Just no copying^^. That's all =)
If you do, i'll make sure u don't again -blink-
Swearing = ok (Y) cos i do it too ><
All work is original except for song lyrics xP
I take no credit for those at all~








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ok so i freaked out a little ><

it's not as hard as i thought...but still hard T_T

...wait...WTF?!

i didnt just say that T_T

sorry for making a big bang out of an...atom?

wait...big bang WAS from an atom-ish thingo...

shuddup bec ==

~<33 beedee

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i'm falling into a bottomless pit, a dark abyss of nothingness.

i can't breathe. it's suffocating.

there is no relief. there is no end.

doomed to keep falling...falling...falling...

until you can fall no more.

until i myself crumble.

~<33 beedee

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i told you to go....and yet my heart's aching without you here.
i don't need you to do anything...just you being here would put my heart at rest.
i feel restless, nervous. i can't think straight.
you say i calm you down, well you have that same effect on me.
but i can't be that selfish. i can't just go calling for you whenever.
you've had to put up with me enough...i wont make you do it anymore than you insist.

fml i'm freaking out.

-screams-

I CAN'T THINK!

SAVE ME~!!!

where are you...

i need you here...

-dies-

~<33 beedee

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i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail i dont wanna fail...

fck my life T_T

~<33 beedee

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too busy

will post later.

gl studying everyone

fk maths, hist and geo >[

~<33 beedee

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i suddenly feel so oblivious to everything.
like...i havn't seen anything at all.
i'm all caught up in my bubble world (yes i'm gonna use that ref...but not for that)
i onli just realised how good i have it.
how fked up some people have it.
and how lucky i am.

goodluck -cheeringsign-
rooting for you =)

go beat the dipshits up (Y)

and dont give up. ever.

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, life

lawl slept with only the bottom on >///<

woke up at 1:30pm

Didn't get up till...2-ish

char siu bao haha. Mi goreng for lunch :3 woops mum and dad came back while i was cooking. meh. yayyy~ chicken :3

shettt...your mum rage =\ (haha that sounds like a your mum joke)

nts: kill nathan nxt time you see him xDDD frekaing fb >[

lawl your dad is epic fail xD

'researching' lol...

heeehee ^w^ beach :3 cant wait~

napped at 9:30. overslept sorry =(

had snow mooncake ^w^ ecstastical xDDDD strawberry filling is <33

oh yeah...fml...i shud be studying >< havn't done shit today... err commerce yearly...tomorrow...FIRST PERIOD! FKING GG BEC~! ><

~<33 beedee

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thankyou<33

waaaah you fell over >[ haha spooning xDDD and yeah...2 ><
oh yeah. rolling off, me: 0, you: 2 ;P ehehehehe
Flopsy's retarded voice xP



~<33 beedee

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phoned till...3? i dont remember xDD

woke up at 2pm >< shush...

had mi goreng for lunch :3

i dont remember wat i was doing but i didnt end up getting any work done at all xDD meh.

haha felt like plaits...i look like an overgrown brat xD

DAD AND MUM ARE SUCH...DOOSHES!! xD >< showing them formal photos and all they can ask about is >[ yeah...wtf. joshua LOL! SOCKS WTF?! THEY'RE NOT HISSSSS! ==;; "YOU WENT THERE~!" xDDDD WAT THE FUCK!? xD

ahahaha matty's video 'photo' bomb. fking lol. low piano note on the fall xDDD

haha yeah it cant be coincidence anymore<33 -opensscreen- -walksindoor- :3

nosebleed D; WHEN THEY SEE YOUR MUM! xP lawl formal tissues >< woops ^^;;

wakeup call at 1.

let's go~! =D

~<33 beedee

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btw...noob, dont stalk me to my bed >< waaaaah ><

~<33 beedee



omfg.omfg.omfg.

hi =D

oh btw, happy bday for 9:30 doosh xP matty you're a loser (ref fb) xDD srry to make you worry phil =( <3

hahahaha i didnt get cut last night :3 too bad cam was screwed up tho >[ mudcake mix is YUMMMMMYYYYY~ :3 i love licking off the spoon xDD and damnit...stop staying up you hobo D= fked the last unit of global issues -dies-

went to sleep at 4:30....i tihnk?

was gna wake up at 6 to get studying in but... haha you guessed it == why do i fail so bad T_T mum raged at me for making a cake xD meh.

forgot that we had to get to the exam earlier, so i thought -phew- just made the 20. then got to school and went to the room...everyone was already sitting down reading through the paper. well fml T_T

so anywayz english yearly was first. ahhyeeeesh, i think i screwed up heaps of the asnwers for multiple choice >< lawl the last section in stimulus booklet was missing "does that mean we don't have to do it? =D" lol yeah we wish. my speech was like...wtf xD and then my story is like...a 5 yr old writing. xDD meh. this is what i get for being a bludger.

Recess, put the cake in the staff common. LOL seeto was there making coffee or something. when i asked to put something inthe fridge she was like WTF?! go away. xDDD but meh. she's cool enough. chilled at recess...

3rd period science. we had...foley!!! lol sub. she didnt come for like...half the period. so we just bummed outside. haha me celia and lenloe wer discussing notes. celia had pretty hair today :3 (altho its always awesome^^) itwas a quiff~ like a POOF! xDD anywayz. foley came. and we gotprivate study time. i looked over jassy's notes for yr 9 science (THANKYOUUUU JASSY~<33 YOU'RE A LIFESAVER!!) and my own dodgy ones. tf i swear i take too many notes. they're almost as long as thetxtbook i swear ><...well maybe. meh.

lunchtime i wanted to go D2 to study but there was ppls in there. aish fkit jsut went outside. twas rly loud >< aishhh...sorry everyone for rejecting myself. everyone was talking actively...like active studying. i was being a...a...errr...dont know the word xD

ah thankyouu<3 onli read the txt just then, but thankyouu for gl txt<3333

went with lenloe early to D2. Melky was supervising us. we helped set up. and iw as mass cramming notes xDDD aishhh i think i fked it up. and also i was falling asleep in it too xDDD my head was wobbling like usual xDDDD meh. i got stuck on the stoopid P Q stimulus booklet part a thingo. it was confusing @_@ stoopid short-answers...wats a radioactive reaction or blah~ >< haha natural resource? -mindblank-. i onli got the def of enhanced greenhouse gases for the extended response fml T_T lol gg icarus. you dont make wings out of wax ==;;

finished. everyone went crazy xDDD went to the bathroom and ppl were like OMFG~! HOW'D YOU GO?! went to staff common to get the cake >< thankyouu nayo for moisturiser >< face is chat after no enugh sleep. i hate eczema >[

YAYAYYYYYYY~! finished. started walking to ns station. haha carumen-chan caught up :3 jassy also came. soz lenloe for making u wait for nothing =( nts: i owe jassy $3 for train ticket<33 thankyou jassy. lawl totoro and sootball are...representative?

got to ns. just missed train aish. LOL fail ike. you didnt pat head ;P got on train on the other platform. me, jassy, carumen-chan, stella and du =) haha i was so high xDDDDDD think it was the stress relief. lawl we scared du away xDD we were talking abouts crazy ideas for yearlies and stuffs. something about bella and giant...something moths in yr 7 xDD lol haha quote me: "nah not rly, it's (my hair) kinky inside, where u cant see it" carumen-chan: "just like begugugu" LAWL WTH xDDD...well...i dno...it cud be true -shift- YEAH~! MOVING ON! xDD

missed ur call sowwee =( haha i got there and felt uber shifty. hiding behind pole xD altho i'm too fat to fit behind it xD :3 started walking and LOL bumped into phil and claudz WHO WALKED FROM TOWN HALL WTH?! haha nub. we went up the hill on the right at the park. haha he's ga kill me. ah hi to Ant and Matt too =) bahahaha chasing around the park. not fair, my hair came out xP the knife was dirty :3 failcake lol. b2 in public...? lol meh? xDD yeah i was super high xDDDD heehee~ FATASSSSSSSS~!! xDDDD hope you like him :3 BAH! i FAIL! T__________T i give u it nxt time sorry T_T

went to on ramen for takoyaki :3 wah i dropped octopus T_T push push~ (time ;P)

waaaaah she guessed~ she guessed~ >< hope she's not suss...=\

pizza for dinner lawl. cheeseburstlove<3 haha fatasssss is so round and...ball-y xDD super tired =\ sorry for falling asleep on u T_T latenight phonecall<33

~<33 beedee

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fk i went online

~<33 beedee

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its too much...

i cant take it anymore

make it stop

go away...

yeah i should be studying. welcome to my fked up life. i'm blogging on the night before yearlies ==

-megasigh- i'm both physically and emotionally exhausted. 2hrs of sleep per night average this whole week (Y) yeah fml

flopped on the bed at 4:30 and intended to get up at 5. fml as usual...

mum walked in at 7:15 and saw me asleep still in uniform on top of the bed. raggeeee~ aish screw it. showered before getting out. i never seem to do shet anymore. i dont even bother packing at night. f.m.l.

mum drove<3 thankyouuu~ it's depressing that just a sprint across the road, up and down the stairs and into the train got me major puffed out. unfit i tell you T_T uneventful train ride.

at st leos and saw toni and nayo. got on bus with them. haha thanks for noticing nayo but rly it's nothing =) me being out of it...kinda...><

IPT HSC todays...saw weelay, carumen-chan and bella at the lights across the road. haha at least they didnt seem to be too down =) wished them good luck^^ BAHAHAHA "should we go?" "nah...lauren's still there" xP nicenice.

englishuuuu first pd. sat with celia again<3 haha did 2006 pass papers. >< fml i fell asleep while doing the pass paper. and i was sitting 2 seats away from seeto >< but even with my fked up concentration onli got 3 multiple choice (or as miss seeto called it multi-choice xD) rong. haha somewhat reassuring. just need to revise txt types now =\

science had private study. lawl bombarded my k with questions - thanks for putting up with me >< fking hell thank god dont need senses or materials topics -phew- but ended up just reading off celia's notes for the priod so didnt get any of my own notes done == gg bec...haha horsts and grabens ;P yesh celia, ugly words xP

bell rang for daily notices and ran down to office. lawl i think i sounded noob on the PA xP

so went to gym at recess to wait for ppl to come for D2MG registration forms...fml only one came T_T omg...its fun ppl!! esp with El<3 bummed in quad for a while...?i dont remember ><

jap. met MIZOSHIRI sensei (age 26, not jap btw ;P)...wat.a.btch == its so ironic that the first names new teachers learn and the people they keep asking for class discussion questions are the ppl they start hating at the beginning. well suck btch i can talk =P altho...hostilities aside, she's extra pro...like PRO man...in jap i mean. altho her private school attitude is == fking hell she bagged out majo-chan's manicure nails. THEY'RE AWESOME so go...climb a tree xP oh and her trying to act cute...-pukes- nts: do self-intro tonight...dont wanna be pissing her off anymore ==

lunchtimeee~ ipt ppl done :3 everyone seemed so high xDD aish...sorry for being down. thankyouu carumen-chan and weelay and shirley and cath<3 haha steph, steffu and ariel for sandwiching, along with mao, and then carumen-chan and caitlin sandwiched me. waaaah >< stoopid tickles xP also got raped by carumen-chan and bella >< but thanks for trying to cheer me up guys <3

maths. did more pass papers. haha was falling asleep again. was surprised ms V didnt rage at me. didnt do shet == iam so fked for maths T______________T lol according to celia i was swaying on the spot xP i wish i sat at the back...its embarassing ><

commerce last pd. pseuad. private study. was trying very hard to focus but their group discussion at the back was so annoyingly loud >< fml... then mr mac came in and asked us to help him dump stuffs...wth? xDD but meh. got back and tried to block out all the noise >< fml... Log idolises kathy (Y) its like...so obvious that its...disturbing. aishh...wateva. go away >< oh and phil<33 loveyou =) ganbarimasuu~!! -hug- thanks for the encouragement. and yesh i'll try to sleep tonight >< and thanks to ness too :3

walked to station. just got there same time as 687. thanks al and wheeza and alice and claire for waiting<3 waaaaaaah was skipping to the green pedestrian light and almost got run over. fml...i'm not THAT out of it am i? D;

bought frosting :3 vanilla^^

lawl studying with alice is such a put-down. she's like...freaking einstein on EVERY topic possible. aish so smart T_T gimme ur notes~!! >] haha jksjks. me and al and claire and wheeza are like O_O~!! T_T haha but srsly...who needs the dates!! ;P alice: i swear it was 1863...-flips pages- 1865. shit." aish...==

got mum to pick me up. major pigging out - choco donut, magnum mini and...somethig i dont remember xD

showered cos i neededto wash hair. mums telling me to sleep but i got too much shet to do >< appearing offline on msn for now =\

oh one last thing.

joey and jacky, happy bday you hobo brothers xP...<3
hope you had fun this arvo =)

CRAM CRAM CRAM CRAAAAAAAMM~!!

~<33 beedee

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thanks weelay<3

~<33 beedee

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...
i can't concentrate.
thoughts are running through my mind at 1000miles per hour.



i'm tearing him away from everyone else.
why didn't i realise before.
i've got no right to horde him.
i only deserve a small piece of that heart.
give him his life back, you stoopid btch.
let other people have him back.
you idiot. you FKING idiot.


~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions

oh and to anyone out there:

GOOD LUCK FOR EXAMS~!

Labels: school, stress

btw i'm gna try catch up...but probs after friday =\

OH! before i say anything else:

Happy Ten Weeks<33

ifly doosh >w<

~<33 beedee

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aish...1st real entry in...fml i dno ><

ok...imma try this again.

i can do this...i can-

shutup bec ==

Slept at 4:45 in the morning, set alarm for 5:30. guess what? yup. slept thru it. fml T_T i fail~

woke up at 7:30. i <3 my bed too much...so i lay in it for like ages till i heard mum coming to rage at me. i heard her footsteps coming and leapt out xDD -mum bursts through door- -me: shiftily brushing hair-

mum drove kevin - left without me meh. so used to it now. running a bit late cos i hadnt packed anything or done shit to prepare (freaking retainers...clean urselves damnit ==) so only had a glass of milk then went.

omfg bag weighed like...a tonne! i swear...(and this is ME talking...compared to my normal standards ><;;) running along pacific hwy looking like a turtle >< ppl like WTF?! gargh! bag unzipped while i was running...pumas almost fell out T_T

just made it for the 20 train. SHOCK! i'm not gna be late on a wed!! -phew- no more guilt trip with ms v ><

met al on train at lindfield. ahahaha we major vented about...yeah. aish needed to let it out >< thanks for listening/sharing<33 it's good to now i'm not the only one who thinks this way...i feel like such a btch XC but it was rly somewhat relieving<3 loveyou al^^

got to school and saw non-ipters (aka cath, bella shirley, jassy wasnt there ><) and steffu and lenloe. lenloe was in school uniform....? eh O_O confused~ (IPT ppl had study day off)

maths: LOL ms V was late...like...SHOCK! =O xDD jks. Tong had ipt. celia alone as well...we be company =D gargh pass papers...marks/minute, using reading time. im so fked for maths. ONE WEEK TILL THE YEARLY FML!!

Science. 18 ppl in class waaaw. the tables got rearranged =O meh. sat with celia<33 we went over a passpaper on projector. ahaha fk i fell asleep >< not boring or anything...i just suck XC aish...surprised mr k didnt rage. slept through notices CRAP! couldnt make D2MG announcemet shet! >< SORRY STEFFU~!! D=

Recess. went to check gym for D2MGers (steffu put announcement in daily notices) but yr 8(?) drama performances or something...aish...crap? will do 2moz >< WAAAH so hot >< sat outside gym.

PE. lol so cbfed. Linda and Nayo only 2 ppl in their group presenting =( sorry guys...we made it hard =( HAHA! me and celia = a 'pear' xP i'm so lameee~ touch footy kinda game. haha i fail at footy xP talking with celia about stuffs. bday pressie...? >< sheeshhh...why's so hard T_T crisscross game, hahahaha we just ended up knocking all the cones over when we 'touched' them. AHAHA they brought out the bases and we started talking about THOSE bases xP i explained to celia...i think it creeped her out xDD i sat down on home base cos i was cbfed...haha yeah thats right btches i'm on HOME BASE! xP jksjks...still xP Sat on rolled up matt with Celia xD

yr 10 Vocal at lunch, LOL onli 3 ppl - me, celia and stella =) miss cleggie went walkabout before xP 'too hot to samba' lol i've forgotten my part xP cant sing alone >[ haha fk my man voice is breaking >< shet...realised halfway through that i forgot my phone and book during pe. so ran back to gym to get and just as i found it, cath was calling me xDD lol nicetiming? ;P txt from doosh :3

Fight on together~ <3

Sang "if i fell again" (beatles) :3 then haha jammed out with ms cleggie to "gotta get you into my life" also by beatles =) was cool song >] "i've got the music in me~" crap...stuck in my head ><

English with Seeto. BAAHAHAHAHA World Pole-dancing Championships on Youtube. Seeto such a legend xP but that chick was SO freaking FIT! freaky... like...its like TANK PORN!! >] xDDDD Narrative writing. haha mine on woman assasin 8) LOLOLOL class brainstorming - Adjective: Sexy. Noun: Pole. Verb: Dancing xDDDD

English with Mattick - revised txt types. Thanks Celia for keeping me company today<33

nts: need to buy vanilla/chocolate frosting from coles 8)

went to chats to quickly shop. AISH! morning glory sale stall didnt accept my card >[ be that way xP $3 for a box...aishh == oh wells. i'm despo (Y)

SO FKING HOT ON THE TRAIN! >< walked home. DOGSHIT ON THE PATH!!! -avoids- ><

haha so suss...hopefully mum dusnt figure it out 8) yayy mum got okonomiyaki for arvo tea :3 and chocolate donuts!!! =D

ok wat am i doing. i shud be studying. yeah see wat a fail? >< fking hell gg bec ==

hopefully someone's still reading this...probs not ==

~<33 beedee

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fml...this place is shameful T_T

wtf am i doing...

oh woops...the answer to that: [you] ;P

ok sorry...i'll be serious.

i've pretty much fked up this place T_T

forgive me.

iloveyou Eleven Undone Flies<3

iloveyou<3 you know who you are

forgive me.

i'll try harder.

give me strength~

~<33 beedee

p.s. i'll catch up. i've got a starting point at least ><

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ok so i freaked out a little ><

it's not as hard as i thought...but still hard T_T

...wait...WTF?!

i didnt just say that T_T

sorry for making a big bang out of an...atom?

wait...big bang WAS from an atom-ish thingo...

shuddup bec ==

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, stress

i'm falling into a bottomless pit, a dark abyss of nothingness.

i can't breathe. it's suffocating.

there is no relief. there is no end.

doomed to keep falling...falling...falling...

until you can fall no more.

until i myself crumble.

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, stress

i told you to go....and yet my heart's aching without you here.
i don't need you to do anything...just you being here would put my heart at rest.
i feel restless, nervous. i can't think straight.
you say i calm you down, well you have that same effect on me.
but i can't be that selfish. i can't just go calling for you whenever.
you've had to put up with me enough...i wont make you do it anymore than you insist.

fml i'm freaking out.

-screams-

I CAN'T THINK!

SAVE ME~!!!

where are you...

i need you here...

-dies-

~<33 beedee

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fck my life T_T

~<33 beedee

Labels: fail, school, stress

too busy

will post later.

gl studying everyone

fk maths, hist and geo >[

~<33 beedee

Labels: stress

i suddenly feel so oblivious to everything.
like...i havn't seen anything at all.
i'm all caught up in my bubble world (yes i'm gonna use that ref...but not for that)
i onli just realised how good i have it.
how fked up some people have it.
and how lucky i am.

goodluck -cheeringsign-
rooting for you =)

go beat the dipshits up (Y)

and dont give up. ever.

~<33 beedee

Labels: emotions, life

lawl slept with only the bottom on >///<

woke up at 1:30pm

Didn't get up till...2-ish

char siu bao haha. Mi goreng for lunch :3 woops mum and dad came back while i was cooking. meh. yayyy~ chicken :3

shettt...your mum rage =\ (haha that sounds like a your mum joke)

nts: kill nathan nxt time you see him xDDD frekaing fb >[

lawl your dad is epic fail xD

'researching' lol...

heeehee ^w^ beach :3 cant wait~

napped at 9:30. overslept sorry =(

had snow mooncake ^w^ ecstastical xDDDD strawberry filling is <33

oh yeah...fml...i shud be studying >< havn't done shit today... err commerce yearly...tomorrow...FIRST PERIOD! FKING GG BEC~! ><

~<33 beedee

Labels: fail, life, love, stress

thankyou<33

waaaah you fell over >[ haha spooning xDDD and yeah...2 ><
oh yeah. rolling off, me: 0, you: 2 ;P ehehehehe
Flopsy's retarded voice xP



~<33 beedee

Labels: love

phoned till...3? i dont remember xDD

woke up at 2pm >< shush...

had mi goreng for lunch :3

i dont remember wat i was doing but i didnt end up getting any work done at all xDD meh.

haha felt like plaits...i look like an overgrown brat xD

DAD AND MUM ARE SUCH...DOOSHES!! xD >< showing them formal photos and all they can ask about is >[ yeah...wtf. joshua LOL! SOCKS WTF?! THEY'RE NOT HISSSSS! ==;; "YOU WENT THERE~!" xDDDD WAT THE FUCK!? xD

ahahaha matty's video 'photo' bomb. fking lol. low piano note on the fall xDDD

haha yeah it cant be coincidence anymore<33 -opensscreen- -walksindoor- :3

nosebleed D; WHEN THEY SEE YOUR MUM! xP lawl formal tissues >< woops ^^;;

wakeup call at 1.

let's go~! =D

~<33 beedee

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btw...noob, dont stalk me to my bed >< waaaaah ><

~<33 beedee



omfg.omfg.omfg.

hi =D

oh btw, happy bday for 9:30 doosh xP matty you're a loser (ref fb) xDD srry to make you worry phil =( <3

hahahaha i didnt get cut last night :3 too bad cam was screwed up tho >[ mudcake mix is YUMMMMMYYYYY~ :3 i love licking off the spoon xDD and damnit...stop staying up you hobo D= fked the last unit of global issues -dies-

went to sleep at 4:30....i tihnk?

was gna wake up at 6 to get studying in but... haha you guessed it == why do i fail so bad T_T mum raged at me for making a cake xD meh.

forgot that we had to get to the exam earlier, so i thought -phew- just made the 20. then got to school and went to the room...everyone was already sitting down reading through the paper. well fml T_T

so anywayz english yearly was first. ahhyeeeesh, i think i screwed up heaps of the asnwers for multiple choice >< lawl the last section in stimulus booklet was missing "does that mean we don't have to do it? =D" lol yeah we wish. my speech was like...wtf xD and then my story is like...a 5 yr old writing. xDD meh. this is what i get for being a bludger.

Recess, put the cake in the staff common. LOL seeto was there making coffee or something. when i asked to put something inthe fridge she was like WTF?! go away. xDDD but meh. she's cool enough. chilled at recess...

3rd period science. we had...foley!!! lol sub. she didnt come for like...half the period. so we just bummed outside. haha me celia and lenloe wer discussing notes. celia had pretty hair today :3 (altho its always awesome^^) itwas a quiff~ like a POOF! xDD anywayz. foley came. and we gotprivate study time. i looked over jassy's notes for yr 9 science (THANKYOUUUU JASSY~<33 YOU'RE A LIFESAVER!!) and my own dodgy ones. tf i swear i take too many notes. they're almost as long as thetxtbook i swear ><...well maybe. meh.

lunchtime i wanted to go D2 to study but there was ppls in there. aish fkit jsut went outside. twas rly loud >< aishhh...sorry everyone for rejecting myself. everyone was talking actively...like active studying. i was being a...a...errr...dont know the word xD

ah thankyouu<3 onli read the txt just then, but thankyouu for gl txt<3333

went with lenloe early to D2. Melky was supervising us. we helped set up. and iw as mass cramming notes xDDD aishhh i think i fked it up. and also i was falling asleep in it too xDDD my head was wobbling like usual xDDDD meh. i got stuck on the stoopid P Q stimulus booklet part a thingo. it was confusing @_@ stoopid short-answers...wats a radioactive reaction or blah~ >< haha natural resource? -mindblank-. i onli got the def of enhanced greenhouse gases for the extended response fml T_T lol gg icarus. you dont make wings out of wax ==;;

finished. everyone went crazy xDDD went to the bathroom and ppl were like OMFG~! HOW'D YOU GO?! went to staff common to get the cake >< thankyouu nayo for moisturiser >< face is chat after no enugh sleep. i hate eczema >[

YAYAYYYYYYY~! finished. started walking to ns station. haha carumen-chan caught up :3 jassy also came. soz lenloe for making u wait for nothing =( nts: i owe jassy $3 for train ticket<33 thankyou jassy. lawl totoro and sootball are...representative?

got to ns. just missed train aish. LOL fail ike. you didnt pat head ;P got on train on the other platform. me, jassy, carumen-chan, stella and du =) haha i was so high xDDDDDD think it was the stress relief. lawl we scared du away xDD we were talking abouts crazy ideas for yearlies and stuffs. something about bella and giant...something moths in yr 7 xDD lol haha quote me: "nah not rly, it's (my hair) kinky inside, where u cant see it" carumen-chan: "just like begugugu" LAWL WTH xDDD...well...i dno...it cud be true -shift- YEAH~! MOVING ON! xDD

missed ur call sowwee =( haha i got there and felt uber shifty. hiding behind pole xD altho i'm too fat to fit behind it xD :3 started walking and LOL bumped into phil and claudz WHO WALKED FROM TOWN HALL WTH?! haha nub. we went up the hill on the right at the park. haha he's ga kill me. ah hi to Ant and Matt too =) bahahaha chasing around the park. not fair, my hair came out xP the knife was dirty :3 failcake lol. b2 in public...? lol meh? xDD yeah i was super high xDDDD heehee~ FATASSSSSSSS~!! xDDDD hope you like him :3 BAH! i FAIL! T__________T i give u it nxt time sorry T_T

went to on ramen for takoyaki :3 wah i dropped octopus T_T push push~ (time ;P)

waaaaah she guessed~ she guessed~ >< hope she's not suss...=\

pizza for dinner lawl. cheeseburstlove<3 haha fatasssss is so round and...ball-y xDD super tired =\ sorry for falling asleep on u T_T latenight phonecall<33

~<33 beedee

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fk i went online

~<33 beedee

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its too much...

i cant take it anymore

make it stop

go away...

yeah i should be studying. welcome to my fked up life. i'm blogging on the night before yearlies ==

-megasigh- i'm both physically and emotionally exhausted. 2hrs of sleep per night average this whole week (Y) yeah fml

flopped on the bed at 4:30 and intended to get up at 5. fml as usual...

mum walked in at 7:15 and saw me asleep still in uniform on top of the bed. raggeeee~ aish screw it. showered before getting out. i never seem to do shet anymore. i dont even bother packing at night. f.m.l.

mum drove<3 thankyouuu~ it's depressing that just a sprint across the road, up and down the stairs and into the train got me major puffed out. unfit i tell you T_T uneventful train ride.

at st leos and saw toni and nayo. got on bus with them. haha thanks for noticing nayo but rly it's nothing =) me being out of it...kinda...><

IPT HSC todays...saw weelay, carumen-chan and bella at the lights across the road. haha at least they didnt seem to be too down =) wished them good luck^^ BAHAHAHA "should we go?" "nah...lauren's still there" xP nicenice.

englishuuuu first pd. sat with celia again<3 haha did 2006 pass papers. >< fml i fell asleep while doing the pass paper. and i was sitting 2 seats away from seeto >< but even with my fked up concentration onli got 3 multiple choice (or as miss seeto called it multi-choice xD) rong. haha somewhat reassuring. just need to revise txt types now =\

science had private study. lawl bombarded my k with questions - thanks for putting up with me >< fking hell thank god dont need senses or materials topics -phew- but ended up just reading off celia's notes for the priod so didnt get any of my own notes done == gg bec...haha horsts and grabens ;P yesh celia, ugly words xP

bell rang for daily notices and ran down to office. lawl i think i sounded noob on the PA xP

so went to gym at recess to wait for ppl to come for D2MG registration forms...fml only one came T_T omg...its fun ppl!! esp with El<3 bummed in quad for a while...?i dont remember ><

jap. met MIZOSHIRI sensei (age 26, not jap btw ;P)...wat.a.btch == its so ironic that the first names new teachers learn and the people they keep asking for class discussion questions are the ppl they start hating at the beginning. well suck btch i can talk =P altho...hostilities aside, she's extra pro...like PRO man...in jap i mean. altho her private school attitude is == fking hell she bagged out majo-chan's manicure nails. THEY'RE AWESOME so go...climb a tree xP oh and her trying to act cute...-pukes- nts: do self-intro tonight...dont wanna be pissing her off anymore ==

lunchtimeee~ ipt ppl done :3 everyone seemed so high xDD aish...sorry for being down. thankyouu carumen-chan and weelay and shirley and cath<3 haha steph, steffu and ariel for sandwiching, along with mao, and then carumen-chan and caitlin sandwiched me. waaaah >< stoopid tickles xP also got raped by carumen-chan and bella >< but thanks for trying to cheer me up guys <3

maths. did more pass papers. haha was falling asleep again. was surprised ms V didnt rage at me. didnt do shet == iam so fked for maths T______________T lol according to celia i was swaying on the spot xP i wish i sat at the back...its embarassing ><

commerce last pd. pseuad. private study. was trying very hard to focus but their group discussion at the back was so annoyingly loud >< fml... then mr mac came in and asked us to help him dump stuffs...wth? xDD but meh. got back and tried to block out all the noise >< fml... Log idolises kathy (Y) its like...so obvious that its...disturbing. aishh...wateva. go away >< oh and phil<33 loveyou =) ganbarimasuu~!! -hug- thanks for the encouragement. and yesh i'll try to sleep tonight >< and thanks to ness too :3

walked to station. just got there same time as 687. thanks al and wheeza and alice and claire for waiting<3 waaaaaaah was skipping to the green pedestrian light and almost got run over. fml...i'm not THAT out of it am i? D;

bought frosting :3 vanilla^^

lawl studying with alice is such a put-down. she's like...freaking einstein on EVERY topic possible. aish so smart T_T gimme ur notes~!! >] haha jksjks. me and al and claire and wheeza are like O_O~!! T_T haha but srsly...who needs the dates!! ;P alice: i swear it was 1863...-flips pages- 1865. shit." aish...==

got mum to pick me up. major pigging out - choco donut, magnum mini and...somethig i dont remember xD

showered cos i neededto wash hair. mums telling me to sleep but i got too much shet to do >< appearing offline on msn for now =\

oh one last thing.

joey and jacky, happy bday you hobo brothers xP...<3
hope you had fun this arvo =)

CRAM CRAM CRAM CRAAAAAAAMM~!!

~<33 beedee

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thanks weelay<3

~<33 beedee

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...
i can't concentrate.
thoughts are running through my mind at 1000miles per hour.



i'm tearing him away from everyone else.
why didn't i realise before.
i've got no right to horde him.
i only deserve a small piece of that heart.
give him his life back, you stoopid btch.
let other people have him back.
you idiot. you FKING idiot.


~<33 beedee

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oh and to anyone out there:

GOOD LUCK FOR EXAMS~!

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btw i'm gna try catch up...but probs after friday =\

OH! before i say anything else:

Happy Ten Weeks<33

ifly doosh >w<

~<33 beedee

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aish...1st real entry in...fml i dno ><

ok...imma try this again.

i can do this...i can-

shutup bec ==

Slept at 4:45 in the morning, set alarm for 5:30. guess what? yup. slept thru it. fml T_T i fail~

woke up at 7:30. i <3 my bed too much...so i lay in it for like ages till i heard mum coming to rage at me. i heard her footsteps coming and leapt out xDD -mum bursts through door- -me: shiftily brushing hair-

mum drove kevin - left without me meh. so used to it now. running a bit late cos i hadnt packed anything or done shit to prepare (freaking retainers...clean urselves damnit ==) so only had a glass of milk then went.

omfg bag weighed like...a tonne! i swear...(and this is ME talking...compared to my normal standards ><;;) running along pacific hwy looking like a turtle >< ppl like WTF?! gargh! bag unzipped while i was running...pumas almost fell out T_T

just made it for the 20 train. SHOCK! i'm not gna be late on a wed!! -phew- no more guilt trip with ms v ><

met al on train at lindfield. ahahaha we major vented about...yeah. aish needed to let it out >< thanks for listening/sharing<33 it's good to now i'm not the only one who thinks this way...i feel like such a btch XC but it was rly somewhat relieving<3 loveyou al^^

got to school and saw non-ipters (aka cath, bella shirley, jassy wasnt there ><) and steffu and lenloe. lenloe was in school uniform....? eh O_O confused~ (IPT ppl had study day off)

maths: LOL ms V was late...like...SHOCK! =O xDD jks. Tong had ipt. celia alone as well...we be company =D gargh pass papers...marks/minute, using reading time. im so fked for maths. ONE WEEK TILL THE YEARLY FML!!

Science. 18 ppl in class waaaw. the tables got rearranged =O meh. sat with celia<33 we went over a passpaper on projector. ahaha fk i fell asleep >< not boring or anything...i just suck XC aish...surprised mr k didnt rage. slept through notices CRAP! couldnt make D2MG announcemet shet! >< SORRY STEFFU~!! D=

Recess. went to check gym for D2MGers (steffu put announcement in daily notices) but yr 8(?) drama performances or something...aish...crap? will do 2moz >< WAAAH so hot >< sat outside gym.

PE. lol so cbfed. Linda and Nayo only 2 ppl in their group presenting =( sorry guys...we made it hard =( HAHA! me and celia = a 'pear' xP i'm so lameee~ touch footy kinda game. haha i fail at footy xP talking with celia about stuffs. bday pressie...? >< sheeshhh...why's so hard T_T crisscross game, hahahaha we just ended up knocking all the cones over when we 'touched' them. AHAHA they brought out the bases and we started talking about THOSE bases xP i explained to celia...i think it creeped her out xDD i sat down on home base cos i was cbfed...haha yeah thats right btches i'm on HOME BASE! xP jksjks...still xP Sat on rolled up matt with Celia xD

yr 10 Vocal at lunch, LOL onli 3 ppl - me, celia and stella =) miss cleggie went walkabout before xP 'too hot to samba' lol i've forgotten my part xP cant sing alone >[ haha fk my man voice is breaking >< shet...realised halfway through that i forgot my phone and book during pe. so ran back to gym to get and just as i found it, cath was calling me xDD lol nicetiming? ;P txt from doosh :3

Fight on together~ <3

Sang "if i fell again" (beatles) :3 then haha jammed out with ms cleggie to "gotta get you into my life" also by beatles =) was cool song >] "i've got the music in me~" crap...stuck in my head ><

English with Seeto. BAAHAHAHAHA World Pole-dancing Championships on Youtube. Seeto such a legend xP but that chick was SO freaking FIT! freaky... like...its like TANK PORN!! >] xDDDD Narrative writing. haha mine on woman assasin 8) LOLOLOL class brainstorming - Adjective: Sexy. Noun: Pole. Verb: Dancing xDDDD

English with Mattick - revised txt types. Thanks Celia for keeping me company today<33

nts: need to buy vanilla/chocolate frosting from coles 8)

went to chats to quickly shop. AISH! morning glory sale stall didnt accept my card >[ be that way xP $3 for a box...aishh == oh wells. i'm despo (Y)

SO FKING HOT ON THE TRAIN! >< walked home. DOGSHIT ON THE PATH!!! -avoids- ><

haha so suss...hopefully mum dusnt figure it out 8) yayy mum got okonomiyaki for arvo tea :3 and chocolate donuts!!! =D

ok wat am i doing. i shud be studying. yeah see wat a fail? >< fking hell gg bec ==

hopefully someone's still reading this...probs not ==

~<33 beedee

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fml...this place is shameful T_T

wtf am i doing...

oh woops...the answer to that: [you] ;P

ok sorry...i'll be serious.

i've pretty much fked up this place T_T

forgive me.

iloveyou Eleven Undone Flies<3

iloveyou<3 you know who you are

forgive me.

i'll try harder.

give me strength~

~<33 beedee

p.s. i'll catch up. i've got a starting point at least ><

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