looked at me weirdly xDD shush~ =P i cant help dancing to a dance-y song >< esp after so much formal/slow-dance talk D;

got home. pigged out on rest of fruit tarts and made nutino bread :3 also scabbed a few macadamia and a yogurt. beary has 2 insides left >< aish...

thats all for today. dont stay up tonight if you dont need to doosh D; freedom gone now so be a GOOD boy ;P

p.s. i just realised...theres a red balloon in the dining room left over from my bday party...and its still blown up xDD lets see how long it lasts? :3

~<33 beedee

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kevin was sick today =( stoopid hobo...rest up D;

late for combined choir. c pissed me off at st leos >< aish... got to nsb, and edward and sahan aske for chocos...aish wanted to sell but moulton's scary so i had to dog them for now D; lol sarah didnt see me come in. MOULTON WASN THERE! >< bleurgh shudnt have run...sat next to mon. suvie was leading.

didnt know the first song >< aish....learn later. then singing lion king songs :3 yeah...somehow...you're everywhere! even in choir!! >< how do you do that? D; and you know i'm talking about you ;P fav disney song -hinthint- but was singing circle of life~ nananananananana xDDD unco singing. rly wanted to move on but we didnt =( oh wells...next time ^///^ lol th paul? >< why singing in the bass section when ur singing tenor? O_O

tristan and suvie...aish? felt like i shudnt have been listening O_O walked with timothy down to art classroom. YAYY~ he bought a choco~ :3 said bye while he turned into b block and i went down the stairs. wlaking back up. yeah...little nsbs running to school...then imagining you doing the same ;P rly ;P aishhaaa howd you oversleep THAt much? hobo ;P told you i spread my disease ><

non-scripture. voting for youth decide. aish...why so btchy >< im voting jeezzz...yay free choco cupcake~ :3 i hate my gluttony >[

aishh =\ yeah i'll talk to him...i need to talk to him...bash some reason into that supposedly smarter/older brain of his ==;;

assembly. lol got my hd cert finally. jap 2nd period. ms wei made me put phone away >< bleurgh...never bothered anymore. i'm sorry...you jsut piss me off. its not fair and i'll try not to be so btchy...and i'll try to at least be nice to you...but aish...its hard.. >< sold chocos yay. 4 left~

yay waffles~ love waffles :3 ate whole lunchbox ate recess >< aishh....

3rd period. commerce. split into groups and went into staff common room to do 'research'. my topic = changing laws. didnt end up doing anything xDDD shylvi-butt stalked my phone. lol wth xDDDD random names. thnx but i prefer the ones i already have butt ;P nathan blew up at me in txt >< waaah sorry i didnt mean it...happy bday anyway tho? =)

lunch...did...random stuff? >< dont rly remember. asked passlow about alternating for vball~ :3 YAYYYYYY~!!! its alrite!! its alrite to alt!!! see~?!?! see doosh! ;P okok im sorry...but cant help being excited >///< and no i'm not ur mum! but ur still welcome to sleep wi- -shhh- yayay~ sold out chocos...haha i ended up with $1 more than i shud...meh xDD

Drama was cool. had miss sang =) yay she got the message~^^ waaah niki told me off >< aishh...sometimes she scares me...cos i'm a chicken ><

Geo. majorly tired. fell asleep >< dont remember what we did...lol duty girl came with my receipt for english. was asleep when she called me...twice according to passlow xDD aishh...so stoned~

failcouple<3

waaah no way! siff~ it cant be THAT much of a coincidencecan it? >< meh so first we're telepathically connected...and now our ipods too?! xDDDD yayy :3

missed normal train...but meant i could think alone on the late train =) yeah alone time is nice sometimes ^^

got home. yayy~ mum got mini fruit tarts from a friend. a whole box of them :3 tried not to eat too many ><

you didnt use all your luck that night...if anything i did >///< so stop thinking that way...cos every moment is better than the last ^^ and this is just the beginning...so dont go thinking that was the best night ever...cos i'm gna make sure it wasnt >]

you're too freaking sweet >////<

song on repeat...>< FAR OUT kev had to come in at that moment >< aish... >///< 'ask mum for the mummy' xDDDD faiiillll~ lol outsexied and outsung by aladdin and jasmine. meh~ we can still pretend :3 ntw: owe kev $70 xDD

BAHAHAHA bed fun >] yeah its my job to distract you while you're on the phone xDDD ;P fk yeah i'll strip you someday ;P haha let's see which of us fills our books up firt~^^ stiff ;P haha 'come on over bby~' i will fkyouup >] lol drugging parents.

mum is suss...i think both of them are...aish -sigh- they're insisting on it T_T

stoopid frozen msn >[ dmn my =\ face ><

ily doosh~




~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, life, love, school

late...again...aish ><

well at least i didnt have maths 1st pd...

luke called me on train and i stood there for a whole minute wondering why nobody was talking. xDDD turned out he accidentally called. gg fail ;P

got to drama. yayy we're almost finishing up. just need to polish up. yayy i hope ppl will get it. hoping for them to like it might be wishful thinking tho >< but still...=)

2nd period jap. -sigh- getting more and more cbf with it.

whole school photo. lol i totally forgot about it >< aish. sport day so i wore sport uniform shet. thot we'd be fked for it >< 'ruining the photo' >< haha but they just pushed all of the sport uniform ppl together. then evrybody just meh-ed and went with their friends. joined up with rest of atoms. LOL everybody had to tuck their shirts in. yay for wearing sport uniform then xDD bella accentuating features ;P lol ppl taking pitures of the guy taking our photo. [was the same guy from school photos] haha yayy me and bella did epic pose for muckup ;D

Maths...dont remember xDD ranndom...stuff? aishhh tong =( waaaaaah i'm so slow. i'll miss you too~<333 T_T went for longer cos it got cut into >< dayummm

lunch...lol recounting sunday to lenloe and carumen-chan >///< waaaah bleaurgh why so much detail >< lenloe stole my choco box xDD

tenisu was funfun~ xDDD i fail so much xDD its like "bec it's up to you now~!" ok...-swing- -ball goes up...and backwards- (Y) gg xDDD lolll BAHAHAHAHA serving demo...-tosses- "SAUSAGES!" -hitsball,hitsnet- ">[ who said sausages?" -weelay- xDD bella sat out. :3 she looked so peaceful~

walking to north sydney. haha went into Shelley shop xDDD lingerie shopping :3 (Y) waaaaaaaaah boy/girl whistle keyring :3

missed a few trains. took train with bella and carumen-chan. haha mx overheard.

got to central. lol "is that daniel? it's daniel! DAAAAAAANIIEEELLL!!!" yayyyy he bought a choco~ maidoari~ thanks chandrew for buying too =) LLAWWWLLL weelay asking around for lawrence lu. saw your head above a sea of short people xDDD ninjaaaaaaa~ xDDD yupyup...-shift- xDD matt barred my choco =( so did kerry and his hungry jacks >[ aishh...ian arrived lol.

went to park. and hung out there for the whole time xDD. i be on top ;P RLY didnt wanna go =( waaaaah both of you dooshes...stay with her~!! >< aish. neither me nor weelay wanted to go dance...so we skipped again xDD sorry weelay for dogging you D; haha yayy i be the shouter for once >] splitting takoyaki :3

belmore park at night is...the SEX~! :3 waaah was so nice~^^ yeah we have to come after formal :3 hahalol empty trains = rape~ doosh...u rly shudnt be going all the way >< aishh...lol we were early so we kept waiting trains. BAHAHA found macq uni button on ticket machine. haha ninja-ing inside the block. then inside the bush xDD ifly~ one more? :3

lol was in the toilet -shift- you asked for it btch >[ aish dad suss but mum was understanding. thankyou mum -hug-

3am...aish i'm sorry ><

~<33 beedee

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aishaa i fails.

since last thurs no blog waaah sorry

okok lets try this again...

todayayayayay~

first thing i hear in the morning is your voice <33 (apart from ringtone/taylor swift xDD) thanx :3
shoot i fell back asleep after a while T_T waaah sorry. i wasted ur effort D; hope ur morning was more productive than mine =\

didnt bother with mufti. too cheap to pay for it xDD. just missed 21 train for combine choir. then mum wudnt drive me till kev was ready. and he took his own sweet time == meh, no combined choir todayy. cbfed.

got to st leos and claudz asked me to bum around st leos with her...cos she didnt wanna go to school yet...lol tf? O_O freaking clara stop abusig ur elders D;

crashed ipt to meet up with scram ppl. stooooonnneeeee. yay for shortbread cream :3 thanx carumen-chan~ nice talk with bella and jassy =)

thank god you're ok with it...but i hope you mean it =\ i've been shetting myself over this

saturday morning isnt enugh time...=( and LOL srsly...rhar wud be scary...well not scary but...waaah my parents wud be like tf?! O_O then raggeeee~ yayy was gna get to hold up sign for scram demo~ [ff] no not final fantasy ;P xDD

assembly...haha i was so fail xDDD but i guess the audience liked it? meh xDD was fun to listen to. and our fail "and they all lived happily ever after~" psh xDD

got to stay behind after assembly YESH! >] but...grade got bagged out for being truant-y and late-y. aish...haha i be somewhat part of that ><...ish...LOL bella - right after she says she' gna go to movies 2moz ;P

jap...== stone. GARGH! UR ANNOYING! stop...gargh! im a btch for being like this bt i cant help it >[ yeah maybe u were right...personalities clash sumtimes =\ but i cant help wish u'd be a BIT more considerate towards other ppl. JUST A BIT! == lol shylvi-butt ur so slow ;P

recess...ah shoot dont remember ><

Science watched 5 disasters waiting to happen vid. survived first half...then died >< aish...weelay was sad...well troubled =( -hug-

lunchtime~ ppl at gen earth. uhmmm think we talked about...no idea =L aish this is why i take notes T_T and tis is why its bad to not T_T screw my cbf-ness

4th pd haha crap thought i had drama...so walked al the way to the hall. on the way saw elaine and celia's group huddled. waaaaah ppl looked all depresed and elaine was...crying? D; suvie shooed me away...so tried not to worry about it T_T Commerce lol tf?! random calls D; wasnt sure what to think O_O lol ninjaed out of class to 'get something from comp room' then called back. aish wth. watching Plea bargains vid. realy sad =( stoopid american law system. elaine didnt come =(

i wasnt daydraming! D=

drama in drama room. aish stoopid...didnt feel like it =\ elaine told me they had D&M =( did random stuff. almost finished forming assessment?

went to chats with bro for dentist to clean teeth. lol we got lost...at chats...wat fails we are. aish...mum gave me rong directions D; or...i didnt bother listening to them >< aish...lost for ages

at dentist. lol fernwood logo...very eye-catching ;P haha the dentist-guy was hot >] john...wong? or something xDD meh. he was kool =) talked a lot xDD >< it hurt D; there was blood...as warned by mum >< urgh it hurt a lot...i was flinching. calculus...not the maths one xDD lol freebies~!

yayy mum bought sushi rolls for us. haha 4 for $8 xDDD aznnn~ got 2 huge rolls >] yumyum~

haha no reply. got worried... =P >< aishhaaa fake-crying xDDD ddnt know i was capable of it >< STOOPID UMBRELLA! >[ screw it >[ ah lol fleecey :3 haha u keep predicting my lines...i'm becoming predictable D; damn your book...full name...melt...waaaah >///< stoopid lines<333 lol 'my doosh' 'my whore' awesome ^^;; waaaah so tired >< haha epic line ;D and yeah i can totally do it >] opportunity ;P



~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, life, love, school

fkfkfkfk...left this post overnight then the WHOLE like...3/4 end of it died. fking hate blogger >[ dont even have the notes for this one anymore! D; stoopid blogger!

wake up early = fail == freaking retainers...i hate having to brush them >[

yayayay~ nutino sandwich for brekkie<33 :3

wasnt sure if yr 9s were training so i deided to go early. but missed 52 =\ got 7:07 train...late =\ fail coach...

hugh is such a fail on the train xDDD at least i can handle having a huge bag. he's like -bangbangbagn- ;P

lol as soon as i got out of barriers majo-chan and claudz bombed me to buy legacy. i srsly didnt have any money xDDD (apart from english excursion money...which i didnt end up using anyway -shift-)

haha took 144 cos i cbfed to wait, then saw jess and angela walking with legacy stuffs. told them i had no money >< so they start walking down he opposite path, then they see mis senthi behind them, turn around and bomb her "MISS SENTHIIIIIII~!" xDDD nicenice

got to school rund 7:35 and turns out team wasnt there xDDd meh. went to eblock and just plonked in CT1. took out maths hw. cleaner lady came in and vacuumed up every inch of the room surface i swear! and she kept giving me dirties D; so i migrated back outside in the corridor (it was cold >[) and plonked outside CT2. got a lot done actually ;D listened to ipod while sketching curves and gee came on xDDD started sit-dancing >////< shush

the yr 7/8/9s were annoying >[ so frekaing loud. SHET! i lost my blue groupie stickie form my phone! D= shetshetshet! T__________T -cries- aish. baka. sarah and vianna phoned to ask where i was and i sed eblock corridor. sed they'd come to me (lol sounds shift) and they never did ;P fail. bell went and i went up the stairs and saw them. they were like 'WHERE WERE YOU~?!?! D;' ebign a hobo you dooshes ;P yay finished all of hw :3 feels...weird xDD

legacy 2day so 17 ppl in the whole grade at school. lulz 6 ppl in maths class - me, lenloe, celia, terry, bec chapman and suvie. haha mating birds...so dodge >< cover ur eyes children~ aish the onli time i di m hw it didnt matter =\ meh. consolidated th classes. did SC pass papers. sat with lenloe. haha made stoopid mistakes but was...alright? >< meh... haha maths subby made lame maths jokes. "weapons of maths construction" and "he was just a mean teacher"

english. just me lenloe and celia...fail~ xDD lol miss seeto such a legend..."i hate c-block! its like in the middle of nowhere! dont u think so?!!?!?" lol. went up to library where more loner yr 10s were. haha helping miss seeto with her yr 12 reports. ngaawwww beary "he's sad cos he's in the IT dept." oooh snap! haha using mobile fb for the first time~ ;D yayay funfun~ lying on the floor. so peaceful~ ^^

jassy, lenloe and me at recess =) there was more to say about it but afta my comp crashed i lost this section >[ sorryyy D;

3rd period drama. haha...i was the only one...FAIL~! D; miss mac told me to go to the library and do privte study. haha xDD more bludge~. lenloe and jassy came up as well =) more lying on the floor. LOL! using lenloe for dodgy txting. STOOPID locked phone >[ haha as soon as i was about to txt you on lenloe's phone u txted me ;D awesome~ :3 bahaha you doosh. u shud listen to jassy u horny bastard ;P red cliff haha...epic =) lol the other 2 were doing maths.

lunchtime the legacy ppl were back =) waaaah steffu i'm sorry =( we'll stop. i can ee where you're coming from too >< its slack...i know. legacy ppl left. aRGH~! SHET! inever thot of it tht way. shetshetshet i've been so oblivious...omg i'm such a btch. fk man...depressss~ thanks lenloe and jassy for the...drinks? xDD

met up with combined choir ppls to walk down to nsb. haha there were so many ppl for the rehearsal. cute voodoo doll ;3 tried to help out setting up te bleachers but got barred. yes...outmanned...just cos we're girls >[ haha basses and tenors in the middle and altos and sops on the side bleachers...psh == biased much. ms Ee fking scares the shet out of me. guy sops and altos never cease to disturb me...they can sing higher than us! D; haha feeling claustrophobic from all the guys. the guys behind me kept kicking me! >[ far out. haha ecce gratum song never ceases to amuse me. BAHAHAHA cymbal guy's hair kept flying up. me and sarah having a lot of fun looking at him. loool "are you GAY or something?!"

shoot didnt have a blazer. scared moulton wud smack me. me and mon went back up to nsg to get one from mr jones. yayy mr jones opened up the clothing pool for me :3 haha he locked it up...then i realised my jumper was stil inside >< woopsss~ D;

D2MG today was fun ;D YAYYY LAZELLE IS BACK~! for the rest of the term!! ;D haha "pick up your trash...wait...i mean...tak off your pants...wait..." xDDDD epic lyrics. haha be a guy. pull up your pants? ok...? -picksupskirt- xDDD nicenice. "like a boy" by ciara (Y) kool moves to this one =) i like i like~ :3 no jam session today ><

aftewards outside saw charmian and wendy. lol charmian stalked you. wendy ur such a gossip xDDD borrowed wendy's phone to tell mum i wasnt going to rooftop. yay we have a cheerleader for 2moz~!! xDD wow team had training this arvo ;D awesome...thats my team^^ -proud-

walked to park of joy and met up with sarah, em, vianna and terry. went with em for subway double dinner deal >] got steak and cheese. yy mixing drinks. BAHAHA bit into my steak and cheese and was like...why is there bacon in my sub? O_O only then me and em realised we'd accidetally swapped subs xDD gg~. shoot i finished a footlong in the time em finished 6-inch! D; WAAAAAAH~ PHAT >< haha looking out the door and we see terry sarah and vianna being random hobos back at the park. so funny. double choc cookies :3

went back after em finished her first 6-inches. bahah random voice-mails. sarah so bouncy cute and high xDD i wann be VIRGIN~!!! D; (lol yes its possible to gain ur viriginty back ;P) according to em i cry like a jap xDDD haha we were so high. left at about 6:15 to get back to nsb. BAHAHAHA saw the crows nest restaurant called "Lees FORTUNA" xDDD a sign...as em said xDD

got to nsb carpark and saw mums car. she hadnt seen me, she was inside reading xD. so ninja-ed up to the windscreen and splatted on it. i think she had a heart attack xDDDDDDD yeah man >]

got back and went to foyer toilets. bahahaha vianna epic fail. -creeps hand around corner as toilet flushes, head around corner- "emillllyyyy" in a creepy voice. a middle-aged woman walks out looking weirded out and goes to wash her hands. BAHAHAHA vianna dies of shame ;P em walks out of the neighbouring cubicle xDDD

we sat in the back. BAHAHA 11 NSGs outcheered the whole audience. we were bouncing/clicking/swaying with the music. went out to buy cake from the charities council canteen. JEEZ make up your mind about which are 50c and wich are $1 so i can choose the 50 ones!! ;P lol yes very confused. cello guy was annoying...he kept telling us to tone it down >[

haha went on high in J block music room during iterval. fail...interval stared at 9, even tho the whole thing was meant to finish at 9:30 ==;;

sing and rejoice, then this littl babe. we sung...haha ok? >< hopefully...

tf. yr 9s both wolf-whistled me and calld me ugly in the same night == meh...O_O

went on high after our performance. LOL me and sarah (well sarah more xDD) chasing du around the school. papparazzing ppl -hintsurvanahint- xD sarah and her $1 coffee xDD on high in the dark :3 singing at the end =) haha ninjaly filmed it from the stage. aish the guys were a bit off time but was still fun =) LOL! yr 10s singing for miss scott xDD nicenice. finished 10:50-ish

going home, nathan and his mum asked us if we wanted to drop by for supper at gordon maccers. got there and it was closed xDDD epic fail ==

got home around 11:30. uncapped~!!! ;D

yeah...this took a while. i'm sorry ><

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cant wait for the wkend to come. cos...well obv cos its the wkend >< but also :3 never enough~

early for Vocal this morning ;D yayy lol. was 6 ppls~ me, vianna, cathmac (xDD i jsut came up with that) anjali, sarah and suvie. BAHAHHA epic warmup. mimimimimi, memememe mu...ma...mo? O_O xDDDD my bad ;P was lonerted in men/alto 2 section for a longs time~ xDD not rly. haha harita owned for not coming ;P waaaw i got 2 teach harita! -shock- wat an honour~ xDD jksjks. hari's awesome^^

1st pd english swapped rooms [B12] with yr 9 class [B4] ad haha was just sitting in the room like a loner for agggesss cos ms seeto told me wen i got to B12 early. kept telling yr 9s to go away xDD well not rly >< 'redirecting' them ;P

Miss Seeto plonked down nxt to me haha...-shift- freaking prac teacher was ==. like...tf themes? and stop treating us like we dont give a shet...we DO give a she about it all but...we cant help not being close to it. we dont all have a friend in the war ==;; BAHAHa empathy...sympathy?! -hi5 lenloe- >] but...mebbe we've been getting it rong for the entire SCRAM time then xDD waaaah @_@ confusing~

geo~ haha was actually pretty interested. hehe NSG's stalking Mr passlow in public xDDD bahaha Hursti-Kogarah turning HongKong-nese. AZN INVASION~! >] yeah i'm having hearing prolems >< nuclear family? xDD ngaaaww =( poor Mr Passlow's dad...he's a vegetable xDD =(...

stayed in geo room (D1) for recess...WOAH! FK got bombshelled! holyyyyy~ omgomgz...BAHAHAHAHA omg ur amazing xDD awesomes~! waaaaaaaw you freaking legend xDD (Y) but yes dw. =# and i'm here for you if you need to rant/worry =) -hug- <3 [confusing much? xDDD]

waaaah jassy why am i noob?! D; AHAHAHA interbreeding pencil cases >] :3 so cutteee~:3 lol Carrie and her war poem...'HUH! WAR! what is it good for?! absolutely nothing~' and ms seeto goes: isn't that plagiarism? xDDD ;P Steph pees quickly ;P and YOU! you need to eat!!! D; frekaing hell i'm worried about you...

lunchtime~ ehehehe fking yr 12 tbs ==;;...well not even tbs realy. just...BLEURGH! lol '9o'clock...wait no...MY 9 o'clock ><' they're so annoying >[ '-sitting down waves arms around like a jellyfish- CAAAAAAKKKEEEE~!' ok wait...that sounds like something i would do O_O >< well it looked stoopid ><. anywayz >] bahahaha i intercepted heaps of the trays going to them >] suck on that betches~ spent 70c on bakesale stuffs =) 'Umbrellas go up whenthe rain comes down~ you can see them pop-' ok i'll stop >< wait...WAT?!?! waaaah-?! HUH?!?! how come I (we) haven't heard about this?! D; watwatwat?! [will spam you later to see if its true ><] tf...i'm sorrryy~!! D; shet i just realised how slack it is to you. T____T i've been oblivious i'm sorry! T_T fk i'm sorry A D;

Maths. cbbed to talk about it. cos it depresses me. esp when test results come back to slap you in the face T_T

what else depresses me? the rain. -sigh- just...dulls my mood. stonneeee~

Commerce in CTL. stonneeee~ waaah cbfed with crime reduction. see this is why i'd fail legal if i did it ==;; yayyy~ get to help little yr 9 babies with commerce business day on Tues last week of term pd3 =) SHOTGUN SHARON'S GROUP >] ehehehe~ ^^ ooooo 612 bus ppls =\ yr 7s nad 8s == sigh...

wondering what you're doing now...

Walked to ST Leos in the rain. Ariel was also walking...alone...hlding an umbrella but not using it D; she looked so tired...like she'd been crying -hug- said she needed to think. let her walk alone =( -sigh- wih i could do something but she needed her space i thinks so i walked a bit further behind. SHIET! my umbrella broke halfway! >[ stoopid...gargh!

got to st leos and Nathan[&Camthom] pranked me on the platform >[ doosh...you're so bored xDDD Train was squished >< TF?! nsbs rubbing each other...O_O okkkk~ -looksaway-

Clara you loser >[ that punchis gna bruise i swear >< just cos you're aggro and small and need anger management =P hahah jksjks. but srsly my bro sed ur tiny ;P hehe

lulz kev wrestling mum to get to arvo tea pastry foods thingos~

boreddd...dont wanna go to school 2moz...-sigh- but dont have a choice. stoopid donald >[ tf is wrong with leaving early == aish now i have to do maths T_T

will probs post later tonight~ bb^^

~<33 beedee

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waaaah stoopid food<3 i love it...but its so gna be the death of me T_T

GLUTTONY FTW (not rly ><)

ok. woke up alright but went back to sleep accidentally T_T. like ACTUALLY accidentally...ok i know that sounds like bs but >< waaah wateva. anywayz. got up at 7:55. Mum wouldn't drive to station so endedup walking. wouldn't be able to catch 22 even if i ran so meh took my time.

your life's a mess...D; so's mine. we're a messed up pair of fail ninjas =) let's be messed up together xDDD then we'll clean each other up =) ;P haha and oooo awesome you can spell it ;P but can you do it? >]

Freaking guy at Telegraph intersection ran through the pedestrian green. but could see it coming though so wasn't runover xDD. WAAAAH saw a SKY BLUE buggy~!!! :3 hehe ;] GIMME! >]

On platform. A bit shietted cos this meant i'd be late for incursion =\ thanks weelay for saving spot =) ended up eating my recess on the platform: banana, waffles and fruit stick. lol. apparently its the mark of a slacker if you eat on the train. MEH~

-sigh- the bus never comes quickly if i'm late. then frekaing 265 came. hate having to walk back up. signed in and got a late note but turned out the teacher didnt mark names anyway! D; far out means i admitted i was late wen i didnt have to T_T BAKA! shud've followed jo and christine T_T.

Film studies. waaah couldn't find anyone for ages. lol Helen Mirren = scary queen. -stoneeee...turns eyes- WAAAH! scary xDDD Yes Reese Witherspoon OOZES bubbles when you're taking to her xDDD gg.

Steffu you're awesome~ you noticed =) ok i dno why i'm smiling...but yeah -hug- thanks. you're awesome friend desuu~<3

Recess: helped sell for bakesale. NG and prefects scare me T_T and so does Mash >[ far out...got so paranoid (THERES THE PARANOIA AGAIN! D;) but according to Carrie they were bsing...but still! D; yay thanks majo-chan for helping with selling =) haha lol the choco cake was FAILL! well i didnt cut it fail so not my fault >] haha cheapo azn skool...everyone was asking for discounts == LOL me an majo-chan ninja-ed a piece of the choco cake >< SHHHHHH! it was falling off and crumbing anyway -shift- No srsly...it was falling apart ><

carumen-chan not here today =( gl with major<3

3rd pd fim studies. BAHAHAH HAPPPPPYYYYYYY~! (like happy gilmore >]) -sigh- hierarchy within groups huh...thats so...BLEURGH! inner-workings of a group. so depressing to think about that...=\ dont ask why. just is >< i dont like to think of our group like that...i dont think we are...are we? D; AHAHAHA alice in her shrek mask. Yes she'd TOTALLY work at maccers == let alone wear a shrek mask while working there xDDD and yes to formal xDDDD was epic xDD Ate all of lunch plus jap choco bikkies from bday basket during the talk lol. told you i'm fatt >< see? THIS is why i'd EPIK PHAIL at dieting == mostly boring overall =\ but extrcts were awesome =) mean girls seems so awesomely epic now that i havnt watched it in ages xDDD and legally blonde =)

Yr 10 vocal at lunch =) too HOT! to sambaaaaa~ LOL! Ms cleggie: "We're gonna GRUNT noW!" xDDD "UH!" yes cath we're just to lazy to grunt. like a cbfed 'eurgh...==' xDD YAYYY~ jam session. stella helped jam too this time =) Not me not I~ ahahaha nyaawww lenloe started crying after "did you think that everytime i see you i would cry?" line. -hug- and YAYY! In this LIFEEEE~<3 waaah brings back memories^^

Science 4th pd watched the rest of An Inconvenient Truth. Al Gore awesomeness =) was...scary >< eerie ><. waaaah everytime they say how insignificant our planet is in terms of the whole universe...and how insignificant WE are...i get so depressed. Like this sense of...smallness. we're so...insignificant.

Guess what?! I DID WORK IN JAP! =D haha >< yeh prcrastinator talking here >< *note: must do chirashi (poster ad) tonight. after you asked i REALLY wanted to go >< so phoned mum while 'going to the bathroom' to tell her i was 'scram'ing after school. Got the ok >] ...you know my hands wouldn't stop shaking while wrote after that...was the thought of seeing you >< omg yes...you really have that effect on me >////< no jks.

ran outside after bell in case we were walking. but then we were catching bus. waaah lenloe rejecting me (not srsly xDD) and rejecting me from weelay too xDD. weelay going to meet gg. gl<3 got on 253 and got off at gasco. just made train =) LOL luke was there too. you fail. BELLA! what are you SAYING?! xDDD course he's not cute == ;P haha so slack xDD jksjks ;P haha 'prank me' dus sound a bit weird dontcha think? ;P

got to central~ yaaay ppl =) and no i didnt have your shirt/your towel cos 1) didn't know whether i'd be taking btown and 2) they weren't dry lastnight =P so suck wait till monday xDD sorry bella D; it was jassy who pushed you out but still haha >< sorry =( hope it wasnt awkward >< all in good fun tho =)

daniel blows bubbles too big =P how do you do it damnit?! D; mine = blow...deflate~ >< lol mx 'bun' hairdo...like EAT bun xDD Luke you're such a noob. BAHHA elaine's a pimpette >] with...guys...EXACTLY 3 yrs younger than her xDD haha dont care about me getting raped as long as its girls aye? >] wat if its guys then? ;O sorry lenloe for not getting off >< but i didnt have time for chips if i was to get back in time D; sorrryyyy -hug-

make a move you noob! >] you know you want to ;P anywayz best of luck from me :3 (Y)

my mind was a whir after that >///< stuffs~ waaaah close :3 aish ifly~ HAHA dettol toilet xDD drugs >] but was empty >] i love newcastle train compartments just inside the door >] always empty ;] waaaaah you stoopid hobo<3 course i dont want you to go but...>////< hate you<3 [i didnt mean that so it dusnt prove your point =P] and no you still will be the first one to find out =P so i'm NOT going to find out myself >< stoopid fingers.

after hornsby =) omgz RAPE :3 =P was very <3 >///< shush i liked it like i said i would ^w^ hehe you didnt end up getting me to sit tho =P cos i be ninjaaaaa~ >] [yes other ppl reading this are probs like HOLY WTF?!?! fully freaked out xDDD wat you dont know wont hurt you ;P be afraid~ be very afraid xDD]

paranoia kicks in xDD lol hidng under steps. ppl stepping on your head ;P haha was scared i'd miss >< but i didnt...i think? >///< waaaaah heart racing~ :3 2nd, 3rd...4th? xDDD <3 and WAAAAAH sorry~!!! T_T i didnt know. i srsly thot it was the chats...shet shet shet i'm sorry T_T

dad came 5 mins later. >< waaah -phew- not cut so close next time hopefully.

used kev's phone to check on you. -sigh- shet i'm sorry.

tryi g to stick to green colour at dinner >< then ended up pigging out on fish >< stoopid gluttony...

then ate ferrero rocher after dinner. see? FAIL! T_T

weelay...<3 -hug- bes wishes =) and yes...i promise (Y)

*note: call ms ray later.

haha omg forgot to tell you on phone again. mistaaaaaaaaake~! must remember next time >]

waaah need to find place for all my keyrings to go ><

all for tonight =) loveyuguys~

<33 beedee

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p.s. it's spring<3

~<33 beedee



thanks everyone<3

Bday txts on the day (in order of receival ;P):

Steffu
Lenloe
Luke
Al (lol so long xDDD)
Tracey&Bex&Lauren&Steffu
Joey (FAIL you're almost last ;P xDDD)
Ant (via Joey's txt cos he's LAZY~! xDD)
Euni
as well as Daniel for calling xDDD on Elaine's phone ;P

& everyone who made fb posts ^^ (i'd write all your names up but i'm capped so loading everything would take too long ><)

naooo~

PRESSIES! :3 and the like xDD:

(more or less in order of receival xDDD)

Voodoo Doll from Bella =)
Whisper of the Heart DVD from Log and Al ^^
Gion Bunny Bag and Notepad from Elaine<3
Cupcakes and Paul Frank (SKY BLUEEEEE) Hoodie from Euni :3 (it's a bit big but meh xDDD <3 and also i only got to eat 2 of them =( )
Card, Lindt Box (haha bunny out of stock ;P) and 'Joey' from Joey xDDD
Pink Bag from Zac =)
Kirby-chan from Daniel (hehe he beat you to it >])
Ferrero Rocher Box of chocos from Matt (xDDDDD dw i dont think ur cheap...even if there was an identical box on the dining table ;P)
Butterfly photo stands and scented candle and 'stone' from Paul =)
THE card from Ant xDDDD (i read it out oooo wtchu gna do about it? >])
Card and Bath set from Maz<3 (BAHAHAHHA the brand's called BODY IMAGE!!)

and now...OMGZ the AWESOMEST hamper/basket full of the most AWESOMEST stuff ever!! ~

Pink ribbon with the Sweet 16th Banner<3 (it dusnt matter if the handprints aren't there =) it's just as awesome^^)
Chain of men/bracelet =)
Stationary bag: Mini letter set, clicky lead box, glue stick, puppy rubber (so cute!! >w<) 'Aiyaya' white devil keyring xDDD, Inuyasha<3kagome badge, Babu rubber, Fat miffy pen, Blue bear pen, mini sticky-tape, heart-cherry stickers, blue&purple&black nailpolish =)
Marble Pocky
Natural Confec Sour Squirms and Dinosaurs :3
Mars Bars
Giant Toblerone
Hello KItty Marshmallow Cones
Jap chocolate chip bikkies
GIIIIIAAAANNNTTTT lollipop (how the HELL am i gna finish it?! D;)
khaki arm warmers >] (i'm not gstar ><)
'spring' notebook =)
Deathnote 'Light' phonecharm
Punching glove keyring
bear in pink phonecharm
bear in blue phonecharm :3
Hello Kitty Milk Candy
Shoe phonecharm xDD
Gion bunny couple keyring :3
Thumbsup smiley keyring
HUMONJOUS Toriko bear "Fruit Yoghurt Jelly" + Coin box ^w^
Meiji Grape Chocolate xDD
PHoto album<33333
Blush POOF THINGO!! OMG THANKKYYYYOUUUU!<333
BYS Custom Colours eye shadow + 4 x refills =DDD
BeDtime Stories Book<3333 i love you guys so much!! -hug-
RAISUUUUU~ ;D (sorry i forgot you the first time D;)
and the BASKET!! xDD and the ribbon :3

omg yes. that's it i think. who from? :3 who else^^
i love you guys. my precious, beloved, awesome atoms<3333

yes!! now that i've listed everything I CAN EAT IT! crap i'm gna get so fat on this xDDDD and you cant deny it. LOOK AT THE FREAKING LIST! xDD <333 love you all! was the most awesome bday EVER!

sweet 16th 2009<333

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, friends, life, love

I was riding shotgun with my hair undone in the front seat of his car
He's got a one-hand feel on the steering wheel
The other on my heart
I look around, turn the radio down
He says baby is something wrong?
I say nothing I was just thinking how we don't have a song
And he says...

Our song is the slamming screen doors,
Sneakin' out late, tapping on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real slow
'cause it's late and your mama don't know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date "man, I didn't kiss her, and I should have"
And when I got home ... before I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again

I was walking up the front porch steps after everything that day
Had gone all wrong and been trampled on
And lost and thrown away
Got to the hallway, well on my way to my lovin' bed
I almost didn't notice all the roses
And the note that said...

Our song is the slamming screen doors,
Sneakin' out late, tapping on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real slow
'cause it's late and your mama don't know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date "man, I didn't kiss her, and I should have"
And when I got home ... before I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again

I've heard every album, listened to the radio
Waited for something to come along
That was as good as our song...

'Cause our song is the slamming screen door
Sneakin' out late, tapping on his window
When we're on the phone and he talks real slow
'Cause it's late and his mama don't know

Our song is the way he laughs
The first date man, I didn't kiss him and I should have
And when I got home, 'fore I said amen
Asking God if He could play it again
Play it again, oh, yeah, oh, oh, yeah


I was riding shotgun with my hair undone
In the front seat of his car
I grabbed a pen and an old napkin
And I wrote down our song

~<33 beedee

Labels: love

afternote for last night: thankyou raisu for being there for me =) you were a great source of...silent...support xDDD but srsly =) sorry for getting you wet...but you're soft against my face so i couldn't help it ><

woke up surprisingly easily today. yesh i realise its cos i just...flopped last night. had combined choir so had to get up at 6:45. no rage. so this is wat a quiet morning feels like. i'd quite forgotten...what it feels like. -sigh- but hadn't packed last night so had to quite stonedly get stuff. phoned celia, wasn't sure how long open day would go for. ah...till end of recess. -sigh- no bludging.

got the 7:22 yay. not late~ got on 200 so i could walk from nsg to nsb... then 144 nsb bus came right as i got on. shet. damn you >[

got up to nsb. was err...4th one to get there? yes being early is...amazing xDD

performing 'this little babe' today and 'this little babe' and 'sing and rejoice' on friday. fk i dont wanna miss legacy to rehearse carmina burana (i think thats spelt wrong) >[. will talk to mr donalod to see if i can go and leave early. screw him if i cant...i will >[

haha frank and short clarinet guy on the poster =). frekaing nsb so...pro-looking. them and their airbrushedposters xDDD gave paul his bball back. uhmmm why? O_O rly idm but...why? ehhhh? -confused-

practiced in hall. haha i fail without the sheet music. shet i dont know the words to this little babe xDDD just lalalala the tune then...lipsynch the words xDD haha fun being between vianna and sarah =)

walked back up to nsg for non-scripture. haha formal bakesale -shift- so not suss xDDD bought an oreo/hundreds and thousands cupcake from steph and sandra. they didn't have a dollar change for $2 >[ so i bought 2. meh wateva == not bothered to be...bothered.

scram people scramming. thanks weelay for listening. other 1 of 2 =) <3

didn't do much to help sorry guys. was...kinda out of it. even if you didn't notice =\ -sigh- bella sick =( get beta soon~

assembly. guest speakers. had to leave at the beginning of gen earth one. lol celia's phone is fast ;P walked back down to nsb. haha dodge back room in music room. BAHAHAHA i advertised our school to the open day ppl >] yes...come to NSG!! we have tartan >]

then went to quad next to hall and sat there for ages. me and vianna on a high: -points- "DUUUUUUUUUUUUUU-" -breahtes- "-UUUUUUUUUUUUUU" xDDD nathan barred me >[ lol ike = noob. funny seeing ppl i know. then went on a low. played with my chain of men again. haha made them do ease on down the road. -sigh-

hope the audience didn't notice me mouth get a little less wider when i forgot the words xDDDD anywayz. sounded alright from where i was =)

ms moulton hates me i think. =\ i cant help wanting to go to legacy~ D; damn donald >[ and damn unintended alliteration xDDD

back up to school. recess. saw nobody in atom =( wandered around. heard about...the list. not dont care...but...-sigh-

commerce. yay vid. -sigh- weight of it all made me fall asleep for the last-ish part. sent gl txt =) hope it made it in time. yur periods aren't in synch with mine damnit >< ahahahaha LOL! ...that was lame ><

lunchtime~. nobody was there. yay D&M with cath and shirley (earlier) and weelay. nxt tuesday (Y)

drama was interesting xDDD spacejump~ lol "ok! -starts moving- wait...18 mths..." "yes he can walk" xDDDD hmmm the thing's turnig out interesting. although xDDD yes i dont get how it 'empowers' people either ;P

geo. very stoned. fully out of it. the senior toilets were very smelly ><. took home the book to finish notes. i need to start doing work. even if it's one step at a time. -sigh- ah also took home the formal menu choices and tallies. *note: must bring back tomorrow~!!!

haha cath glomped m on the way out. walked together to st leos. talked more about D&M. -sigh- i'm worried. and pissed. and worried. FAR OUT! why can't you just see that it...isn't RIGHT?!?!

took train. claudz joined me after chats...its...belurgh talking to her about that.

walking home. stoned.

finally found house keys!! (in the laundry xDD)

-sigh-...so much foooooooodd~ then i think about sarah dieting >[ dmanit damnit!! paranoid formal dress won't fit now D;

paranoia...-sigh-

~<33 beedee

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